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So last night I went to be quite late for a college night (11:30ish) and woke up at 7:15ish, and whenever I do this I seem to have pretty crappy recall

On the plus side, it's been a lovely summers day today here in England! I've been sticking to my one fag a day, which is proving much nicer. I hated being addicted to smoking! I'm aware many people probably would say that if I'm having 1 fag a day then what is the point in not fully giving up, but I disagree personally! To me it's like a coffee :-)

I started my second year of college today, which was pretty good! I have a new, amazing philosophy teacher who has proved very helpful already, and I'm doing an extended project qualification on Buddhism which will be fun too!

Last night, my friend showed me a wonderful video on spirits and chakra, and it's changed my life. Generally, I'm a very happy guy at the moment - it feels strange being this happy after so long of being down!

Tonight, I'm going to set my alarm for 5 hours after I go to bed, as that's proved pretty successful for consistent lucids recently!

Much love to you all, stay happy and love everything!

Calum xx

Meditation to Prime my Mind in order to Lucid Dream....

I used Between Worlds hemi-sync CD.
I sit in the same chair with my feet on the floor. I like to be touching the 'earth' or ground as I meditate.
Hands, palms up, thumbs touching middle finger in order to keep my body connected.

I begin as usual by focusing on the blackness behind my eyes [side note: Recently read CosmicIron's SILD method and it is very similar to the way I meditate.]. I watch the flashing colors as I go into a light trance. I also focus on the music. As I go into a light trance, I lose sense of my body as it becomes very heavy - just like you do before you fall asleep. If I go too far under, my body snaps awake. So, I have to try and hold this in between state of consciousness - not too far that I fall asleep but not too awake that I can't focus.

Today, I got into a light trance surprisingly fast. I didn't expect to go under until a certain point in the music.

The most memorable part - two parts actually - were when my centers just started pulsing. For some reason, I was elated. I thought I'd shut them down. I haven't done this in so long - I thought I'd completely cut myself off. So, to feel them pulse again, it's ... I'm thankful. As my centers pulsed I got this burst from my heart center and then this all over rush. It was like ... :hmm: when you get excited or surprised and you get an adrenalin rush, maybe? It was not orgasmic. It didn't start at my root/base chakra. It came from my heart center and enveloped me. I know for so many this just sounds like rubbish...because I was there once too.

The other memorable part was as this buzzing/adrenalin rush continued to buzz all over my body I felt both my forehead/brow chakra and the crown chakra all beat/pulse. It was not harsh but this consistent beating that just kept an overall buzz in my body - almost like when your limb falls asleep but then finally wakes up and you get this tingling? That's the sensation that occurred throughout my body. As this happened, I imagined/saw my golden form shooting from my crown and upwards, hands together like in prayer, towards the sky. She fought to get out but got stuck at her waist. She struggled but was not released.

What does that mean? How the heck do I know. It may mean nothing. I may mean that I am not fully opened and so she can only be freed when I am able to sustain this energy - which I can and could not. Or it may mean my tummy was really hungry and I needed some food!!

April 12, 2012

Day 3
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Meditated with "Between Worlds" CD hemi-sync. Survived w/o any "distractions". I noticed that I kept feeling like I was moving when I don't think I really was. I seemed to go into a light trance very quickly and float in and out of a deep trance because when in the deep trance I tended to nearly fall asleep. So, as soon as I went under, I snapped awake and was out of the deep trance.

Still my mind chimed in with all kinds of comments and advice: "Don't think about the bum gif...", (which means I thought about the bum gif)..., "Okay, don't focus on the base chakra but move onward." (which means I focused on the base chakra BUT I did move on and got my abdomen chakra to thud as well as the solar plexus and heart - didn't go further). I did a bit of energy work as when one wants to experience OBE it's helpful to prime your energy body for OBEs. Basically, I'm just preparing for whatever comes or doesn't.

Nothing special in meditation other than feeling heavy, getting some reaction to my energy work, and trying to focus on the blackness behind my eyes. (Energy work: envisioned white pool of energy beneath my feet, then I draw up the energy from the pool through my feet and eventually circulate the energy. It makes my feet and body warm and buzzy...no not that kind of buzzy.)

Tonight, I will write in my journal an affirmation and leave the real life DJ on my beside table. Sooner or later, I will recall a dream and I want to be READY!

2010 (approx)

I fell asleep without doing my affirmations in my journal.

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My husband was flirting with me, and he touched my left side, below my ribcage. I cringed and pulled away because it hurt there. It felt like a really bad bruise. He placed his hand on my ribcage again, I said, no, don't that really hurts. He grabbed me by the arm and held me in place then forcefully began rubbing the tender spot beneath my ribs. As he rubbed harder his face contorted into this demonic face and he smiled an evil, malicious smile. I couldn't pull away and he continued rubbing, knowing it was causing me terrible pain.

I woke abruptly IRL and noticed my left side, below my ribcage was very sore. When I felt there, I noticed a lump - for real. I ended up seeing the doctor and found it was a Lipoma. Six months later, I had it removed.
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Afterthought: I am thinking that the activation of my chakras either sensitized the nerves here so that I felt it or it simply brought my attention to that area. Because during meditation my chakras (base, sacral, solar plexus, heart) were all throbbing away. I actually checked my pulse rate several times believing that my heart rate had increased, but it had not. My pulse was steady even though the beating inside me was very strong and insistent. The solar plexus centered chakra and the heart chakra are the ones that thundered away. Did this have an effect on my side? I don't know. Perhaps just coincidence.

I felt the dream slipping, so I focused on using Allura's version of time dilation, and the dream stabilized. I looked over at Data and asked him what dream we would be viewing today…

I was back in MoSh's inner world, in his living room, sitting on the couch beside MoSh with Data in front of us. Data said he had another dream queued up to be viewed. The holographic view system activated and the scenes around us changed to the scenes of MoSh's dreams from the night of December 3, 2009.

Present day MoSh and I were in an office of some kind, a really nice one, and MoSh was sitting at a desk with some old looking papers on it, they looked like old parchment. I looked closer at the parchment and it had an outline of a person with different energy centers highlighted, it was a drawing of an astral body along with an energy body.

Larger Diagram
I studied the picture on the parchment for some time, for some reason I thought it was important. There's a link to a larger picture of it, but I'm not sure if I got it right or not, I just did the best I could. MoSh then took another paper and wrote some more things down, but I didn't get the idea I needed to remember those, so I focused on remembering the diagram on the paper. I wondered what the chances of me remembering that were… I was still focused on that as the images of the dream changed, and I didn't even realize the dream had changed until MoSh nudged me because I wasn't paying attention.

MoSh got up out of a sleeping bag at night, and stretched before walking down the hill. He met Asuka down there, but he didn't seem to recognize her, which seemed to get her a bit annoyed about that, but soon MoSh seemed to realize who she was and they talked for a bit, I got closer and I could hear that Asuka was trying to make MoSh become lucid, but he wasn't doing it… She was trying again when the dream shifted once more.

Now it was a park, it was still night, although it wasn't completely dark… maybe early morning or late afternoon, and I got to see just what I always wanted… MoSh taking a dump… which I didn't stare at, unlike a rude DC who came along and walked right in as if this wasn't as rude as it appeared… I said out loud, "Data? What the fuck did you leave that in there for?! I didn't really need or want to see that…" The dream shifted.

MoSh was with a woman, it was Asuka, and she was slightly behind him, I remembered she'd had that bad habit for a while of not being where MoSh could easily see her… They went into a building that looked like an office, there weren't any other people there, it was completely silent there. MoSh was exploring the place, Asuka staying just a little bit behind him, when he entered a larger room that looked like it was meant for large presentations. Not big enough to call it an auditorium, but bigger than a normal office, with seats lined up and a stage at the front. The only light was coming from candles lining the sides of the room, which actually gave it a rather creepy atomosphere. MoSh went up to the stage and started playing a guitar that he had summoned, he was playing very good. Asuka took a seat in the front row and listened attentively, I also listened, he was playing classical music, which I am not very knowledgeable about, so I couldn't say what song or composer. But he had more audience than just Asuka… weird specters floated in as he was playing and filled more of the seats. Neither MoSh nor Asuka seemed to notice them, and I didn't sense hostility. Another shift in the dream…

Now there was a short bit of MoSh with Asuka in a small playground, there was someone on the teeter totter moving it in odd directions, MoSh joined that person, the teeter totter moved erratically, and both of them nearly fell off and face planted… Asuka looked like she couldn't decide if she was worried about them getting hurt or wanting to laugh at the ridiculous looks on their faces… "Hey, Data!" the present day MoSh said to me, "We don't need to see every little fragment, just get us to the parts I asked you to see!" The dream shifted…

Now I was looking at MoSh back on the hill where he had been a couple segments ago, where the sleeping bag had been, and Asuka was with him. She asked MoSh about an unconscious dream walker, said she would really like to meet her if that was at all possible. MoSh said he wasn't sure where H was at this time, then he walked over to two other men and asked them if they had seen H. The younger of the men said H was getting ready for the party, of course. It was H's birthday, he added that MoSh had better have brought a present this time… and a real one, not some piece of shit. MoSh asked the man where the party was taking place, and the man looked at MoSh like he was nuts. He said MoSh already knew that, MoSh said if he knew he wouldn't be asking. The man hesitated, giving MoSh a strangely blank look that I have only seen on a DC, then he repeated that H was getting ready for a party. MoSh called him useless and walked a short distance. Asuka looked at the two men for a bit, then she looked at MoSh for a bit, said if he could focus on H, she thought she could open a portal to get there. MoSh agreed to that, and after just a short pause, Asuka opened a portal and then followed MoSh through it.

On the other side of the portal we were in a big room that looked more like a warehouse than a place to have a party, but there was a woman there working on changing that, she was hanging decorations on the walls, covering the plain concrete floor with what looked like colorful beach towels… lots of them… Asuka went over to the woman and introduced herself, it turned out the woman was H, and H said she was very busy with the party preparations. Asuka said H shouldn't have to do all the work for her own birthday… Asuka started helping H out, she brightened up the place by creating colorful flowers and making them grow over some of the uglier parts of the room. Before long it did look like a really festive place. H said she still needed the cake, she asked MoSh about the cake, MoSh didn't have a cake… H told MoSh he was supposed to bring the cake, Asuka said no, she was supposed to bring the cake, and it was right here… she summoned up a cake, a very fancy cake, it looked really delicious, though it looked more like a wedding cake than a birthday cake… and H didn't miss this fact. She told Asuka that she was having a birthday, not getting married, but then she took the cake and started eating it like a pig… then the dream shifted.

Next there was a car on the road, and the past MoSh seemed very interested in that. There were four people in the car, a man and a woman in the front as well as a man and a woman in the back, the men were both on the driver's side and the women were on the passenger's side. There was nothing remarkable to be seen about the group, it was dark and they were driving a bit fast, the driver wasn't paying enough attention… was there going to be a wreck? Sure enough, there was a wreck… the car slammed full speed into the back of a stopped semi truck, crumpling the front of the car completely and triggering the airbags in the car… there were 4 airbags, two in front and then two in the back of the front seats for the rear seat passengers. The man on the driver's side was lucky there was an airbag, he was not buckled in. He flew forward into his airbag, then he acted like he couldn't breathe. The woman next to him was behaving a bit strangely… I saw she had what I think was a pencil and she was stabbing the man in his right side over and over and over and over… ok… that one was a bit disturbing… The driver from the semi came back to see what had happened, he saw the woman stabbing the man beside her. He asked what she was doing, she said unfortunately the man beside her had been killed in the accident. She fished around on the floor a bit and came back up with a screwdriver, she continued stabbing the man with the screwdriver even though the truck driver was watching… um…

Another shift in the dream? Nope. It ended this time. MoSh and I were back in his living room. MoSh was not pleased with Data, he said he'd asked for the important dreams, not every single fragment he'd ever had! MoSh was especially annoyed about the one where he'd been on the toilet, although I had made sure to turn away without seeing anything… in fact, I would have sworn his pants hadn't been down, he had just been sitting there on a toilet doing absolutely nothing… but MoSh was still yelling at Data about including non-important dreams in the set. Data stated MoSh hadn't defined what an 'important' dream was, and since hidden dream signs could be in any of the dreams, he had included them all. MoSh was quite exasperated, I'm not sure if that's what woke him, but he disappeared. I woke shortly after MoSh disappeared.