Linkzelda's Dream Journal

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Then the girl sitting in front of me turns around, and guess what? She's a blonde who probably bleached her hair.

Since we're on the topic of blondes ^ now I'm wondering... what is it about blondes that's so powerful for you? I know you must see numerous blondes at school.. so is it that blondes remind you of Eva? If it is, maybe you could deepen the meaning of it past hair color. Maybe pick a trait or emotion to lock onto instead or in addition to hair color.

What sort of interaction are you expecting and/or hoping for with blondes? Is it an emotional experience you're wanting? I'm sure there's a physical experience too but you could get those things from any hair color. Why blonde? I'm not asking with the intent to deter you, I just want to understand why your mind has the strong fascination with blondes, it's unique.

Then the girl sitting in front of me turns around, and guess what? She's a blonde who probably bleached her hair.

I know that was a silly statement of mine, but it's just a pattern I'm seeing.

Since we're on the topic of blondes ^ now I'm wondering... what is it about blondes that's so powerful for you? I know you must see numerous blondes at school.. so is it that blondes remind you of Eva? If it is, maybe you could deepen the meaning of it past hair color. Maybe pick a trait or emotion to lock onto instead or in addition to hair color.

Well, I don't really need to pick on a trait or emotion, since bleached blondes in my dream are either clueless, innocent, naive, pure. Think of them being bleached as being deprived of what natural blonde hair emits. They're more of attention-seekers in my dreams, they keep a safe distance from me, in hopes that I notice them eventually.

Non-bleached blondes are little bit more confident, ambitious, helpful, sexual, etc. They are more direct with me, they come closer to me.

(Like Eva giving me a letter directly, and close to me).

I'm not focusing on only hair color, I already know how they react depending on their hair color. I'm not just seeing them just by their color, their behavior can be interpreted as well.

What sort of interaction are you expecting and/or hoping for with blondes? Is it an emotional experience you're wanting? I'm sure there's a physical experience too but you could get those things from any hair color. Why blonde? I'm not asking with the intent to deter you, I just want to understand why your mind has the strong fascination with blondes, it's unique.

I don't even know why I'm interested in blondes either, the generic dream interpretation is something like

To see a blonde person in your dream suggests that you need to enjoy life and live it up. Be a little glamorous.

To dream that you dye your hair blonde indicates that you literally need to lighten up and quit being so serious all the time. Try to be more upbeat.

Yeah....I know what you're going to say to that....

I'm not seeking for these blondes to appear, they've appeared and made themselves more distinguished than most DCs.

One tried to help me wake up but sitting near my side and smiling.
One gave me a letter (Eva).
One tried to touch me inappropriately and started giggling.
One tried to prove to me she was my dream guide by making her eyes big and scaring me to wake up.

There are many more, but I can't remember them from the top of my head.

Before you say I need to enjoy life and live it up, I can't really worry about that until I get some things done first. I have the rest of my years to enjoy life, but there's a time to just sacrifice a few intentions for a greater result in the end.

Fascinating

Before you say I need to enjoy life and live it up, I can't really worry about that until I get some things done first. I have the rest of my years to enjoy life, but there's a time to just sacrifice a few intentions for a greater result in the end.

Wtf? Do you see what you're saying here? You're saying that you won't allow yourself to enjoy life right now because you have other things to do first. dslfkjsldkjflskdjflskdf. Really?!

Just so you understand, you don't have to live it up in the sense of partying and wasting your life. All it means is to enjoy what you're doing. Enjoy your classes, find something about them to appreciate... yes I know, studying and exams suck balls... trust me, I know. But this is where having a sense of humor is awesome. If you lighten up, you might discover a way to make things like this more fun... for example... you do a lot of simple memorization right? MAKE SOME XXX RATED FLASH CARDS! If naked chicks help you study, use that. If there's something in an xxx rated picture which triggers a specific formula, use that.

I just don't understand why you wouldn't allow yourself to enjoy life right now.

Oh and the blonde thing, maybe you're simply trying to tell yourself to 'lighten up' Enjoy more.. be innocent.. or maybe it's just a reflection of yourself... I don't know. Only you know.

Wtf? Do you see what you're saying here? You're saying that you won't allow yourself to enjoy life right now because you have other things to do first. dslfkjsldkjflskdjflskdf. Really?!

.....I don't think you're evil enough, you're too soft lol. I think demons/spirits/etc like you for your playfulness, no wonder they don't do many bad things to you.

Just so you understand, you don't have to live it up in the sense of partying and wasting your life. All it means is to enjoy what you're doing. Enjoy your classes, find something about them to appreciate... yes I know, studying and exams suck balls... trust me, I know. But this is where having a sense of humor is awesome.

......Having fun in life and being able to survive in the world are completely two different things.

If you lighten up, you might discover a way to make things like this more fun... for example... you do a lot of simple memorization right? MAKE SOME XXX RATED FLASH CARDS! If naked chicks help you study, use that. If there's something in an xxx rated picture which triggers a specific formula, use that.

You're funny. I'm not that perverted. Come on now.

I just don't understand why you wouldn't allow yourself to enjoy life right now.

If you want to make a lot of money, you have to do things people aren't willing to do. Everyone tries to give up on being ambitious, and settle for generic and easier things.

It's easy for any rational person to try and add fun to their life, but what do they usually end up living like in the end? Having generic lives. :/

Oh and the blonde thing, maybe you're simply trying to tell yourself to 'lighten up' Enjoy more.. be innocent.. or maybe it's just a reflection of yourself... I don't know. Only you know.

I'm not using that to tell myself a point that would seem to be the easiest to approach to.

But I guess I am the only person that would know, problem is, I don't even know myself hahaha.

.....I don't think you're evil enough, you're too soft lol. I think demons/spirits/etc like you for your playfulness, no wonder they don't do many bad things to you.

Screw you too! Actually, that took a bit of skill to acquire that trait...

......Having fun in life and being able to survive in the world are completely two different things.

Why is it this OR that? Why can't it be this AND that? (taken straight from Bashar). If the world is what you make of it, why can't it be both enjoyable and allow you to survive? Why you gotta make stuff complicated?

You're funny. I'm not that perverted. Come on now.

Well it's not only about perversion. It's about manipulating a crappy situation so that it's easier to endure. Making it more enjoyable... finding a way to entertain yourself in a task you prefer not to do...

It's easy for any rational person to try and add fun to their life, but what do they usually end up living like in the end? Having generic lives. :/

Says who? If they're adding fun why would their life be generic.. who labels it generic, them or you? If it's you, you don't have to pick the same life they did.. duh. Create your ideal life.. I'm not convinced life has to suck...

If you want to make a lot of money, you have to do things people aren't willing to do. Everyone tries to give up on being ambitious, and settle for generic and easier things.

Faulty logic right there. Not EVERYONE. Some do. Doesn't mean you have to... and it doesn't mean you have to sacrifice anything

But I guess I am the only person that would know, problem is, I don't even know myself hahaha.

Which is why I'm asking you these questions! If you think about it, you might decide some bits of it are useful or useless... but you'll never know if you don't think about.

......Having fun in life and being able to survive in the world are completely two different things.

Really?

Screw you too! Actually, that took a bit of skill to acquire that trait...

Uh-huh.

Why is it this OR that? Why can't it be this AND that? (taken straight from Bashar). If the world is what you make of it, why can't it be both enjoyable and allow you to survive? Why you gotta make stuff complicated?

I think you're a bit swayed into his thought process right now.

Ever tried thinking about things for yourself other than a person who's tongue is saturated with persuasion and compels you to believe that you can relate to it?

Well it's not only about perversion. It's about manipulating a crappy situation so that it's easier to endure. Making it more enjoyable... finding a way to entertain yourself in a task you prefer not to do...

You make it look like I need something sexual to remember, that's not the problem with me, I'm just not motivated as much lol.

Says who? If they're adding fun why would their life be generic.. who labels it generic, them or you? If it's you, you don't have to pick the same life they did.. duh. Create your ideal life.. I'm not convinced life has to suck...

I didn't say life has to suck, I guess you didn't pay attention that in the long term, life will be fun. I was implying that what I'm doing now as a short-term goal that will help in the looooooooong term.

Stop presuming that I think I want my life to suck, or that life should be horrible and sucky.

Faulty logic right there. Not EVERYONE. Some do. Doesn't mean you have to... and it doesn't mean you have to sacrifice anything

Even if you did find a fault in error there, it doesn't really change anything.

Ambition isn't always something constant, if you want to instill some of Bashar's thought process, a guy like him would say there's only so much force you can apply to a specific state of mind. It's usually in short bursts that you constantly have to regenerate to reach the long term.

That's why I said everyone, because again, there's mortality that plays a factor into it, and only a few people will constantly go after these short bursts of motivation.

Motivation doesn't last every single day for decades, it is usually lost and gained again. Because if you think it's a one-shot deal that you have to have all the way through, it's going to cause even more stress on yourself.

Which is why I'm asking you these questions! If you think about it, you might decide some bits of it are useful or useless... but you'll never know if you don't think about.

..............

I may not know why as yet, but it doesn't mean I'm not trying to think about possible scenarios, solutions, paths, etc.

Really?

Breaking it down into human Hierarchy of needs, yes, Sinoblak.

I meant that as being able to take care of some of the rudimentary biological needs first, and then focusing on self-evaluation, spiritual awakenings, enlightenment, etc.

If you lived in a more cynical and demanding times, you might see why I'm presuming those being different.

It's easy to think that you can have both, because mankind has become so dominant that getting things aren't really that hard anymore, as long as you have the cash to get it.

The only "hard" thing we have to do is get a job for the money to get what we need and want.

To survive is a necessity...no use being dead and still wanting to have a fun life, no?

To want a better life is a want. You don't necessarily need it, because you can have fun naturally. But it's the fact that wanting more is pretty much inevitable.

That's why I said they are different.

It all ties down to humans being naturally hedonistic.

We don't have to fight for resources anymore, because money is what helps you get it. And even the challenge of getting money or a means of trading isn't as difficult as it were 100s, 1,000s, 100,000s, or more years ago...

I admit, Bashar's views are extreme. But the world really is what we decide to make of it. In the dream world we're told we're limitless... there are no rules... what if we extended that mindset to waking life.. why can't waking life be how we want it to be?

I mean, we manipulate experiences to fit into how we view the world. If we think we have to work hard so that we can enjoy it later, we'll go through life with that belief until we decide to change it. Nothing wrong with that belief either. To each their own.

But what if we could enjoy it now and later? What if we could redefine the terms of our life and how we choose to experience it. Would you keep the same beliefs or toss it into the pile and try on others?

I agree with the motivation thing, it does come in waves.

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