LiamDreamer

I began the WILD process this morning, but couldn't be bothered finishing it off. Basically I instead went to sleep to try have a normal DILD, at one point I see myself in hypnagogic state and can tell a dream is forming around me. I simply let it form using my mind to pull me in, like for a WILD and ended up in a very realistic dream in my Dad's living room. The touch, feel and general presence were that I was actually there, knew I was dreaming and in a way that was way ahead of any lucid dream I have ever had. I start doing things - masturbation, invited friends around who invited girls around.

Upon waking I originally thought it was an accidental WILD but I then remembered being in a previous dream (or maybe an earlier part of the dream) where I was showing off magic without realising I was dreaming. I'm unsure if it was a different dream (in which case the lucid was a DEILD) or if the magic was part of same dream and the hypnagogic state was then an opportunity given to not escape a dream, which I then took.

Been attempting WILDs on a daily basis, still experimenting. On Wed morning I felt like I was about to either OBE or go into WILD after having gone through much of the process, but again didn't quite make it. I decided then to move to plan B and go to sleep and try for a DILD.

Next thing I'm in a classroom and the vibrating noise I had in my ears when I tried to do a WILD was there and Iet it grow until I OBEd. At that point I became lucid, albeit mildly, and used it to fly. I became more lucid as I went on albeit my memory wasn't great even immediately afterwards. Last thing I remember was landing in a bedroom where a lady was reading a book on iPad and upon my mental suggestion when she gently swiped it a paperback copy materialised out of the device.

To cut a long story short I have been trying WILDs lately. I can see it will be useful to learn and that I have an idea of how to do it, as I would like to get more routine LDs and practice more.

Today I did get quite far. I started with counting breaths to 300, then went into a mantra meditation known as John Main meditation. I got to a point where I was getting moving images. Didn't quite make it to sleep paralysis and then decided to go to sleep normally. I dreamt one of my sisters gave me a surprise visit in my flat. After waking up I was thinking about asking her by text if it really happened or was it a figment of my imagination, then I lay down on my other side. I could hear a ringing in my ears and let it get stronger - it sounded like motorbike humming. Next thing I had some moving imagery of a motorbike and it going out of control. Next thing I was in a dream, but didn't realise it (my penis was in front of me, but in 2D and flat). Had I realised it would have been actually a DILD, induced because of the WILD process. Early days, but I can see this progressing with practice.

I'm trying to keep my dream journal together but little time to do meditation and got other things on my mind. Nevertheless keeping the detail in when I can and ensuring my phone is available and charged for me to write stuff down.

Most interesting non-lucids were yesterday when I had a weird one where I am teaching kids in a strange building. At one point I remember weird things happening like spaghetti spontaneously moving from my plate to a plastic bag. I'm at the top of stairs running after a lady that helped me in teaching.
Next one I'm discussing the film Chinatown with a friend and we've missed an art house film showing - I could have spotted I was dreaming if I had noticed how difficult it was for me to recall details of the film, but it didn't.

Anyway - had lucid on Wed where I'm walking through my home town and I'm 16 again. I'm reenacting my teen years as I wanted to live them. I kept stability without trying but as fears my Mum would realise I was lucid dreaming kicked in I gradually lost stability.
Next lucid was today when I had a dream of snogging some girl, who then starts to choke me, next thing I'm snogging Nicholas Hoult after which I wake up. I am a little bi, so enjoyed that too.

Considering I have a heavy project I'm working on and not doing lucid practices all the time it's quite encouraging, hopefully I can get back to controlling dreams as I feel like what I'm doing is random stuff from a disoriented mind rather than like being in charge. Only thing lucid I'm doing is reality checks, where I try and think of doing a different one each time in the hope these checks become natural and more about thinking than automatic mindlessness. The crux is going to be getting back to full lucid practice without overdoing it - e.g. a girl in my meetup group once said that the worst thing she ever did was thinking too much about lucidity when joining the group, as it reduced her lucidity and she didn't become lucid until she relaxed again. Her lucidity is overall better since joining the meetup group, but initially there was a drop.

On Fri night I gobbled down a 37g box of lozenges with menthol in them (Cherry Tunes).

I had one vivid dream during the night - where I'm teaching and I was reading a question - instead of realising it was gibberish I thought it was in German.

Nevertheless after waking up and getting back into bed I had another dream. I can't remember how I became lucid, but I remember as the dream went a bit crazy I had decided it was a dream. I also took control and decided to change the dream completely - ended up in a hotel room about to have sex with a lady. I found it difficult to control - never got to the deed and kept changing from one woman to another as my concentration wasn't 100%. Thinking I was about to wake up I did stabilise it at times mentally. It would have been better if I had gotten tactile, but I was lucid for a good while. After not completing sex I tried the TV which just had static - I remember it having 50 channels, then saw a report of Sam Allardyce bitching about opposition soccer players having AIDS (the idea that he would speak like that is completely mad) as I was losing control and then woke.

Dream recall last night was poor again, but remember one dream which was lucid.

At the start I'm back home at my sister's talking to her neighbours about work and the benefit system, which isn't helping them out. It's a bit of a mix up because the characters are in real life families that come to the wildlife centre I volunteer at. I'm vague on what happened next, but I think I false awoke and decided to go back to 'sleep' to go directly into a dream again - I didn't shut my eyes, just lay down and ended up in another part of the dream.

I'm vague again on the next bit, but a little while (maybe 30s-2mins) into the lucidity I decided to get tactile (even tho the dream was stable in its own right). I rubbed my hands together and I'm suddenly rubbing a girl up with a blue dress on. (Given my matress sheet is similar in colour, would this have been symbolic of me rubbing the bed in real life? Surely my body was paralysed at that stage?). Anyway I snogged the girl, which didn't really behave exactly like real snogs I've had (probably because I don't do it enough and need lessons, lol - for instance I had a 2nd date today with a girl I'd kissed on Sat last, the first kiss since Aug 2012). I false awoke from that, did a reality check - my finger never went through my hand but I could tell from the groginess I was dreaming still. I was in a clasroom tidying up. I was getting annoyed/tired until it occured to me to use some dream magic and automatically clear it up - rather than picking things up I rubbed them out (felt a bit rubbing stuff out on an image file using editing software) and cleared up in no time. Last thing I remember was hearing the voice of a teacher from secondary school, as I brought a pile of books to a desk in the corner (which looked more like a kindergarten/nursey/playschool than his classroom) and debating with him whether or not a concept was covered in his Business studies class or in Economics.

What is intriguing is that I feel my technique is close to fruition. My routine is 25 mins of meditation prior to bed - it can either be standard meditation saying an anchor word like 'MARANATHA' or, in accordance with a lucid dreaming video I did, where your anchor is pretending you're comfortable in bed and in a lucid dream saying the phrase 'I am lucid the world is vivid'. I follow this with the second video, a subliminal induction video. The tricky bit I do at the end is saying affirmations as I fall asleep like 'I will have lucid dreams' and 'When I dream, I will becom lucid'. The issue is that I was too intense previously and couldn't get to sleep easily. The trick this time, particularly this morning was to say the affirmations 10-20 times, then drift asleep. I'm not sure what worked/didn't but will discuss this at one of my lucid dreaming forums in London tomorrow. Something tells me there's one or two things that can be trimmed out of the routine, but that I've got something good going.

My dream recall is overall poor, although it has been a week of 2 lucid dreams.

Last night I remember my pants being down a lot. Very vague, but I distinctly recall looking at how black my legs became with mud from all this not wearing pants.

Final dream was interesting - I could tell after waking that if I returned to sleep I would return to the dream, however this did not happen lucidly. I replayed my last dream in a different form. I'm going after my evil twin who we hook up to a machine that makes him blow up. I'm being helped by ex-IRA bombers, who point out that the picture of a man on a tool box was the man that taught them how to do this. We watch when it finally blows in a big mushroom cloud, them describing it as a "fine bomb", with a shock wave that extends out for miles. I wake up as it catches us. It's bizarre how in dreams I would allow working with scum like that when in reality I hate them.

This demonstrates 2 reasons meditation may help. 1 - remember dreams better. 2 - drifting back into dreams lucidly should happen easily.

First one I lost a lot of the memory of because I didn't write it down quick enough. I remember having a dream within a dream, where I was sleeping on a matress on the floor of a flat. I think I was out with dream characters and/or friends but mainly copped that I was dreaming and tried to do magic as it usually worked in previous lucid dreams. It didn't work and eventually I woke.

2nd one I'm showing my Dad my flat and slowly but surely I figure I'm dreaming as he seems to be under a subtle control from my mind. I'm also aware the flat is way more spacious than mine and as he talks to my niece I find she's invisible to my eye. I think this and my Dad then says something about it being typical of a dream. I'm annoyed at him not saying goodbye as he leaves and I wake up.

I had this dream this morning - I'm on a ship writing a letter to my dad about how trying to rescue someone could cause us to sink. I can hear myself in a film-style voiceover saying a line from the letter that is quite poetic and profound like "Just one call of distress can send us all to our doom". Next scene I hear an eery distress call and it's like watching a movie - I can see the gigantic ship I'm on sinking - I think that bit might be directly from "Life of Pi". Next scene I'm in the movie again, as it were, drowning outside the ship on a stormy night. But I see my fellow mermaids and realise I'm a male of their species and suddenly rise up through the water, it's more like as if gravity has decided to change direction for me only. I'm above the water and flying, which suddenly stabilises without me necessarily controlling it and it's a bright sunny day in a nice bay. Then I realise I'm dreaming. For a few seconds I enjoy my flight without control then I decide to stabilise the dream and, on the advice received last night at a lucid dreaming group, try to rub my hands together. But instead I wake up.

The fact that I tried stabilising is a good sign and I'm sure I just need my mind practiced and in the right place for it to work. Also it's the first time I had one while having to do something the next day (I was in work today) as usually the stress free atmosphere had helped.

And finally, as in my lucid dream 2 weeks ago and the semi-lucid one last Monday, waking up for real was exhilirating experience.

In the main dream I've just pulled a blonde that looks like Cameron Diaz and she's on top kissing me. Then suddenly she turns nasty and turns out to be actually a demon that continuously tries to choke and strangle me. I run away and get a ghost hunter/exorcist who's got equipment to detect her. We're in the bathroom of my Dad's house as they look for her and I'm thinking something's amiss then I look through the glass panel on top of the bathroom door I see her grinning evilly at me, almost telepathically telling me she's put a spell on them so they can't detect her. She comes after me then I false awaken.

In this part of the dream I have a wife and am glad everything's ok. At some point I realise my wife is actually the demon from the original part of the dream. I think about if this is a dream and do a reality check, sticking my finger against my hand. It doesn't go through, but I can tell from the skin bubbles that pop out in the air that I'm not in reality. Immediately I false awaken again before the demon can get me again.

This time I'm in my bedroom, a false version of my bedroom. I reality check straight away, but don't notice anything amiss. The skin bubbles aren't there and I guess I've done that one in the real world too much. I mosy around thinking about what I'll do for the day and then abruptly actually awoke. I didn't actually RC again, I could tell from the intensity that I was awake.

I'm finding it hard to call that a lucid dream - I think the best description of it is as fully lucid at 2 brief moments. Nevertheless, using RCs in dreams is a breakthrough as I can see the challenge in using them to become fully lucid and in control. I've been decreasing my use of them a lot lately and I think I'll take that a step further by only using them in dreams if possible. Also preferable is to take control - part of me let the demon take charge in the 2nd part of my dream.

The fully lucid dream I had last week has one similarity in the sensation of actually awakening, which is way more amazing than from a non-lucid dream.

I finally had a lucid dream last nite - 3 weeks after joining this site, not my first of my life.

I see myself in a bedroom in the dark. There's 2 bunks there (in reality I sleep by myself in a double bed) then I think "I'm dreaming?" and celebrate a lucid dream at last as I remember where I am in bed, no need for reality checks here. Probably not the best thing, as my dream never stabilises. I enjoyed it tho - 3-5 minutes of conjuring up beautiful girls from my life and not really doing much. I also became too aware of really being in bed and how comfortable I was and eventually awoke, doing a reality check confirming I have awoken.

Managed to realise I was dreaming last night (ish). Momentarily realised I was dreaming, but didn't fully appreciate my dream-like state and take control. It is getting better as being in a teaching environment (one of my common dream themes) triggered lucidity.

The dream in full (as far as I remember): I'm telling a friend about lucid dreaming, suggesting I might be dreaming now, then suddenly I'm doing classroom observation in a school I realise I'm actually dreaming, which was soon forgotten though. I'm embarassed as my pants are down and when I pull them up I realise I'm in pjamas. I'm not impressed with the teacher (strict + a bit old school in her methods). I'm vague on the next bit but I know the last scene myself and Tony Soprano going back in time to rob someone that looked like Alec Baldwin. He wears a mask of fresh fish on his head for his work we notice this when he's on the phone (calling himself a "competent man in a mask") and as per my instructions Tony goes back in time with me to 1999 and puts on a similar mask to pose as him so he can rob his workplace, then I wake up.

I just summarised my dream themes in my personal journal.

4 themes keep coming up:

1. Being in trouble for being naked (usually pants down publicly).
2. Work related stuff (teacher training)
3. Memories of moving flat (I've moved 3 times in the last 18 months)
4. A lot of celebrities appearing in my dreams

With these themes (particularly the first 2) I seem to end up controlling the dream (even without lucidity). Perhaps it's because they are common themes? Last night I had a dream where I was pulling a sickie and didn't turn up to teach class. I also meet my students 20 years on who say they were not inspired by me. Throughout the dream I keep changing bits of the dream so I don't get sacked (e.g. when caught out and about by my boss I change her memory and click my fingers to end up in bed). I had control, but no lucidity - perhaps my mind is beginning to recognise the common themes and will end up adding lucidity to the control at a later date.

Also I dreamed later on about being in a restaraunt and having a discussion about why their final course is free. I'm also introduced to a girl who becomes interested in me, but ends up going home with a different guy, following which I'm slagged off by her friend by not being direct enough with women.

I only joined this site last week and started my dream journal on Tuesday. For most of the week I remembered none of my night dreams and usually had 2 in the morning (I work 1-8 these days so can lie in).

Friday night that changed when I remembered 1 night dream and 2 in the morning.

Last night blew me away tho - 5 dreams.

1. In this one I'm a rich kid living of his parents and annoyed about them as they are elderly and not with it. I end up debating how annoying this is with a girl who thinks its cool to have such elderly (in real life my parents are older than normal, but I was neither rich nor a freeloader and I find my Dad fairly adaptable to the 21st century).

2. I've masturbated in class (I'm 15 in this dream) and am very self conscious of the fact that I have to hide the fact that I need to do up my pants. This is a recurring dream I have had since my teens in various forms because I used to come close to getting caught wanking in the sitting room as a teen! Then the dream changes suddenly - I'm discussing what Germanic names English soccer clubs would have if the Germans won the war with schoolfriends. I'm not lucid but the news in front of me follows my thoughts - Argentina are playing England in a friendly then Alex Ferguson appears in Argentinian colours in a cartoon as if to support them, after I think of that. Then an image in cartoon of the history of this dream world appears in which Germans did win the war and the soccer clubs got their names changed as per my thoughts.

3. This one is very vague - I'm discussing with someone about how often people laugh at my jokes to humour me (60% is the figure mentioned). Tbh on this one I took about 10 seconds before writing this down so most of the memory quickly faded away.

4. This one I remember people turning up to move furniture to and from my last house. I accidentally gain things from this and they are to move one the computers - 1 is the landlords, which is down and other is mine. In real life my comp is a desktop, in dream it's a mainframe as tall as the room. Next a girl asks me to complete a survey and then after finished goes to the bus stop outside my house, where there's a bench that doesn't exist in real life. I admire her in her sexy shorts then turn around and say hi to a Chinese/Asian male who's on a laptop inside.

5. In this one I witness a domestic disturbance on the 2nd floor of a house from outside. I hear the lady repeatedly scream "I'm sorry" while he repeatedly says "come on, get out", while he clobbers her around the room, which is easily visible from the street. I recoil in horror, squirming at each blow until I wake up.