nightmare

Was arguing with my mother about some money that my auntie gave me to save for what ever i needed . In real life i already spent some of that money on some stuff i didn't really need and felt a little bed . So my mom was asking me what i spent the money on and i refused to tell her since it was stupid stuff i spent it on and she would only get mad . My mom never ever asks me what i do with my money . Than she told me that if i would show her that i have all the money that my auntie gave me , she would double it not bad right . But since i knew i spend some of the money my auntie gave me i did not want to do that . Now that i woke up and thing about it , my mother knows my auntie gave me money but she never knew how much , so if i was lucid enough i could have said "yes here is the $20 or $50 or $2000 from my auntie ) and i would not be afraid of lying or .

Well did not write in my journal in a few days and did not write in this journal at all so why not . So for the past few days i keep finding myself dreaming about a trip ( train tickets , buss tickets ) a school ( either my high school or middle) and my grandpas house .
Last night i find myself in a subway station buying a ticket to go to my city(which is 12 hours by plane away from where i am) . I go to reach for my money that i always keep in my right back packet but they are not there , i find this strange because i know that i always keep them there ,but then tell myself that maybe i moved them and i look in another pocket to find them .Next thing i'm laying on my back somewhere in the subway station with one of my female friends from high school and another girl i remember from long ago, i think i was trying to get some , well i started looking at one of the girls and she was naked so i looked down from her neck to her breasts to her belly got to her what was supposed to be her female parts but no she had a freakin penis ! Then i look at her and she says " what did you expect" ...
Yea ...