spinny

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at great risk of being banned or maybe even flogged hehe, am gonna post this beautiful little video link, which i had hoped to post in such a manner that you could all see the start screen, only no one responded to my questions on that (snif...)

anyway... it's really really nice!

and it's only about lucid dreaming! so pleaseee don't punish me...

https://vimeo.com/3971434

i think it's really lovely

no lucid dreams... yet, just more loud pops and bangs (in my head why?) and those strange glowing white outlines of my room... weird or wot?

Kat (my kitty) keeps coming and lying on me too, like cats do when they sense you're worried about something? her purring making the whole bed vibrate at times (maybe she wants to lucid dream too hehe)

and that's basically it... ho hum

it's so boring when nothing ever happens?

and then it scares the poo out of ya when it does??

oh pleeease let tonite be the nite! hehehe

howdy dream friends

haven't had much of anything different to report on or offer here of late (if ever lol) as nothing works, at least not for me it doesn't waa

so all i can do is to try every nite, as usual duh, and keep a journal here about how i didn't dream last nite either nor the nite before and so on... (boring!)

however... a strange thing did happen last nite while i was watching and playing around with those white lines i mentioned?

i was lying there just wishing maybe something would happen for a change, such as perhaps seeing more than just those white lines? e.g., some of the details in between those lines, other parts of the room as well i mean instead of big blank/grey spaces... when all of a sudden, and just for a moment because it gave me such a shock that i kind of recoiled back out; everything kinda lit up with a glaring bright white light and it distinctly felt as though my whole head had gone through the wall (or something) into the room next door, except that it was daytime in there!?!?

i can also add that it was frightening and that i nearly poo'ed the bed in shock (lol) but it was all over so fast that i didn't even have time to examine anything before i was right back in the dark shaking like a leaf hahaha...

has anyone else ever experienced something like this, and if so what the hell was it?

i do hope it's something!

with kindest regards from spinny

Another really weird effect, this time last nite!

i.e. just as i was finally going to sleep after watching those white lines again and nothing else happening... all of a sudden it was as though a jet plane flew through my room with a bang and roar so loud i thought the house was falling down! i literally sat bolt upright in shock!

i also felt like i'd been hit over the head with a good-sized mallet! lol my heart was really beating!

what the heck was that??

Well tthat's weird!

I was just lying down relaxin' and thinking about a bunch of stuff? and hadn't even 'started' with all the induction techniques yet heh...

When after a short while of notr really thinking about anything too constructive, i realised it was just too early to go to sleep yet, that i wasn't tired enough?

so I rolled over to look at the time as ya get some quite good movies here late in the evening, and would you believe it but 3-odd hours had gone by in what seemed like only 10 or 15 minutes??

What the hell happened?? i think was my first reaction, or perhaps more correctly: wt...!

i couldn't believe it! i was only lyin' there 15 minutes max! - i even checked the clock to make sure it wasn't busted? but it was fine... it was 'me' that was busted lol!

lol, if i start mooing with mad cow disease by this time next week then someone please take to the vet and have me put to sleep! lol

i know they say that time flies as you get older, but this is ridiculous!!!

and now am too disturbed to go to sleep LOL!

Another day, but last nite was still the same old sad routine...











tomorrow then?

hehehe

These are my eyes last night haha tryin' again to see in the dark

and then it was just the same old same old as per usual... nada!

now it's that time again i guess...

will he wont he, will he wont he...will he dream or not!

I can only try...

Sigh... another nite wasted... nada! nada! nada! - A couple of purplish streaks a few times, some diotty-kinda-dots (like speckles I guess) and then... Zzzzz Zzzzz Zzzzz as per usual, for... 'hours' lol...

sometimes I just feel like i'm... hehehe...

oh come on horsey! why wont you work for me??

maybe if I fed him a bit more perhaps? (really laughing)

I think maybe it's just... lazy! get up ya brute!

do something!

Nothing last night neither (d'oh) - what a life!

Still with the white lines tho', which is actually quite interesting in its own right?

It really feels as though you're seeing the room through closed eyes!

I know it's probably not really doing that, but why is it happening + why also the strange consistency?

I'd have thought of 'inventing' something like that to happen!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it 'might' be something!

One can but live in hope...

Was reading today about someone once spending 35 minutes trying to see through his 'third eye' (or something) and eventually succeeding in seeing the sky at dawn as though through a hole in their roof...

has anyone else here had similar experiences perhaps? and if so, what did it eventually all turn out to be?

anyway, i'm gonna try this tonite just to see what happens seeing as I've been seeing these what 'appears' to be white outlines of my room as though seen through closed eyes

i've more chance of this than some lucid dreaming with my history innit heh

wish me luck!

And yup... sunday nite... big surprise: nothing! as well... just those whitish outlines in the dark

This has gotta' be like some kinda' record no? 2 years of seriously tryin' has gots me nowhere??

Everyone else lucid dreams except me!

Nothing much else I can do around here then really, no-thing to contribute otherwise but maybe just keep this journal going until... 'something happens'

Anything!

Why can't I do it??

Ain't gonna give up though, oh no...

I'm comin' to get you you lucid dream you! - Just you wait!

ok, here we go...

last sunday... nothing!
last monday... nothing!
last tues... nothing!
last wed... nothing!
last thurs... nothing!
last fri... nothing
yesterday... you guessed it - also nada!

(well 'that' little lot didn't take too long to enter lol )

and it's only been like this for the last 2 years! (D'oh!)

so maybe tonite? (nice positive mental attitude and all that...)

right...