dream fragment

At Frankie's,
Fragments,

Fish coming out of the plants around me as I walk they seem to be coming from anywhere I look - they are alive ...it's a bit weird ~ I want to run but I realise I am dreaming! I stop and allow the fish to land on my hand one by one as if effortlessly manifesting from thin air. I look at them closely - they are mostly black and flat but alive.

"I am dreaming" breath and slow down ✨
I ask my friend what this means what it symbolises - He said it means I must take these abundant fish everywhere I go, give and share them with everyone -" like a gift "I thought and this made me happy - but then he explained that by giving everyone the fish they would then be connected back here to him and that was important. I felt deep inside that there was something not right about this this ...controle ...I wanted to think nice thoughts about it and in giving the fish generously " how nice etc" 🌈but I just couldn't 😬I felt it was a bit of a con and wander if I should be involved in this giving of fish so that this control I could be had...I am puzzled and saddened as I wake.

We are in a big complex - G has a major role to play I seem to be of value and am doing my best yet I am keeping myself in the back ground. I become aware there are some teachings on - being given- I feel I should be there ...but wander why I am not...I see there are some who realy want to go and I could easily go but I am not...I am told its on Tatagatagarba. I finally go in, late, and slip into a seat anf put headphones on. It's wonderfully loud music and I love it - I start dancing and moving around with delight - people think I am a little mad.
I am jumping around on a mooving train I can't find G and shout if anyone saw him...no ...the train is picking up speed going passed the platform now ...I can't be sure G is on the train ...shall I jump off and wait or stay on....I stay on...the train is moving too fast - I am away and hope G is with me🌺

Yesterday morning I had some beautiful moments before waking with being able to watch the dreams forming behind my closed eyes - waves glistened reminding me of Clarity and wisdom with so much space - the description I heard stays with me and this picture was it. As I watched I am filled with wonder

I almost joined it fully ✨

Bed around 9pm. No caffeine again today to see if sleep is better. Took 200B6
Woke around midnight with a nightmare/anxiousness dream of the same flavour as those that have come at a similar close to bed time :

I wake up anxious that someone/thing I'd hacking (🐙🐙 dream sign )into my thoughts ... In the past it has usually been focuses on my computer/phone/iPad but of recent the focus has moved on to my brain hacking 😬 it is ok to laugh about now and I cannot wait till I can laugh directly in the face of the dream ( one of these days when I get Lucid within the moment and see it all as it is 🏅🏅&#127941
I am convinced my thoughts have been programmed to come up in a certain order and it's something I am noticing on the spot...it's scary and I feel helpless as my thoughts race as I try to chase them back to where the hacking began 🏃🚶🏼🏃🏃🏃💥🌩⚡️☄I wake up and it feels familiar - I remind myself it's the dream world ( in case you wonder I have never been into conspiracy stuff - life is too short to invest in that sort of thinking ...anyway)

Lots of swimming 🐙(dream sign)in pools and water moving through it with friends - in the sea/deep and the tide was coming in fast - water came into the houses - afterwards we worked hard on cleaning up to get things back o normal.

Christian wanted to know about the competitions we have been doing and that we have been involved with - I did my best to help him.

Dream about Harry - sorting out glass in his place for recycling - he was confused hanging on to me a bit - then I fall asleep in the bed as he works outside. I sleep and have another view of him watching me affectionately as I sleep ( I have my socks on and never do this in WL - dream sign 🐙

Next did 30 mins wbtb 3.30am till 4am
Laid on my back for some time started feeling vibrations etc Lucid to record at 6am

I am in the water 🐙( dream sign ) I am being pulled along by 2 guys on a rope - they decide they don't want me there anymore and try to push me off but I want to keep hanging on so do so and we carry on moving forward in the water.
FA
I am in a room - I am aware this room is not mine and feel like it could be a mans room ...maybe last night ... I realise my true age and it brings me Lucidity🌸 I look around the room at the cheap curtains and feel the soft carpet beneath me. A wardrobe is next to the bed that shields the door then another window ...I get up from the bed and walk to a chair - I sit down in the chair taking the room in.
I start to wake up in my WL bed and then I an in the chair again - In order to make sure this is a dream I remember my swimming dream from earlier and start to make swimming motions with my arms to see is I can actually change the scene to be 100% sure it's a dream💫 it is - I feel myself in the water and can hear it all around me...

I am then in an oob in this FA room again - floating up through the layers of ceiling and roof - I emerge in the sky. Now I will go for a fly in the sky 😊 so I do. There are lots of DC's walking in the street below me. I remember the totm's. I land/jump on guys shoulders and tell him this is a dream come on - what do you want to do - maybe a totm - to get drunk?
" Whatever 😳" he says
" Ok - give me some whiskey from your pocket so I can complete the task."
He gives me a large bottle from his pocket and I knock the whole bottle back in a 1'er aaaah ; drunk I think ...I get a bit cheeky with him but it's no good and I am glad coz actually I don't want to get distracted - there are more tasks to focus on🌷

I move on remembering my mission - I walk into a place with lots of DC's sitting around and say loudly -
" Where is Sageous? I know your here somewhere ... Where are you?"( my plan is to meet him them ask him to help me with the void bonus totm)
" Over here! I am Sageous" I hear a little voice say over the side of the room.
I go over and it's a little boy with his twin brother next to him.
" Your Sageous?" I ask confused as he looks so young ...
" Yes that's me " he says
" Sageous from DV?" I ask
" No - I'm not him!" Says the boy
" Well where is he then?"I say
" Come on, I will take you to him" he says and I follow him out of the room.
We start to walk down an ally way and I wake up ⚡️🤓

Laying in bed between snoozes I got Lucid again this morning ~
I am laying in bed and become aware I am actually dreaming the scene... I see a light ball of blue light with white and yellow and sparkly floating in the space in front of me ✨it moves towards me and I think it's coming into me. It goes to my left into the pillow where I lay - so I stick my hand into the pillow to pull it out - I pulled a load of sticky goooy stuff out but not the light ball. I experiment with it wrapping it around my hand and arm which looks pink and bright. I wake up

Last dream is a Semi - Lucid where I am preparing for a mission to outer space - I know I am dreaming but decide to go with the dream as its a really cool plot. We have a Tardis - time/space travelling vehicle - it's a octagonal shape with a wee chair set into each of the 8 sides, with a little table next to each chair. There's are 8 of us hand picked for the mission We are told the mission is dangerous but we are all eager to get going.

Went to bed around 10pm
Thought about the tasks of the month before bed -took 200 b6 too

Today I had been - for the first time in a good while - carrying my little buzzing machine which was going off at intervals of about 20 mins apart. When it goes off I take special moments of time to be in the moment and think a little about where I have just been and if things make sense to me

" am I dreaming ? - Could this be a dream, really ..genuinely ...?"
" I am dreaming - yes looks I have 6 fingers - wow how wonderful!'
" Next time I am in a dream I deffinately realise - ' it is a dream!'!

Apart from this I am putting effort when I remember of course to be mindful of the dream like nature of things throughout my WL

1.45 wake up for first dream recalled
I am Taking part in a dance/fun competition - in a show on a stage - at some point I almost fall of the stage with the excitement of it all - laughing etc.
At some point were are watching a miniature version of what we are doing with tiny little characters - one of mine is a little black man who seems to be doing quite well in the miniature show...

I try a wbtb now but really ...I am too tired as have been under the weather of recent - I fall asleep thinking about the book title I see for the totm being " tonight I get Lucid ' - is the book title ...
And thinking of the other tasks too I fall asleep in my wbtb and have a NL dream.

I am looking at the rooms in a big house I am staying in - I am thoughtfully noting that there is something a bit strange with the windows... In this room they have been half blocked ...in the other rooms they are left unblocked ... I ponder this thinking it is strange ( great! I am noticing things )I ask my friend as I am truly puzzled by it and stare at the blocked Windows for a wee while. I ask my friend and she has an answer for it but it doesn't satisfy me...
We are staying in this house and I am worried about the room Tara is staying in... I tell her to lock the door at night but she doesn't take me seriously ..

- I say 'please do it for me' - I then go to her room and try to lock the door that leads to the outside for her ...but the lock is broken ⚡️- I go off to find someone to fix the lock or find a pad lock for the door so that she will be safe

NEXT COMES THE EXCELLENT REPORT OF MY DRY SPELL BROKEN🎇🌅⚡️ -
After being awake for a short while and getting a drink - I have laid down at around 5am ready for a wild on my back and try some SILD and 61 points to get me relaxed. Maybe I drifted off for a bit then I am aware again that I am hovering lightly within my body - Suddenly my legs swing up and a do a kind of up and back flip which is a wonderful surprise - a few more moves like this come to pass and I find myself awake in bed again ...

I hold on and I Deild back in and this time I am more confident about 'knowing' I need to move forward and I see the light from the hatch leading on the stairs that lead from our attic room. I dive over to it and down the stairs like a bolt - as it is an oob type exit I feel the pull of my body in bed is still with me -

Yay breaking a wonderfully long dry spell I got one of the basic tasks this morning ;

Realising I am floating in my bed - after a while of laying down for my first wbtb in simply ages - it's dark as vision is not kicking in yet...I am feeling brave and decisive - I decide to make a go of it and start to scrabble towards the light coming from the open hatch in my attic room - I dive down into the study and walk with speed through to the living room. I am very exited to be LDing after a cool off and feel the need to accomplish a task. As I pass one of the book shelves I stop and reach for a book...at first it is very hard to read the title as it seems to be a super long title that doesn't make much sense....

..I try to focus a bit more on the words " half way there" it says so that must be the title I decide not to look back at the book as I know it could change and I want to remember it now...if indeed that was the tile as it probably did change anyway

I went on to do one of last months tasks when I got out side and after summoning a DC - he came around the corner on a tractor and got out when he saw me - I proceeded to laugh like crazy at him - it was fun as he laughed back at me and we had a genuine laugh ( he was extremely hunky too so the laughing became quite magnetic - I was actually about to do the lucid dare strip off when duty called and I knew it was time to pee - farmer boy - I'll catch you next time 🎇

Fragments + LD 🌸

With Z she is explaining to me she is an aborigines tribes woman and she has to go back to Australia. We are with a tribes man and I look at him or a while - his face is long and slim he has piercings in his nose,ears, neck and maybe other places ...as I do my best to take him in I wake up with his piercing eyes borrowing in to my memory.

With Z again - she wants me to give up my job and go and do a meditation retreat. I say it has to be the right time and that is not now. I show her I am looking after a young boy - he is very undernourished and has tattoos all over his poor skinny little body ~ I hold him close his skin is broken in places with what looks like exma he has had very little care and love and always been in trouble ( a roughe of a character it seems 😕 )realising I have become so very fond of him - like he is my own son - I have only thoughts of wanting to help and love him but others may misunderstand- I hold him close as we skate ( me on skates seems to be a Dream sign I am unsure of using in daily life as I havnt skated in years around laughingly passing by Wonderfull country scenery.

We find my mum and she shows us her plans to build on to her house and I love her ideas -
"your so imaginative " I say and Hug her strongly
I can see us all as a family enjoying her creations of pools and saunas and relaxing sun rooms.

As I walk away I pass a group of 4 DC's sitting chatting - one starts to show me where a bullet went in to his belly and then came out at the back - then he even puts his finger through the front and wiggles it as it comes out the back near his spine!!! I am shocked and look closer - yes there is a hole but no blood or anything .... Is this possible??!! - ha ha ha know what's happening 🌠

" This is a dream - 100% dream " I say Laughing in almost disbelief of the scene of these 4 strange but friendly folk sitting in front of me...

I look again at them as the fact that it's a dream settles in more and more
As I watch the main Guy facing me I see that his head is almost flat and I get carried away looking at his face morphing into different shades and shapes in front of my very eyes - Amazing⭐️
" You are all in my dream - its like you just helped me to realise it! Why did you help me?" I asked the morphing head guy who seemed the most aware of me.
" Can you tell me why are you helping me ?" I asked again intently watching the face maybe a bit too intensely ...

His face morphed finally into space completely and I woke up with the image of his distorted face dissolving into the space it occupied - wow 🌞

I am noticing a dream sign of people's faces... I want to find a way to use this in WL perhaps when I am with people ( I am with folk conversing a lot during my WL for days are generally people occupied whether it be work/social ) Maybe when I am looking at people I can make it a reminder to RRC and RC ⚡️)

Late for work in WL- gotta go🌠

Some fragments 🌸

Being rigorously trained for a competition of some sort - remember getting feed back again and again with no let up - Lucid-dreaming camp😃

Amazing Harry Potter dream bits - rushing about on my broomstick with my fellow gang around and behind me - I am the one in front leading us all out of harms way⚡️⚡️⚡️Suddenly the chase ends in a huge old building where many people are gathered. I know that a cirtain badie is standing at the top of a huge staircase and about to come down the stairs and I shout to my friend and grap her hand yanking her away from his view ( because I am aware that this particular baddie uses a cirtain spell from above on people if he gets the upper view of them ) ... As he comes into view I point my wand and cast a serious spell at him
" expectus ...peliyanuus ' I call out but realise I actually dont know the spell or have forgotten its exact pronounciation( after a recent Harry Potter dream I got an app on spells and was going to learn some in WL ... but I havnt got round to learning them yet&#128171
So I backed that spell up with Another point of my wand and a spell that came to me
" finished, dead!!! " I called out ...
- a bit crude but it worked - as I waved my wand I threw the badie into the center of the room and brought another 2 badies into the mix with him from corners of the room and held them all in the air for a moment suspended and I called out my spell again - " Finished,dead!"
They all fell to the ground from the great hight ⚡️with a 'thump' ⚡️when I released them from the levitation spell 🌺

A memorable dream fragment from this morning 🌷

I was in a room with two friends. One of my friends walked into and through the wall, phasing through in the most natural way. I say to my other friend
" I can do that - going through walls"
" Go on then do it !" He said
" Ok I will. Right now I will run through the wall and out of this room!" I say strongly but feeling a bit nervous about what I had just said ...
I take my stand and then run at the wall focusing strongly on the fact I was about to run and phase through the wall"
I do it and keep going into the darkness behind/inside the wall.
I recognise I am in a dream place some call the void.

I woke for wbtb at 3am
Laid back down for wild at 3.30 just a short wbtb where I Listened to some Binaural beats and repeated some mantra -

During wbtb - relaxed so much and felt the shift of consciousness very clearly - the rest I had was so peaceful - I felt I could stay there forever/eternity - I was able to notice the Yellow pulsating Hi after that and used my imagination to see it as the sun coming over a beautiful vast sea scape - I almost got in but think I tried to step into it a little too early - it hadn't formed around me completely yet...Next time
(I think it was the closest i got to letting the HI form as I realised recently that I don't think i put enough focus into actually even noticing the HI at all in most other Wild dives...and that might be why I have been falling asleep a lot recently. ) I Felt the dream form around me and said" wow this is a dream, it must be a dream..." I woke up tho as I am quite exited ...


I am semi- lucid in the following dreams I had - I was in a prayer service with K , a small group of us sat around him - I noticed I sat in a nice arm chair. K looked over at me regularly and we had a good connection as if we were friends. He then got up to walk over to another area to continue with other prayers, everyone followed - as I got up I realised my mother was with me but very old and frail. As i held her close I whispered to her that she was the most Wonderfull mum in the world, we hugged and I kissed her head.
Then I was speaking with some seekers on the path - one of them who I had been helping
came up to me and said " you guys have a lot of problems with your lineage you need to sort out "
I said to him "oh good - you are understanding that there are problems with everything - there are always things to fix and work on - this is a great example of that - well done'"
Then I went to the group next to me and started to speak about L-
' How amazing he is ; he jokes and keeps things light for the simple reason he doesn't get pulled into anything - nothing! He always wants to remind you to work with things as they are right now! That you have the ability to overcome everything - right now - What an amazing teacher he is!'
One of the girls has a problem with something and feeling very confident and happy
I say ' come on tell me - what is it ? let me help you - whats wrong?'

Then there was a bit where I was looking at my iPad at photos I was taking and one looked distinctly wrong -
I said' I dint shoot that - this must be a dream!'
That bit keeps playing over and over and I know it was dream for sure /after i had done the 'nose pinch' and 'hand rub' - but cant stabilise properly and wake up...

Then later came the Full LD -
I was going to sleep saying ;

'This must be a dream - this must be a dream. Look at the abnormalities!'

Then when I noticed it was a dream I was actually in a dream within a dream!
I am waking up in a room where my mother was and I imagined i went by her in an oobe sort of way - ha ha
' I AM DREAMING !' I say to her as I passed her, ( thinking she could not see me as I was in the dream )
As the moments passed I realised I was actually in a LD for real, even tho at the start of it I had woken up within a dream...Anyway
I feel my physical eyes closed with light coming in at that moment - maybe next time I will open them as I have a feeling this happens a lot and may be something interesting ...
In the LD I bust out of the window in flight - I rub my hands together as I fligh to stabilise the dream - it worked as things became clearer around my immediate view of blue sky and clouds.
I shout out ' Who am I? Take me to who I am!' ( ha ha this was spontaneous although I have been reading in books recently about calling out things to your Sub in your dream anyway my serious capricorn nature is ruling the way here !)
I see before me in flight a long dark tunnel and I fly in it at top speed - I can see what looked like a beautiful sea scape at the other end of the dark tunnel and am curious to get there - Maybe I am flying through a worm hole, I think
I keep flying forward but start noticing tiny scattered visions within the tunnel as if happening deep within the walls of the darkness - A few seem to be of people in different types of museums... From time to time I shouted out these sort of things loud and clear into the darkness as a fly

' Tell me who I am!'
'Tell me what I have to do!'
' Tell me where I am from!'

Again I brought my hands together and rub them and firmly together helping my lucidity to grow more - I few out the end of the tunnel the light was sharp;
...I had reached a vast open space - then it was clear - lots of sea around a large city scape in my immediate view ( like looking down flying over a NY City or a City like that ) As I slow down, taking in the scenery of this big city scape surrounded by an ocean of gentle waves in, I noticed the sky scrapers were actually statues of human beings ... kind of like statues, strange tho it wasn't as if they were just statues as they seemed as if they could have life in them...as I fly by the tops I could make out clearly the facial expressions etc...It was like they were human beings of the environment ( hard to explain but that's the conclusion I naturally drew in the dream that moment ) Not separate from the earth/city they grew yet distinct in each who they were - Woke up soon after

2.37 am woke up and sat up for wbtb - after meditation mantras - speaking to my sub saying that we are one so help me be aware in my dreams ect -" smooth entry" - from wake to sleep with consciousness - some visualising of green fields with abridged to another place but imagining the water under the bridge is drying up so one could walk there where wild flowers are growing...Water all around tho

Set up for sleep at 3.45am - l lay on my back - for wild
at 5.11 woke up after LD - event noted ;

During Wild attempt I am very calm and really feel the transition to the still open space of ( what I think might be ) Delta/nrem - almost like I feel physically lifted to another space - it was more obvious than ever before - I thought for a bit I had gotten too interested in this transition as I seemed to lay there like this for quite a bit longer but consoled myself that I must wait and not turn over - it was still possible the dream was around the corner I muddle with a bit of Sild and played with imagining my dream scene of grassy green banks for a while - at some point I must have drift off as I cannot remember the transition I don't think. Oh yes I was feeling for my dream body a few times but dreamland has not kicked in yet -
Suddenly I am in the dream and doing something I am doing quite often - Cleaning! scrubbing a carpet, I could see the stains on it and I was determined to get it clean - Something made me question myself and in an instance I know I am dreaming !
I know my sleeping body is in bed and suddenly I felt that fact as I lay in bed but I know instinctively I can move my dream body and easily - excellent!

I sit up then stand up and begin walking away from my body, it feels great as I have been wanting todo this for a while now! I can feel the pull of my physical body so i know I need to get on with grounding myself into the dream - I rub my hands together and as I look down at my hands I get a glimpse at them although its dark and it makes me smile - the feeling of my hands rubbing together feels strangely soothing to me. I can still feel the pull so do some mantras -
" Om mani pema hung " - I look and see a sphere of light coming from my body starting to light up the darkness as I say the mantra - It is delightful and I feel a deep happiness inside me
However I then find am back in my physical body in bed now delighted with the oobe experience

Later NL dreams included helping a very old lady get her will to live back although she may not have much more time - I helped clean up he abode and joked with her - she looked lively and happy in the end when we parted

Another NL dream where I was living a second life so couldn't let my friends know where I lived at night - I set off away from them in the darkness of the night and headed down some dodgy/off the beaten track pathways not knowing if I would be safe -'I had to get out of view quick tho as someone seemed to be following me - off I went into the dark night with my bag.

Last night - and this morning had many NL dreams .I did wbtb around 4am - 5 and settled down for WILD ... during the process of falling asleep and as I got closer to wake up time I had various dreams where there was a strong buzzing in the dream and a weird feeling in my face and body - almost like it was morphing or shape shifting - this is something I am coming to recognise now from a few dreams as a sign - I am starting to see it is my self becoming more and more aware of the fact i am dreaming - the buzzing and change of feeling are part of a new intenseness that accompanies the realisation of " I am dreaming " I think - when ones does become lucid. I am hopeful that I am starting to notice this more and more which will result in more Dilds and Wilds