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21st of january - 2011

The dreams starts with me comming home from school. I walk down the stairs to the basement entrance. As i was finding my keys in my pocket i herd a cats ''miaauuww''. I turned around and this skinny old cat looked at me. I walked up to the cat to pet it and it spun. After a while it slowly walked into our garden.

The dream skips
I was outside getting some wood for our fireplace. I new the old cat were old and maybe sick so i would check its usual hiding place. i pushed some snow/ice away (it was winter btw) and pushed some branches aside. There was no sick cat. As i was putting the branches back etc. i herd a little high pitch sqeuak. it was a little kitten!
Somehow i knew that if i didnt take care of it - it would die since its mom was sick and proberly couldnt take prober care of its kitten. I took it in my hands - went inside the house and wrapped it in some cloth and putted it in a cardboard box.

The dream skips
I am hosting a class reunion party for my old school class. Everybody were there. I remember sitting next to a girl (that i got a crush on) and we were chatting about random stuff. At some point i mension i found this cat and if she should have any advice for me (since she got a cat herself). She really wanted to see the kitten so we went into the guestroom where i put the kitten earlier.

As i was showing her the kitten - the class idiot shows up. We are being as quiet as possible so he would not notice us and interrupt our conversation. The idiot did see us and moved along - past the door. Last thing i remember was we were looking each other in the eyes.

22.10.2010

Lucid #3 Battlefield (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

- I am in a battlefield. I see some scenes with awful creatures coming out of a awful lake and soldiers stabbing them in the face. I start thinking that this place is dangerous and i wouldn't want to feel the pain of a knife or an arrow. There are lots of arrows coming from the enemy side. As i reach a stone building i start thinking that if all this was a dream i wouldn't worry that much if an arrow hit me, cause i'd know it's a dream. As i walk up the hill, arrows fall around me like rain. They are so many that when they fall on the ground they hit on other arrows (the floor was filled with them!) and make a pretty intense jingling sound, like when there are a lot of coins hiting the ground or sth. And then suddenly i become lucid. Everything is really clear around me. Very realistic. I turn around and see many arrows coming towards me. I almost got hit by one. I think that if an arrow hits me i ll wake up from pain, or unstable dream. I run towards the building, constantly thinking "focus! focus!". At first i was running pretty good. Then i fell my head disappearing (like fading away). I closed my eyes and started spinning but it was too late.

Other Dreams:
- There are gambling machines. I see an old woman winning. The machine shoots out TOO many 5cent coins kai too few 2euro coins. I Reach the machine to try for myself. I insert a 2euro coin, cause that's what was only accepted by the machine and i thought "how can it be that the machine gave that woman 5cent coins if everyone inserts 2euro coins?". However i didn't do any RC. The machines shows a row of three cheries. After a second one cherrie falls. I hit the machine many times. I look at the screen again and now there are many cherries in random order and they blink... In the end it gives me two bus tickets. They didn't look like any transport ticket i know. They had different shapes and they cost 4 euros...

- I am with my mother in a store of some sort. Behind me there is a man who smokes the hookah. He pokes me and says to me while laughing: "Check this out! It smokes by itself!". He takes the plug he held and puts it in a hole of another metallic thing that looked like a hookah. That thing had a big hole in its center. So when the plug touched the upper hole, there was a lot of dense yellow smoke coming out of the big one... The guy just can't stop laughing. We leave.

- I have the feeling i am outside the previous store, in my car and my mother sits next to me. I sit in the driver's seat and show to someone how many different settings there are to adjust the seat.

27.09.2010

Lucid #2 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I saw a normal dream, that i cannot recall.
I woke up in my bed (first false awakening), stood up and looked at a wall in my room. I suddenly realized i was dreaming. Everything became super clear. I can easily say it was the most realistic dream, i 've ever seen. I had a strange feeling in my hands. I started rubbing them. The dream started fading. I closed my eyes and thought "spin spin spin", but my hands were busy rubbing each other, so for some reason i started spinning just my eyes, which of course didn't work. I woke up, completely frustrated and pissed off... :S

I am in a church listening to some speeches. I become lucid somehow, but instead of running off and trying something, (or maybe I'm just not lucid enough to do otherwise) I decide to continue listening to the speeches. a friend of mine takes the stand and starts talking in one of his accents that he does every once in awhile.

the speeches finish, so I go outside. still lucid, I decide to try to go to the moon. I hear, "It's difficult to get to the moon" from inside myself, but I ignore it, not paying it much attention. I focus on the energy inside me, It feels like water or slush in a plastic bag, impossible to grab hold of, but I don't think about that either. I try visualizing the moon and become a bit disoriented, but nothing severe. I try to get a lock, I think I have it, though not 100% sure. I try to open a portal anyway. I jump into the air, and slash with my hands, trying to create an opening. "You're not powerful enough" I hear, but still ignore. I land and look, no portal... ok then, lets try something else. I attempt to test the physical abilities of my dream body. I am able to run about 3X my waking life running speed, and I am able to jump about 2.5 to 3 times the hight of my body, a start I suppose. each time I attempt something, the voice antagonizes me, and I ignore it, as if It weren't even there. "You're weak" "You're not powerful enough"

now that i'm awake, when I think if the voice, I think of the color black behind me, odd.

I had a dream in which for some reason my ex-youth pastor, Adam. Had a daughter. I was at my high school in the "market" area. Liz and a few others were behind those red roped connected by poles. I asked Adam how his daughter was and he told me she died of "butt-cancer" I told him how sorry I was..

Also, Will Paige gave me a hug and told me some stuff. I said that "Christian science class was easy, 'Because God made it that way' hahaha"

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I was in a line with Melissa squeezing her boob and I saw the people at the front of the line, (celeste and someone else) were trying to logon to frontierville. I said "If you can't logon to facebook you cant logon there,"

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was at "my office," sitting at a cubicle. The office was kind of empty of people. Down a short hallway was a reception area. One of my co-workers, D, was talking with a female co-worker, M, about some new procedure everybody had to go through at work to keep their jobs. You had to talk with some higher-up person about your qualifications, but you had to do so through stories that proved you'd done all kinds of special things and that you were really passionate about your work.

As D explained this to M, he walked into the area where I was. He was still talking with M, though she wasn't around. He wanted to use me as an example of how this new interview would take place. He asked me a question. I began to answer. D walked over to a desk where a woman was sitting. A black boy in a yellow sweater and white button-up shirt came in and sat by the woman.

I was droning on about my school and work history, wondering if this was any different from just giving my resume. But suddenly I was talking with M. We were talking about business in general, making jokes, and so forth. We were now in my room. She lay down on her back on my bed. I lay next to her on my stomach.

As we continued talking matter-of-factly, M grabbed my right hand and lay it between her legs. She then may have moved it to rest on her belly, just above her crotch. I nowbrealized she was naked. I moved my hands down to feel her more. But as soon as I did, I stopped. I couldn't do this. M really isn't my type, I thought. Plus, she's married.

I sat up. M stayed laying down. There were two white guys in my room. My room was dim, too, as if only a small light shone from a low corner of the room. One of the guys sat on the bed between me and M. He wore a blue top like the SNSD girls wear for the Oh! video and a long, white denim skirt. He flung his head back and reclined seductively, as if I were going to have sex with him.

I stood up and walked over to my table. I looked at my right arm and saw that I had some small, hard, white substance jutting out of it. It was like a piece of pummice was growing out of my arm. I flexed my muscle to push it out. Then I pulled it the rest of the way out. It wasn't very big, maybe 1cm long.

Dream #2

I had a really long hair on my face, below my lower lip. I tried to pull it out, but I think it kept slipping out of my hands.

Dream #3

A black and white photo. A woman supplicating before another woman dressed as a nun. The nun's headdress cast enough shadow around her so that it took me a while to realize that the nun had no head, only a stub of a neck.

I knew that people came and prayed to this headless woman as if she were a saint, capable of performing miracles. She seemed to be alive. But for some reason I wondered whether this woman were actually dead.

I thought it might be possible that this was all some game put on by drug dealers in Mexico. They could, I thought, have beheaded the woman and then sat her up to look alive in this square to trick gullible religious people.

Dream #4

I was on some balcony or mezzanine in a big building. It was daytime, and the building was filled with a bright, gentle, natural light. But the mezzanine may have been in disarray, with broken pieces of the building lying all about.

There may have been one dead one woman lying on the ground. Another woman was screaming in fear. A man dressed in a brown uniform like a UPS uniform attacked the woman. He picked her up and was carrying her toward a doorway. The woman fought as the man carried her through the doorway. She may even have clung to the doorjamb.

I knew that if the man got the woman into the room alone, he'd kill her. Even worse, he'd terrorize her while he killed her. I was afraid, and I felt pretty weak, but I knew I had to do whatever I could to stop the man.

I ran up to the man, still wrestling the woman past the doorjamb. I managed, after a kind of pathetic struggle, to separate the woman from the man. For some reason the man ran away through a sliding glass door at the other end of the room.

The room was completely empty. I lay the woman down on the floor. She had been stricken in some way by the man and was near death. I knew I was near death, too. I figured I'd just lay beside the woman to die, too.

But I knew that if the man came backb when the woman and I were too weak to fight, he'd terrorize us until we died, which would be a horrible way to die. So before I lay down I closed and locked the front door. I then pulled the curtains over the sliding glass door and locked the sliding glass door.

I was heading over to lay down beside the woman to die. I was having a conversation in my head with some woman about the meaning of life and death. I started floating up into the air. I then began descending into a weird structure like a futuristic, silvery car with dark black windows. The structure also looked like the huge server in the anime Summer Wars.

I was now in some room that looked like a bar or restaurant that had gone out of business mixed with a living room. A decent amount of natural light came in through the windows. The place was full of boxes. I was here with a female friend. A tallish, gentle-looking, bald white man in a black shirt and pants stood behind the bar.

I sat at the bar, between a couple messy stacks of boxes. The man handed me two plates or rice. The rice had green vegetables in it and was covered in some yellowy-brown sauce, possibly curry.

Weird Notes
0741: Turn in homework on a laundry hanger. Talk about command when it was a remote controlled robot to send in to space. Sam Johnson. 99 on a test. Japanese.

More Weird
0907: Playing WarCraft on my television. Look at clock and realize it's 4pm and I'm late. My closet is messy. Go to kitchen, see wrong burner turned on the stove. Knock on mother's bedroom door to ask about the stove. Is she hung over?

Celebrities and Weirdness
1039 Jack from Will and Grace (but I call him Julian) want to jump in a swimming pool. Or drop a tennis ball? Lifeguard warns him not too. Two coworkers try to pull off my swimsuit under the water. Walk back inside. Birthday gift, Minnie Mouse bathing suit? Old birthday card for my sister. Walk past Angelina Jolie, but say nothing (mistakenly think her first name is Jolie). Fancy hotel inside a mall. Two small dogs chase around me and then run under a couch. Lance buys himself a trophy. Beauty salon. Girl at a sales counter offers me something but I say no.

OBE-like Dream
Method DILD
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control D
1109: In bed. Dark. Listening to what sounds like a TV on in the next room. An episode of Star Trek: Voyager? Pizza Hut commercial? I visualize the TV screen. Then seem to drift off to sleep. Seem to wake again to a voice inside my head. I intuitively think it's the voice of my subconscious. It says "Jealous, jealous of your identity. So jealous of your thinking." Then pulled out of my body like an OBE. Kinda frightening. I realize I am dreaming so I am lucid but no control because my body is paralyzed. Float flat to a different room. Then land in a bed in someone else's sleeping body. See many small hands, like children's hands, reach for me as I lay paralyzed in this new body.

Military Base
1211: Military base. Jump forward in time. Steal nuke and launch codes. Find some old friends from the past. Go back to base called "Skylar."

Company Problems, Making Out with Coworker's GF
Method DILD
Lucidity D
Vividness B
Control C
1241: Company meeting in a private home. I'm alone in the bedroom, away from the crowd. AR comes in and tells me the company is losing all it's product lines. He starts listing off a long list of all the ones we will no longer have. I interrupt him and ask for just the products that will stay. Just X. I say, with cheerful sarcasm "Oh well in then in a week the company will be broke and we'll all be out of a job."

Then I see AR's girlfriend. She is younger. She has black hair with blond streaks. She has a black cocktail dress with a purple and white stripe. I say to her: "You look familiar". She looks at me with a wink and replies: "You look familiar too", as if to imply she new I was using a line and she is interested. I lead her into the closet. It only has one sliding door so we can't close the closet. I start feeling her up. She is wearing red underwear. At some point a become lucid and just enjoy making out with her. Her skin feels so good. I pull off my pants so she can blow me. But my penis is blue. I start to think this means something wrong with my physical body. The idea flashes in my mind that I've fallen asleep while driving, crashed, and now my physical body is in a coma at the bottom of a freezing cold lake. I force myself to wake up.

Magical Machine
1355: A programmer makes a machine that accidentally erases himself from existence. Scene with a slightly dirty swimming pool but with floating decorative candles. By some chance, I cause him to come back. The experience has taught him what he needs to change to make the machine work as intended. Now he can manipulate anything in the universe. He asks me what to change.

sitting on a bus. first talking to a friend. two-three of his friends joins us. one of them, a girl which he calls a friendstealer, starts flirting with me and we get private. my niece in front of the bus is sad and lacks money, solaced by my sister, running towards the back of the bus. Though being pleased with my own situation I feel sympathetic and approach them and give my niece money. she looks greedy and ungreatful. I go back to my new girlfriend, but she has now started flirting with my brother. i wake up

I find myself at work (I work at a drycleaners). I'm inside, standing in front of the drive-through door and staring at it for no apparent reason. It's not especially clear or vivid, but I notice that there is overcast, gray light from outside.

I suddenly realize I'm dreaming - I'm certain of it. One of the first things I thought was that the colors should be getting more vivid or something. Ironically, as soon as I thought this everything suddenly looked more gray and blurry. I decided to do a reality check, simply because I had never done one in a dream before. My hands were at my side, and as soon as I lifted them to do the RC I woke up!

My first lucid dream and also my first journal. I never thought of writing a journal but instead of typing a journal lol. Wonder if I ever have another lucid.....


Date: Wednesday 19, 2011
Morning, few mins close to waking up and drive mom to work.

Had a lucid right after hearing a news about a shooting in Arizona and the guy was a lucid dreamer few days ago. The dream was weird and scary.

I saw myself waking up in a dream and then I felt back asleep. However, in the dream I couldn't fall back asleep because I knew that it was morning and I have to get up in about 30 mins later. So, I just kept closing my eyes trying to fall asleep but then suddenly I felt something touching my right shoulder and my left arm. I opened my eyes and I noticed 2 rats are sitting and cleaning themselves. One sat next to my right shoulder and other sat next to my left arm. The strange thing was that they don't look like rats but more like a baby mouse but then their fur are like rats. Their fur color aren't black or brown, but more like gray-ish like old people with gray hair.

I actually realized that I am really dreaming too. I can even felt that they were touching my shoulder and my arm as well while they were cleaning themselves. My whole body even had goosebump cause I felt scared and disgust. I thought to myself about how dirty rats are so I tried to push them off the couch (I always like to sleep on a couch than bed), but without disturbing them. So, I made a quick jerk of my body and the one on my right shoulder fell off the couch and ran off, while the one on my left arm got its tail stuck and kept trying to run but couldn't.

Suddenly, the dream was cut off and then I woke up. It was my first dream that I actually noticed that I am dreaming, had control over it, and felt the sensation of it too.

My symbols note:

2 rats
small sorta like baby rats with gray-ish fur like old people.
they were cleaning themselves.

Used same mantra (will refine after next class obviously) but was exhausted from huge day at work so DR wasn't up to usual.

First dream was curiously devoid of any DC's and was about me arranging blue bottles of water with black dome lids in two lines in the sand. Although absorded in this strange task I was aware that there were no DC's anywhere around. Deserted beach scene and woke confused again.
Rest of nights dreams a bit hazey to recall - there were DCs though.

So just need to digest more and keep focused.

This is me, naive to the world of lucid dreaming, starting a dream journal on Dreamviews in the hopes that a year from now I will have become a fully fledged lucid dreamer.

Steps must be taken in order for this to work. To start, a set up of guidelines and norms will help immensely because I work better with structure.

Starting tomorrow night (given I dream)...better yet starting the morning after I will record to the best of my knowledge the first dream of many to come. To keep things organized each post will most likely contain multiple accounts of dreams at once. This being the case in each post the dreams will be titled and then categorized by subject. for example:

"Cave Spelunking"
reg. dream

The title and subject will of course be followed by the description of the dream which will be the fun part.

In reading others journals I've noticed the popular choice amongst the community for distinguishing between lucid and non-lucid is text color. so the ordinary black will be non and the blue will be lucid.

It is now 1:08 AM, and I've done extensive research on lucid dreaming all day today, it will be interesting to see how this affects my dreaming tonight.

Night before MILD-1:
Went to sleep with drifting focus on mantra "Tonight in my dreams a DC will ask me if I am dreaming. I will RC and realise that I am."

Woke twice during the night after similar dreams of being in a group of DC's who were all milling around not knowing what to say or do. I woke feeling frustrated and confused.

_ I see B the psychic at some store. she give my brother an orb to contact the plaideans with. they send a sheild with their enviroment in it. we go in and it is relaxing and we fall asleep. B wants me to read some book so I offer to buy it and she gets mad at the suggestion. then I see her walking along a stream and talking to someone that isn't there.
- I am driving to lethbridge with my cousin. we drive past loads of snow drifts. This morning on the news there was actual snowdrift warnings there. later in the dream we go to a vacant town.
- Fa and my lights don't work properly and idt doesn't make me lucid.
- I see my brother's dream girlfriend.

Dream
Dream number 9
20/1/11

This was only very short, and was on a MILD attempted night. I woke up one hour later for WBTB.

I remember mum being pissed off with me, and I was in my pajamas cooking the barbecue. I looked at my pocket watch, and I had 10 minutes until we were supposed to be there, and anywhere is a 10 minute drive for us. I thought "Mum's gonna be pissed!", so I walked inside, but as I did I crossed her on the cement.


THOUGHTS:
This dream was very subtle in the way it wasn't too out there, had common elements from my usual life, and usual reactions from Dream Characters.*
I was using an isochronic tone on my speaker, a brainstorming/creativity one, which mimics the brain inlucid dreaming by bringing it to theta, dropping to alpha and switching back and forth.*

My MILD's scenario that I'm focusing on is this:
I find myself on Kate's lounge in her old house. I then realize I am lucid, and as I open the door the scene changes to a vivid circus.


NOTE: I got to sleep using a WILD, and having this simple yet complex scenario did wonders for the wild, smelling the air change from stuffy to the smell of popcorn, the feel of the lounge fabric, the audience around me in the circus etc.