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    1. 27th May 2020

      by , 05-27-2020 at 05:04 PM
      I went to sleep at 1:52. Before bed i meditated for about 30 minutes to calm my mind.

      I woke up at 6:52 a bit sweaty because i had clothes on and a lot of blankets (i noticed that i have better dream recall like that and more vivid dreams).

      I dreamt that i was visiting some elderly people in my family. It was nap time, and it's like they needed visiting because they needed to socialize otherwise their minds kind of like deteriorated. It was like 2 hours before we visited them though, but Teresa, my mom's aunt, held up really well, got herself entertained in solitude until we arrived. Maria, her sister, on the other hand was watching TV and of course her lucidity wasn't as good as Teresa.
      I just remember arriving, sitting at the table and talking a few things, but i don't recall what we talked about.

      Then in another fragment, i was in a room with some people, sitting at a table. And i don't know how we got to this topic but i was trying to explain that body contemplation (like Buddhism teaches it) is benefitial. There was a microphone in the table and it was like i was giving a podcast, but also while i was talking with these people in the table. There was a girl who i was adressing this message, but again idk why. Anyways she was listening attentively. As i was explaining though, i couldn't convince her nor myself of what i was saying. It was the way i was saying it, because within i'm already conviced of this. I was trying to describe the body parts to contemplate, but meanwhile i was asking myself why? So i was speaking and internally i had this kind of dilemma. So i tried to reason some purpose in my mind and i started repeating the messsage all over again, from the basics. So i mentioned the purpose of this kind of contemplation, that it was to counteract lust particularly with the body, and that you should contemplate the organs, the blood, the nerves (as i was thinking what else, i was saying it out loud. That was kind of cool because i was exercising my memory & thinking in a dream). Then it seems the girl understood the idea, and she replied something like "oh, it sounds much like the Sufi religion" and in my mind i was like "no, not at all... I don't think Sufism actually teaches this. I would believe you if it were Hinduism or Jainism, but even then no."
      After that (or while i was hearing that) i was watching a fight scene of a girl about 20 years old with a guy about 40, by the door. They were practicing freestyle wrestling but the guy was destroying her. In one of the times he throws her to the floor, she falls with her head and she cracks it open and her brains get splattered over the floor. I was in shock. But immediately doctors come out and operate her in the spot putting her brains inside again like it was nothing.

      I recorded some dream notes so i wouldn't forget and went back to sleep. Then at 8:55 i woke up again.

      I dreamt i was meditating in my father's house. There was like a coaching retreat, but it was like i decided i would not participate so i could meditate. And my father was cool with that.
      Then i was in like an island. I think it was the same retreat, but we were going to do a parachuting activity. I was standing in a cliff but not so tall, and down you could go to the beach of the sea.
      I was there until it got dark. I noticed that i would get hungry soon. And my dad went to look for me by that time.

      Then i had a false awakening. I was in my room and i got up and out to the living room. I spoke a bit with my sister. She had the TV on because since my older sister watched that program (which irl she doesn't actually so idk where that came from XD) she left it on for me. But i don't watch TV so i replied kinda angrily (because i felt like she was trying to manipulate me or something).

      Then i woke up.
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    2. 21st May 2020

      by , 05-21-2020 at 06:53 PM
      I went to sleep at 1:09 am.

      At 4:44 i woke up and recorded the dream i just had.

      I was in a city with many buildings. The time was in the 1910's to 30's probably. There were 2 planes and one was about to crash a building where some soldiers from many countries were staying. There weren't too many soldiers, probably in total they might have been like 100. So this plane was about to crash, but it suddenly plummeted mid air before reaching the target. I had some intel just few moments before seeing that scene so i was running towards the building to warn everyone, but of course i would be late. So maybe the plane plummeting had to do with my expectations of wanting to warn everyone in the building. Then there was another plane but that plane had a different target and it flew somewhere else.
      I go inside the building to confront some arrogant soldiers whom i suspected that because of their reckless actions got everyone in danger. They've been hanging out in bars and talking with people they probably shouldn't so they most likely gave away info. So i confront the guy who seemed to be the leader of the group, telling him all this and asking him who did he hang with, and they kind of laugh at me. And then this woman of Israeli nationality (not our allies, but neither our enemies because we really weren't at war) comes out of the couch the guy was sitting on (she was sitting in the arm thingies) comes to me, kisses me and says something i couldn't recall but like teasing me. I play along until she stops speaking, making everyone believe i had given in, i even doubted myself until she stopped speaking and i calmly replied something non-sensical if i'd write it down here but in the dream it definitely roasted her (it was something like "apologies to myself (like she and everyone else should be apologizing to me or something) and now i'll take my leave" or something like that, like i've done my thing there, and i had no more business so basically i was telling them bye bitches).

      Went back to sleep and woke up at 6:54.

      I was in one of my old houses, the house in street Las Heras. I was about to take a shower, but i bring a heater because it was cold in the bathroom. However the heater started to lose water, and that made the shower had problems with water too. As i was checking the heater my sister came and offered me to bring me my clothes, and she was very talky. Idk what i tell her, and basically cut the chatter somehow and close the door. Oh, before the bathroom scene i was actually in my room thinking what clothes should i wear. If i wear school clothes then the principal might say something to me for wearing the wrong uniform, and also i might not have it when i need it. But i really wanted to wear the gym clothes. Going back to the bathroom. There was a window like the ones in interrogation rooms, where you can't see the other side. Well, i could see the other side but i think they couldnt see towards my side, or so i hope. On the other side there was Love from "You" series, however even though it was her face, the person was someone else, a friend i know. She was sitting there, like in a cabin where you have to lift the barriers for cars to pass. I was watching her while she sat there but she knew of what was going on and sometimes smirked. Before i entered the shower i entered Discord with my phone. I went to this new server i joined, and i checked the memes channel and the nsfw. I was surprised to see that in the nsfw an actual member was posting nudes of herself. Then as i scroll down the channel there was a lot of porn there from her. At a point it's like i was watching the gifs or whatever they were in holograms, right in front of me. Some things were kind of sexy, but ugh i don't really like porn.

      Then woke up, went back to sleep and woke up again at 10 am.

      I dreamt i was in a social dinner-party. There were a lot of people and the place was spatious. It was like a house, but with many rooms and open rooms in between. It kinda had a Japanese style. So there was this girl that wanted a red rare drink. I wasn't really talking to that girl, but i felt like i knew her. Anyways when she said that, since i knew where to get it, and since i had nothing to do i went to get it. Another guy also was attempting to get it but i knew he'd probably fail. So i take a shortcut, just cross a room to get to the adult's vip room where the owner of the house and the top class people were. I come in but i don't interrupt them, they seemed to be talking around the table. I go to the couches where some friends were and i ask if they knew if there was some of that red drink left. And they say to me that in the fridges. So i go there and grab the last bottle which had a little bit left. I look at it and it reminds me of this red drink i dreamed of years ago, like over 10 years, that i wanted to replicate IRL but never could. I thought to myself, "ha, finally someone clever came out with the formula and now everyone knows it" thinking the drink finally was discovered in real life. I thought about tasting it, but since there was so little of it i decided not to. I went back to the girl and gave her the bottle. Even though there was little left she was overjoyed.

      Then woke up at like 12, cause i went back to sleep, and i think i woke up from a N-REM2 state. Not sure, i would have to experiment more to know for sure.
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    3. March 3rd 2020

      by , 03-04-2020 at 05:23 PM
      Last night i took 300mg of Valerian root. Went to sleep at like 2 am and woke up at like 5:30. (I've been watching Breaking Bad and that translated into the dream in a way).
      When i woke up i remembered the dream more clearly, but i didnt write down all the details cause my hand was shaky. The dream felt so real.

      Anyways i dreamt that i was in a parking lot of a shopping or some large building. I was with my dad, my younger sister and there were some other people there. I don't remember what happened, but my dad felt threatened by two guys so he wanted to shoot them before they shoot or extort him. He thought about it for like a minute, walking back and forth in the parking lot around the crowd. I think all that walking and thinking draw attention from these guys, i mean more attention than he already had, so when he went close and pulled a gun the guys also pulled their guns. He shot one of them and he dropped dead, but the other guy shot back right before he was shot, and so my dad was hit in the stomach. The second guy dropped dead too. After that was over, my dad started walking around the parking lot, he was freaking out because he was shot. I went to him to calm him... (i'm thinking i shouldn't have been so gentle because it was an emergency) and gently i stopped him and laid him down. I made him press his wound and i pressed it too. He did that and i knew that he was calmer, and that he was willing to accept that others take care of him. Meanwhile i shouted call an ambulance. The people in the crowd were already on it, and some of them were assisting the other 2 shot people. Apparently they weren't dead, but they were badly wounded. Then i see my dad starts closing his eyes and i try to focus on feeling if he was breathing since i had him on my arms. I couldn't feel anything so i start worrying, but knowing i had to CPR. I don't know how to CPR so i started panicking. While i attempt to CPR as i can, i start screaming for help. My dad kinda opened his eyes again, it's like he came back, but he was still unconscious. A woman came by to help. She was a kinesiologist. She noticed that my CPR worked so she didn't do anything regarding that, but she also noticed that his hip was dislocated, so she adjusted it and said "he must have been in real pain from that". Then she said that an ambulance was coming (i still worried because there were 3 shot people... not just 1) and she left to keep assisting the other 2 people. Oh and my sister was nearby this whole time too. Then i woke up.

      The dream felt so real.. not in the sense of vividness so much but emotionally perhaps, or also on how i would act in a given situation. When my dad flatlined i really thought i was going to lose him and my mind in that moment cleared to give priority and sole focus to this urgency. I value dreams like these, even if you wanna call them nightmares, because they allow you to experience a situation without really affecting the conditions IRL. So IMO you get to live, feel an experience, get to know how you'd act, how you might react, without having the way things are modified IRL. This is just one way dreams can be 'profitable' to life experiences, and the effort put into trying to remember dreams, among other things, is definitely worth it.
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    4. February 24th 2020

      by , 02-24-2020 at 04:23 PM
      I woke up at about 5 am. Up until then i've dreamt the following:
      - i was in Fran's house. He was sitting on a couch and i was standing nearby. His small dog was playful and biting my wrists and arms. At a point it turned annoying. When the dog stopped Fran started to be annoying in a similar way (i don't remember how though). He was scheduled a flight soon. I thought what was he doing here then... maybe it was a private flight or something. Anyways i get up and go to the dining room. My father was there. He wanted me to bring him a pill. He wanted to take a 5 or 7 or 8 pill. These are personalities from the Enneagram and apparently pills for each personality came out and were quite popular. Everyone had them. So i went back to the couch room. The pills should have been at the fireplace. However there were no pills... apparently all were taken and nobody restocked. I looked at some Spanish coins that were there. I take one and carefully examine it, and then i put it back in place. Then i take a mini pen drive so i can print some pills. When i get up i see Fran, his oldest brother and his mom standing there. They seemed to be upset at me or something, like they wanted to confront me angrily. I didnt pay too much attention to them and i think i just left.

      Then i go back to sleep.

      I dreamt i was in a car with some people, friends. We were driving across towns, no big cities. I sense strong winds when we are leaving this small town. I thought we don't have hurricanes here... but this looks like a hurricane. (Kinda noticed this time that it was a dream sign, although i didn't fully associated it with dreams thereby didnt become lucid). We go on nevertheless. We go to the beach that was just nearby. We drive through the sand and the car turns in a way i'm able to see the sea. I see this huge wave coming at us, and i notice this is a tsunami. I start running towards the town shouting tsunami! I was running quite fast. I wish i had a bike, but i thought that i'd survive this because it would take like 3 minutes for the tsunami to arrive and by then i'd have run quite a lot at that speed, or so i thought. Anyways the dream kinda ended there. Unfortunately there were no tall buildings so i just had to keep running and running.

      Then i dreamt that i was in a hostel. It was a nice wide place. I've dreamt with this place before. This time i owned half of the property, the prettier part.

      Then i dreamt about having a knights fight in the rugby field of my school. I had a horse and the opponent just had bronze armour. Anyways when i came close i didnt want to hit him. His armour looked like made of paperboard. So i just passed him by. I think he ran away afterwards. Then i went around the field, and captured the enemy's base. In the end the enemy was a friend, and we were playing a game. Although we took the game quite seriously. There was also a friend that was an eagle, and he scouted and sometimes attacked us.
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    5. February 23rd

      by , 02-24-2020 at 04:57 AM
      I was in a car, in the backseat with 4 other people. We were driving in the city. We go through a street that had to take like an elbow. But on the corner of the block across the street there was a hotel with a balcony, and some people were waiting for us with a bazooka. Aparently we were into something militar-political, maybe there was a civil war or something. Anyways we blow up. However... im back in the car, one block before the elbow. Apparently i just had a "Deja Vu" in a dream. I knew we were going to 100 meters ahead. All i thought was that i knew what was going to happen, and that i needed to be ready. I didnt even consider warning the driver or anything.. i just took it for granted what was going to happen and that i was going to die. So we go through that elbow, and the people were there waiting for us with a bazooka. Naturally i thought about death, and that i was going to die, and that it was real, and naturally i wanted to panic, but strangely enough i chilled out. I thought this death was going to be different and after i thought that it had to be different. I knew in advance that i was going to die so i guess it didn't take long for my mind to come up with plan of what was going to happen next. So they blow our car from behind, even though we've seen them in the balcony as we were passing by (but i guess there was no way to outrun the bazooka). As i was about to die i thought something like "Okay now i'm going die, what's next?... Wait... I've got to remember to pay attention to my mind right after dying" i almost forgot, getting caught in my thoughts, but i did. And i thought... "thinking is no different... (that's weird)". I knew i had to be reborn ASAP. Actually i didnt know why, but i just knew i had to... Maybe because otherwise i would get caught up in my own thoughts and then it would be too hard to come to the world again, like i would have to start from scratch learning things again, and all for what? for thinking? So... i was going to go for thinking, reflecting for a while about what should i do, but then after reflecting like that i thought that yeah i had to be reborn.
      There was a guy that made bodies and i was sure that the best body would be saved up for me (kinda like Altered Carbon). I spent 3-6 seconds thinking while i was death, and by then a few people have already been reborn, taking new bodies. But i knew that i was rich, in whatever this life-death currency the world operated, so i could afford some time dead since nobody was going to buy that body any time soon anyways. But when i decide to be reborn i just do. I get born in this new body. I feel so... agile. I start sneaking around and then i found a guy in a room next door (even though it was an unfinished building with no doors or windows, everything was open. And we were in like the 30th floor or something) and i just slice this guy with my katana. I slice him so good that he stays in place... I don't know why i even did that. But i felt like a ninja and just decided to do it (i thought he was coming for me, although i didn't know for sure :/). [I need to stop killing people in my dreams ]
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    6. 23rd February - Nap

      by , 02-23-2020 at 11:04 PM
      Took 300mg of Valerian root and took a nap.

      I dreamt that i was on Carrefour supermarket. I was at the entrance, outside. The entrance seemed large. I was opening my eyes. I wasn't seeing very well.. like everything was brighter. I thought that i should be glad to be seeing because i was going to go blind soon. I look nearby and i see Carlos (a guy whom i had troubles with in a hostel last year) dressed as policeman, sharing anecdotes. I thought it's been a while since i saw him, and i thought as policeman he must have a lot of anecdotes, no doubt he's 'always' coming up with some. He was talking to a woman that probably worked there. I realized i held no grudges with him and thought that he seems to be back in his feet and i'm glad, but i had no interest at all in hearing his stories, that's not what i wanted to do with my time so i just moved away.
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    7. February 17th 2020

      by , 02-17-2020 at 03:17 PM
      I went to a cinema. When i got out the police/government was trying to set up an arrest trap as i was going to my car. My family was there, but this warrant would have been for all of us. More people were there and i thought that if we all acted as a social mass perhaps we'd overcome this.
      Anyways nothing happened, and we were able to get away in peace. We had two or more cars because we were many, we were on holidays. As we got into the cars we each got in to different cars, but that was okay. We were going to a river. It was a dirt road and it was very narrow. Ahead of us there was a cart stuck apparently. The driver noticed it and just pushed it slightly. Then the road was downfall until the river. The horses of the cart started galloping and they were two. It seemed like the cart was going to crash but each horse took a side when they reached the river, and the cart just went through the middle and stationed. It was a nice show.
      We found a nice spot to settle in and then i went to see where i could jump into the water and start swimming. My uncle jumped somewhere and he hurt his legs. Then i see where he jumped at and it seemed to be actually a mosaics floor with a little bit of water... I didnt understand... Then i was no longer on the top of some great rocks, but instead i was like up a ladder in what it seemed like a treehouse but inside the garage of a house... I was quite confused.
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    8. February 14th and 15th

      by , 02-15-2020 at 03:05 PM
      Yesterday i dreamt that i was in a facility that looked like my highschool. I was outside of some classrooms that werent used that much. Outside there were a few pet plushies who had life. They didn't seem cute from the start, they vibed this feeling they were evil. Their eyes looked like they had bad intentions XD. Some came to me like being friendly, but they got attached to me and after a while they began to get hostile. I realized this was happening and that this could be a dream, but i was realizing this as i was waking up. I tried to DEILD but after a couple of minutes of not being able to reenter the dream i turned around and continued sleeping as usual. [I didnt know what i should be aiming for tbh, but i noticed that even though i was in a state where i notice that it's the state just before falling asleep, like my body usually feels like this just before i fall asleep, but
      i also felt my mind was kinda very active].

      Today at 4 am i dreamt i was in the streets with my younger sister. She was wondering where the supermarket was, and it was just behind here. It even had her name I see a friend pass by with beers. And i decide to go in to buy some croissants.
      Then i am in a hostel or something. There were a lot of women in a room, changing and showering. From outside the door was a bit open but i didnt even dare to look but some of them say come and look. Since i had nothing do i got up and went there. I still felt kinda ashamed to enter their room XD but i said "you said come and look". Anyways there were some topless women but i didnt really care, and i went outside. Then all the women i've just seen became enclosed in a building with no doors, just walls. A witch has put a spell on them somewhen... I went around the building trying to observe this witchcraft and perhaps gain some insight. My dad also asked me to get insight on this because he dealt with a similar problem.
      Then i was on a pirate island or something. There were a lot of expensive grown up entertainment things, like bike tracks, etc. I got into the top of a mountain where there was like a sort of roller coaster but... with a bicycle. The rollercoaster was the bicycle, and at first you had to go slide with your hands and gravity did all the rest, it was strange, looked risky but also looked interesting. My uncle defied me if i had ever tried it. I told him i mastered it a long ago, but i knew i was rusty. I even forgot how to get into it. I begin to slide on it, and then i fall. The bicycle was in the sky so it was a long fall. Again i find myself waking up and decide that i should try DEILD, but after a few minutes i don't see anything happening so i go back to sleeping normally. This time i tried to WILD from that position but i didnt succeed.

      Then i dream about renting an apartment to a student. She was going to live with us but she was going to leave the things in the apartment next door. I just warned her that she shouldnt go at night alone, she should go at least with someone else or in group of 3 because it was haunted.

      Then i decide i wanted to go out and run. I didnt change clothes or anything, just like i was i went outside and started running. I pass by a friend's house. I see her washing her car. I say hi to her. Then i continue. I go to my dad's office at the center of the city. The office was in a house. I sit in a meeting. A friend from highschool was also there and my grandfather too. When the meeting is concluded it was time for lunch and i had to go back home running. And since i was being hired i had to print some copies and also take some dubious pills (if they all take pills it must be because the house has radiation or something, i dont think im up for this).
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    9. 6th January 2020

      by , 02-07-2020 at 04:24 AM
      Woke up at 4:30 am because i've my alarm set for a WBTB. By then it's also the time when i usually finish my first cycle with dreams (must be the second sleep cycle).

      I dreamt i was first in a conference with a friend, Vicky. The conference or meeting actually was in Uruguay, in a private university, and it was about art. A guy was talking about his painting and innovation, and in the background he had his painting hanged in the wall and i could see how as he was talking the painting kinda was painting itself, and when he took pauses the painting also kinda paused. It was nice.

      Then i went back to sleep and woke up at about 7 am. The dream was quite long and interesting.

      I was in my grandparents house or something. I had a chiropractic appointment, but the guy actually didn't adjust me. So i got up and went to the backyard. I saw an old online friend i haven't seen for a while. She was playing with this second life character transforming from girl into guy and back into girl, and was talking to guys. I thought "Umm are you catfishing?... Okay... XD" (i had no problems with that thought, i kinda thought to each their own). Then the place actually turned out to be Agus' house (a friend) and i realized, or thought that the party (it turned out that i was in a party) has been going for quite some days now so it was time to leave. So i decided to leave. I went through the front door, it felt weird to be leaving because it kinda was comfortable to stay (like comfortable in comfort zone) and i was one of the first ones leaving. So i went through the front. The room walls were covered with wood, it looked like a weird decoration but okay. I was going to take a key, because i felt like my friend trusted me and in case i wanted to come back later, but i also felt that wasn't quite right so i didn't and just left.
      I was with my bike. It was night time in Buenos Aires. And i started walking. When i get to the corner i see people... but people walking at that hour i thought were either drunk, thieves, or just looked for fights (basically there was no chance there were good people walking in the streets at that hour XD). I cross the street to my front and then i cross it again to my left, and while i was doing that i see a 4 persons hitting a child about 4-5 years old. The child was passed out and the people hitting the child looked like evil, wicked, and they were short. I thought "what is wrong with the world nowadays" and i was about to continue on my way, but then i thought "this is wrong, they are wrong, i have to do something" so i went back to them (a car had to stop because i was crossing the street) and i stood in front of them to confront them. Yeah the thought crossed my mind that i could get hurt in the process but i was totally okay with that, i preferred them to hit me than the child (also if they continued on the child he would die, and that's what they wanted to achieve), and also i would fight back, i was so ready to fight back too (but not looking for it). When i stood in front of the people they have transformed into a family, so they were not the evil-wicked short people i've seen at first. It was a tall big (but not fat) guy, a blonde woman who was also big but shorter than the guy, and two teenagers of about 13 and 15 yo. So i walk towards them and standing right in front of them i stop them and tell them what they are doing is wrong. They all stop, and the father when he wants to start hitting the child again i stop him again, kinda getting in the way. I talk to him for a bit, don't remember what i say to him, but in the process i could see that he actually had child issues and it never ocurred to him that what he was doing wasn't right because his childhood was like that and he grew up like that. He was kinda broken about it so i hug him, and people around (that were in the streets) wanted to take revenge on him, like punch him while i was talking to him and solving this peacefully, so i say "for every punch you get, i'll get two" (honestly don't know how that worked because it's not like the people would know how to split the punches XD but i said that...), the idea was that he doesn't get discouraged to think that he can change his behaviour; there's good in the world, he can do good, so he shouldn't give up so i was willing to do that to encourage him to persevere even when conditions are harsh. We continue talking (i was coaching him, but i'm not a coach so at times i didnt know how to continue but that was alright because we were conversating and he could figure out how he wanted to continue himself). At some point he realized that he had to raise awareness, and the talk actually helped him to set like a foundation of awareness so he actually would respect and treat his child with the care he actually needed, and realizing that he concluded the talk and said "Thank you". I saw the child 'wake up' from his mother's arms, the child was kinda confused as if he had a headache but he didn't know what happened, but other than that he was just fine. I looked at him smiling and he saw me back again clueless and like waking up, and then i walked away.

      Then although i was rested i decided to sleep again (maybe i'd lucid dream). So i slept for 1 more hour and a half.

      I dreamt i was in my grandparents house again (although it looked more like my grandparent brother's house) and i was in the backyard. There were people there and there was a pool. A few people were mexicans and they were boxing. There was a fat white guy and a fat tan guy. I didnt care about the fight tbh, but the people there kinda did. It was an informal fight anyways, like the two people were boxers but they just started hitting each other out of nowhere and it became a fight. They were walking all over the backyard too. I just did my thing and standing there i felt like i kinda owned the place (but in a good sense because it's not like i would disrespect people or people would respect me more because of me kinda being in charge of the place, but it kinda guaranteed that i wouldnt be disrespected, which is the bare minimum anybody can ask).

      Fast forward a bit (also because i don't remember exactly what happened) there came a moment when i wanted to jump into the pool and swim so i breathe in and jump and dive into the pool. As i was in the water it appears like i havent taken enough air outside the pool, so i try to 'compensate' by breathing in underwater, and curiously i manage to breathe in some air... which to me was strange... "What did i just do?" i thought. "Did i breathe out some air and breathed it back in? Or what happened?" And then i realized, "No, i breathed in in my physical body and in the dream i could have just breathed in because it doesn't matter if you breathe in water or not, you can breathe!" But as i was realizing that i also realized that i was not seeing blue anymore, i was seeing black... so i wasn't in the dream anymore. I could have DEILDed (i was confident that i would be able to, even though im not experienced) but since i was sleeping in such a horrible position (on my stomach) i decided that that was it and i just got up.
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    10. January 28th 2020

      by , 01-28-2020 at 02:07 PM
      A little bit of background. When i was like 11 i had a guitar teacher. This teacher had two brothers who also played the guitar. I only knew the older brother by sight, but didn't really know him, i knew his little children mostly and by that time he was the only only who had children.
      Yesterday my mom talked to me about my guitar teacher, and his children, a bit and i guess that was enough for he to appear in my dreams last night.

      So in my dream:

      I was in different places visiting family members. I went to a house, visit some family members for a while and then hopped to another house to say hi to another group. Curiously this person knew my family and since he was in town he also came to visit everyone. Each time i left a house i said goodbye to him too because i thought i won't be seeing him again. And even though he wasn't following me, he kinda arrived after me to the places i went. It was kinda surprising and funny. He had two kids in the dream.

      Then in another fragment i was in the university. I was going to take a new class. I was waiting for it to start with other classmates who i just met. But then my math teacher comes through the door as i was talking to people, and he asks for my name. I raise my hand and say "its me", and he asks me to come with him. I thought two things: one) could i have done anything wrong? And since i couldn't.. i thought two) since i have taken his class already and pretty much i understood it quite well even though it's not a so easy subject, he probably needed my assistance. So as we were walking i try to make some talk and ask him how has he been (never talked to him before actually). He says good and asks me too. Then we arrive at this other classroom in which he had some shady business with other professor, but not so shady anyways. The classroom was abandoned and he and another professor decided to repair it and make it their headquarters or something. I don't remember anything else.
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    11. January 25th 2020

      by , 01-25-2020 at 02:30 PM
      Warning: contains violent content.

      I went to sleep at about 11:30 pm yesterday. Couldn't sleep until like 1:30... I woke up twice. At 5am this is what i've dreamt:

      - I dreamt with my cousin Jess. In the dream at that time we were close but not very confident with each other. So there was a lot of rumouring behind our backs from other family members that would have created discord if i wouldn't have sat down and talked with her. We were in my grand-aunt's house, who has long passed away but i still got a feeling of the morning time when she used to go to church. So my cousin was leaving but i stopped her so we could chat. His brother was there too, whom i'm not really close with. We talked about holidays, we planned going to the beach and having a vegan style. After we finished the talk we were happy, and realized that all the discord the rumouring provoked was just that rumours and nonsense (i knew it beforehand but she didn't).

      - I was with some friends in a restaurant. I congratulated two of my friends for getting girlfriends. Then i went a floor up through a ladder. I sat in a table with other friend (whom i used to hate in highschool but we're grown up now) who was talking with some nordic or russian businessmen about business. When one of them started speaking it was just him, and he was saying how he bought all the buildings nearby and that the other businesses (looked like sillicon valley businesses or something) rented his property. All of this was confidential because he was talking about how he actually bought the buildings with credit, with money that wasn't real, and he was charging ever increasing rents and thus building his ever growing empire. All of this was a big scam (like global wide) but it was all legal, just that people didn't realize it was a scam, so that's why he was successful. At some point he doubted why i was listening... like if i was a reporter, to which i kinda felt like a spy while i listened to him, although i really wasn't and wouldn't have done anything anyways. But him reacting to that, taking us in his porsche to the airport driving quite fast but confident, made me think i was a cop.
      Next scene is i walk down through the landing track and i see two big houses, in which crimes committed by the joker happened. There was a hanging man, who should have been hanging from his head but he was actually hanging from his testicles, and then in the other house i see the joker walking towards the stairs through the edge (could have fallen to a precipice) and then up. I just looked at him from outside while i was walking, didn't care about what he was plotting. I just knew he was alone.
      Then i was in a bathroom, taking a shower. But i was a 9 years old girl, brownish skin with green eyes. I looked like if i was both my sisters combined. I was with my dad, and i wanted to recall when i was a baby. So i focused and... succeeded! I wasn't lucid, but i just wanted to do that in the dream. So.. i recalled when i was 9 months old and it was like i was a siren because my parents layed me in water when i was a baby, water came in through my ears and ever since i had like clariaudience. I looked at my dad at the bathtub, he was old but i wanted to recall how he looked like when i was a baby, so i told him to be quiet and just looked at his face. His skin was much brighter and smoother and he didnt have a few spots? in his cheecks (the kind old people have in their heads XD).
      Then there was my mother inside the bathroom too. It was like we were having a picnic while i was taking a bath... By then i just wanted to take a shower alone.

      Then i did a short WBTB and woke up at 7:30.

      I dreamt i was a cop. This dream was more vivid. I entered the airport. Went upstairs. Talked to a cashier. I was actually making time, so i flirted with her. She got angry because she thought i was harassing her and was about to call security or the police. But i was there because i wanted to catch a couple of killers that were supposed to be there soon. So i began talking about harassment laws (doing kind of reverse psychology like i was being harassed) and trials, and she went friendly again like if she realized that it was just flirting gone wrong and there was no need to overreact. Anyways i walked away because i was bored of the conversation and i saw downstairs that the police were taking a couple of people into custody. I saw the man, he looked like a bad guy, but i realized they had the wrong guy. So immediately i ran back towards the cashier and i realized that the 2 men had infiltrated. I got down. Besides me there was Paul Rudd as my partner, with blonde hair. So the two killers were at the other side of the counter in what would be the kitchen. Paul decided to go all in, like crazy, and take one down gutting him with a knife while the other was looking somewhere else. I realized that we were against the clock so i had to move in and take the other guy down. The other guy was like twice this guys size (he was really big and looked like he wasn't going to go down so easy). Even though subconsciouslly i didnt want to go through this course of action, i stabbed him in the guts and he turned around, grabbed the knife and threw it to Paul. The knife just bounced back, so he was lucky. Then i go on and try to stab him in the neck or something to take him down. Then he grabs a knife and throws it directly to my head. I manage to block it with my hands as if it were a metal shield, so the knife just bounced too (i could have become lucid if i realized what had just happened). Then I grab his head and smash it like 30 times against the kitchen counter and then i give him a final blow... I looked at his cracked skull lying in the floor and knowing it was all over but i was deeply regretful of all of it. [I just didn't them to continue killing people, because i knew they would have, but i didnt want me or us to get to kill in order to stop them. The main problem is that i havent agreed the terms of our partnership with my partner, so when he went in he naturally expected me to have his back, therefore i went in too not to "betray" him, but i betrayed myself. Anyways i could have gone in, defend my partner but without needing to kill. That could have costed my life but i guess i was defending that too, even at the cost of getting to kill (which i'm not okay with). Well now i know for next time that i don't neccesarily need to rush, i can always think what i do]
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    12. Tuesday 26th February 2019

      by , 02-28-2019 at 03:19 AM
      This dream was from a nap i took because i was feeling ill.

      I was laying on my back and i entered the dream still hearing sounds from outside my bedroom. Even though i was conscious of this, and even though the transition from waking reality to the the dream was very smooth, i didn't have a WILD. I started the dream in a train/bus. It had windows and i was seeing we were going around London city. We were going to a park where there was an event, but we were going to get lost. I was travelling with my sister, although when i looked around i also saw some of my friends from school. Anyway we decided to keep going even though we were going to get lost and i was saying out loud semi-lucid "i don't care if we get lost, we're in London, this is amazing and so beautiful!".
      The bus/train (sometimes it was a bus, sometimes a train) had a mechanism where you could take an SD card from it and you could replace your phone's SD card with it. BUT before leaving the bus you had to put one back. If you didn't the driver will notice (100% of the times because the bus had a sensor or some advanced technology lol) and the bus wouldn't continue.
      When the train reached the final station i almost panicked because we werent exactly in land. The rails were up like 20 meters in the air and if the train kept going we were going to fall. But it stopped. Anyway we had to get out and step on the rails... it was kinda a challenge to get out but not really because the rails were different. There were big squares in between where you could step. Of course if you stepped out you'd fall because there were also empty spaces in between. We went out of the train and entered the station. From outside the station seemed like abandoned and inside it was deteriorated and it was a place where homeless people would sleep. But it was the final stop of the train nevertheless, and a lot of people got out in that stop. Since we were all going to the event we all got out there. I saw some people, including my friends, starting to run because they didnt want to stay in that station when the sun went down, which was going to be in like 15 minutes. So far that place was safe, but soon when people would leave it wouldn't be apparently. Even though i did not fear the place i didn't like it and didn't want to stay there. There was like a bad vibe there. So i was going to follow the people, run if i had to, why not? Walking sometimes is boring. But i woke up.
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    13. Dreams from 20 to 30 October

      by , 11-01-2016 at 06:04 PM
      These are the notes i took. Some dreams i remember, some of them i just don't remember.

      25/10

      From 10:15pm to 6:30 am

      Had recall, but since i wrote words, and now i don't remember what they meant they are like random words now.

      26/10/2016 8:40 AM

      I dreamt that i was swimming in a river. There were sharks in the water. I arrive my aunt's backyard.

      Dario says that "Argentineans" should involve less in movies. (It could as watching movies).

      I dreamt with Daniel.

      Great dream vividness: 29/10/2016 5:42am

      I was on IRC chat. I was with a pink name... I don't know what it meant, but at the end it didn't mean anything (like status, doesn't mean anything). We or I were or was talking about Endurance. But what we talked about endurance didn't make much sense (although it could make sense, but it's not directly that): we said it was perception, volition.

      I dreamt with a statue and it was pouring drops of water. The drops of water were very big, and they had a lot of energy. (this part was vivid, or detailed). There were 5 stars in the statue. (I could think of the tree of Ori and the blind forest like similar to this stone statue).

      30/10/16 4:50

      Elephant's trump.
      - something about taxes of someone else -
      I dreamt with Pedro and an innofensive joke.
      Then a fight. 3 vs 3. Something about Kenia.

      Then although i took notes i don't remember.

      30/10/16 8:00 am

      I run through Cerro Chacabuco. There were Salva and Juan Ur with me.

      It was a village on the mountains, like 3000 meters high.

      On this road i saw a higuer mountain, and the Everest.

      Then i dreamt about giving answers to a woman that was a teacher. (Why not?)

      at 10:20 i dreamt:

      Elevator and shopping.

      Dusk.

      31/10/16

      I dreamt with teacher of school. Chemistry and physics. I don't remember what the dream was about, but she was just there.

      Then i dreamt something about school.

      Then i come from the school bathroom and i enter the highschool hall. My mother was there and i am aproached by an english teaching, which i didn't like, and im told that because of some disease or abnormality in the past months i don't have seizures, but i should have seizures because it was a disease i should have had. I started crying and went away, didn't even want to say something to her. I thought that she was being cruel, but at the same time she "couldn't be blamed" because it was something about a general sickness, nothing to do with her. (When i woke up i realized that the other way around could be, so the dream made no sense: for not having seizures im sick. So she could have been lying and being cruel after all. Also i don't believe in something deterministic like that, that i should have because of destiny. Not at all.)
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    14. Tuesday 01/11/2016

      by , 11-01-2016 at 04:11 PM
      I slept at 1 AM. Woke up at 5:30 with good recall. The day before i haven't taken Ginko Biloba, and the day before i took 5/8 of a (60mg) pill. I don't know if this has any effect on lucid dreaming, but anyways i take notes on it.

      I was on a building in Córdoba. A police woman calls Moria (an Argentinean woman that appears often on TV) through the apartment phone (that actually calls between the building). Moria says that she's coming (she was on home arrest). I grab an orange sweater that i think it was mine, and i go outside (from the 10th floor or so straight to the streets...). Outside in a empty shop in front of the building i see Moria slapping another woman, younger but she wasn't "pretty". Then she offers me drugs. I raise my right hand like saying i pass. But then both of them offer me... and i raise again my hand and i say that i don't want anything to do with that violence i saw, and i go away.

      I walk from there and about 20 meters away there was a school sports teacher supervising a football game. I ask if i could get in (so i get away from Moria). Benja Cala was about to get in, but he allows me to get in for a moment. Also i was with a lot of clothes, and i didn't want to take them off probably because of fear of these women; so the football game would make me sweat and i would take them off.

      Then i appear in a room of the school, which was in front of primary. It used to be the TV room in school. We were there with Agus, Joako and Mati, still with the ball. I hear Fabio ask where was i, so i come out to the pitch again. I knew i was going to go out of the game so i walk loosely like making fun and i fall on purpose. There were some girls watching the game, and Mili asks like if she were a lady or something like that, also making fun: "Are you ok Lisandro?". It was funny how she asked, and i realized she knew i was mocking, and she was mocking as well.

      Then i am on the building again. But it looked like my apartment of Cordoba. I was facing the wall that leads to the backyard, and to my right was Vicky. I ask her about her dreams, if she recalled her dreams and ... what about her dreams. She tells me she doesn't have any. I was probably anxious to tell her about lucid dreaming that i went straight to that, instead of telling her that she needed to work on recall. I told her "Ok, Vicky, you in my dreams will have to tell me that they are dreams, what do you say?" Then i start thinking about what i just said. I thought two things: one is regret of saying that, because why would she want to? The second is about the dreams itself. Oh... this is a dream. Im lucid. But the dream starts to desestabilize and i wake up (do i?).

      I try to get back into the dream, by force. I failed, but i didn't wake up either. I knew that if i woke up i would wake up on my bed, in my mothers house in Rio Cuarto. But i appeared on my house of about 10-12 years ago: Baigorria, and i didn't notice something was wrong. I was in my sisters room (which actually looked like my younger sisters room of house Las Heras (next house after Baigorria) and i was telling my older sister about the lucid dream i just had: that i was on a building in Cordoba. The building was located in street San Juan... and else, but i didn't realize that was also a dream and a false awakening.

      Anyways days before i had discussions with my sister, that she wanted to be alone in the apartment... I saw no way of doing that since i had to study for exams, but an opportunity presented so i traveled to Rio Cuarto. In the dream i was also determined to leave her alone... so i was about to leave the house. I had a luggage bag ready and a backpack. I went outside, stopped a cab (remis) and i put the backpack in the back seat. I told him to wait i was going to bring the luggage. I thought that he might just take off, but he was waiting outside. I grabbed the luggage bag, and after that i thought about the tooth brush, and it was upstairs. With the luggage in hand i climbed the stairs, and i realized it probably was too much weight to carry it around, so i left it on the middle of the stairs. I grabbed the toothbrush and noticed that the cab already went away. I went down and outside, and saw that he indeed went away.

      On the streets i call the cab company and i ordered the cab that was on street Baigorria to come again.

      I see in the street some transit police. They were poor. I also see old couples (60 years old), fat, having sex on the pickups... But it wasn't in the car, it was outside... Very undiscrete, and disgusting.

      Then i was about to walk inside but i appear on the cab that had gone. He was in front of my house again. I was in the front seat and i looked at the backseat where the driver was who was inspecting my backpack. Then he realized i was watching him and felt like a slight shame. He gave me the backpack and told me that he thinks that "everything comes back. (Then he said: but some people might need to steal because of the urgency and later pay back, and they choose so.)" I disagreed with him (A. He probably thought something about the law of kamma. That is not always the case. B. People steal because their own lack of virtue. You can be very poor but have a sense of self-respect, and you don't steal.). He came back because he (himself) was recording a video in the cab, to catch thieves, but since he caught himself on camera he came back to record himself also giving the backpack back.

      Then i go outside the cab and i knew that he would go quickly, not slow enough for me to see the plate numbers. I went outside and stood behind the car. And i saw like 5 different plate numbers and every number was constantly changing. I thought it was weird, but probably the driver was doing this (like in the movie the Transporter would do). Also i saw one plate changing, and i gave up thinking that it would be impossible to track him down. Then he went away. (Probably he was waiting for me to give up because he would constantly change the numbers). I wanted the plate numbers so i could go to the transit police i saw earlier. Even though i thought it could be dangerous, because the drive knew where my house was, i was determined to do it.

      Then i went inside the house and Eri told me that i should be careful of the drivers. But while she was saying that she was "playing" with a tiger... A tiger was on two legs leaning towards her, so she had to pay attention to it. And i thought about her hypocrisy and said to her: "Actually one should be more careful about the tigers than the humans".

      Updated 11-01-2016 at 04:59 PM by 53430

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    15. 24 October 2016

      by , 10-24-2016 at 04:08 PM
      Fell asleep at about 3 am. Meditated a bit until 1am sitting in bed. I woke up at 6:10 and just after the alarm sounded, so i had no time for a short moment of sloth after waking up. I dreamt:

      - Similar place to second life, as I were somewhere in France (i don't know why France, i don't know France but Paris). It was a forest at night, on a road.
      - I was in my old house located in street Baigorria. I was reflecting on a thought of a "dwelling place". I really was immerse in that thought and was interesting. I wasn't looking for a superficial dwelling place, but rather the body would be a dwelling place, but even that is coarse. I wanted to realize deeper (jhanas) but i knew i needed practice. There was an app, that was very complete in the sense one could practice and master jhanas with that app. Just like an app that one trains for chess but without playing chess, in a similar way it worked for meditation. I was happy with it because it provided for a good opportunity to master a valuable practice (meditation), but i also knew it was subject to change, to cessation, so it had the potential to be unsatisfying. Then i woke up... (so the app ended up being unsatisfying since i couldn't practice with it).

      Interpretation:

      - I remember a teaching that is "a man enter the restaurant and he is handed the menu. He thanks, he eats the menu, pays and goes home. That man didn't know the menus are not for eating but for ordering the food", in a similar way happened with the app in this dream. I had the information that the app did was well developed, but i didn't test it to try out if it really improved meditation. (Actually it would be like mental exercises, but to prepare for obstacles in meditation).
      - The night before i listened to a talk of AN book of 6 about (annica, dukkha, annata, and letting go of dosa, lobha and moha; release and nibbana). Interesting talk, inspiring. Also i wanted to search for an app of Soundcloud, to store audio files.
      - During the day, yesterday, i observed with attention what was seen and heard (mainly, also felt) and thought about second life, that had poor graphics but want to emulate the world.
      - Dwelling place is a translation for Brahmaviharas. Developing the Brahmaviharas can result in Jhana, which is a temporary home for the mind (a home for the mind would be to dwell in Nibbana).

      I haven't slept aftwerwards because i wanted to get up at dawn.
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