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As far as I can say, maybe a distant dream-fragment but it's too blurry so it could actually be a thought that I had when I woke up.

Zero!

Second night of zero recall, I guess it's stil because of the DEILD Alarm that fragments my sleep and hopefully I'll somehow adjust soon.

I decided to start my DEILD alarm, after six months of using a single alarm and thus having one long uninterupted night of sleep my body needs to get used to the split up sleep shedule I'll use for LDing. This meant that I'm almost completely certain that last night I did't have any REM-cycles and also no dreams.

I woke up with zero DR so there's not much else to be said.

As the title says, I got a normal rest this night but I woke up with little to no dream-recall.

I really don't have a lot to say in this one, for several reasons, of which I don't know any I just couldn't sleep last night. I think I finally fell away around 05:20 but I had to get up at 06:45 which simply isn't enough sleep to have any real REM-cycles at all.
REM-deprivation is horrible and next day I could barely keep my eyes open but hey, the less you slept the night before the more you'll sleep now...

Again a difficult night, I decided to make sure I still get a minimum dose of good sleep instead of fragmentation.

Getting used to the school routine and waking up early causes me to have trouble falling asleep and thus making it impossible to do any techniques. However I do think in the long run when I get used to it it will probably allow for long DEILD-chaines.

So I go to sleep all nice and relaxed using some techniques from ETWOLD, I confirm to myself I will wake up after my dreams which I do. I wake up around 06:20 but before I realize I'm awake I already move a bit, I relax and try the 'counting to sleep' which goes good but distracting thoughts make me unable to pass 40. I eventually fall asleep and wake up to my normal alarm 09:00 and decide to give it another chance as I'm more tired now. Guess what? The alarm of the dryer goes of and once again I'm the only person upstairs, I didn't even bother cleaning out the filters, just shut it off all together. Off cours I was too awake for anything right now and the best thing of all. I forgot atleast 3 dreams I had because of this, atleast we're making progress on the relaxing techniques and auto-suggestion. It's morning as I'm typing this which I don't do very often but I will probably read a lot of ETWOLD today.

Plan for next night:

-Auto-suggest waking up after dreams

-Using the 'counting to sleep' technique

-Archieve lucidity


Plan for when I'm lucid:

Pay extreme attention to environment and any change in feeling that might be different from reality to have more LDs in the future.

When I woke up I think I remembered some bits of several dreams but I forgot to note them down, off cours now many hours later I don't remember anything! I can say however that for probably the first time in my life I'm actually interested in reading a book. I had only read one real book before in my life which was for school but I'm just so eager to learn more about ETWOLD. I've already gone through 45 pages so far.

Last night everything went well, I did SSILD at bedtime and even though I know it doesn't work that way I thought it was a good idea to give it a chance and maybe have it wake me up naturally throughout the night. That morning my WBTB alarm went off and I felt in the right mood for FILD which I tried but I couldn't fall in a deep sleep, I stayed in a nice peacefull limbo till 09:00 at which time my normal alarm went of.

Anyway, I feel like I have the basic foundation again to build on and hopefully archieve lucidity soon.

I didn't have any dreams because I had a short night, however I did get up at 8:00 this morning and I think I should be tired enough by the time I go to bed in order to have a good rest.

Last night I got a good rest again, however I woke up at noon which is quiet annoying as my normal sleeping-pattern is disrupted. I also did some more research into SSILD today and I think I have a good chance of becoming lucid next night.

1. Evening stroll

I'm in the backyard of a house, I see the house as my home and it's located somewhere in the middle of a city with a large cathedral next to it. It's evening and getting dark though I do want to take a stroll through the Streets before watching TV for the rest of the evening. I climb out the yard and land in the Streets behind the house, it's foggy and there aren't any other people walking around. The city feels like Paris, those narrow Streets and the French look to everything. I enter the church from the site and meet my dad inside, we exit the building and head back home talking about random things. We climb back in the garden and go inside.

2. Under siege

I'm in a house, different from previous dream and again feel like it's my home. It's very large with open rooms and it's interior is like that of a modern castle. I'm with my mother and my sister in the main hallway when suddenly we here something and I get a vision of many burglars breaking into the house. I'm talking about 20 burglars with slavic roots coming to steal everything and probably kill my family. I have a gun and feel like I should fight back, I'm on the balcony in a room and look down, on the ground level I see 5 burglars talking to each other and looking at the furniture. I was filled with anger and shut down the lights, I had excellent nightvision for some reason and saw there heads lit up. I aimed my gun at one of them and pulled the trigger, it didn't make any noise and the bullet that flew out looked tiny, then I realised it was a tranquilizer gun. The burglar that I shot slowly felt down and the others were freaked out but couldn't see me, I took them down one by one and went back to the main hall meeting up with my sister. I opened a side entrance to look outside and there were 3 more burglars there, one of them spotted me and wanted to fire at me but I aimed at him first. However my gun suddenly didn't work, it felt very light like a toy gun and I could pull back the trigger. I quickly closed the door before he fired back, then I opened again and tried but it didn't work and gave up on it. I walk through the house and shoot down some more burglars.

3. Another siege

I'm in a different house once again but this time it feels like I'm playing a game, splintercell. I'm controlling Sam fisher from a 3rd person perspective and shoot down burglars who now look like trained soldiers. I jump out windows and climb the edges, firing through other windows. After some time I feel like I can't win this war, I climb through a window and suddenly am in my sister's bedroom, I look through my own eyes again and get in a closet to hide. I have trouble closing the closet completly and I'm scared they will find me, after several minutes I think it's safe to leave and I slowly open the closet door. I fall out and accidently knock over my alarm which breaks on impact. (Weird as my alarm is in a totally different room IRL.)

4. WHAT THE ****

I'm in my sister's bedroom and she's sitting at the computer, as I look to the window I see one of the cats sitting infront of it looking outside. My mother sits in the couch in the corner of the room and doesn't seem to be doing anything, when suddenly the cats starts shitting right on the window, it is so much that it flies out like a rocket, the wall behind him gets peppered and the window itself gets covered too. Both my mother and my sister don't seem to react that much but I scream "WHAT THE ****!".


5. Flattered

I'm walking around in a supermarket and here a rapsong in my head, I quietly hum along the beat and walk outside. Suddenly I'm near my home in the street and crossing the road, there's a woman who's taking photo's of a male model. Man is shirtless and seems professional, then she asks me if she could take a picture of me. She tells me I have a good figure and I feel flattered, I could barely supress my laughter but eventually I declined and walked away.

The exams are over!
Now all there's left to do is await the results and focus on the dreams.

I was so tired this evening though from all the work I had the last two weeks that I had to take a nap.
No DR this night but tomorrow I will restart my quest for lucidity!

There's not a lot to talk about, exams went well today and tomorrow is the very last after which I have 2 months free which I can fully spend on LDing.

See this as a calm before the storm breaks loose!