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14th LD: Jumping Through the City

I remember just jumping through a dark city. I was jumping over all the buildings in a quick fashion. It was so cool. I thought that this must be a dream, so I RCed and was lucid! I landed on a patch of grass by a building with a street lamp illuminating it. There didn't seem to be anybody around. I felt the grass inbetween my toes.. it almost felt like easter grass.
My lucid dream ended shortly after.

Babysitting a Puppy

I remember being in my school. There was a high schooler who needed somebody to babysit her puppy for her after school so she could take her exams. I offered, and she gave me the little puppy. I'm not sure if it was a lab or golden shepard, but it might have been a mix of both. I remember walking around the school with it. He would always follow me and it was so cute.

I would sit down and he would lay right next to me in the hallway.

- - - -

After the exams were supposed to be over, at about 6:30 p.m., I was supposed to go in the back to my car. Ken was taking me home. She came in and I told her I needed to take this puppy to so-and-so. Ken said she was outside in her car as well. I told her I didn't know where that was. So she took me, and I gave the puppy to her. But when I got a good look of her, she looked like my step-mom! Well the puppy was glad to see her.

I think Ken's car was a flying one, or I was looking down on everyone, because I remember somebody letting their golden lab out to use the restroom or something. So the little puppy ran after it, just a tad bit bigger now. He started chasing after the cars driving away, and another car cornered him between two cars. Now all of them looked like race cars. It was weird.

This is the first entry in my dream journal. It's extremely incomplete, since I already forgot almost everything.

I remember being on a bus back home, hearing music through a crappy mp4 player, I gave my younger brother for Christmas, and being annoyed by it. (I'm very demanding with sound quality). This bus is familiar to me since it's the only one that passes in my home location. Before I had a car I caught that Bus for almost 10 years to go from school to home.
The thing is that the Bus is totally different because it looks like a tourism one, and not the public transportation kind. I remember I recognized some people from my personal life and talked to them, but I can't remember what.

Suddenly the Bus stopped and the driver said there was a huge fire in a mountain range near me therefore he turned the bus to another road I didn't knew. In a moment we were in a highway I didn't recognized, and the Bus stopped near a huge steep hill made of sand and moss(weird). It last like 80º steep and I was really scared because it had an height of about 50 meters.
At this time I remember the group changed. Now they were friends of mine from the time I used to be in Scouts. Some were really scared but we started to climb. I reached the middle of the hill and slipped, falling to the ground hurting myself.

I decided I wanted to outline the hill instead of climbing it, so I started walking for a while. Some time after, I noticed I was in front of a poor, old village that I recognized from a previous dream, but didn't found that odd. Curiously a spotlight appeared pointing at me and I started to run so they couldn't detect me. It last very prison like. I believe this happened because I usually do some trek trips and sleep in protected places. In those trips we always try do stay away from forest guards.

Very strangely I went back to the base of the hill running away from that spotlight, canguru style. It was really weird.

And then my mother woke me up...

As I said previously, this is my first dream entry. I decided to start writing here thanks to a wonderful movie called The Waking Life that really influenced me.

well to bad i still didn't remember a really big dream.
but what i remember is me playing world of warcraft while playing with a race that doesn't even exists(the face had someone thing of the trollface..)
and was constantly killed and followd by some lame ass blood-elf.

I was at my church with the Pathfinders. The leader was the main focus of my dream for some reason. After just standing around not doing much, we suddenly decided that we had to get in the car and go somewhere. After a short memory gap of our leader just driving, we were suddenly in the middle of Sydney with sky-scrapers all around.

The road in front of us suddenly went up almost vertically, and we were driving up it like normal. Kind of like Inception, but it was only the road, and it didn't curl over. We went really high up, but not above the buildings. The other side only had a small decline.

Suddenly I was outside the car, and lucid. I found myself standing in a marketplace like Chinatown. I rubbed my hands together (a personal favourite of mine) and kept doing so while walking down the narrow market lane. The kept on rubbing my hands, until my dream became so vivid that I could taste the city air. The small market buildings were bright yellow.

I decided I was stable enough to start flying without waking up accidentally. I sort of jumped, and I floated up onto a roof. I ran along the roofs and leap/floated over the gaps. At one point I had to jump really hard to get onto a 4-storey building, but when I did, I almost felt like I wasn't going to stop flying upwards (like in old dreams from years ago) and continue into space. But just before the panic broke in, I simply dropped back down and onto the roof. *PHEW*

I felt a bit of adrenaline, which can wake you up, but it didn't. I was standing at the beginning of the Sydney Harbour Bridge, although it was much smaller. I started thinking about what I was going to do. I thought about the advanced Task of the Month, the one about Whoville, but I thought "Meh, screw it!" and decided I was going to dream-visit the people on my list who have asked me to make them lucid through a Shared Dream. I was about to spin...

And my parents yelled too loudly, I woke up and actually spun in my bed, it was so fast.

what i think why we dream and how we make them up well we lived many lives actually maybe as other people or animals and then when you die your memory is wiped clean cept you have mini fragments of memories in dreams like ive dreamt i was a horse a dolphin and a t-rex and i remember whats its like to have four legs and swim like a dolphin and what it feels like to be able to bite threw anything as a t-rex ive always died young and never experianced being human befor or what its like to have offspring ive even dreamt of spirits and im a very spiritual person if you believe in em or not well my spirit animal is a black mustang and in many of my dreams im in battle with a black wolf like tho off of that movie 300 with red peircing eyes i think it represents death cause it apears most right befor someone or something dyes like my boyfriend corey and my auntie connie and with the wolf sometimes i see a bear with gold eyes but its natual brown color and i even dream of other people i know cept i dont see them as there self i see them as there spirit like my bf corey befor and after his death i see him as a dark brown wolf with deep dark brown eyes and my friend alannah as a yellow bird with blue eyes since her favourte color is yellow and she does have blue eyes and i saw Jeremys my bf today i see him as a lion with a golden mane sinse he has long golden hair and the lion has blue eyes like his and in my dreams only the ones i remember seem spiritual like there supose to mean something and once i dreamt the date of my death but not how it happens since the future isnt concreate but its supose to happen 2 days befor i turn twenty on jeremys birthday may 4 you may think im smokin somthin but im not and i didnt make any of this up

I'm walking the streets of London at night in my awesome long coat, when I'm suddenly struck with the urge to break off a piece of a building. This I do, and it feels heavy in my arms as I carry it into a nearby library. There I find an excellent book on poker, which I tuck into my backpack along with the building fragment and take without checking out.

I false awaken into an apartment in Cincinnati. I wander down to the riverbank, where a festival has set up. Two massive swings are on either side of a roller coaster shaped like a snake and themed "The Garden of Eden." I choose to swing, and get massive air, clearing the top of the coaster as I flip in midair and throw the metal horns with my tongue sticking out.

Okay, I've had a dream where Ben Kasica from Skillet has sung before, but this one was even better!

I was at my grandma's house. Then suddenly, I wasn't. I was in my backyard! Ben walked up to me and started singing "Yours to Hold". His voice was so clear I was almost certain I wasn't dreaming (even though I was) . I looked at him and said " Ben you're a wonderful singer, why don't you sing in Skillet?" So he said to me "Im just too shy to sing in front of a crowd..." So I hugged him, and he put his arms around me when I said "But Ben, you're a great singer!! Your voice is so great, everyone in the world should hear you sing!" Ben smiled at me then and I smiled back. Then I woke up.

Woot!

12/26/10 Healing Dreams
Plans: I didn't really have any major plans when I fell asleep last night, Christmas was over, and I'd spent some time playing games on my new Xbox 360 Kinect, which actually does involve some exercise… and my body is sooooo not used to any kind of exercise that I went and tired myself after about an hour and a half of active gameplay… is that pathetic or what? So my main thought was to get some sleep, which I accomplished, but not much in the way of dream recall... a couple of fragments.

Holding My Last Breath
I am in a hospital, I am walking down the halls even though I am not sure why I am in the hospital. It's like I have forgotten so much, am I there to visit someone? Am I there as a patient? Damn, I wish I could remember something, I am wondering what is wrong with me when the idea I might be dreaming occurs to me… and I do a RC by pinching my nose. When I am still able to breathe, I realize that I am dreaming.

I look around the hospital hallway, trying to figure out where I am and what I should be doing there. I remember that I didn't have any specific goals for the night, so I am thinking that I must be there for some kind of purpose, since that is usually the case when I appear somewhere randomly. There are doctors everywhere, even what appear to be a couple of patients walking in the halls, but no clue as to why I am there. I look into one of the rooms and I see someone in there with severe burns, he doesn't look good at all. I glance around, then I go into the room and focus on a healing spell for him, the result is his burns quickly heal over. The man looks at me and says it's a miracle and I must be an angel of some kind, sent down to mend his wounds. His ranting and thanking me gets more attention than I want, and soon there are several doctors and nurses in there. One of the doctors seems very happy to see me, he asks if I have come to heal the Longbottoms some more, because there has been no further improvement since I had been there last time, so if it was supposed to continue on its own, something went wrong. I now know where I am, at least… I am obviously at St. Mungo's hospital in a Harry Potter world. And maybe I was there to help with healing Neville's parents, so I follow the doctor from the room and onto an elevator that goes to another location and then opens. The doctor leads me quickly down the hall to a room numbered 657.

Inside I see that Frank and Alice Longbottom are sitting in a pair of chairs right next to each other, though each one of them seems completely oblivious to the presence of the other one. They are both staring off into some version of infinity that only they can see. So I focus on using the song My Last Breath by Evanescence to heal the two of them, and it seems to be having an effect… it looks like they are actually focused on me instead of on some parallel world that might exist only in their minds… but then as soon as the song is over, they both slip away again. It seems like my attempt was an epic failure, though the doctor says that was a very good sign, as they have had absolutely no response to any external stimuli except for my song and Neville's visits… I wonder if maybe Neville could help with the healing, since they are already showing some reaction when Neville visits, the song would give them some more stimulation… and I have the idea that once they get free of the catatonic state, there is very little chance of sliding back into it. The hard part would be getting them to that state. So I tell the doctors that I will come back to do more later, and they thank me for trying again, and then I leave the room. I am walking down the hallway, fortunately there is no one around me when I wake.

Dear Diary
Or at least I think I wake up… I roll over in bed and give off a couple yawns, I am remembering a Harry Potter dream, I really should sit up and take a few notes. Or just grab my iPod touch and take a couple notes… or grab the notebook by my bed and jot a few notes. I know I need to take notes or I might end up forgetting the dream, but it is still a difficult task to talk myself into doing it when I just want to fall back to sleep. So I grab my iPod and type in a few notes to remind me of the trip to St. Mungo's to do more healing on Neville's parents. Then I hit save, and set it back on my waterbed bookcase before rolling over and falling back asleep.

Note: I didn't realize the second part of this dream was actually a dream and not me really waking up and journaling until I checked my iPod and found there were not any notes files saved… >.<

I've been both sick as a dog, and out of town. Dreams have been so crazy. At one point, I was nightmaring lucidly about the Saw movies, which I don't even watch (Saw 1-3, then gave up.), then woke into a higher layer non-lucid to find myself having sex with Jigsaw. Ew? Think this had something to do with seeing my rather useless brother-in-law. I think he fits the vic profile nicely.

Yes, you can nightmare in a lucid. It's like watching a scary movie of yourself: you're a spectator, not a participant. Yeesh.

There were a few others, but nothing as vivid as last night. That one broke into my reality for a short time. I was totally lucid in a dream of my hometown (Dream-world geography again!), and I figured that I'd have some fun in an antique/thrift shop by playing dress-up. I'm never as mature in dreams as I am in reality, but I'm much more fun. Unfortunately, there were no dressing rooms, and the outfits I had started to shrink as soon as I started walking around looking for one, so I figured that since I'm dreaming, it was alright for me to start changing there in the store in front of everyone. I got a couple of items on, then the proprietress appeared and told me that it was inappropriate to be changing clothes in the store and that Id have to leave.

I tried to reason with her that this was all a dream, so it didn't matter because she and everyone else were imaginary, but several of the other shoppers physically threw me out. Then a Gothic chick with short, fire-engine red hair and a low growly voice (I swear she was one of my old Harry Potter fanfic characters!) showed up and told me that the proprietress was very powerful and her friends were coming to beat me up for embarrassing her like that.

We ran all over my hometown trying to get away. I could have flown, and I knew it, but I didn't want to leave the girl who helped me. I was wondering how unreal they were since I couldn't control them, and was concerned for her well-being. Suddenly I was aware (watching, as if in a film again) that the proprietress was a sorceress, and to avenge herself on me she made my friend aware that she was a dream, and not "real."

She cursed us both that we would know reality. This didn't bother me, the real person, but suddenly the redhead started screaming and chanting that she wanted to know, see, hear, and live reality. She attacked me, trying to claw her way through me into the real world. When she hit me I found myself awake in my mother-in-law's spare room, yet in sleep paralysis. The dream redhead appeared as a lump in the blankets, completely non-humanoid yet I recognized her, and attacked again by biting onto my left breast and clinging on. I couldn't move to fight, being paralyzed, but I managed to get out the thought "HELP ME" aimed at my husband. He was sleeping next to me. Then the blanket-chomper vanished, only a blanket over my breast, and we were both awake. He is completely unaware of what happened, so I dunno if he helped or if I jerked and startled him awake.

But that freaked me out.

1) go into a building not a gym but has weird things to do like a playground lots of people training walk around a laser show? friends arrive I see them NBA, NS; NS asks me what I'm doing in ballpit I get out walk around with NBA and KB, KB asks to go see a movie NBA and I laugh at him say no way but then we walk by one I see popcorn, candy, etc. say hey, I actually do want to go let's go we walk down but I have to go to the bathroom walk in, press box at Fenway Park??

2) locker's gone, I wonder where it went, oh well, I walk into a room as normal, then look back, I should probably get my books, Mr. R is looking at me, I go up to him ask where my locker went he says I haven't been treating it properly, I say okay where are my books, he's actually Mr. W, I walk around finally go into auditorium everyone's facing the front I have to go way to the back last row see JT as well as JF? from 10th grade I'm in the last row by myself suddenly the violin player in the middle starts coughing and falls and dies suddenly everyone starts coughing it's the Black Plague!! they're all spitting up green stuff, I turn around and run as fast as I can try to get out of there I was lucky to be in last row, turn around, no one's following me, run down street toward's D's Cs bus stop, was I infected?

Total dreams: 729
Total days: 367
Total lucids: 12
Dreams per day: 1.986
Lucids per day: 0.03269
Days recorded: 220
Dreams per recorded day: 3.3136
Lucids per recorded day: 0.0545

1) sitting at a table with 2 other people, it's time for me to give a speech to 8th graders, I see JT in the crowd I start the speech about UN but it wasn't supposed to be about that, principal tells me, I'm embarrassed but shrug it off, laugh it off, start talking about topic 8th graders get up and leave I walk with DM and DOH?? I tell DM that the speech didn't go over too well he reassures me tells me it's okay, we walk through cave-like stone formations

2) getting ready to go bowling, walk towards the van a bunch of people can't come, too bad, we get in van, now at blood drive I give blood they just prick my finger, the whole team is in line, other people come I lead the way rally the people to give blood

3) playing basketball in driveway, see TC from rival school, we play, I dominate, dunk

4) driving around near a church pass it a couple of times then go into a city with skyscrapers, New York???

5) in a diner??

Total dreams: 727
Total days: 366
Total lucids: 12
Dreams per day: 1.986
Lucids per day: 0.03278
Days recorded: 219
Dreams per recorded day: 3.3196
Lucids per recorded day: 0.0547

Hi there! I'm GMoney, and I'm going to be using this Dream Journal to record my dreams from now on. I've been recording them for the past year, but I'm not going to go through the trouble of copying every entry, so I'll just put the number of dreams I recalled each night for statistical purposes:

12/24/09 - 2
12/25 - 2
12/26 - 5
12/27 - 1
12/28 - 5
12/29 - 2
12/30 - 5
12/31 - 10
1/1/10 - 1
1/2 - 2
1/3 - 2
1/4 - 1
1/5 - 0
1/6 - 2
1/7 - 0
1/8 - 1
1/9 - 6
1/10 - 6
1/11 - 3
1/12 - 3
1/13 - 2
1/14 - 2
1/15 - 1
1/16 - 9
1/17 - 7
1/18 - 4
1/19 - 3
1/20 - 2
1/21 - 7
1/22 - 2
1/23 - 10
1/24 - 10
1/25 - 0
1/26 - 5
1/27 - 4
1/28 - 6
1/29 - 1
1/30 - 5
1/31 - 2
2/1 - 1
2/2 - 2
2/3 - 3
2/4 - 2
2/5 - 1
2/6 - 7
2/7 - 7
2/8 - 0
2/9 - 1
2/10 - 7
2/11 - 4
2/12 - 0
2/13 - 2
2/14 - 3
2/15 - 5
2/16 - 6
2/17 - 5
2/18 - 3
2/19 - 9
2/20 - 4
2/21 - 8
2/22 - 1
2/23 - 3
2/24 - 0
2/25 - 0
2/26 - 0
2/27 - 5
2/28 - 5
3/1 - 9
3/2 - 6
3/3 - 4
3/4 - 4
3/5 - 1
3/6 - 2
3/7 - 0
3/8 - 2
3/9-6/9 - 0 (didn't record)
6/10 - 4
6/11 - 5
6/12 - 2
6/13 - 4
6/14-6/26 - 0 (didn't record)
6/27 - 4
6/28 - 2
6/29 - 4
6/30 - 3
7/1 - 3
7/2 - 0
7/3 - 3
7/4 - 2
7/5 - 0
7/6 - 4
7/7 - 4
7/8 - 2
7/9 - 5
7/10 - 0
7/11 - 8
7/12 - 2
7/13 - 0
7/14 - 6
7/15 - 0
7/16 - 1
7/17 - 3
7/18 - 5
7/19 - 0
7/20 - 2
7/21 - 5
7/22 - 3
7/23 - 3
7/24 - 5
7/25 - 2
7/26 - 2
7/27 - 3
7/28 - 3
7/29 - 2
7/30 - 4
8/1 - 6
8/2 - 3
8/3 - 3
8/4 - 5
8/5 - 4
8/6 - 2
8/7 - 2
8/8 - 5
8/9 - 6
8/10 - 5
8/11 - 4
8/12 - 5
8/13 - 2
8/14 - 4
8/15 - 8
8/16 - 4
8/17 - 2
8/18 - 4
8/19 - 3
8/20 - 5
8/21-8/29 - 0 (didn't record)
8/30 - 4
8/31 - 1
9/1 - 3
9/2 - 1
9/3 - 4
9/4 - 1
9/5 - 7
9/6 - 5
9/7 - 3
9/8 - 2
9/9 - 2
9/10 - 1
9/11 - 0
9/12 - 3
9/13 - 3
9/14 - 3
9/15 - 6
9/16 - 3
9/17 - 3
9/18 - 10
9/19 - 3
9/20 - 1
9/21 - 4
9/22 - 1
9/23 - 2
9/24 - 4
9/25 - 1
9/26 - 3
9/27 - 6
9/28 - 0
9/29 - 3
9/30 - 5
10/1 - 1
10/2 - 6
10/3-10/9 - 0 (didn't record)
10/10 - 3
10/11 - 0
10/12 - 0
10/13 - 9
10/14 - 0
10/15 - 12
10/16 - 4
10/17 - 2
10/18 - 3
10/19 - 2
10/20 - 7
10/21 - 0
10/22 - 0
10/23 - 1
10/24 - 2
10/25 - 8
10/26 - 6
10/27 - 0
10/28 - 12
10/29 - 1
10/30 - 6
10/31 - 3
11/1 - 2
11/2-11/5 - 0 (didn't record)
11/6 - 2
11/7 - 1
11/8-11/10 - 0 (didn't record)
11/11 - 6
11/12 - 0
11/13 - 5
11/14 - 6
11/15 - 0
11/16 - 5
11/17 - 0
11/18 - 5
11/19 - 0
11/20 - 3
11/21-12/8 - 0 (didn't record)
12/9 - 0
12/10 - 3
12/11 - 1
12/12 - 12
12/13 - 3
12/14 - 1
12/15 - 3
12/16 - 1
12/17 - 1
12/18 - 8
12/19 - 3
12/20 - 0
12/21 - 4
12/22 - 3
12/23 - 1
12/24 - 2

December 2009: 32
January 2010: 109
February 2010: 89
March 2010: 28
April 2010: 0
May 2010: 0
June 2010: 28
July 2010: 82
August 2010: 81
September 2010: 93
October 2010: 99
November 2010: 35
December 2010: 46

Lucids: 12

12/28/09
1/3/10
2/6
7/11
7/24
8/1
8/5
8/9
9/1
9/18
9/19
11/6

Total dreams: 722
Total days: 365
Dreams per day: 1.978
Dreams per month: 60.1667
Lucids per day: 0.03287
Lucids per month: 1
Days recorded: 218
Dreams per recorded day: 3.3119
Lucids per recorded day: 0.055

I had a lucid dream last night! =D
(halfheartedly using the MILD method)

Okay, so it's not my first lucid dream; but it was my first lucid dream while (semi) trying to have one (intentionally). It was really kinda cool because as soon as I was in the dream I was like 'Woah, I'm dreaming', and then proceeded to perform a few reality checks just to confirm my dreaming state. At first I looked at my hands, the check failed; Then I tried sticking a finger through my hand and it only was really elastic, so the check failed; finally I plugged my nose and tried breathing through it, and could still breathe; the check succee ded: and I was dreaming! I could only control the dream to some extent: succeeding in making two little girls appear when I covered my eyes and found them there, but not in making people disappear, or making this obscure object I was imagining appear. I'm content with the success of having this dream at the least, but at the most I need to practice control and stabilization of dreams.

Mystery Game
Recall: 7/10
Sleep: OK
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm behind a warehouse of something with a group of people, when I see 8 tiny purple skinned orcish creatures appear on the ground in two rows. They are about the size of smurfs, in two rows, and holding weapons. Of course I'm like WTF? I approach to get a better look, but they disappear.

The tiny warriors reappear somewhere else, and again I try to get closer to them, and again the disappear. After this happens about 3 or 4 times, I ask the others if they see them too. They do see them, and conclude it must be some sort of holographic projection, pointing out security cameras on the walls. But none of the cameras line up with all the spots they are appearing, and I can't find any other sources that might cover all the different angles.

So I pick up a rock and throw it at then little dudes. I miss a few times, and other times they disappear before the rock hits them. One girl starts throwing rocks too, and manages to bowl them over, knocking them down. She approaches them and picks up a tiny rocket launcher that one of them dropped, then they disappear again.

We go inside the warehouse and it's like a gym inside. Everyone starts running around. Suddenly this booming voice starts talking to me and says "Since the girl was the first to pick up the rocket launchers, she gets a boost of speed." The poor girl wasn't prepared for her sudden speed boost, and runs right into a wall.

Now I'm really confused. The voice implied we're in some kind of game or test, with rules and goals we know nothing about. I'm having trouble making sense of it all, so I stay alert for any clues or surprises that may be coming our way.

I was at yoga and got up for a second, then someone took my mat! I got up and was trying to find it, but the mats kept getting switched around. I told the yoga teacher, P, and he said to go up to the roof and lock the door because he thinks college kids are getting in and stealing things. So I start to go up, and I'm in some building on a college campus. I'm wearing a UNF sweatshirt and so I decide if I'm missing yoga, I should start running. So I'm running up this ramp and I get to a hill, and I can't quite make it up the hill. A guy comes up from behind me and gets over the hill just fine, so I copy what he did. Then I'm hanging on this dirt ledge and feeling like I'm going to fall. I get around it, and eventually find the top floor. A guy asks me if I need help, and I tell him what happened, so he uses his walkie talkie to get someone to close the door on the roof.

...

I'm walking at UNF around the green, trying to go home to where I live now. Then I am walking down a fraternity row type place, and I put my head down because I don't want anyone to say anything to me. An SUV drives by and they are blasting one of M's songs, and I think wow, everyone really does like it. Then I am coming around to some familiar looking streets, and I wonder if there was no M, if I'd feel weird when I hear about people liking his songs. I get to an area that looks really familiar but the street signs are all numbers. A lady is standing there with a kid that I work with, DC, and she asks if I need help. DC start moving into the street so I bring him back out of the road, and say goodbye to him. I tell the lady where I live and she points down one street and so I start walking that way. I get to a garage sale and I lift up boxes and move things around to make them pretty.

...

I walked into a classroom and AC and LE were there and looked happy to see me. They gave me a little basket with candy in it and a tiny TV. The TV had pictures of AC and I wearing Indian feathers in our hair and laughing. I asked why they did that, and they said because the missed me.

...

I was at a KoL concert, and when they finished I saw the fans in the front weren't really paying attention to that fact that Caleb was coming out into the audience. So I took off my jacket, ran down, and was pushing people out of the way to get to him. Immediately I knew M was looking for me. Caleb had me follow him with a couple other girls backstage, and was thinking, what the hell are you doing. Two girls left, and it was just me and another girl who had these crazy blue eyes. Caleb asked me if I thought she was pretty, and I said I love blue eyes. She left and Caleb said "I'll guess you'll have to do". That made me feel like crap, but I followed him anyways. We are at some weird after party, and people are doing coke all over the place. The I see M coming up the stairs and he's pissed, I tell him what happened, and he said that's fine he just wants to meet Caleb first. So I go to find him, and he's laying down with some chick on top of him.