Outsideern

Hello, this dream was so realistic but again surrealistic I know it may happen but I know it doesn't happen. freaky if you ask me.
I dreamt that I failed in life. become an "street woman" or you may also call it an hitman. but I woke up in the dream in an chair. I stood up, and looked around me. I was in an asylium. behind iron doors thick as an wall. I kicked up that door. just as easy it is to break glass. an person keept saying "follow me, follow me, lost child" and I followed that man on instickt. I didn't think, just ran after him. he stopped and said " you child, is still an hurt, pined and feared child in heart." and after a while he said " but I can help you grow up to an beautiful woman, with an purpose in life" I stopped, took up my gun, and shot him on that spot and yelled " you doesen't exsist, you dosen't exsist." and with some blood, and room spinning around, i shoot myself.

I woke up in the same sec that I shot myself. I was in alot of pain. and didn't sleep so good yesterday.

Just to be clear, I don't have english as my native language, I'm norwegian. I'm sorry for the bad english, just don't hate me or kill me in your dream. that will be horrible. be nice and please tell me how Fucked up I am (btw, I'm very sarcastic when I say I'm fucked up. don't take It personally. I am horrible, I love blood, gore, horror, and what you see as a night terror or nightmare is my happy forever ending dream)


Please help me

I'll just start and tell you about my dreams. can tell you about one I had long ago.

I woke up inside the dream. the was total darkness, I scream and scream. I didn't know where I was or what had happend to me. everything was just too realistic. I scream until I got an answer from the right corner in the little total dark cellroom. it said " keep silent". And with my stupidness I scream and scream. two red eyes glared at me, from an finger distanse and turned the light on. what I saw was the most horrible and terror I ever in my life experied. I get shivers down my spine when I just thinking about it. he looked Like a demon. one horn on the right side of his forhead. sidecut, red eyes. long murder nails. skinny. blood everywere on him. around him there was bodies of people I loves and did love In the past. he had eaten everybody and Looked at me with hungry eyes.

he strangeled me and told me, " I did tell you that If you keep silent I'll go easy on you, but You stupid woman. I'll never seen so much stupidness in a Whore" (sorry the bad and horrible language I just recall what he said). He lifted me up in the air, with his had around my neck. he tossed me from the one corner to the upisite corner. when he was done. He put me down and said time for dinner. he grabbed one of my eyes and crushed it inside of his mouth. the pain I felt in the deam was too realistic. he throw up the eye inside my mouth and forced me to eat my own eye. The demon like man. he laughed so hard and lifted up an mirror and told me how pathetic I was. I saw myself. it was so horrible, I was so skinne tat my bones almost came out of my skin, my hair was so dirty and pilled up like regga poeples hair. the bruises and scars. this was one of my most horrible dream that when I woke up. I scream in pain and fear. but, most pain in my right eye.

Is this normal, to wake up because of the Pain in one dream? and yet remember it clerly after 3 months ?