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* I was surrounded by many Tibetan teachers. One of the teachers that were in charge told the others that do not take the drums into town. At this moment somehow I became lucid. Being listed I decided to kind of go along with the dream. I hope the monks take the drums back into the temple. After I did that I decided to walk around and observe the temple.

I noticed there was no furniture no chairs to be seen. Nonetheless the temple was it completely empty there was pictures hung on the wall. As I walked up to the first picture I realize this was Shakyamuni Buddha. I am neatly folded my hands to my heart glad to see this image appearing with in my dream. As I did this the Buddha immediately transformed in chenrezik who also had his hands folded to his heart.

Then I moved on to the next picture as I approached I saw many white beans displayed in this environment. It almost looks like an ancient Indian painting. As I stared at this picture I began to feel incredible sense of a divine presence. Then I walked and approached another picture this one appear to be a picture of my girlfriend in her younger age with blonde hair. As I stared at this picture I began to become uncomfortable for reasons I am unaware.

Then I proceeded to walk outside and I noticed a group of people preparing lunch. I walked into this little shack where monks were preparing meals for everyone. Then a teacher who might have a connection with in real life walked into the sack and greeted me with the words, while I see we have a dream yoga practitioner. He then said, you know you can actually visit others within the dream state right? And I responded, yes that's what they say is true kind of in disbelief almost.

I said it in this matter because I was questioning if he was actually with in my dream. Then all the months within the room started to laugh as if of course it's possible you can be visited within a dream. After this they gave you my plate of lunch and appeared to be kind of a Indian food almost. I walked outside and enjoy the environment just walking around snacking on my food enjoying the meal and this lasted for some time. For eating my food I thought I would say a prayer call the seven line prayer to guru rinpoche. As I began to say the prayer the environment meant immediately transform into kind of a Pure Land which was vast in vivid.

My awareness within the dreamscape seem to provide all of the space within it which was extremely vast and bright. I was very amazed by this and just relax for a bit. Then all these people showed up out of nowhere that I knew. One of my friends ex girlfriends approached me and gave me a kiss on the lips without notice and this made me uncomfortable. She saw that I was uncomfortable and immediately walked away. I also noticed some other people that I knew but didn't speak to them. In the background at this point the monks were playing basketball and just having a good time.

I thought to myself this lucid dream is different and extremely realistic I wonder if this is actually happening on some level. Then I began to take another walk and I noticed that the Sun was really hot. I thought I can I feel such heat within a lucid dream my actual physical room must be hot. Then I try to feel for my physical body and then dreamscape faded. As I did this I noticed that there was just some blank vivid vacuity and I thought I should let myself rest here for a while as some meditation teachers suggest. I did this for a while and notice that this very vivid voice began to speak with in the vacuity.

Most of it sound like incoherent garbled words but some words I can make out. For some reason this voice was very piercing as it was being spoken very loudly which was kind of disturbing. Then I woke up.

First dream

An enormous earthquake striked, causing many buildings to collapse and I was one of many survivors. I was trapped in one of the buildings, and had to crawl under the rubble in search of food and water. I tried to clean out my way through the collapsed complex, up to the surface, but some parts of it could collapse further. Once when cleaning my way, I found a passage I haven't explored before. Four cats ran out of it, and I went inside. There was a huge wardrobe. It was in fairly good condition. I opened it, and in the darkness I saw a horrifying face of a wraith. Even though I closed my eyes, I still could see it. Suddenly the way to the surface has been cleared, and my family came inside to ge me out.

False awakening

I woke up in the middle of the night. It was really dark, I couldn't see anything. For some reason I woke up in a weird position. My pillow was moved to a different corner, and I was lying sideways to the bed itself.

Morning of November 19, 2015. Thursday.



Notas: Cinco libros, todo sobre una nueva versión de la película de 1962 - “Cinco semanas en globo”, con el actor Johnny Depp.

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I am at my sister’s house yet again (on Loomis Street). This sometimes triggers apex lucidity (especially in the situations where she and Bob are leaving the house as here and appearing as if it is the 1970s), though not in this case. I become more aware and focused on the setting as my sister Marilyn and her husband are going out (possibly to a restaurant). It seems to be early in the evening (near sunset).

There is a certain level of expectancy regarding semi-lucidity (as if I am “testing” the setting though not fully aware yet that the setting is of a dream). I keep seeing a teenage version of my wife Zsuzsanna to the north, the left side of the house when looking out at the small front sidewalk perpendicular to the street. Strangely, I know who she is on some levels, though not on others. Still, we hug each other and begin to converse.

After a short time though, I lose focus (possibly due to a noise in my real environment). Eventually, there is an elderly male in the same general area. He seems argumentative. I tell him that he is not invited into the house and that I will “break his head” if he insists on following me.

Eventually, I am looking at five books on the couch, at least three of them paperbacks and each in one of at least three different Languages (English, Russian or possibly Bulgarian Cyrillic, and Spanish - though one also seems Italian - “5 settimane in pallone”). If Russian, it is ambiguous, as the first word would translate as “pet” (only if anglicized) and only “five” if Bulgarian. (Otherwise, I get a strange impression of a movie about a dog, a rooster, a cat, and a few other animals traveling around the world in a balloon as a parody to “The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly” theme - with the rooster crowing, followed by the cat’s “meow meow meow”, then the dogs barking rhythmically in the background; “WOOF, woof woof, WOOF, woof woof.)

Even so, the books are also all apparently different in the story itself (one being almost like an episode of "Gunsmoke” or perhaps more so “Wild Wild West”), even though all are a supposed novelization of a remake of “Five Weeks in a Balloon”, starring Johnny Depp. However, one (unknown?) actor on one cover looks like he is only pretending to be Johnny Depp in a copycat version of the remake. I have a very strange feeling of enjoyment in anticipation of reading all the books, even expecting completely different stories or plot developments in each. However, my dream fades before I am able to read much.

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I sincerely doubt if Johnny Depp will be in a remake of “Five Weeks in a Balloon”. If so, you read it here first.

early: (details overwritten by later epic)

+ (impression) computer coding

+ (impression) squishy spiders

+ (f) sex on bed, short haired blonde

Spoiler for explicit sexy time details:

I'm on my knees, she's lying down flat with her head turned to the side, and I'm stroking my (ahem) in and out of her mouth

+ 3-chapter epic!
1. Car racing vs. IvKr
Scene: empty suburban streets at night. I turn left on to a medium sized street.
Ahead of me and to the right I see IvKr (colleague company "L") turn (to his right) on to the same street going the same way, he goes by me. I see that it is IvKr, and see he is driving a small and very sporty looking car, like a Lotus. Coming up behind him, I flash my high beams at him to get his attention so he sees that it's me. I floor it and zip ahead of him. Then he takes the lead. We're racing back and forth for a while. Our tires are squealing, we're driving very fast, and I feel that it is very dangerous. He takes a turn and loses me. I try to follow him.

2. Reunion with NI
I drive up to house on my right where I hear talk that sounds like they're talking about me, I think they're friends of IK, I hear something like "I think he lost him" (referring to me). I can't see clearly because there is a very tall thick hedge to my right in between me and the house/driveway. It is a family, a mother with children, playing and laughing in the driveway. I get the "brilliant" idea to jump out from behind the corner of the hedge where it ends just up ahead, dousing them with a garden hose, and declaring my presence with a "surprise!". I do this and their response is entirely not what I expected: The mother and the children are standing stunned, in shock staring at me. I realize that I do not know them after all. I profusely apologize for getting them wet and say "please, go ahead and spray me" and they do and I get wet from head to toe.

Then I "realize" that this is the new, secret family of my [sort of estranged now, but very good/close college-] friend and housemate NaIs. Then I see NI walking towards me down the driveway. I was not supposed to find him with this secret family of his. He comes in to the street where I'm standing and I say, "Well!…." and reach for him to give him a hug, we hug. He looks young and is wearing a full but shortly cropped beard, like how he looked in college. I am very happy to see him and feel very warm feelings towards him.

We go inside his house, he's cold, annoyed, and seems in a hurry to get rid of me. I'm confused by his attitude. I ask him what he's doing now, and he says he's the Dean of the English department [I remembered that he worked at a high school: true]. He bring out a stack of papers covered with photos, which I "recognize" to be miniature versions of collages of large posters pasted with pictures of our college days. I say "Hey! I have the full sized version of that one on my wall at home!" [thinking of family collages my wife did]). NI is complaining of the time I'm taking, he says "my A is now an A-", and he's implying that his grade will go even lower if I hang around. Later I wonder if he wasn't talking about student's paper that he was grading instead. I'm moving to the front door to leave, and I see a guitar leaning against the wall and get excited!
"Hey, I can play guitar now, let me show you!", and I pick it up and am placing my left hand on the initial chord position for the intro to "More Than Words" (by Extreme) [which I've been practicing IWL]. He is more irritated and does not want to hear it, I say something like "yeah that would take too much time." I move to the front door which is standing ajar, and I see a tall container of potato salad and a bottle of champagne have been delivered. I pick up the potato salad container and spoon some on to a plate and bring them to NI. NI gives me the spoon back of potato salad, he doesn't want a spoon that I've touched (?). There is a guy at the front door.

I head out to the street, sad at the poor reception NI gave me. There is a box there of my personal trophies? I take one out and unfold it, it is like a trophy drawing I made in grade school. My wife (?) says something. I fold it and put it back in the box.

3. [Transition forgotten. Driving around looking for food?] Car, company "K" people
I'm standing in a woman's driveway looking at her car with her. I "recognize" her as someone I worked with at company "K" (?). It's like the car is a convertible, or was sliced in half horizontally so that it's a top-down view of the bottom half of the internals of the car. The entire thing looks like a large engine. It is very messy, there are lots of green bits of debris all over it. Lots of little round green peas, like from the Wasabi pea snacks. There are also a bunch of bits of juniper leaves/needles, from the Juniper trees that are standing right next to the car, which apparently have just been trimmed and all the little bits fell into the car. The car has what looks like a lot of wooden (living?) branches intertwined. A bunch of the branches are capped with plastic mechanical attachments to electrical wires (like they're spark plugs?). The woman is thanking the people there for "helping me with the braiding" (of these branches?) and mentions something about how it was all "just cleaned."

I move to the car in the adjoining driveway and put in the key to the ignition? Some people come over and say s.l. "who are you, what are you doing?" I was explaining that I needed the car to (go somewhere?). There is a guy I "remember" [false] from working at company "K", he said it was OK to use the car, it was his house.

I go into his house, and he leaves. I'm sort of just standing in the living room when 3 big guys come in and confront me. I recognize them as people I knew at company "K". I mention to the main big guy that I was at company "K" too, he doesn't believe me.
I get angry for not being believed, and I try to prove it to him. I eventually get the idea to rattle of the name of people I worked with at company "K": JL, CD, PJ, and I'm visualizing many more people from different groups, but just can't remember their names. I say what company "K" did: "we worked on these "O" minicomputer systems and switched to the "D" "A" systems later. The guy seems to relax and accept me at this point.

There is a bag of candy on the ground. "Oh, candy!" the big guys say and reach for some. There is a sharp foldable knife on the candy and I wonder what it's doing there.

I need to get to the FCC in B, and I need a car. They're telling me I can take one but I have to bring it back, and I'm really confused how I'm going to drive there, bring the car back, and yet return to the FCC. I also think I can't leave the car overnight in the parking lot of the FCC because it will get towed.

I look at my digital watch [don't wear one IWL, haven't for many years] and the time is something like 22:19, but it is early morning/full daylight outside. I think this is because I'm on a business trip and my watch is still showing my home time. I'm also confused about days and thinking about Thursday/Friday.

*I am walking on this beach like sandy ground as I cough up a scroll. As I do this immediately become lucid. I pick up the scroll off the ground along with two other scrolls beside it. Out of curiosity I begin to unravel the scrolls and try to make out what they say. As I do this I realized that I can't make out absolutely anything written on the scrolls. As I do this interesting Li enough I actually see myself begin to lose lucidity and fall back into non lucidity.

(Nov. 18, 2015).

A couple of snippets.

I'm giving CNG a ride around to places. Not sure where. At one point we are trying to get back to my place, and we park in a sort of half-circle driveway at my house. But it's really run down, almost dirt, and on a hill type thing. The house is a shack.

Her car is already there for some reason. It's a pickup truck, like one my dad had. A little older and smaller, but red and similar. As we walk up to the house, I notice that the driver door is open. And I remember (within the dream), that the door was open last time and I had forgotten to close it. I get worried that someone may have stolen something. But I look inside and nothing looks stolen. The stereo, everything. As I'm shutting the door, I notice that some sort of interior indicator light is on. Something like a "check engine" light, but not that one exactly. So I note that the battery must not be totally drained from the door that's been open for at least a day. I ask CNG something about her cat. I don't remember the question.


It seems like I'm making progress on the WILDing, especially in stabilizing HI while maintaining awareness. There was an episode where I was in a dream-like state -- I think it was after WILDing to get HI, and in the scene I was sitting on a bed, on my knees. I wasn't yet in a dream, but wanted to keep the HI stable while entering a dream. I then thought I'd look in a mirror, and a handheld mirror appeared in my hand. When I went to look into it I woke up. The sleep paralysis was pretty heavy.

A fragment: I'm outside, with a couple of other people. For some reason we're at the edge of a canyon. I'm trying to hit someone on the other side with some sort of cannon that shoots something. Something non-lethal, like a paint ball. At first I aim directly there and shoot, but gravity brings the projectile down and it's not even close. So I aim upward for the next shot. [end of scene].

In another fragment, I'm on a beach with MM and SM, and we're sitting on the beach and it's getting really windy. I'm pointing out to MM that the waves look really big. The wind is coming from behind us, so it is blowing the waves out. Even the ones that look like they'll make it to us don't. Then I notice one really huge wave that is heading towards us. It's massive. We get scared and start to leave. We're not running, but walking quickly. But even that one gets blown out, and it doesn't make it all the way in.

I leave anyway. I'm walking away form the beach. There's a paved road that leads away, and I'm walking on a sidewalk next to an under-construction building. The sidewalk is covered with a roof for safety. And on the side is a wooden beam, like a small log, round and about 6 inches in diameter, that is holding up the roof. Some pieces of paper, flyers, are nailed to it. I notice that they are flapping around in the wind, but that the wind is super strong. Enough so that it really should be blowing the paper off the post.

In the next scene, there's a go kart track thing. It's outside, like a bike path. There are a couple of people, friends, who are driving really fast along the track. And then suddenly we see a woman trying to chase them in her own go kart, like she's mad at them or something.

I consider putting something on the track so on their next lap around they'll have to slow down and she'll catch them. But I don't. But when they come around on the next lap, one of the guys is going slow, like something happened. Like his go kart broke own or something. I couldn't see the other two.

No dream recall last night. But I was trying to WILD, and managed again to get some solid HI. Though still as soon as the HI gets solid and dream like, I lose awareness. It's like the two are mutually exclusive.

There was one event where I felt my watch tap my wrist right at the beginning of a dream or something, but I didn't RC. It was almost like I was still half awake in my bed, adn so just blew the RC off. Not sure if I was awake or not when that happened. But I need to resolve to take the RC's seriously after a watch tap.

Morning of November 18, 2015. Wednesday.



In what starts out as a typical light sleep paralysis apex lucidity state of a perceived sensual nature, my level of lucidity becomes slightly subdued to where I am not as focused on control of any kind.

I find myself walking near either the Hinkler or Chermside Shopping Center (though it seems more like Chermside in some ways, though we have not been there in years). I end up walking on my own (after absentmindedly turning to the right) through a different narrow fenced area while Zsuzsanna is walking more towards the outer exit from the parking area and outside of the “fence maze”.

There are flowers on either side of each fence section and the fence layout is quite complex, with the sidewalk also going at different ninety degree turns over a very short distance. I get the impression that I will reach a dead end near the shopping center’s outer wall (though this is not certain as there may be a couple openings on the side to the internal parking area sidewalk perpendicular to the street sidewalk), though this does not seem that frustrating. In fact, I feel quite blissful and Zsuzsanna and I smile at each other.

My lucidity peaks again and I wake fairly quickly with a bizarre hypnic jerk where both of my legs (I am on my right side) flex up to where I am in fetal position and then they kick out to being straight again (almost like a sideways kangaroo hop). Presently, I cannot recall any other time when a hypnic jerk involved both legs or was of this movement. Zsuzsanna and I laugh then she tells me she had been dreaming about a waterfall. In the more distant past, this type of dream setting was often annoying. It occurred mostly around the middle to late 1980s, I think (though there were earlier sparse instances), and most often features the “fence maze” at ground level on either side of an overpass, often with the exit gate (to the street or intersection) locked when I get to it so that I have to go back around to try a different path.

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Note: Just as I only experience astounding continuously morphing hypnagogic vision when fully awake and just as I mostly only experience blissful (not frightening in any way as others have claimed) states of sleep paralysis (and always try to intensify the states, usually successfully), my hypnic jerks (which are claimed to occur “just as a person is beginning to fall asleep”) only occur after I have fallen asleep and am in a (often only partially-rendered) lucid dream state.

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Bed @ 2230, SSILD
Alarm @ 0200

Woke @ 0200

Airport adventures
I'm in an airport with a friend. We've just finished asking a couple of security guards a question. We pick up our passports from a little table - beyond which is a large room they seem to be guarding entrance to and/or exit from - and walk back the way we came from. Now my friend and I are in a hallway with lots of right angles. The hallway continues to our left; the woman's room is in front of us, the men's room is to our right, and the hallway continues the other way behind us. My friend asks me if I want to visit the other side of the runway. At first, I start to say no, that I've already been there; then I get confused and ask if this is an airport where you get to the other side by going over or under. I know I've gone to the other side in an airport where you go under, but I don't think I've ever taken a skyway over a runway before. He replies you go over, so I agree. Now we're in the men's room. A voice on the PA is counting down from ten, and I know that when it reaches zero a security pulse is going to hurt a lot (probably taking off twenty HP) if we're not in a designated safe area. I start running through the bathroom, hoping I can get to one in time; then I realize it's hopeless (the bathroom is huge, it'll take seconds just to reach the exit) and stop near some stalls. A door is closed, so at least it's not just my friend and I who are going to take damage.

Now I'm outside climbing around on what seems to be a long-abandoned water park that was built on the runway. I briefly try to slide down a dry chute before realizing that, though parts of it are smooth, others are badly worn away revealing a pebble-like texture beneath. Someone I don't know doesn't seem to care and comes sliding towards me; somehow I get out of the way in the nick of time. He asks if I want to come with him to get a better view. Now the two of us are much higher on the ruins looking out over them. He says something else.


BTB @ 0230, SSILD. Woke @ 0620.

Lifelike video games
I'm playing a video game with @Jakkarth, but I seem to be physically present. We're standing outside in an area we've just cleared of the enemy. Our surroundings are falling down, though whether from age or from the fighting I can't tell. We take a breather, then Jakkarth fiddles with his controller - looking like a large console controller - to bring on the next wave. A huge robot, taller than we are, almost as wide as the area we're in, and roughly triangle-shaped, comes around the corner and heads straight for us. It's spinning, and it's fast. We'll be crushed if we don't move quickly. I start running the other way, heading straight for some kind of fence, boosting myself with my right hand to vault over it, then turn right into the next area, which seems to be the clothing and/or bedding section from a department store. The robot crashes through the fence and starts coming for me, knocking down everything in its path. I somehow manage to get some height and jump as it comes for me, landing on top of it. I'm surprised to see Jakkarth on top of the robot controlling it. Traitor! I run up to him and point my weapon at him, laughing that I've won. He's clearly having a good time too, good-naturedly complaining that he almost got me. He resets the scenario so we can try it properly.

I'm fighting with my back to a wall, the corner a little to my right, my team around me. We all have some kind of energy rifles, as does the enemy. They're taking cover behind some buildings about 50 feet in front of us, while we're pretty exposed. I need to reach into a window behind me to press F3 on a keyboard (black), but there's an enemy in there who's somehow messing me up. My "mother," also part of my team, comes over to me and initiates a mind meld with me. With the mind meld in place, I can see the world through her eyes as well as my own, and I'm able to reach behind myself and press F3. Now that that's done, I head along the wall away from the corner and turn left down a corridor. I realize she never ended the mind meld and wonder what effect it'll have on things. I think about Vulcan children and wonder how this affects their relationships with their parents and when they learn to do it for themselves.


Finding the carpets
I'm talking to a woman in a squarish, medium-sized room just off of a gigantic oval-shaped room. I direct her to a cubby on the far left of the gigantic room saying she'll find the rolled-up carpet there. Someone else reminds us that there will actually be two carpets. How had I forgotten that? One is larger, one is smaller - I should have remembered that Aladin actually had two carpets. Now I'm watching someone small entering a store wearing a strange costume with a really poorly-fitting mask. He muses to himself that Sonic has made this far too easy since he already has a reputation of handing out candy to kids. As he's pondering that, I see Sonic in the store, giving a chocolate coin to a child as he passes. I consider that Sonic's spines look droopier than they should. I realize the small guy's costume is supposed to be Sonic, but wow is it bad. After Sonic leaves the store, the guy goes in, intending to bribe the kid with more candy to give him information about the carpets; but the store keeper, thinking the real Sonic has come back in, comes over and starts giving him chocolate coin after chocolate coin, never giving him a chance to talk to the kid.


Fragments:
I'm driving on a small road and turn left onto an even smaller one, winding my way along a twisting path between small homes.

I'm parked at the top of a parking deck. As I close the van doors I leave the windows open so it doesn't get too hot, but as I walk away I realize there's a high chance of rain today and I need to go back to close them all.

I was playing football for my old high school team and coach alyward was still head coach and we were approaching half time when he ran a play where the tight end did a inside route then an outside release to 90 degrees and then dropped the ball. I said coach put me in! he said you better catch those balls or I am going to put pines in.

Suddenly the game was over and I was headed back to the school to get ready for a camping trip. On my way back I encountered a track of sorts with a bunch of cars on them that were slightly oddly shaped. I ended up underneath the track and these subway trains started roaring through and were the lighting the track up with green fire. They were very loud and just before the second one roared by I asked the guy that was in charge there if I should travel to school by another route, if it would be faster? he said yes it would be. So I looked for the way out and eventually had to squeeze my way out of a cat door kind of thing. I ended up on the tracks outside and there were the strange free to use cars for students. I selected a black sporty one and a kid just in front of me whipped out and took off with a smug expression on his face. i hopped in the black sports car and took off myself. It didn't handle very well haa, I tried whipping fast around a corner and I had to pay very close attention to make sure I didn't die. I ended up going through a tunnel following the van that had the rest of the people in it that I was camping with. when we got there it was just a rock jetty and I said no bugs at least.

I was had a dream that involved fishing and the water was very clear and I said all we have to do is find minnows and those trout will eat them up and we don't have to bring food then, and everyone agreed I guess.

early:

+ zappy box, guy with everything, plugs large thing into outlet with very specially shaped plug

+ (impression) college football game?

later:

+ baby beach, aftermath of battle, I recognize [false] colleagues crawling up on to beach, wounded, a guy is crying for help to save the baby, "save it! help!", bone/branch is stuck in its cheek, guy tries to pull it out but baby screams in pain, it has all sorts of strange bone/weird things growing out of it, it killed its mother giving birth to it

+ dragon drugs, addict-henchman packing up pile of orange/white drug capsules in back of car, tries to stuff a handful in his sock ("no stuffing them in your socks!" and smack him on the [butt?]), he tries to set aside another pile and chastise him again. Someone asks how do we know they're not poisoned? Get the addict to take one, he lies down on the sloping ruffled concrete ground [childhood home driveway?].

A dead black dragon / flying dinosaur falls from the sky onto a nearby leafless tree with a "whomp!" sound (glance at it then ignore it, just saying "it's probably time to get out of here")

+ (new world/level?), pirate bar, agressgion with store owner, "you've changed" he says
I arrive with my group to a new level/world location. There is a building with a large sign outside (red neon?), we go inside, it's a pirate bar. The "captain" is a middle aged buxom woman lying (passed out?) on one of the tables, dressed up like a male pirate captain. My group sits around one of the table. I sit on a small sofa/love seat nearby the "captain." (Narrator?) tells me that I must make the captain want me to stay. I may have to risk the mission by bluffing that I'm leaving. I stand up so that the captain can see me and be impressed by my attractiveness. I say "well, we're going to have to go now" and move to leave. The female captain gets up and asks me to stay. I offer her to come and sit with me.

I'm in a store trying to get a (weapon?) from the shop keeper. I say I've been to the (pirate bar) world. He doesn't believe me. I get very angry and say "I can prove it, I can take you there" in a vicious, hard-toned voice, getting right up in his face (he is wearing sunglasses and has different colored eyes?). He says "you've changed!" (I used to be wishy washy and now I'm a badass). I realize it's true, I'm strong and confident now.

+ wedding / joke
I'm observing the preparation for a wedding. Outdoors, a large estate. I'm not sure if the wedding is going to be here, or not. It is my sister's wedding. They're putting up a cross at the altar. Sister asks to put up the draping over another place. I look at the main cross and see that it is a mixture of a cross and a star of David. I'm on the side of the thing so I have trouble getting a clear view of the symbolic patterns. My father makes a complex joke about the powers of the universe being displeased about this mixed symbology, ending with "Hawkin' and consuming'" a pun about Stephen Hawking.

+ book store: poker books, blackjack books, I recognize some covers for blackjack books I've read, I think some are about the Hi-Opt system and other systems. I may like to read the poker book because I don't know how to play poker. I see a Russian board game (based on chess, every piece is a queen?), then my eye is caught by sheet music on the lower shelf: chamber music pieces for group of recorders + <my instrument>. Read the music, evaluate the notes ("that one is outside my range, must be for the bass clarinet"), hear a chorus singing, it's lovely but where will I find a chorus to play with us?

+ drive on road with wife, 7-eleven on the left, that's there our sons S2 gets his (game cards/gum/candy?), see game/gift/candy store on left, pull in. A woman there mistakes out minivan for hers, she places a hand on top of the roof in the middle of the windshield and holds on, and looks at the bumper which has fallen off, realizes that it's not her minivan. I tell to the attendants at the gate/crossing guard that we will only be a short while and so will not need to pay.

Inside the store a young female staffer tells me all about their pricing plan. It's a long detailed explanation about how they charge by the amount of time you spend in the store, and how this allows them fine-grain control over costs in order to make a profit. I couldn't care less about their profit and wonder what would happen if people just didn't come to the store. I'm checking out at the cashier, and ask how much it costs. Answer is $2/3. I get out cash from my wallet and offer them to take the amount. I see in the pile that they take that there is a $5, they're taking too much. I ask again how much and they say $8.

(Is it just me or does anybody else look forward to finding out what our brains come up with while we're sleeping? It's like lucidity is a bonus... that i have yet to master.) Anyways...

So in the dream, I'm in a boarding school with bestie, (Every single one of my dreams has somebody I know In real life) and at first I'm under the impression it's an all girls but then I meet this boy. He says he will show me around and I agree leaving bestie to fend for herself (I don't see her again in the dream).

We go off and cause trouble for the students and teachers with pranks and all (but I have trouble recalling what happened after but) We had a lot of fun getting to know each other, he's like the brother I always needed. (Dream friendzoned xD)

I wish I could remember what he looked like or what his name was. I feel like I knew him but that my mind gave him a different face. Strange.

Suriname
I'm in Suriname with my family. I'm with my aunt and her oldest daughter / my cousin. I'm not sure if my mom also joined. We are visiting an aunt who lives in Suriname. I'm the last person to walk from inside the house to outside. I stand next to the car, while the rest is already in there. It's a 4x4. I'm not sure of the details anymore, but in the end they drive a bit through the street and I'm standing to the side of the road. I think it was a sunny day, with palm trees and a road next to the beach. The person driving (my aunt) is driving forward and wants to park inside the garage in the house. She hits an edge. The car bounces a bit, but it's no problem.

Appetite
My friend Sel, who I haven't spoken to in a few months, has tagged me in a FB post. It's an article from... Buzzfeed? The article is about her. It says something about how people have been photoshopping the pictures she has put on Instagram. The photo that I can see on FB is one where her boobs have been deformed from the photoshopping.

Think it's part of the same dream. It's a sunny day and we're sitting on a patio. I can't see (or don't bother) to look beyond the borders of the patio. It seems to belong to a restaurant. I think this patio was the background for the photoshopped photo. At one table there are 2 people sitting and at another table a small group. At both tables I know someone. I think I'm with the small group at first and then standing next to the table of the 2 people. It's something about the guy (an Indonesian I believe) having finished an entire cake in just 10 minutes. It doesn't seem so ludicrous... Then I see the platter the cake was in. Wow! In just 10 minutes?

Gear up
The details of this dream elude me quite a bit. At first there's something with 2 undercover cops and their dog. They are after someone I guess. They get stopped by a cop with a shotgun and a bulletproof vest, who doesn't know that they're undercover.

Next thing, they are all by a tent. The wall is lined with weapons. Not only guns, but also axes and other stuff. One of the undercover cops is standing next to it. With ridiculous precision he throws an axe to his partner, who is sitting on a tree log, next to the regular cop. His partner catches it and I think he chops at the head of the cop 1 single time.

I'm standing on the 2nd floor of an open building. It's night time. The wall of weapons is there. I'm with a girl, though I can't recall who. We gear up, getting ready to defend ourselves or go after someone or something. At one point I'm sure I took one of the 3 axes, but I can't seem to find it on my outfit. I also take a can of graffiti(?), but it's empty, so I leave it behind. When I pressed the button to check I could hear the familiar whizzing sound of just air leaving a canister.

Rip off!
I'm in Indonesia. It's a sunny day and I'm driving on a moped. I'm on my way to a sekolah tinggi (high school). My new high school? I have issues remembering the exact direction I took at the start of the dream, but I end up on a parking lot on a roof. I'm lost. I look around me. At first there is a fog, so I can't see that much. I had a map (Google Maps?), but I'm not sure what happened to it. Eventually I see some city landscape, as well as some rural area between mountains. I see some roads. The direction I'm looking at is a dead end. I look at my map, which is carved into a cucumber which I hold in my hand. It's blurry and there is only 1 clear line. There's a teenage Indonesian boy standing on the roof. A cheery fellow, a little bit chubby in the cheeks. In Indonesian I ask him how to get to the school. He isn't sure, but he knows that I'm headed the wrong way. He gives me the directions to the road which I just came from and to then take a right. I can see the road from where I'm standing. The 'take a right' was obvious, as I came from the left. The road looks like it's 1 class below a highway. It's built along the coast and slants to the right. From my perspective, there's a white arrow on the road which tells you that you're supposed to go to the right. I think further ahead is another arrow. I follow the road with my eyes and finger, but eventually stumble into the fog. I ask the boy what next. He tells me he isn't sure, but to take a left. I ask him when. I think to myself that it's at the end of the road. He tells me the same. I get back on my moped. Politely he says something along the lines of 'sorry, you forgot the parking money'. He says something about downstairs, which is odd. He tells me the fee is 5.000 IDR. What a rip-off! I take out my wallet from my back pocket. I don't want to give him 5.000 IDR, but it's the smallest note I have. The note looks strange though. It's red. This feels a bit wrong.* I hand it to him. Now he says the fee is 10.000 IDR. I become mad. I consider switching back to English to show him that I'm a foreigner and show him just exactly how mad I am. I think I start in Indonesian, but end in English. I lay a curse on him. I do it using my Will.^ I'm not sure if it will work. Actually I'm just mad and I don't really want something to happen, I just need to vent. I decide not to use any poison.

This dream was quite interesting due to the details and the fact that we spoke in Indonesian.
*5.000 IDR notes aren't red. More like brown, green and yellow.
^I'm reading a book where sorcerers use their Will to perform magic.

Blegh
I'm in my student home, which looks way different from how it should be. I'm in my room. The ladder to my highrise bed is way longer than in reality. I've positioned it at an angle, allowing me to use it as an exercise bar, hanging from just my hands and moving forwards and backwards. Man, this is pretty easy. I don't know why people are having difficulties with this in Ninja Warrior. Or maybe I'm stronger than I thought. I think about Sel. This makes me feel as if this dream was before the dream with Sel.

I'm walking in an enormous AH [grocery store]. I want to go home. I think it's dark out already. I'm headed towards an exit. I know my train will depart soon and I'm close to the train station. I keep walking, but I don't seem to make much progress. It's as if I can't move fast, despite my best efforts. Somewhere in the mean time I look at my phone. I have a new email on gmail. It's from Dinne, who is both my colleague and my housemate at this point. I had sent her a one-liner with a joke that she apparently didn't perceive as a joke. She replied back along the lines of that if I fuck with her, she fucks with me. It's about her having mentioned me somewhere in a way that made me seem like a cheap asshole. This has to relate to Bart, our boss. Wauw. A colleague is one thing, but if even the boss is involved. I don't wanna work in a place like this anymore. Then I realise that she is also my housemate. Fuck. I guess I should knock on her door and go talk to her.

I'm in the kitchen. It's really big and interesting in some ways. It's made mostly out of wood and the seeming lack of a plan while building and decorating it make it appealing.

This dream really left me feeling blegh. Also not so sure about the order of events.

A person with long hair threaten to take my kratom. Then I realize he also wanted to kill me. He left the room briefly and I thought to myself well if this is the case then I have to retaliate. When he came back into the room I stab the person to death.