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PART 1 - BASEMENT SEARCH

I'm in the basement of Cornwall (location where I lived during childhood.) A girl is looking for something of mom's (for the second time?). She asks me... I make a guess somewhere in mom's room but say I don't know for sure.

Larger story context, but can't remember...

ANALYSIS

This kind of reminds me of a customer asking me where something was yesterday - I said it wasn't my usual section, and they were super understanding, which was unusual. Possible trigger.

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PART 2 - HANGING OUT W/SARAN

Unknown location, hanging out with SarAn (someone I knew years ago) and one other unknown person.

I'm acting very chill and funny, we have this certain kind of good chemistry that brings out the best in me. It suddenly occurs to me to show them the "double rainbow guy" video... I have trouble finding it.

ANALYSIS

Not sure what would trigger SarAn now...

I did used to make them laugh. I do suspect we might still have good chemistry, so perhaps that is my unconscious' projection of them based on my expectations.

I watched the CollegeHumor parody of the double rainbow guy yesterday and found it quite hilarious, likely trigger.

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PART 3 - DOG BITE

Same location as part 2. Dog (black) bites me, right on the side of my eye socket, apparently trying to rip it out. I apply pressure on my face in the opposite direction to stop it, and eventually get loose.

ANALYSIS

Perhaps related to the pain of my "ailment"...

I seem to be seeing my dreams mainly in terms of "triggers" as no symbolic meanings really jump out at me most of the time, but I wonder if this is simply because I've gotten into the habit of perceiving them that way, or if that is actually how they are. On the other hand, trying to force a symbolic meaning when it doesn't occur to me naturally simply feels artificial and without substance.

Remembering dreams for me seems to be about a sense of expanding, opening up to the vague bigger story at play, then letting the mind fill in the blanks... hard to describe, but it's a specific skill to be aware of and work on.

PART 1 - RICH FAMILY PIANO VISIT

I'm visiting some rich, "upper class" family. I don't know how I know them.

There is a mother - 50s, slim, narrow face, short brown cropped hair, well mannered but stern, a cold personality... and a daughter, who looks like someone I very vaguely know IRL.

The house seems to be based on two locations from my past, one from my childhood and one my father's current home. Kind of both at once, as dreams often seem to weirdly do.

I practice on their piano (in the kitchen area from my childhood house)... meanwhile in the next room, the mother is teaching the daughter piano (living room, right across - where there used to actually be a piano IRL).

At one point I crawl into the room toward the corner opposite from them (there is no other furniture other than the piano), where there is a picture of the daughter leaning against the wall on the floor. I "fix" the tilt of the picture. As I do, I'm more or less staring at the daughter. She pretends not to notice.

As I'm crawling back out, I realize that I was staring and that it must have seemed creepy, and think to myself that I should completely ignore the daughter for a while to compensate.

After a while the mother comes in and asks how I'm doing. I pick up on the subtext that it's time for me to go, and say that I was actually just about to head out.

As I'm leaving I notice I'm wearing a bulky green-ish jacket I've borrowed from them. I hesitate, wondering if they'll ask for it back, but suppose they let me keep it for now as it's raining outside.

I think the original reason I borrowed it had something to do with what took place before I arrived, some sense of danger, but can't remember. I remember something about playing in an orchestra...

On my way out (now based on my father's current home), where there is usually a closet by the front door, I notice it's a door into an entire room that is in fact a giant checkers board, with giant checkers pieces to play with and everything.

ANALYSIS

Piano is one of several arts I've been considering to spend my time on while not working on my meditation project, so I'm sure that association is primed in my mind.

Crawling into the room... this could certainly symbolize submitting to their "higher status."

Fixing the tilt of the picture... this could mean trying to improve her self image, perhaps repair damage done by the harsh mother figure.

The checkers room... this could refer to decadence, extravagance, this rich family having a whole room just for checkers.

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PART 2 - RAP ALBUM G

I'm talking to my IRL friend G about releasing a rap album. I say that I'm not super motivated to release one at this point, otherwise I would be "working my contacts," that it's "just a hobby right now."

ANALYSIS

Perhaps trying to qualify myself, essentially trying to prove, "I could if I wanted to."