Leaving the matrix

I'm at my grandmas house and most of my family is there, (even the ones I haven't seen in years because of their own imagined conflict). They're all sitting on the chairs and couch in the living room, I go and sit on the chair by the front door that doesn't work. When I do this a guy I don't recognize walks into the room and to me as if I took his usual chair and everybody knows it or something. I don't get up, so he sit on the couch and gives me more irritated glances, then my walks over and basically sits on my making me move so she also has room on the chair, then she says stuff to me that I guess was funny because she busting up laughing, but I was to distracted by my surroundings. I get up and go into the kitchen and my grandma gives me this giant raisin oatmeal cookie that's in a ziplock bag, I thank her and I put it by the phone planning to eat it later, then My grandma and my sister go into the hallway somewhere, I feel like they're tiptoeing around me like I'm dangerous, and my grandma's trying to get people to not piss me off, I'm confused by this, I walked back into the living room worried that I at some point did something that showed my true colors, I was good at hiding it before. Then I walked to the back of the living room to the chair I always sit on, when I sat down I realize my sister is sat in a chair across the living room, and my grandma walks over to me and gives me my sisters cranberry bread loaf that's in a ziplock bag, it's huge like a pillow, I ask my sister why she doesn't want it, she tells me she doesn't feel like sweets, then my grandma tells me I can cut it like a sandwich and put meat and cheese in it, and I tell her that sounds pretty good, so I get up and hug her, then I go to the kitchen and put it with the cookie, while I'm in the kitchen I see two boys fighting then they exit the door, and I run after them because they're going towards my grandpa and I don't want them to accidentally hurt him. I catch up to them they went in the garage, and they're getting physical with each other, so I pull out my switchblade on them but when I open it my blade fly's lose and almost slices my own finger off, I get transfixed with my knife wondering if a screw fell off or something. Then after I find a screw and think it goes to my knife, I walk back into the house, and see my bread loaf mostly eaten, and my grandma and sisters sitting there looking fearful, and I ask them what's wrong, and I tell them that I don't mind, they can have the rest for all I care, and I just begin to feel sick again that they would fear me for some reason, for something I would never direct towards them. I go into the living room again and everyone is gone, but it suddenly is cold and foggy outside, so I look out the window and see chickens a turkey, roosters, and a little horse, I ask my grandma where they came from, and she says she's just been wanting them, then I wonder why it's so cold right now in the summer and the animals look uncomfortable and I think it will be some much worse for them in the actual winter.