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Date: 12/17/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Fail )
Total Sleep Time: 8 (ish) hours

Welp...I tried to duplicate my success from yesterday by planning all day with intent to WILD and doing my WBTB for at least 45 minutes. So would someone please tell me why the hell my job called telling me they needed something emailed to them within the hour (and the job would take me 2 hours to do) ???!!! By the time I got finish with the work there was no way in hell that I was able to go back to sleep. Oh well, there is always tomorrow...

Dream 1

I was surrounded by alligators and I decided that I would eat them so I started skinning their hide and removing their guts to make a soup. There were all sizes and shapes of alligators, but I wasn't afraid. I told myself the more the merrier for my alligator soup .

Dream 2

I saw a baby in a woman's uterus and I was able to see this with my naked eye. It was so vivid...his facial features were so clear to me. I saw that the baby was holding a miniature sword in his hand and smiling...like he was going to be a knight. Even though this was a very short dream I must admit, I believe this one was one of my favorites because the baby looked so confident and brave .

Once again, I was sleepy at 15.00 so i took a nap and set my alarm for one hour later, it is hard for me to sleep but after 30 min (im guessing) I loose consciousness. No dreams yet. The alarm wakes me up, i turn it off being totally sleepy (I almost cant remember this) and continue sleeping. After a few minutes I wonder if I can move, I try to move my arm and let it fall to the couch. I feel how it hits but it feels weird. Then I start imagining me running or jumping and then crawling. Suddenly I feel semi dry grass in my hands and after a few seconds I start seeing it, it is very blurry although, it isnt a vivid dream, then I just woke up. A friend of mine called me at my phone to hang out.

So, I don't think that I'm connecting two unrelated dreams, but there might be some lapses in the events that take place between them. I was in a large group of peers, and one particular person singled me out in an asshole manner. I, then said that I gave "zero shits" about his comment and stormed off feeling self-righteous.

Then, I began juggling (something that's sort of a new hobby). I started with three balls and had decent success. It was at this point that the dream took a lucid turn. I realized that this would be a perfect place to practice juggling more than three balls. I tried five and failed horribly. However, because I was lucid, I never had to pick up the balls but rather summoned them again in my hands. This repeated for some time until I directed my lucidity towards better things.

I was presented with a large hill with a steep incline that seemed to host a terraced coffee plantation. I pointed at my goal and began to fly. I soared up the hill and began trying to summon a sexual buddy. I humorously kept failing in my expectations with numerous guys who, at first glance, looked like women. Eventually, I settled at the top of the hill for some conversation. I guess I was recognizing how futile my attempts were. This is where some fuzziness lies. I conversed for a while about the nature of this lucid dream, but almost all of the details escape me. I, then, realized that there was a woman in the group and asked if she cared to please me. She said that she did, and we left for a side room. I was aware that I might be losing lucidity due to over-stimulation, but the act was incredible. I kept rubbing my hands and looking at my dream body to stay grounded. Before I climaxed, I woke up in my bed.

My major take-away from this dream is that I need to be a lot more clear in my course of action for future lucid dreams. I think my nonchalance is aiding in my quest, but a little more direction would help me when my creativity fails and I solely seek out sex. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Moderation is key.

Ok so I did a WBTB which resulted after not being able to get to sleep for the first thirty min. of trying to in this LD:

Ok so I was in my room, but it looked totally different than in real life. It was nighttime, and the sky was completely dark without stars. I did a RC (looking at my hands), without a proper reason. So I was lucid. I stabilized the dream and I tried to fly, I did manage it, but because of the excitement I woke up, so the stabilization wasn't really effective.
I forgot to DEILD.

The second dream I recall was this:
I was in a room with another guy but idk why. After taking quick look around the building I was in - it was a rather large bungalow - I decided to talk to the guy. He was ~18 years old and pretty nice. He had short brown hair and looked very similar to a cousin of mine (it wasn't him though). We talked about music and we decided to play a couple of songs together. Then we played some old-school video games like the original mario and zelda, although they were not very 'real'. Then he showed me that he liked to program his own videogames, too. Sadly at this point I woke up. The dream was very calm, no things I had to do and I didn't have any fears etc.

I decided last night that I would write down every dream I had right as I wake up (as inspired by the fryingman). When I got up, I had 5 different dreams written down, but I only remembered writing 2

fragment 1:
I was on someone's driveway and I belonged to a family of people that I have never met in my life. I was their daughter that had died not too long ago, I was also a very powerful witch, coincidentally. They had just resurrected me and I told them that they had to kill me because this would come back to them all, before it was too late. So I took out a wand and gave it to them to plunge through my heart, they refused. Then one guy tried and I smacked the wand away, laughed like a villain at him and said, "MUAhahahaaha!! I'm not really your daughter, I'm her evil grandmother and now I'm going to murder you all ". Then the daughter's mother (my now daughter, since I was evil grandmother) came up and stabbed me in the back with the wand and I melted. At this point, I was confused as to how I wasn't dead since I saw a pile of goo in front of me. I realized I was dreaming, became lucid. I immediately ran down the street and took off flying like a jet plane. I could hear the sounds a jet plane makes and feel the wind blowing past me at extreme speeds. I sped off faster and faster until I was in space, looking down on the Earth. I tried to make it turn into a million little earths so I could eat one and find out what it tasted like, but I woke up instead.

dream 1:
I finally fell asleep again after tossing and turning for awhile, I had woken up to arm numbness and then that killer pain (anything that comes back to life is gonna hurt). So I remember I was studying for a final, and my sister was there bothering me. She wouldn't leave me alone, she kept putting some pasty goo on my textbook. I went into a room and tried to barricade the door but all the stuff turned into...I guess I would describe it as being a bandoneon, it all compressed but it was still the barricade and not a musical instrument. I don't know. But yea it all compressed when my sister tried to open the door. At this point, I knew I was dreaming again. I shoved my DC sister aside and walked through a glass windowpane to get outside. I tried to turn the sun into a million little suns so that I could eat one or have them fall down on the earth and run away in horror. One of the two. Wouldn't work. So I said to the dream, "Okay, I'm ready to meet you now Mr. God". I looked around for a little bit until I saw two figures standing on a lawn. One was my grandpa and one was this nice looking guy that was wearing jeans, one of those puffy vests that have feathers in them, and a trucker hat. I walked up to my grandpa and asked him, "Are you Mr. God?" He told me, "No, but I'm going to be with you as you meet him". I thought that sounded nice. I gave him a big hug because he died almost 10 years ago. We were walking over to Mr. God and I had the single thought, what if this dream falls apart right now. Instantly, the dream starts to fall apart and I tried to stabilize, but the deed had already been done. I woke up. *sigh* doubt sucks

I am going to start off with the shortest one

Fragment 1
All I remember of this dream is some little kid asking if he could use my computer but I said no because I was using it.

Fragment 2
Well this dream was sort of like the game dead rising but the area was much smaller, it only used one street and it only went on for a single block.
There were stores along both sides of the street but I mainly stuck the right side of the street because I didn't want to get killed by zombies.
At the end of the street I was next to a fork on the ground so I decided to use it as a weapon.
It was surprisingly effective as I was able to kill two zombies real quick like.
I then saw a dog, I was assuming that the dog was a zombie dog so I tried to attack it but it kept running back and forth, so I then followed it down the alleyway in which it came from.
I then picked up a wrench-like object and was able to land a blow on the dog's head and he let out a loud whimper I then realized that he was no zombie dog but he was my dog.
I felt really bad after realizing that and I thought to my self. "What have I done?!"
The dream faded soon after.

WBTB attempt
I stayed up for about 20-25 minutes thinking about the dream I just had and about becoming lucid, needless to say it failed

Space dream
So then I was thrust into this scenario in which I was part of an expanding empire that had the goal of making their empire, if you connected all the star systems with lines like connect the dots it would be in the shape of a ninja.
They gave me a quick tutorial on how the ships traveled so fast by adding numbers and the more numbers were added the faster they were adding which I understood while in the dream but now it really doesn't make sense whatsoever.
Also on a sidenote this dream was sort of like spore.
I then was dispatched to help a ally escape from danger and I went off to help him but the ride was a long one so I watched a stream on the way there, the stream had DK64 playing.
I then reached my location and helped my ally escape by blowing up a few enemy ships but before long I was sandwiched between two giant ships but I managed to break free only to crash straight into a even bigger ship which destroyed me instantly, luckily though I was respawned and went back into the fray this time I destroyed a few ships tailing my buddy and then we went back to our home system and ate at this weird diner which was retro and futuristic at the same time.
The guy running the place asked me if I was interested in taking a biology class cause no one else wanted to and he had no other students, so I said "Sure I'll check it out." and after that it ended.

i was at a banquet and decided to steal two police officer guns that were in a box. this was of course after having been at my birthday party and hanging with taraneh. me and er had taken outa invertible mustang and then cruised to the city. afterward we did somen there and i ended up at mark jajehs like funeral and mrs ferreti said i looked peaceful at the funeral and asked me to speak think

I was in a medium sized shack in a forest, my girlfriend also was there I remember though she didn't play any part in anything whatsoever. The shack was made of old, somewhat rotten looking wood with many smaller holes, letting the daylight in. There wasn't much in there, just a few uninteresting tools. There was some kind of nest there which apparently was harboring some kind of dangerous flying ticks (thank god our nature didn't really have this stupid idea. The ticks (all looking very different) swarmed out and I wanted to get away from these things (no panic though) so I opened the door and started running uphill for about 100m or so.
It was a forest during a beautiful day, fresh air and pleasant light. The trees were relatively normal and the ways were only small trails. I remember something or something saying to get away from these things fast before they eat me, and that I should go downhill, not uphill. On this trail I then turned left and there it went downhill, some 500m or something and it was designed like a cliff where trees still grow out of the sides. I jumped and grabbed onto some vines and branches here and there, swinging myself down there at suicidal breakneck speeds, it was quite a lot of fun. Due to me being always invincible in dreams neither the ticks nor the fall were any actual danger to me though.
Down there was the entrance of a small city or village and a big street which was mainly blue, also think there was a big water stream there, probably artificially created, maybe I even jumped in there for a moment, I'm not sure.
It was also somewhere here that I became lucid, I just realized that I was dreaming (most likely because I was listening to music while sleeping and my lucidity track turned on, after I woke up I checked the playlist and there it was so I had a EILD here).
Somehow I knew how the dream was supposed to continue so out of some mood I decided to stick with it and see how the effect on my stability is, I walked over to the village and into what's supposed to be a super market, to be precise it had the logo of PLUS (orange-blue). Somehow I remember 2 possibilities for how it looked inside, I think one of them is a fragment from another dream though.
The inside (which I think belongs here alone) was actually very small and only very few products were there, I was talking with the shop lady about something but I don't remember about what and then the dream ended. In conclusion I can say that going with the plot made the dream last a felt 2-3 minutes longer, but probably wasn't worth it.

After 8 h WBTB - maybe 10 min. SSILD-activities - these made me tired and want to roll over.


First dream:
What resulted was a very vivid dream - started nicely with being hiking in the summer with a group of friends - we made a pause at a cottage to eat and drink something. But first I was missing my cigarettes - then also mobile phone and purse.

We suspected a woman, who had behaved weirdly and turned her eyes away when looked at.
So a friend of mine helped me nail her down - like managed against her will to look into her bag - and there the cigarettes were.
And I saw something, which looked like another purse of mine than the one, I was looking for.

I left it be - but later, considering the cell-phone - I wanted to catch up with her, to look again.
I knew at that point, that she lived in the same house where I lived - just one story below.
There was only her kid - telling me, his parents would be at the gynaecologist.

So I went there - confronted her - and against even physical hassling from her husband - I got my phone and purse back, and left the practice.
This was all in front of the other patients/their partners.

On returning home - the story had seemingly gone on without me - and the janitor of the house had called the police about it.
This husband would have been violent again and was shot dead - lying on a stretcher - with a law medical examiner - who by the way had made an x-ray (in our flat - wtf??) - he showed it to me - and again there was a fixateure interne in his spine (like in mine some dreams back).
This whole thing somehow lead to a general police alert all over the city - and throngs of police were holding a meeting in a big railway-station hall - really huge.

Second dream:
Like so often I was in search for a flat - and was with several other interested people looking at a weird longish flat with glass roof.
It looked like some train-department with 70s-style rounded windows rimmed in red etc.
But then the real-estate-guy took a remote control - and the roof folded away - so you could make the whole flat open to the sky.

Later I was test- sitting on a high-bench maybe 50 cm deep but around 4-5 meters up.
Now comes the mad part - I got lucid from the fact, that I was afraid of that height.
Even sitting there safe and all - I had such a visceral fear - and I couldn´t overcome it - looking at the side of that bench, and considering climbing down made me almost sick.

Now in real life - I have almost no fear of any heights - going rock-climbing in the mountains sometimes.

So - I went for nose-plug - questioning this reaction - yepp - I was able to breathe.
But like once before - I had the feeling, I might subconsciously be cheating - like not really holding the nose completely closed or whatever.

So I took my hands up to look - and again - they looked all right at first - just a bit blurry - but that didn´t convince me - when I started counting fingers, though - it seemed my hand was sprouting fingers as I went - they even bifurcated.
But somehow, I wasn´t as lucid as I used to be two weeks back with easy fearless flying.
I climbed down that thing..

Unfortunately - I didn´t first change something or somebody - but did basic summoning then.
My comp tasks are first object/DC change - and then summoning.
I was sitting on the ground - and expecting somebody coming round the corner.
Instantly something dark moved about there - but I willed a guy to come around because I was in a certain mood ..ähämmm.
He did come around the corner - was naked and inspiring - but we didn´t touch.
Mixing stuff up - I stupidly first asked for a present - and got a cat-reaction (when I asked a cat last month, what she was thankful for - she looked disdainfully and stalked off).
He shook his head and went back around that corner.

I woke up shortly - and right back into a lucid dream - so DEILD.

Third dream:
I was standing outside at the border of a meadow with many trees.
And I had to RC several times again - not high lucidity, but high realism.
After that - I had nicely stabilized by hand rubbing and inspecting things closely.

So I thought - meanwhile pretty clearly - lets make that snowman.
I saw a birch or otherwise white-branched tree - and convinced myself of that being snow - and it snowing back there.
I think, I get the hang of that firmly expecting stuff.
Instantly it started snowing everywhere and strongly, and there was snow on the ground, which didn´t first have to pile up like last time.
This second time around was so much faster and better.
I am really surprised how much practice seems to really help with specific things.
So I knelt down - felt the snow very realistic again - and made a small ball - maybe 20 cm diameter only.
It didn´t really easily want to stick together, by the way.
And then the damnated real life doorbell rang!!

Now I get angry at this quite a bit - but I took it unusually mellow and didn´t rip anybody´s head off, when it happened.


Fragment one:
There was a physics experiment with a complicated installation and it was about, if my emotional state could influence the flow of electricity - and there was something, to make the flow visible.
And I could change that - what it read/showed.
But later it was found out, that I didn´t really change the flow - only what we all saw as a read-out.


Fragment two:
I was listening with a group to somebody recommending vacations, and what you could do there and there.
Strangely - it was also about lying in the sun - and the recommendation was to do sunbathing at a lake - but when at the sea - he said, one could then at least sun-bath in the forests close to the sea..??

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00:00 Tuesday 2013-12-17 comp #16 night #5 LD #11

00:27 bedtime

02:52

F1) using the metro as dream transportation

F2) something about a store

04:16 awake, no recall?

05:17

1) on a commuter train, sitting on a bench along the wall of the train with my back to the wall, the train track goes over a sudden abrupt quick rise/bump, and I'm thrown up out of my seat several feet, I grab on to some straps, I barely avoid flying out of the open roof of the train car. I say "oh man I should put on my seat belt." There are some other guys with me they all have their seat belts on. I imagine there would have been a news story about a man who flew out of the open roof of the train and died. Train was going pretty fast. It's dangerous to be sitting on an open roofed train without your seat belt.

Arrive at a train station, I'm trying to get from the upper platform to the lower platform where there appears to be a train leaving and I need to get down to see if it's my train or not so I can get to where I'm going, the train is about to leave. I'm standing above the roof of the platform where the train is, I hop down onto that roof, walk to the other edge of the roof and flip down to the ground very gracefully. Some women come out from ticket offices and say you can't do that you're supposed to take the shuttle bus from the top of the hill down to the bottom. I look up the hill and see this bus, but there's one problem: the bus doesn't go from the top to the bottom, only from the bottom to the top. I say that's pretty stupid.

2) With my wife going somewhere, we walk into a small cluster of very close-growing trees, there's a very small clearing in between them. We have a huge pile of skis and poles with us and we drop them all on to the ground. There are red skis, and blue skis. We need to get going somewhere, so I pick up a huge pile of these skis and poles into my arms, I get one of the red ones, and one of the blue ones, my wife will get the rest, I take them outside and lean them up against a fence. My wife brings hers out and leans them up together. It turns out this fence is the entrance to a restaurant and they're annoyed about our stuff being there I tell them we'll be moving it soon.

3) I'm in an open restaurant / bar playing a video game. It is a two-person game table where you sit down on opposite sides of the table to play. The game surface screen is hemispherical protruding upwards. The game is like an advanced version of Pong, where each player's mallet/racket is a sphere, and the "ball" is a sphere as well, it's a 3D game, all spheres the same size. I'm playing this game solo, so I set up the opponent's racket in the middle of its goal. I'm playing, hitting the ball back with my mallet back and forth several times. There are special powers buttons you can press to make the ball to things like speed up or curve around, I use these. I think how embarrassing it would be to lose a point against my non-existent opponent. I'm playing and scoring. A guy comes up and watches me, he puts a coin down on the game to reserve the next play. I do well and keep going and get more credits, he's pissed and starts leaving, he says something. I'm mad at him but I decide to be a good guy so I leave the game for him to play. "OK I was going to play again but I'm going now." Then I turn around and flip him a double-handed bird (middle finger extended) right into his face.

I'm walking away through the tables in this area, and all of a sudden I look down and see my bag is gone! I figure it must have been lifted off of me by that annoying guy back at the game. I'm in shock, my passport's in there. I look down and see my stomach/pants and no bag is there. I walk back through the tables to get back to the video game place, there's a table where I was sitting previously with people, I see a bag slung over a chair and grab at it to take a look, it turns out it's not my bag. I find a little black boy and grab him and shake him around, I know he's the one who took my bag. I reach into my pocket and find my keys there, so I know he's given me my keys back, I think "OK I have my keys now I need my bag with my passport."

The boy walks back to a couch and I follow, he lifts the cushion off the couch I imagine my bag is hidden underneath. Then I think I should give this boy something of some value, but I don't want to give him something from my wallet. Another guy appears with me and we're talking about and presenting souvenir coins made from ancient coins like ancient Roman coins but they're obviously tourist adaptations. I show them to the boy, here's one, here's another, I see these coins. I have a toy silver matchbox jeep with no wheels, and I say "this was used in the war," the kid's happy about this.

The boy is doing all this because he wants to build a software industry in Egypt, he has a great idea about eliminating copy protection, and he wants me to write some big software to eliminate copy protection, it will be a big change to the industry.

05:26 BTB

Do some SSILD, carefully, gently, taking care to hold on to the relaxation routine feeling at the same time so as not to become too alert. After just a few cycles I feel a strong circular rocking body motion begin. I wonder if I'll be able to jump right into a WILD. The rocking subsides however, and a motionless RC shows I'm awake, so I drop the SSILD and just fall asleep.

07:42 LD #11

4) going uphill on a great river/aqueduct, about 50 yards wide, beautiful blue water at one point, the gradient is pretty steep, 30 degrees or so. I'm watching all the boats going uphill against the flow of water. I'm on a large commuting boat on the right hand side (facing uphill) since the left hand side is too shallow for such a bit boat. I see a guy in the water riding a motorcycle/boat towing a black couch. I'm amazed at this and point it out to my companions. Another guy joins him, also riding a motorcycle/boat, he's maneuvering a larger pontoon and pushing a large black net around the back of the couch-guy to pull him closer to the pontoon.

We reach the top of the hill and are back on land. Running downhill the other side. There are large obstacles we're jumping over, like huge rolled up carpets several feet high. I'm concerned there could be dead bodies inside. There's an abandoned structure on the right with low windows, a guy I'm with says he doesn't like the look of that place, that stuff could have been put there by people who are dead.

We're running down the hill and come upon about 3-4 black guys, I think when you come across people in the wild you have to position yourself like you're scarier than they are, you should brandish knives, crouch down, display these knives, and say something scary to face them down to show you're not scared of them.

F3) woman hiking in the mountains on a trail. I wonder if you can get back on the ridge trail, does it get you back? She's navigating the switchbacks on the trail

5) in a living room with two guys (they are maybe gay?) we have to go somewhere in San Francisco, I'm sitting on a couch, I don't want to go to SF, I need to get home, I say "as punishment OK let's then go to the Cliff House and have drinks." The other guys say that's a great idea. But I say "I really can't go because I'll get home late and in bad shape and my wife will kill me when she comes home because I haven't cleaned the house yet."

6) standing in the bathroom of my childhood home looking out down the hallway, it's night, the lights are on in the hallway, and there appears in the middle of the hallway a beautiful young woman, she is smiling / beaming at me, she's dressed in pajamas.

Spoiler for warning for slightly salacious content:

I invite her into the bathroom, she walks slowly, keeps smiling, I close the door behind her and I lock the door. I bring her in front of the low bathtub by the sink, and I pull her shirt off. I imagine I'll be getting undressed soon too. I kiss her chest (the middle), she tells me (voice or telepathy) "that's not where you're supposed to do that." I say "Oh, where do you do that?" She points to her lips. I say "show me what you mean." She kisses me, I kiss back, we start making out.

My eyes are closed. I'm dreaming, I realize. "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming," the kiss goes on for a few seconds more, then the dream fades to awake in bed. Tried to DEILD back in but was too awake.

Dream 1 : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in Korea with a girl named Martina and a guy named Simon and another guy but I don't remember who. We kept playing around doing all kind of stuff(won't get into detail). I suddenly got tired and fainted then woke up and laugh. I went to sit on a fountain with a classmate of mine and a toddler came and started to curse my classmate. I told her to stop cursing. She didn't stop cursing but she dropped a black and red thread in the water and then she said : I can't leave, I need to find her. [/COLOR]
Dream 2 (fragment) : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in my apartment. I told mom that I wanted to go swimming and she said that she also wants to go to the swimming pool. I searched for my swimsuit and I talked with mom about something I don't remember. [/COLOR]

Went to bed close to 11pm
Woke up before 5am and failed to fall back asleep

Dream 1: Shirt-Pants to Church and Polish

My older son felt like wearing a shirt on his legs instead of pants to go to church, and I let him! Hoped that it was not too obvious. The shirt seemed to be more of a girl's blouse with puffy sleeves, which he had put his legs through. Even though we were in an English speaking country, in my dream my sons spoke only Polish, and they were older than they are now. As one of them was heading into church on his own, a man addressed him in English, my son responded in Polish, the man switched to Polish, and he asked my son something, and my son responded, and I was proud to find out he responded correctly. (In waking life my sons do not speak Polish, or rather just a few words.)

Dream 2: Wild Boar (Rhino) Attack in the Garden

I was going to grow vegetables and fruit in a garden to sell to make additional money, and another woman was teaching me how to plant them. Suddenly a wild boar ran out of the bushes and charged me (the other woman was not in sight at this moment). The boar had a horn more like a rhino though, a boar sized rhino? I managed to hold it in a way so that I was pushing it away with all my strength, but it did gorge my belly somewhat and bit me there too. As I was being gorged, I cried out for help "Mama!" And then I woke up!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Like in a RPG game, I was at the beginning of a game, with a "team" and we were being introduced to the set and the rules. We were going to be dropped at a high tower of a gigantic building in a ghost town. This building was so massive, it occupied almost half of the town space. It rose up like a skyscraper but at different levels it ramified into individual towers with further ramifications. And we were being shown in 3D the whole complex and the exact tower where we would be dropped. It looked so degraded and abandoned. I wondered about stability of the structure. But no other dangers ocurred to me.
We were going on a recon mission, but no details were given to us.
So we're inside and the place is creepy and incredible in its architecture, but nothing goes on. Curtains fly over broken glass windows.
Then we reach this plateau, or attic and we have a creepy feeling. Someone reports movement. We start being attacked by unindentified entities and we run down the stairs. But not everybody made it. There's 1 or 2 missing. I turn back to look for them, but they appear zombie-like and start attacking me to. I tell everybody else to just run down the stairs and I run faster than anyone else, cause I'm supposed to be in the front leading them out. But one by one they start being touched by some invisible hand that leaves them like zombies who turn back to stay in the building. Only I and 2 others manage to safely get out of that tower without being caught by this force.
I become lucid, not so worried anymore, decide to fly away carelessly. I have a zen moment flyin over the ocean. I see half a dozen very small dots in the water. It's people. I go down to watch them closely and end up being dragged into the water with them. It's not a fun moment. We just had sand below our feet and out of nowhere the waves grew bigger and are dragging us away from the beach. We're fighting the current. I see one getting to the shore but I'm starting to feel hopeless, I'm surely going to die! I wake up, shaking that feeling of desperation away. I review the dream I just had and decide to forget this last part and focus on that building and its story. I fall asleep and get back there. But now it's a different time. There's people still living on it. I'm a girl lying in bed in that attic. There's nothing else, just this bed. And I have a white cat, but he is no ordinary cat, he is a ghost cat. He fell or was thrown down the tower, but he keeps visiting me all the time. He is now looking at me from the ceiling above my head, his head lurking through the concrete, as if there was a hole in it. Sometimes I look out the window and his is roaming around the lower level plateau veranda. He keeps me company. My father keeps me locked up in here. It's very early morning and he might appear at any moment. So he does, bringing a tray with something different from the usual breakfast. Something white, that he tells me it's to celebrate my birthday. It's green jello with whip cream on top. Better than nothing. I wonder what am I (this girl) doing here. Is she held in captivity? Is that why she is so alone? Did she die here? Is she the ghost capturing people to keep her company?
Alarm clock goes of...

Doubtful me: Here goes another night of low quality sleep, not remembering any of my dreams, and having extremely low awareness and high stress.

Confident me: Shut the f*** up. You CAN become aware inside a dream tonight and you will remember that dream!

Doubtful me: Well I haven't had a lucid dream in over 3 months and I'm not even sure that it was really lucid and I just don't think I can do it anymore,
I feel worn out and uninspired and I don't even know why I can't concentrate enough to have one of those things.

Confident me: Look, we all have troubles with things that we really want to do or experience, but don't you think that the reason we can't succeed is because we are constantly doubting ourselves and that if you literally didn't think about anything else at all that you could put on your serious mode?

Doubtful me: What are you talking about dude, what are you my fitness instructor? I just can't do it, okay? I've read numerous blogs and posts on this website but still just can't do it, I've given up and come to the realization that it just isn't going to happen again.

Confident me: Well are you making the things you read your own? Are you putting special value on the things you read and not just seeing information as a jumbled mess? I think that you can do this if you really try dude!

Doubtful me: I don't know man, I just can't seem to concentrate on just breathing or anything but my day's and tomorrow's worries when I'm laying in bed about to go to sleep.

Confident me: As Nike says, "Just do it". Do not contemplate anything, do not even think, just do it. Greatness comes with action anyway.

Doubtful me: I just think too much, I don't know how to be enthralled in anything like I used to.

Confident me: The best time to start is right now, even if there are busy things going on in your life, once you just do it, you will find that your everyday tasks actually become easier.

Doubtful me: Okay, thanks for all the advice man, I'll try my best tonight, okay? But just so you know I still think you are ugly, like extremely ugly. I literally want to draw on your face with crayon you are so ugly.

Confident: Hey, I like Crayon poisoning!

Doubtful me: What?

Confident me: Nothing, never mind, just get out there and lucid dream

It's the middle of the night, and I just woke from a very short DILD. I didn't RC, bu I realized it was a dream, moved around, and woke up,
The dream I was having, I was chasing a tiny pig, with my girlfriend. We were trying to catch it. When it suddenly grew to a full grown boar. I said, we'll lets hope you can't get injured/cuts from its fangs... My gf replied, not in a dream like this you can't. Boom lucid, boom awake...

Progress, however now I can't sleep.. But good progress non the less.
I wouldn't count this tommy lucid amount, because it was so short.

After this lucid I couldn't sleep, so I went to the fridge to get some apple juice. I actually bought the juice for the sole purpose of increasing the vividness of my dreams (I read on the forum that Apple juice will increase the vividness of your dreams). I had a bit of trouble falling asleep, but eventually I did.i had a super vivid and long non-lucid.

My dream starts out with a guy from work,p. he is following me, and after some time, he pulls a gun on me. As he stands there, I'm thinking what I should do. Before I make my decision of trying to tackle him and grabbing the gun, he goes to his knees and hands me the gun, while saying, shoot me. I grab the gun, and realizes its a soft ball gun. I tried to shoot for the lolz, but the trigger is not working.
Next thing I saw this parkour team, Team Jiyo, shooting a fighting scene at a parkour park they build themselves. (Right now I could go in detail about all of this, including the parkour park itself, and the entire dream, but I won't).
Later withe dream, I was riding my bicycle down this mountain road, leading to a big beach house. The road was made of sand, and cars were driving up and down the roads. As I reached the beach house, so did loads of other people. Everything was soooo fking vivid!! As I was about to enter the beach house with my bike. A kind girl helped me out, with lifting the front of my bike. I thought to myself, yeah ok it's only a dream. Boom!!! I was lucid. I didn't RC or anything, I just followed the flow of the dream. She let go of the bike just as I got lucid. I biked it up myself and carried it into the next room. I remember steering the bike as I do in real life. Nice feeling of lucidity! I spotted my girlfriend in the crowd of people entering the beach house. The vividness was unreal! After putting my bike down on the ground, I went to socialize with the dream characters. Boom I woke up, because of my girlfriends alarm clock.

She had forgotten to turn of her alarm, even though she don't have to get to school before 10.30...
yessss more progress! And maybe I have the apple juice to blame?! It was a short lucid, but a vivid and nice lucid! This one definitely counts! I felt like I could keep staying lucid in that dream for so much longer. 2 DILDs in a row, but no RC.
its not like I don't need to RC, I have been lucid many times before (not only the 12 times that my profile says) but the problem has always been stabilizing the dream.
I have been into lucid dreaming for about a week now, but a couple of years ago I was also trying out lucid dreaming. 2-3 years ago I tried out lucid dreaming. Back then had many lucids, but almost ALL of them were very short. And I woke up right after realizing I was dreaming. I tried all kinds of stabilization. Rubbing your hands, spinning, looking for detail. Everything made me wake up. Until I just said fuck it, and when I got lucid, I just followed the flow of the without stabilizing or anything fancy, and I was lucid for longer than ever! Best advice to noobs like me, who have trouble stabilizing is: go with the flow of the dream, no stabilizing.
I think for me, whenever I was stabilizing, I was actually breaking down the dream because I was focusing too much on the dream NOT to fade, then it fades... Go with the flow!