non-lucid

Theres a girl i really like but i dont see us being together - lets call her A. And theres this girl that i liked for a really long time and i think she likes me- lets call her G. Note that I am 16.

I was walking with A in a town and we met this couple. Next minute, the couple are having sex underneath something and so are A and I. People can see us, were all fully clothed. A was acting really casual about it - I dont think she knows Im a virgin - and i hated it. I saw G whilst we were doing it, i saw sadness on her face but i didnt express regret when she walked away. I stopped having sex before climax.

After this we walked through the town, the exact way we came through, holding hands. We were talking and all i remember is saying that it was sh*t and i hated it. I wanted intimacy.

Then, under a bridge, some people with guitars were playing and we challenged them to a battle of bands - I had watched Scott Pilgrim vs The World before going to bed, so that was obvious. I play guitar

Please tell me what this means

Thanks sleepknight