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**** This is my dream log from the night before last night, as I never got round to writing them down on here. I had no dreams last night, which seems to happen whenever I have dreams in my mind that haven't been written here ****

I went to bed quite late last night, at about 2am. I woke up at around 9:30am with dreams remembered. I wrote them down and went back to sleep, as I was still sleepy. I was hoping to wake up at about 11am, with a healthy 8 hours sleep, but no. My body decided to wake up at 1pm

9:30am

1) I was in a school or college classroom with many pupils. I was sat next to my ex-girlfriend Caroline, and we were back together or at least trying, as we were very happy with eachothers company. We seemed happier than ever, and I seemed to be acting more myself than I usually did when we were previously together. It was a dreary, wet afternoon, and there were no lights turned on. Open blinds let in the wet afternoon light. We were watching a film on a projector, but I don't know what film. As we were waiting for the film to start, there was adverts, but not on the screen - in real life. It was for Tesco, and a man who I recognized from my job at the swimming pool was the host. He was showing us the new Argos-esq conveyor belt system for showing the items on sale. This probably came from the other day at my other Job in Trespass, where all the customers were mucking up our stock, and we said it would be so much easier to have an argos system of bringing items out on demand. The man was amusing, but I don't remember why. The film was very enjoyable, and I saw a pack of five raspberry maom rectangles to the left of me that I had been eating. I was holding Caroline's hand, squeezing it flirtatiously and kissing it. She didn't seem to mind, and returned the squeezing, but wasn't particularly affectionate about it. The film came to an end, and the lights came on, followed by everyone including Caroline other than myself leaving the room immediately. I asked her, "Was that it???!", surprised at the shortness, but she informed me that we were just stopping for an advert break. Instead of just sitting through the adverts, we all left to the library. It was her start of year induction, so she wandered off to sit with her class, as she is a second year and I've just finished college. I texted her saying that I loved the library, and that I'd just borrowed a new book, although I'm pretty sure I hadn't. The library had a similar lighting to in the film room, and it looked like a massive version of my local library. A teacher with short, strawberry blonde hair of about 50 years old began to take the register. I was excited for Caroline's name to come up, as I wanted to see how her strange surname was pronounced by the teacher, as well as how the class would react to hearing her name. She was near the start, although she should have been around the middle, and when her name was called (pronounced correctly) she waited a moment, before very quietly saying 'here'. She had put her head in her hands against the desk she was sat at, as if she was extremely ashamed. The teacher didn't hear her name, which was ridiculous as despite how quiet she had replied, she was sat right next to the teacher, and I was stood about 10 metres away and heard it. Her name was called again for this reason, and she said here faster and slightly louder. There were sniggers from pupils, including a boy amongst a group in secondary school uniform, looking too young for college. Suddenly, it had finished, and Caroline was getting ready to leave the library, presumably to return to the film. I couldn't find her, and received a text from her containing two long, confusing words that I had never heard before, leaving me puzzled as she was never one with a large vocabulary. There was something at the end of the text suggesting she wasn't returning to the film, saying goodbe. I wasn't particularly bothered by this. I walked towards where she was sat originally, passed it and continued down a corridor to the right, up some stairs. The walls were grey and it was lighter, I think there were some large windows on the left side of the staircase. I think the stairs were leading to the film room, which was strange as I came from the opposite direction originally. About three quarters up the stairs, I saw my friend Steven. W walking down from the room. As he passed, he said to me, "Are you one of those girls where time stands still, once a month?". This is a quote from a tampax advert that my favourite musician Aphex Twin sampled I laughed, and replied affirmatively.

The following dreams I recalled when I woke up at 1pm. I remembered some of it as I layed still, and the rest whilst I was writing out the first on my ipod.

2) I was at reading festival in a tent that I was sharing with my best friend Tom. R. It was pretty much the same as the tent I actually shared with him at Reading, maybe a bit smaller. I was sat by Tom's compartment, and it was very messy around me. Seems about right I picked up a leaflet which contained the news of our group at Reading Festival. According to one of the headlines, Will. Robinson had brought a 500 ounce steak into our tent!! Considering the massive size, I immediately tried to find it. Although it would usually be very easy to find such a large steak in such a small area, I could not find it. I fumbled around for it and found a large, floppy, flat and moist object that I thought could have been the semi-defrosted steak, but then I reconsidered as it would have been far bigger than this. I told tom about the confusion.

3) My friend Pasty that I've seen a lot of recently and I were in a large, spacious living room. I got the impression it was his own house, although I know he lives with his parents. He showed me a magazine dedicated to the topic of how to get laid everytime, without fail. He chucked it in a black, metal bin, as if it was a magazine basket, and told me that he'd have to read that this morning before going out. He then proceeded to move behind the sofa I was sat on, opening a door on the left to go for a shower. Again, lights were off but the windows let in afternoon cloud light.

4) I was having a stoned night out with Tom, smoking a lot of joints. We were by the cinema in town with others. We each had a very large bag of what looked like extremely vibrant green, strong weed. At least 4 ounces each XD The plastic back it was in was crinkly and not very soft like normal weed bags. For some reason, I owed an old lady, about 70 years old an 8 ball of weed. I really didn't have the money to pay for this, which is hilarious as I had soooooooooooo much weed and could have easily sold some to get the money, or simply just given her a hefty handful. We were now in a posh, dark room of which seemed to be on a very high floor of some sort of skyscraper office block. It was evening, probably around 9pm on a summers evening, as there was a dark orangey light from the twilight. We were with the old lady who was to my left, grinding up some weed for her, when the grinder broke. It was Tom. C's neon green grinder, and the spikey bits had all snapped off. She said she needed a grinder too, as well as something else. This was just too expensive for me (£2 extra? ) and I was beginning to worry about my money situation. I realized my responsibility however, and decided I had to get her a grinder and the weed. Me and Alice M. were now walking towards Wetherspoons to meet her, except the wetherspoons had moved in place of Nandos. We were sober now. When we approached the bouncer at the door, I was confident and felt I had nothing to hide, but he was very uncertain of Alice's ID, despite her being two years older than myself. This made me quite smug. She told the bouncer that her name was something very strange and that sounded nothing like a normal name, so I was confused. She then proceeded to ask, "recognize me from the telly?", and it suddenly made sense. We walked in towards the bar, and immediately saw our friend Andreas perched on top of the bar like a frog. It was dark in the room, with golden lights giving it the same light as in the normal Wetherspoons. We were speaking to him, and I think he was with other people we recognized. Suddenly, I was on the dancefloor area to the left of where I was originally standing, now with Ashley. H, in place of where the bar was. I asked her if she fancied a spliff, but she said no. Ryan. C, who was sat opposite me as we were now sat on blue plastic chairs like in primary school, said he fancied one. He then mentioned to two other people that I recognized that they could join in, and I mentioned it to a third guy who was sat to our left. I was happy to smoke them up, but was slightly annoyed as I get frustrated smoking with loads of scroungers. It had to go round five people, so I asked Ryan if he fancied making a massive one. Ryan now had a similar back of weed to me and Tom, and he put into the magically reformed grinder which was now red what at the time seemed like a normally large bud, and I was happy to match it. However, looking back it looked like at least a 3 gram bud! I looked at Ryan's bag of weed and initially thought it was much better than mine, but I decided in the end that they were pretty much the same size.

5) I was walking down a path at E. Park in my town with Tom. C and one or two other who I don't recall. We were walking towards town. It was very sunny and nice weather. He mentioned someone who I didn't know. When I expressed this to him, everyone was surprised, and Tom whipped out a picture of him. I still didn't recognize him. I kind of get the impression that this dream happened prior to the previous dream, however I definitely recalled it afterwards.

6) Effy and Tony from Skins were in a damn, dirty and scatty drug den like building. It was very small, and lit with a dark, red light. Effy was trying to express how scared she was and how she was "screwing herself out of every situation" (I'd heard this phrase on Bad Education the night before). She was getting very close to tony in a sexual rage, but Tony wasn't particularly fussed and although he seemed concerned, he told her that she was overreacting and that he had to leave.

(One of the weirdest dreams I've had. I only wrote notes down unfortunately, and can't recall it all )

It was daytime.

I was on a pier with Daz and my brother. There was a lot of random as fuck people.. really strange.

I was in a room joined to the pier and Daz put a fire cracker in a man's mouth, who was the size of a small dog. When the fire cracker went off, I remember thinking that the guy would have been dead for sure.. I thought he would have been blown up. I had a look at the guy and he wasn't looking good. He was moving side to side and struggling to breath. Eventually he took his last couple of breaths, then passed out. I was worried for Daz, as I didn't want the guy to go down for murder.

I was on the pier and a girl was cracking onto me. Everyone was different, and acting weird, but in a good way..

I was outside at some kind of stall you would see at a amusement park. I could see a man trying to sell me a gun who was behind a glass. He was demonstrating what the gun could do, which shot plastic balls. I asked him If I could have a look at it before I thought of buying.

I saw a few rowing boats go passed the pier, so I decided to jump in one and carry along. I was rowing through a small tunnel.

I was naked, at a house with Josh D. I was looking through a paper which had all the interesting/strange people from the pier.

Had a dream early in the night that was kind of scary. It involved traveling on a river in Vietnam. There was gunfire and abductions.


I was at a music festival where the Disco Biscuits were supposed to play. A lot of my high school friends were there and I was happy about this. I had a large back pack on that I wanted to put down. There was a table with chairs toward the edge of the room and I put it down near a chair. My friends wanted to set the table up right by the stage though which unnerved me because it would get in the way of everybody else. The band started playing but they were very quiet and didn't sound like the Disco Biscuits. Me and my friends laughed together a bit, then we dispersed. I walked past some girl and got stuck under a rope barrier and said some high stuff that made everyone laugh. We got to this one area. My acquaintance JeSm was laying down. He was on some pills and he just wanted to zone out. I thought it was weird that he wanted to do that at a concert. He seemed very relaxed though and I was thinking that I could never do such drugs because I'd be too afraid of dying. SS was talking to some people. Me and MC started walking around the festival lawn area to mingle with the crowd. We saw some girls that were kind of cute. We started talking to them. One of them was an ex wife of my friend BA. She was critical of him as a womanizer and I felt guilt by association. Nevertheless, I continued to flirt with them. I said, "Yea, I know that BA is a jerk, but you know what? I'm a jerk too." MC was astonished that I would say something like that to a girl who I was trying to attract because it supposedly would make me look bad. I tapped the girls stomach and said, "So why don't you give me your number?" She started giving it to me. I looked over at MC and said, "See, it works." Then I tapped her again and said that I had a girlfriend too. This was going too far. She then refused to give me her number and I left but as I was walking away, it was revealed that I had her number anyway.

I invited a few friends to my house. One of them lives in north Jersey, the other two I know from a gardening group that I used to be involved in. The gardening people came but the guy quickly left. I was at the house where I grew up. Me and the girl were sitting on the couch. I was offering her beer and coffee but she just wanted water. I was worried that I was boring her because I couldn't keep a compelling convo going. We were sitting with butts touching though on the couch watching tv. Later I went to the fridge to get some food and then I called NM, my friend from No Jers. He answered and said he wouldn't make it. I told him I was mad at him but that I wouldn't hold that anger for that long and it was okay. Next, my landlord called and told me that I couldn't have a party at the house. I told her in strong voice that I wasn't having a party and that she can't regulate that. Suddenly, a party of like 50 people arrived, most were from my high school. I was thrilled about this. The venue became a hybrid of the house I grew up in, my uncle's basement, and the house I currently live in. I saw a guy from my tennis team, CP and we were thrilled to see each other. The party was coming to an end early and I went to see my gf who was doing homework upstairs. There were no partiers upstairs. We slept in a different bed.

I a different dream, I left work with my co-worker MB. We went to a perfume shop, though both of us thought it would be lame. It wasn't. They had all sorts of scents, condoms, and cds. All these homeless people kept coming in and talking to the woman at the register. This homeless guy who I always avoid in town came in and I got angry but the woman was friendly toward him. When we left we saw another co-worker KY. She was drawing or something. There were some people nearby outside of their cars and they were talking about directions. They were headed to the All Good Music Festival. KY had a gps in her car and she went to get it so that she could give them directions. They were a mix of people reminiscent of some people I once met 10 years ago, with one token crazy hippy who said something hilarious (to us) that all of his fellow travelers were annoyed at.

In another dream I went on some kind of hike.

amazing festival type dream last night, k was taking me round for my birthday. col, rus, dan j, marm, jo p, michael caine, david cameron and stephen fry all featured. after festival we were all hammered and in this house which seemed to be this michael caine type characters place. loads of girls lying around, parts of the place were still like massive festival tents with people sleeping while i rode my bike through them. found Jo with an old aussie celeb, she looks tiny and we sit down and chat. kept going round and finding my stuff all over the house like nmy phone etc because i felt so hammered. dropped my phone while talking in a crowd, and then stephen fry fell on his back with an almighty thud. was ok but said he was off home or something.

later outside this kid gets bitten by a wandering spider that they were provoking. i manage to blag us a bus to take him to get it sorted. while leaving and hanging off the back of the bus, david cameron comes out in protest against the festival. he comes up to me and knows my name which freaks me out a bit (dreamsign). i grab him and shake him up to freak him out back.

on the bus and we spin through a field and tip over (major dreamsign). it comes to rest against a wall and everyone is safe.

must add losing personal belongings and worrying how much cash i have left to list of dreamsigns

Recall hasn't been good lately. Last night, I just told myself to remember any dream, lucid or not. Seems as though that worked. Try to atleast remember another nonlucid dream tonight.

I was in kind of an industrial park setting. I can remember there being a lot of warehouses and high-voltage lines. And I was in this parking lot with about two or three other people. One of them matching the description of my dream guide.
We were helping someone do a short film for some class. For their film they were doing stunts on a BMX bike around the industrial park. They had set up ramps to do stunts out of clutter laying around, like wooden palates and oil barrels.
After a little while a bunch of people from my family showed up. Notably, my mom and dad, but also my cousins and grandparents. At around this time, My dream guide left the scene.
The industrial park was connected to a town , and there was a huge festival taking place. I specifically remember this group of Asian women preforming this exotic dance while twirling these ribbons.
I noticed a large hill up behind us. A row of townhouses ran up one side. I decided that I wanted to go to the top of the hill just to see what the veiw was like.
It didn't take long to reach the top of the hill. There was a gravel pathway that took a fairly straightforward path to the top. I think my dream guide was there again, and she followed me part of the way up. I was nearly to the top when someone inside the last townhouse to the top of the hill asked me what I was doing in their yard.
I told them that I just wanted to see what the very top of the hill was like. The said that it was OK for me to be in their yard. I then cut though a dark concrete tunnel under their house and continued up the path.
The path was made of rounded red bricks now, and when I reached the very top of the hill, there was a small brick platform, about three meters around. Some of the bricks had been imbedded with precious gemstones, and the center of the circle was a yin and yang symbol.
The view was spectacular. I could see the path that I had come up, the town with the festival, and the industrial park with two sets of power lines running away into the valley that stretched out before me.
I realized that it was so quiet and tranquil, that for some reason, I should meditate. (I don't commonly meditate IRL) As soon as I started meditating, I woke up.

After a couple of nights after logging back into Dreamviews, I had a couple of dreams last night

6am

1) My dad dropped me off at college in his car. It was a cloudy but bright day. The college had the same drop off point, except the part that I walked to from the car was completely different - it was similar to the courtyard area in my secondary school. When I got out to walk to the courtyard bit, Dad drove to the carpark, again similar to the one in secondary school and parked up. I walked towards my secondary school hall, which instead of having the normal roof had a blue tent marquee very similar to the NME and Lock Up tents at Reading Festival. Quite near in the tent, many people were crowding around two guys suspended above us at our head height somehow, writing names on a board of some sort. It first looked like a terribly organized sports team sign up, however it soon seemed to be some sort of request list for a DJ or for acts to play a festival. Everyone was shouting randomly names chaotically and the men, who were probably about 20, were just writing the ones they heard the most or with most clarity. I don't remember the names being shouted. Someone started to shout "LIL B! THE BASED GOD!!!!!", and a few people including myself started joining in. This was followed by people shouting for OFWGKTA or ODD FUTURE, GOLF WANG. My dad appeared behind me to the right around this time, and I thought if I joined in with the Odd Future chants it would impress him, so I did so I started shouting JAMIE XX, but no one joined in and I didn't notice the men taking any notice. So I continued to start shouting it every so often, until a man in front of my turned around to inform me that he put Jamie XX up ages ago. I was a bit embarrassed by this and thought I must have seemed really desperate. Suddenly reality was facebook (this seems to happen quite often ) and a girl wrote a wall post on the event saying that she wanted to buy me a drink! Everyone laughed at her including myself, although I was secretly pretty chuffed. I commented on it in the persona of a mentally disabled guy in my college who always flirts with girls in capital letters on facebook. It got 5 likes, and I was chuffed with this, but also felt like a bit of a dick to the girl who was just trying to be nice. Next thing I knew, everyone had left. I looked around me to see no one, but sort of knew that if I turned around, the girl would be behind me. I tried it, and in fact she was. She had medium length curly blonde-brown hair, was quite short in height and had large boobs She looked like my friend Tamara. I started chatting to her, however she was French and spoke pretty poor English. I thought she was just nervous but she was just quite illiterate. This created a really awkward situation as there was a strong feeling between us that we liked each other, but we obviously couldn't really express it. Suddenly I remember my Dad who was nearby, who speaks very good French, and thought I'd drag him over to make some conversation. I told her that he speaked French and she turned to him, and said something in french quite shyly and quietly. He understood her perfectly and replied perfectly, which was weird as he doesn't speak THAT good french and struggles to understand it. They were talking for a while and I thought I'd show that I wasn't overkeen by leaving briefly to go for a wee. The toilets were where the cafe food normally was in the hall. When I came back, I was very confused to see my Dad and the girl speaking about insurance and mortgages! I assume they were now talking in English because I can remember my Dad saying "You find the richest people you know, and take a £700,000 loan from them to pay for your house!"

7:15am

2) There was some sort of police academy crossed with a job seekers club situated in my kitchen. I don't know why I was given the impression that it was my kitchen, as it looked more like a small village hall or a staffroom than a kitchen. Everyone was sat on those awful brown plastic chairs including myself, facing the front. It was bright in their with internal light, and gave the dirty impression of a scout den or youth hostel.

3) In real life, I really dropped a course at college and in return had to do a journalism club. I turned up to my first lesson of this club at a lunch time. I was sat towards the front of a classroom, once again in my secondary school It felt like it was either night time or just had no windows as the light was very orange and warm. The classroom was similar to one of the maths rooms at my secondary. I knew a couple of people in the class including my Polish friend Claudia, my Nepalese friend Akriti and a couple of people from my ex-Japanese class. I was waiting around whilst the teacher was getting ready, and more friends came along! Aiden and Layla from Japanese, Marko one of my best mates, and various others that I knew. The class seemed like a huge doss. The teacher - who was very, very attractive, young and by the looks of things a shit teacher - was just standing, watching everyone chat. She was quite tanned but definitely English, about 25 years old and quite tall. She looked like someone from my old drama group. Next thing I remember, we were watching some sort of educational video, whilst my teacher decided to get her boobs out from the top of her bra They were very fake and spherical, but were beautiful all the same

I'm eating at a restaurant with my dad. I don't recall what I was eating but remember that it only cost $12 and that I was drinking water.

We then to to some kind of festival. I think it is a music festival.

Now I am at a toy store with dad and G. I am a little girl again. Toys are scattered all over the floor.

Since my last DJ entry, I have been on holiday and rarely slept, or been so tired and drunk that I didn't write in my DJ. When I did write in it, it was just 1 or 2 words a night. I worried that by not writing in my DJ my recall would suffer, however after getting home, I had a nap or two, and then before sleeping I made sure I got to bed early, and taking Apple Juice and B6 really seemed to help, as my recall was back on form. This is just proof of how drinking and disrupted sleep can kill an otherwise great dream recall!

Date: 23/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 10.35pm
100mg B6 before bed

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red

Dream 1 - non lucid

I am queuing for some sort of festival in a field. It takes a while to get through the queue, and while I'm there I spot a guy eyeing me up. He's tall and average looking. We talk, and once we get through the gates we go to find somewhere to have sex. We find the edge of some woods, where other couples are shagging, so decide to do it there. We get on the floor and get to it (I'll leave out the details, but it was fun ) Once we have finished, we agree to meet again and he leaves. For some reason I'm still hard, and want more sex, so I wander round in search of someone else willing to join in. I wander to the back of the field but it looks boring, some security guard tells me I can't walk around with my cock out, but I ignore him and walk off. I pass a group watching two people fight, its a guy and a young girl, but the girl is a professional boxer and she beats up the guy pretty bad, so he is bleeding and battered. I finally meet up with the same guy as before, and ask him if he wants to come back to my place. He does, so we go to a small room, which is like a waiting room, and try to ring a taxi. All the taxis are booked or busy, so we have to wait. While we are waiting, other people come and talk to us. Somehow we get back to my place, I don't know how, but it felt like a gap in the dream. However my mum and sister are at my home, and they are annoying and embarrassing me. My mum tells the guy I'm with that I nearly had sex with my sister when I was younger. WTF?! She then gets her boobs out and starts dancing while smiling like a mad women. I tell her to stop but she doesn't, I'm mega embarrassed. Why does my dream mum always ruin my sex dreams? Lol. The dream seems to skip again, I'm now alone in my room, and waiting for the guy to arrive so we can have sex. He arrives, and just as I let him in, a neighbor comes round to visit and I let her in too. I tell the guy she wasn't invited, and apologise for her being there but she overhears, and gets very angry and offended. I feel bad and try to make excuses but she is hurt. For some reason, I'm trying to post some bizarre egg-like things through the letterbox at my front door, but it is full and they won't squeeze in.

Dream 2 - non lucid

I am going to my friend's house and pass a clothes shop that my friend owns. I peer in, and see there is someone stocking shelves with new items, and they have left their bike outside. They look at me, as if to watch their bike but I walk on, I would never steal a bike like that. I soon meet up with the friend, and tell him that I saw his shop in a dream, and that I dreamt someone was stocking the shelves. I don't know why I suddenly decided that part was a dream. I wasn't lucid. I did fall asleep using the mantras 'I will know I am dreaming tonight.' which may have played a part. It was weird that my dream self thought that was a dream, when I'd just done it, but didn't realise the whole thing was a dream. The guy tells me he had the same dream, including the bike outside, and we think this is amazing for a bit. We go to call on another friend ready to go out and party. When we get to his house, he's already been out all day, and is ready for bed (he's drunk and in a mess) however we persuade him to join us. He is wearing a white shirt.

Dream 3 - non lucid
This next dream was sort of connected, but I did wake between the two so it was a separate dream.
I am at my mums house, getting ready to go out with my parents and my partner. My little brother (who is about 8 in the dream, he's 19 in RL) is sad that he has to stay at home, and is a little upset. The dog jumps up to lick his face and make him happier, but he cries when we leave.

We leave and i lead the way, going to a random house that I see down the street, I'm not sure what my intentions were, but I certainly wasn't invited to this house and I don't intend to knock, I just push open the door. My parents and partner shout words of warnings as the door just falls because it is not attached to the wall, it nearly lands on a man inside the house, who looks up angrily. I apologise, but still waltz right into the house, where 2 men are laying a carpet. I feel guilty for barging in, and so I start helping them, they carry on, annoyed but not about to do anything. I rip up the old carpets (brown, cheap carpets) and start bagging up the rubbish. My family sort of watch, and the 2 working men realise I'm quite helpful and are thankful. At some point, my mum asks me to check on my little sister who we left at home in bed. Yes, for some reason my little brother turned into my little sister, who was also a young child in the dream, and she is 23 now. I use my phone to access hidden cameras in her bedroom, and see she is still fast asleep in bed. The bed has an old-lady style flowery pattern on it. I show my mum and my mum is concerned because there is white foam all around her mouth. She thinks my sister has a mouth disease, because she didn't clean her mouth properly.

Dream 4 - non lucid

Me and my partner are outside the main hall of my little school from when I was a young child. However I am my real life age. My partner goes in the hall and I stay outside with lots of chocolate bars, I go in, but I have done something wrong and get sent out again.

Dream 5 - non lucid

I am in a kitchen making dessert. I have made a sponge cake base for each of us, and I am now melting berries to pour on top. The berries melt down to a purple sticky liquid, and I pour it over each dessert. We try to eat it but it is scalding hot, I burn my mouth Before bed, I ate a pizza that was too hot and burnt my mouth. I woke up with a blister. (ouch) [COLOR="#00bfff"] While we are doing this we are watching a TV, which is showing the news that someone has gone missing, suspected killed. I am a few friends know about the murder, because we covered it up and hid the body. However we are keeping it a secret. Some girl who is par of our group that knows, accidentally lets slip about the cover up, and I feel she will be murdered next. 2 of my friends run away to a different country where they have great fun doing things like white water rafting etc.

Dream 6 - non lucid

Me and my friend go shopping, because my mum asked us to pop out and get her some wine. In the supermarket, it takes me a lot of time to find the right bottles of wine, and I take care not to drop and break them. My friend disappears. I then get a trolley full of sweets and chocolate for myself. This is quite normal for my shopping trips! I also go and pick up some prescriptions from the shop's pharmacy. When I get there they won't give me one of the prescriptions because it is not in my name, we argue for a bit and then they give in and let me have it. I am angry at them questioning me so I walk out of the shop with my trolley full of goods, and don't pay. It is now dark outside, and there are gangs of youths hanging around on the streets, and some dodgy looking women. One street I avoid because I know a gang will attack me down there, but I approach a dirty, thin women who tries to fight with me. I pull out a baseball bat and beat her away, she also pulls out a baseball bat but I grab hers and use both of them to hit her until she leaves.

Dream 7 - non lucid - 12.30am

In this dream, I am a policeman. I am going through some of my assessments with a supervisor because they feel my work is starting to slip and they want to help me. They find out my wife and children died not long ago but I still think they are alive. they follow me, to a place where I think my daughter is, she doesn't exsist but I see her, and talk to her. They try to tell me that she died, and this makes me cry. I know they are dead really but can't cope so I pretend they are alive. The 'imaginary' daughter tries to convince me to commit suicide. My supervisor helps me leave and I am in tears.

Date: 06/07/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 11.09pm

For some reason, I woke up several times in the night without remembering any dreams. However judging by my clock, it was too early for my REM cycle. I tried to WILD, but got too hot and fidgety so just slept. Upon waking after each dream later on, I was wide awake and could have got up even though it was too early. This is very rare for me! I stayed in bed and managed to slip in / out of dreams easily, remaining lucid. Several times I would catch myself in a dream as it started forming, knowing I was dreaming, but each time I wasn't asleep enough to be fully in a dream. It was very relaxing, and good practice.

Dream 1 - non lucid

I am at my friend's house (R) R tells me he just bought another cat, and I laugh because he already has 2 cats. It is a beautiful cat, with fur coloured like a leopard. I can instantly see why he had to have it. I tell him his house smells of catfood, and he gets a little offended although I didn't intend to be mean. His living room has only 3 walls, and where the other wall should be it opens up straight into the outside, and it is snowing out so all the snow is being walked into the house. It's beautiful, as it's dimly lit, maybe evening time. I am stroking his leopard cat, it seems to like it. I don't see his other cats anywhere. We are watching TV, and I decide to go and do something else, I put my coat on (a black, biker jacket) and as I walk out I see the room next to us is filled with older people (40's / 50's) and although I can't see them all (maybe 4 or 5 of them?) I see the nearest to me is a nice looking lady, well presented, a bit motherly. She is smiling happily and enjoying the TV they are all watching. I decide it is best not to disturb them as she looks so content. I try to be quiet. A woman with a clipboard comes in, looking a bit annoyed. She starts telling me to turn the TV off as I am annoying my neighbours because it is so loud, she is kind of rude so I snap back at her, telling her I have turned it off ages ago so she must be mistaken. She starts to argue but I dismiss her and walk out, a little annoyed.

Dream 2 - non lucid

I am starting my own business and looking through designs for my shop. The business is centered around lucid dreaming, but it looks like I am designing some sort of cafe with a dreaming theme.

Dream 3 - non lucid

I am shopping with my mum, in America. We are shopping in a big mall type thing, which is so big we have to drive to other parts of it. ***I HAVE VISITED THIS MALL IN ANOTHER DREAM YEARS AGO I am sure of it!!!!*** On our way into the first shop, there are small pens containing animals for sale, kids are playing with the animals, I look in and they are ferrets, crossed with little dogs. One pen is ferrets crossed with dashunds, and they look happy and calm, very pretty. The next pen is ferrets crossed with Jack Russels, they are a lot more fiesty and some roll around play fighting each other. I want one but know I can't have one. We enter the first shop, and my mum is looking for a shirt for my dad. We look through shirts that are shiny, colourful material, with badges or flowers on the breast. They give me an Indian Sari feel to them, but we know my dad would never wear anything like that. Mum finds some clothes (a shirt and jacket - plain black and white) for herself, she tries them on and they look great, so she decides to buy them. She doesn't find anything for my dad. I find some cool Pokemon badges that are only 99p. I choose a Pikachu and Raichu, my mum starts telling me I'm too old to be interested in them, but then gives up. When we go to pay, there is no cashier, so we just walk out. We get in the car to go to the next set of shops, and my mum says she will return to pay later. I tell her don't bother, it's their fault they had no-one to take the money, but she insists we will go back. In the end, we return to the shop to pay.

Dream 4 - non lucid

I am in a bathroom, or very small room with an extremely attractive young man. He is fair haired, and has piercing blue eyes. We are making out, and he asks me if I want to have sex, I say yes. We start touching each other up, while kissing and undress each other while still stood up. Suddenly my mum walks in and disturbs us, I am really pissed, but I am nice to my mum who is just asking me a stupid question. She leaves, and we start making out again, this time a little more desperately and I'm gagging for it. I wake up.

Dream 5 - non lucid - moments of lucidity.

I am at a festival, but I am alone. I decide to try and get backstage, and do this by jumping fences when no-one is looking, some guards (in suits with sunglasses on) spot me, but don't seem to do anything, I think they're on a break. I keep going, feeling mischievous and daring, and suddenly I think 'I am dreaming, so I can do whatever I want.' however I lose this lucidity as an older man stops me. He is maybe late 50s, mardy looking and a little out of shape. He might be tan coloured, or maybe indian? I can't remember. He tells me to follow him into a trailer for an exam. I don't really want to, but for some reason I feel I have no choice and follow him into the red, metal, old trailer. Inside there is nothing, and I know this is not authentic. He lays me down, saying he has to start the exam, but then starts touching my penis. I get annoyed, and try to stop him, but he insists, after a few more minutes of him trying and me resisting, I wake up.

Dream 6 - non lucid

My phone had run out of battery so I couldn't record the time, however the sun was shining through my curtains so it was pretty late, maybe 10.30, 11?

For some reason, someone I don't know, has decided that certain people (myself included) have to be put on a motorbike, given a gun and sent away. None of my friends are sent, just me so I wave goodbye sadly to them. On our bikes, the ones of us that have been chosen drive in a line through a door, and into a big hall. In here, we have to ride around, pull wheelies and shoot each other, until the time is up. Those who survive go on to the next round (a bit like battle royal) and those who die....die. I survive with ease, and the next round is we have to get rid of all the food in our little plastic cups that we each have. The food is like party food, or buffet food. For me it is salt and vinegar chip-sticks. I have loads of them and worry I will not get rid of them. As the clock starts, my friends turn up to help me, I have the idea of eating them all to get rid of them, and my friends say this is crazy, but as I start eating they disappear (obviously) so they all start doing this. The time is ticking down and I still have a few left, so I sneakily pour some into the other contestant's cups. This works, and I win. Because I did so well, I am entered for free into a horse race, I find out my horse won, and get £20 reward. I first I think it is £20,000, but no, it's £20. A guy I fancy tells me he is hungry, I'm annoyed because we just ate all those chipsticks and he's still hungry? But as I fancy him I agree to spend my £20 on getting him some food. We go to a stall, (suddenly we're in a festival field, with food stalls lined up, but we don't seem to notice or think it's weird) he browses the menu then gets 'Steak chips' This is like chips, all connected together, dipped in steak juice, with melted cheese on top. It looks amazing and I want some, but he doesn't share. This annoys me too! But because I fancy him... I let it slide. He wants to heat it up, he's starting to become a real pain, but I take him to a microwave to heat it up, he starts complaining that he can't figure it out, and I get angry and decide to do it for him. He wants to put 30 minutes on the microwave, but can't do it, I type 30 in, and it puts on an hour. He starts shouting that it is wrong, but I tell him harshly that he should just stop it after 30 minutes, and that will do. Some polish girl behind me in the queue for the microwave starts complaining that we are taking too long, and tries to reach over to cook her own food. Already pissed off, I shout at her and slap her hand away. She goes quiet but mumbles something under her breath. A man does the same further down the queue and I think of confronting him, but I'm not sure exactly what he said. Me and they guy I'm with decide to leave this place as I'm getting angry. So we get a taxi and go to a shopping centre. We pass my old college on the way, and I point it out but the guy is not interested. I start to think he's a dick and no longer fancy him. We get to the shopping centre and most, if not all the shops are shut. Now the guy complains again, saying there's no point in being here if the shops are shut. I can see lots of people sat around drinking outside the shops on tables, and suggest we go join them and just have fun, but he is having none of it. The driver asks us if we are ok, and neither of us reply as we are both in a mood. The guy I'm with tells the driver, that clearly we are not ok, and the driver says he will take us someplace else. The guy then complains that he can't afford the fayre after already being brought out here, and the taxi driver says he can just pay it when he has the money, like an IOU. This seems to work, and we drive away. I remember the taxi driver had a geordie accent, and so I concluded we must be on holiday in Newcastle.

Dream 7 - non lucid dream fragment

I am t with a bunch of friends, we are deciding what to watch on tv. One guy suggests this certain channel, because it has The Big Bang theory on 3 times, with another program on in between each BBT. I agree with him, as I like BBT. Everyone else is indifferent.


***NOTEWORTHY***
My friend R has 2 cats, but his house doesn't smell of catfood
I like Pokemon, and probably would have bought those badges in RL
I had a conversation about ferrets making good pets during the day
I recently bet on a horse, I also drive a motorbike, I've never shot a gun though!
I love chipsticks.

Date: 27/06/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 12.48am

Dream 1 - non lucid - 2.24am
Me and my partner, 'N,' are getting motorbike lessons. N falls off the bike and hurts his foot quite badly. The teacher is nice to me, but very strict and uncaring with N. There is a small child nearby, and suddenly he / she clings to my arms, and will not let go. I try gently to remove the child, but the child won't budge.

Dream 2 - non lucid - 8.52am
My notes here are terrible, I can barely read them!
We are at a music concert / festival in the middle of a field. The field is empty apart from us and a small group of people, we are 'waiting' for something. I do remember waiting for an awfully long time. The feeling is that we don't know what we are waiting for, but it is supposed to be big. Like a famous person or something. Suddenly a few people are running towards a makeshift hut, which has queues leading in. There are star wars posters around and people start saying it is an actor from star wars appearing. My friend S is running towards the hut, as she is huge star wars fan (and in the dream she is wearing a star wars Tshirt) I stay where I am. Then, a giant inflatable slide appears in the shape of a tongue, at the top of the tongue where the mouth should be, a big inflatable gorilla head pops out, and from it's mouth lots of people start emerging, and sliding down the slide. The people are all good looking, wearing very little amounts of clothing, and what they are wearing is neon pink. They all slide down to join us, who are cheering, but then nothing happens. They just sort of hang around and wait with us. I notice I am wearing a neon pink babygro, and start to take it off. However I am naked underneath so put it back on.

Dream 2 - non lucid - 10.08am
I considered WILDing, but my partner kept snoring so I got angry and just went to sleep.
I am in a low budget hotel room. I am laying in the single bed, alone. A dog comes in, which I seem to recognise. It is a HUGE dog, maybe a rottweiler? It jumps on the bed on top of me, and licks my face. Although it is scarily massive, it is very friendly and I stroke it for some time. I vaguely remember someone disturbing me by coming into the room??

I consider this all one dream, although it could have been several;

Next I am back in one of my old childhood bedrooms. My little sister is with me, as is my partner N. I am taking some tablets to get high. As I am taking them, I find some other tablets which are a different colour. I decide to try one of these too to see what it does. I take 1 of each. I try to put the remaining tablets into a pill box, but it hard to get them to fit, so I have to squeeze them in. (I'm sure Freud would have something to say about this ) For some reason, I decide to put some in my mouth, but not eat them, just store them there. One of the tablets splits in my mouth, and the insides pour into my mouth. I know worry that I've had too much and will OD. I try to scrape out the stuff that has spilt into my mouth, but I am not doing so well. I decide to flush it out with water, so I find a 2 litre bottle that has water in it, and I pour it into my mouth, rinse, and then spit it out the window. I panic that my mum, who is in the living room below, will see the water going past the window and come up to check on me. However I have no choice, so I keep spitting. I also wash my hands clean with the last of the water.
Eventually we decide to leave, and go to our hotel room. Due to the fact I have been messing around with water and tablets I haven't had chance to get a shower or get changed, so I set off in my PJ's, and decide I will get a shower when I get there. N tells me we are going to a different hotel room this time, as we have been upgraded to the posh bit. We walk there, me with a heavy backpack on. We notice the change between the 'budget' side of the hotel and the 'posh' side. Suddenly everything is blue, clean and very nicely decorated. There is a bar along the left, with ashtrays on it. I tell my sister to put out her cigarette because we are in the posh bit now, she argues at first but after seeing how posh the place is, she agrees and puts it out in one of the ashtrays. We walk past a lounge area, with footstools and sofas, and lights in the floor. We turn right, past a blue pool table and through a door to the hotel rooms.

***NOTEWORTHY***
I have riden a scooter type bike for a few years now
When N tried riding my bike in waking life a year or so ago, he did actually fall off, but wasn't hurt
Dream sign appears again
Don't know is S really likes Starwars or not
Im not a huge starwars fan, but it's ok
I occasionally take a pill at parties with friends

Date: 26/06/2012
Place: My own bed (for a change!)
Time of getting into bed: 11pm
Glass of apple juice in the day.

Dream 1 - non lucid

We are at a music festival or music event. There are lots of bands and different stalls etc. We go into a small, dark, dingy shed. (We being me, and friend I and friend R) We are just chilling / talking in here. I know of a group of people just outside, and I know that they are not friendly. One of them comes in to retrieve a bag he left inside here, which is like a holdall type bag. He tells us there is a human skull inside, and we just say 'ok' because we don't want any trouble. The group are young, hooligan type kids (god I sound old) who have guns. The young guy gets offensive and pulls out his gun, but my friend I takes it off him. There is no struggle, more like a nervous tension. I plays with the gun, asks the kid some questions while the kid answers them. I then aims the gun jokingly, and 'accidentally' shoots the kid several times. Although he is not hurt, they shots are close and nearly hit him every time, so the kid takes the gun back. Now he has it back, the kid dos the same; talks about the gun and aims it at people. I panic, assuming he will end up shooting someone. He shoots at me, and I get scared but he tells me not to be scared, and that my jumper is too baggy, and will catch the shots before they get to me. Amazingly he's right.

[Dream 2 - Lucid dream

I woke and wrote my previous dream (see above) I needed a pee so I went to the toilet and came back. As I lay down, I attempted to WILD. I was very hot and had to stop to remove covers then continue. (I always get hot when I WILD?) I start 'feeling' a dream, talking with friends, playing with my friends cat. To keep myself aware, I start 'rubbing' my friend's sofa that I am sat on while this dream forms. (Dream sofa, I am really in bed) However the dream is not solid yet. Suddenly, I am in a fully fledged dream and don't know how I got here! However I am fully lucid. Unlike my last lucid, I do not panic and I stay calm. But I think this is due to a lower level of awareness. So I'm walking with my partner (let's call him 'N') down the road, I fear there was more to the beginning of this lucid but alas, I have forgotten. I am telling N that I am dreaming. He doesn't believe me, but does ask me some questions to test me. I tell him let's get a train, so take him to the train station. As we walk there, I am amazed by the details my mind has come up with. The scenery etc. We get on the train and I see a pigeon close by, I try to touch it but it flies away. However I'm not bothered as I'm happy I am dreaming, so we hop on the train. As I walk by a DC, I stroke his face to feel the stubble on his face, he stares at me but doesn't seem to mind. We get off the train again, and I'm not sure where we have got off. I ask N if he believes me yet, he says no, but does seem to be thinking hard about it, like I am beginning to convince him. We have to go through a check-point before we can leave the train station (like guards on a gate) and as we approach I get horny. I get out my junk with the intent to present it to a DC when we arrive at the gate. N notices and asks me what I am doing. I suddenly realize I don't want to upset N, even if it is the DC version. So I put it away and pretend I wasn't doing anything. However N is very persistant, grabbing me and challenging me. I get a bit frustrated and suddenly N is as well. I fear he may become angry and ruin the dream, but I remember what I read on DV about making DCs do what you want, so I think of the most plausible thing I can and say 'N, aren't you supposed to be at the post office today? It shuts in like 5 minutes you better hurry!' N works for the PO. He suddenly realizes and rushes off, leaving me alone. I decide I am no longer horny after that charade, and progress through the gates into this new, unknown place. When entering this place (must have been a building, but I don't remember doors of any kind) I was almost speechless about how AMAZING it looked. Not necessarily real, but just very detailed, and beautiful. It was along the lines of a train station, mixed with a shopping centre, and maybe a pub or nightclub element to it too. I saw so much in here, simple wandering round that I have probably forgotten much of it. First of all, there were lights and displays. I think it was evening-ish time so these lights looked BEAUTIFUL, I really stared at them, noticing they were made of little lights, with a yellow glow. Reminded me a bit of Xmas lights. I was smiling madly, thinking 'this dream is awesome.' I then walked off, found some women searching in a fridge for their dinner while they were on a break. I searched for a little bit but then walked off. I was at a bit of a loss of what to actually do. I didn't even think of flying (dur) and even though I knew I was dreaming, I didn't do anything crazy or mind-blowing! I suddenly remembered the task of the month. I knew it involved walking through a mirror. I turned around, expecting to find a mirror, and taadaa! A lovely mirror. It was a bit high for me (I'm a shortarse) so I pulled myself up to it, and just stuck my head through boldly. At first I thought of a beautiful park scene, and thought 'don't think of that, cos then that's what you'll see!' however it wasn't, what I did see, was SPACE. Like, our universe, just black, and filled with stars and I could even make out the milky way. It was BIG. There were brightly coloured parrots flying through space, just casually flying around, in all directions, kind of slow. The vastness of the space scared me however, and I decided there was no way I was climbing in there! So I pulled my head out. It was hard to get out, like I would somehow fall in, and for a minute I was stuck, but a very nice young DC, who had black hair and a friendly smile pulled me out. I thanked her and told her the mirror was 'all hers.' So she climbed up and stuck her head in too!
I walked off again, repeating over and over that I would remember the mirror for the TOTM, determined not to forget. I followed rooms in this building, not going in them but reading the signs above the doors, observing the DCs going on with their lives. I came across a large photo booth (the type you get passport photos printed instantly on) but it was 4 or 5 times bigger. I went inside, and realized you were supposed to sit on the tacky-looking plastic sofa (it was an old, battered machine) and put money in, then a person would have a conversation with you about anything you liked. I found this silly and walked out, the thought crossed my mind that if I pulled the curtains, I could have some 'adult fun' in this booth. But I decided against it, not wanting to end the dream early. I walked up some stairs, running my hands along the metal pole at the sides, and finding it very metal-like. I found a room which I spent some time reading the sign above it, but have now forgotten what it said. A young guy walked past, and I got horny again. Figuring I'd just go for it, I walked up and asked him if he fancied some fun. He ignored me, but clearly wasn't interested. He wasn't even that good looking, but for some reason I persisted, taking his hand and placing it down my pants. He was clearly uncomfortable with this, and gave me a terrible look which made me question my morals. However I knew I was dreaming, so kept telling myself he wasn't really upset and it was just my mind telling me its not nice to do things like this to strangers! However the guys dad suddenly appeared, concerned where his son was. His dad looked mad so I left! While walking away, I thought 'hey, I haven't had to stabilize this dream once!' So I rubbed my hands together to practice, and the whole place lit up, and became a bit clearer. However this faded again as soon as I stopped rubbing my hands. I already thought everything was clear, but now it had been clearer and gone back again it seemed a little unclear. (If that makes sense) I shouted stabilize! But my dream began to fade, I shouted it again, this time with NOW on the end, and summoning up as much confidence and courage as I could. The dream came back. I had a few more seconds of walking around, then blackness began to set in. I tried spinning, but I couldn't do it, it was really hard! I couldn't even get close, I tried rubbing my hands again, and this was better, but in the end I just gave up, and let myself wake up. I figured it was the end.

When awaking, I could have gone straight back into a dream again, I didn't move or open my eyes. However I wanted to write in my DJ, I didn't want to lose the dream! So I got up. Although this dream was clearly lucid, it didn't feel as real as the first time I had a lucid dream. I think this is why I was a lot more in control, because it wasn't so shockingly life-like. Don't get me wrong, it was pretty amazing. I feel annoyed that I didn't do more, and super annoyed that I let my penis get in the way of a decent dream.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

My cousin 'C' has come to stay fr a few days. I got on well with him (he annoys me in RL) and we had lots of people who were crowding round to see / meet us, like we were famous or something. More him then me. We were talking about going to a music concert while he was here, I told him Linkin Park were playing, but he wanted to see Rhianna. I thought 'he used to have decent taste in music...'. There was some sort of parade going by, with lots of drunk people watching and celebrating. I have a fish tank with lots of shrimp but no fish. I complain about this and someone tells me to draw some fish, put them inside and they will come to life. I start doing this, but my cousin distracts me, as do our fans who keep watching us / asking us questions.


***NOTEWORTHY***
LUCID DREAM!!!
WBTB / WILD
TASK OF THE MONTH?
Festivals / concerts YET AGAIN - DS
Cousin hasn't visited for a while

Date: 20/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: midnight exactly
I took 100mg B6 tablet before bed

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I didn't notice any effect from the B6, but will continue to take it.
When waking, it was so dark I used my phone to find my pen, I then noted the time was 2.57am
My notes are sparse (I was VERY tired)
I am at a music festival. 2 of my closest friends are there, as is my little sister. I know I am educating my sister on something, but my notes are random words and unreadable so I can't remember what it was.
Suddenly me and my partner are walking down a street, and along comes a polar bear. I am not sure if this is the same dream, or a new one - but my notes say this is the same dream (I divide dreams with lines across the page) so...
The polar bear wants to have his photo taken with us, and the two middle aged woman who are also walking down the street in the same direction. They are getting out their camera, when my partner dives in for a quick photo. The polar bear lays on a bench, in a cheesy pose, my partner smiling and thumbs up next to it. After that we walk off fast. I am giggling and walking fast because I know the bear will want money for having his photo taken with us, but leave the 2 woman to pay. I hear one of the woman shouting angrily after us, 'Don't run off, come and pay! That's cheeky!' The polar bear catches up and I think 'oh well, nice try' I am fumbling to get my wallet from my trousers, and while I do so I talk to the bear, who is now a human dressed up in a bear costume. (Like what you find in theme parks etc) I ask him how he is, etc - making small talk. I'm laughing and joking, a little cocky I think. We eventually arrive back at his place, where I discover he is simply a young lad, probably in his mid teens. I ask him weather he gets free food with his job, and he says he gets vouchers for a certain amount which he cashes in at the stalls. (So I am clearly still at a music festival) I express he gets paid too low for what he does and the dream ends.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I have simply written in my notes; LOST DREAM. I guess I couldn't remember it. I have an image stood in a room filled with junk...

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

I have managed to get tickets to an outdoor music festival... (I'm noticing a pattern here!) I am happy because the tickets were hard to get. there is a big ring in a field full of tents, and a stage to the side. It is very busy and lots of people. While I am sat at my tent, a friend's boyfriend walks by and says hi - we converse for a bit (maybe my friend was there also, but I don't remember seeing her) and then he leaves. For some reason I now have big, green, dragon-like wings. I can use these to fly, although not by much. I like my wings. We go to the stage to watch a band, it is VERY busy with loads of people gathered and squashed up, but I love this. I dive right in and use my wings to get to the front, where I rock out for a bit.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have moved into a new house, which is actually quite nice. I have moved in with an old friend (non sexual, just splitting the rent) and we are quite happy about this arrangement. There is a knock at the door, and it is his ex girlfriend, who he split up with in a bad way last year. She has changed a bit, and since it has been a while he decides to forget about the past and invites her in. I don't complain but I do not like her. I actually pretend that I don't know who she is. She sort of does the same. We make small talk and drink tea etc, but then she starts acting like her old self again, going through my belongings, I believe she is stealing stuff. She also sprays paint on one of my windows, and I tell her off harshly, claiming that it takes me ages to clean. I scrape the paint off but she keeps doing it so I get angry. She then starts graffitting the walls, I get really mad and try and throw her out, she resists (not in an angry way, in a 'i'm the victim here' way) and I insist. Eventually my friend talks to her and she calms down, but then I find her going through my things again. My friend agrees to take her home and they leave. Before she leaves we do let each other know that we are aware of who each other is (as we were pretending not to know each other) When they are gone, I get a call from the friend who is lost, I use my GPS / sat nav thingy to direct him to a kids toy store.

Dream 5 - Non Lucid dream

I am yet again, at a music gig. I am waiting for Steel Panther to come on, having rushed there to see them. Guns n Roses are just finishing and I dance around like a loony with some friends. Slash jumps off stage and starts playing his guitar next to us. We appear to be the only ones at the gig, so all the attention is focused on us. Axl Rose then jumps off stage, and starts singing in my face, I respond by singing back, or screaming the words back at him - genuinely happy and psyched up! My DJ notes say: 'Good feeling' and I have drawn a little smiley face


***NOTEWORTHY***
Upon writing the last dream it occurred to me that MUSIC FESTIVALS / CONCERTS are in a LOT of my dreams. This could be my dream sign! Yay!
Writing down the time was a good idea, will try and do it more often
The bands in the last dream are both bands I like, and have seen in concert
I was reading about flying in lucid dreams during the day, hence the wings in my dream?
My friend who I moved in with in my dream, really does have a psycho ex girlfriend.

Date: 19/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 11.50pm
During the day I drank 1 x 500ml Monster energy drink

WILD attempt (first ever)

Strangely enough I decided to try it without prior sleep (don't ask me why) this took a good hour before I really felt the effects, but here is the results;

Went to bed, relaxed, tried to get sleepy and restful. Took some time but finally felt in the right place. Found sleeping on my side the most comfortable (my sleeping position of choice)
Was continually interupted by random banging noises - was sleeping in a caravan and sounded like the walls moving / creaking? Never noticed this before so really annoyed me!!
Each time I was awoken I ignored it, and relaxed again - partners loud breathing kept me awake but after using it as a beat to keep my own breathing slow, it became unnoticeable. I found this bit easy.
After some time I was clearly getting close, I could not feel my body, I kept experiencing swaying / floating sensations and my 'mind' was totally immersed. It felt a bit like I was mildly drugged up, I couldn't feel my hands or even the quilt around me. I didn't feel the need to swallow (which I have a bit of a habit of doing) I continued counting to ten, and saying ;I am dreaming' each time. I often lost my place and had to start over but remained calm.

After an unknown amount of time, my body lit up as if on fire, but not painful. I had vibrations running through my body, which I tried to feel and control (sort of worked) it was not a bad sensation, but so real and intense that it did 'light' my brain up. Almost like going from sleepy and hypnotized to being conscious and SWITCHED ON. My ears popped as if I was underwater, and I tried to enjoy this strange sensation, telling myself I was about to enter a lucid dream!

This sensation was exactly the same as the sensation I had when getting lucid a few nights ago. I feel like I know that I'm lucid, but I have to DO something to break through the barrier. Last time I raised my hand and pulled myself out from my 'body' so to speak. this time I didn't get a chance to. My initial idea was to 'roll over' into a dream. I didn't do this in time.
Unfortunately I must have gotten too excited as I 'woke up'. I did a quick RC to make sure it wasn't a FA, which it wasn't. I jotted in my journal and tried to re-enter, but by then my heart was racing so fast and I was wide awake.

It did give me incentive to try WILDing again though!

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am at a festival, trying to get back to my tent. There are lots of people walking around, and a large queue of traffic blocking the way. It is also very dark and very muddy, however I am not worried, I just keep walking.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am somewhere, and trying to get home with my partner. We have no money to get home, but a limo pulls up looking for some famous people. We get in, pretending it is for us so we can a free lift home. It takes us to the home of the famous film stars who own the limo. We get out the limo and go in their house. Their house is big, spacious and obviously they are rich. We help ourselves to their stuff but we are not trashing the place as that would be rude. Someone knocks on the door and we panic, and hide. They soon go away and we decide it is best to disguise ourselves as the film stars so that no body suspects us. We put on their clothes, for me this consists of a dirty, white string vest and some large boots. I then have a string necklace around my neck, with beads and random bits hanging from it, a bit broken and messy. I also wear a long, dirty, thick trenchcoat. We then put egg yolk all over ourselves. No idea why. I believe we got these from the fridge.

Dream 3- Non Lucid dream

I am going through a drive through, although the actual company is not one that I know of (made up?) the men who work there are nice, but incompetent. They wear police helmets, and apologize for the delay. I finally get the food and drink but after drinking the fanta, it is warm. I hand it back and complain and they are nice, and agree to replace. However it takes so long to get a replacement that we decide to go for a short walk. We step out the car and see a strange gift shop. It is clear we are in a place I am unfamiliar with in my dream as I sort of explore, like a tourist. The gift shop is brown and had a big skeleton outside, it appears to sell strange and bizarre gifts. I don't go in, however, I turn left towards the main shopping area, across a square where people walk / talk / go about their lives. Here I see someone watching me / staring. I try to ignore them but I have a feeling they are going to talk to me and I really don't want them to. I am not scared, but don't like them so I try to mingle with the crowd and hide. It works. Next thing I know I am in a pub garden, playing pool (or snooker) with a friend. I notice my partner isn't here and ring them, trying to get them to join us. He will not join us because he cannot bring his own beer into the pub. I tell him we have water and this sort of changes his mind.

Dream 4 - Non Lucid dream

I have got some baby rats as pets. They are in a cage but I take one out to hold, it is fast and I drop it on the floor. I then try to pick it up but it is so small I lose it in the fibres of the carpet, I then search for it and find it - it is now an insect but I do not seem to be bothered by this transformation in the dream. I follow it a while then carefully pick it up, putting it back in the cage.

***NOTEWORTHY***
FIRST WILD ATTEMPT!
The sensation I describe as 'lighting up my body' was present again
Ears popped during WILD
I love rats and had many pet rats in the past
I recently attended a music festival
A festival and a drive through have been been in my DJ recently
I recently played pool with a friend

Date: 18/06/2012
Place: My holiday caravan
Time of getting into bed: 00.45am
During the day I drank 2 x 250ml Red Bull drinks. Combined total of 10mg B6 as well as taurine / caffeine etc

Dream 1 - Non Lucid dream

I am in a room, which is a bit dark and dingy. Feels like a pub or bar, and I even remember there being a bar serving drinks along one side. The people in the room were holding pints etc so it was most likely a pub. One wall of the pub is a giant black screen, with white writing all over it. The writing is in French. Someone stands up and tells everybody in the room (all adults) to get into a male group and female group. We do so, then they start talking about learning to speak French.

Dream 2 - Non Lucid dream

I am waiting in a doctors waiting room (except there is no room!) this is outside. Other people are waiting with me, including my dad and some strangers. One woman is waiting because the doctors think she may be crazy. To prove she is not crazy, she gets a dog (Yorkshire terrier) and saws it in half with a chainsaw. I am shocked and horrified, but no one stops her. In fact one person helps her. The dog is still alive as it is being cut into (which is very neat, no blood) but then it dies. She seems to be searching for something inside the dog (peering inside, not touching) which will prove she is sane. Then she saws off the dogs head, which floats into the sky like a balloon, and into the clouds and far away. The floating head is a boxer dog's, but the dog was a Yorkie. It is sad and a bit spooky. I complain to my dad, who agrees, and claims he was just there to get his sodium levels checked. I figured that's what I must be there for too, so we continue waiting.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

I am playing a computer game on my ipod. In the game (which has very basic graphics, much like an old SNES or SEGA) I am a little man swinging from a rope to collect coins. I am not actually in the game, I was playing it on my ipod. I decide I will only complete the game if I let go of the rope and collect more coins, which I do. The game features a large, blue viaduct.

Dream 4,5...6? - Non Lucid dream/s

Not sure weather these were all one dream or a collection of 3. My notes in my DJ are sparse and not written properly. I will lump them together but they could have been fragments of 3 dreams.

1... I am taking a video on my camera of my friend / romantic interest. The video is bad quality and wobbly as I have zoomed in from afar to get it. I remember thinking 'this is like the scene from Slumdog Millionaire.' Where the boy sees the girl looking for him through the crowded train platform. Suddenly it is me I am recording, my hair is slightly different but I am sat down and smiling (not looking at the camera) I figure I must now be my friend / love interest because I can't be filming myself.
2...I am picking up beer cans in a field - this must be a music festival.
3...I am at the vets for a friend who wants a job there. They agree to offer him the job if I fill out some forms. My love interest (not the friend who wants the job) gets angry because his ex works there, but I ignore him because it is a favour for a friend. The door is all I remember, a large, white door with 'VET' written on it in green.

Dream 7 - Non Lucid dream

I am in the field mentioned in a previous dream. I am drawing a whale, which I give lots of detail to. Eventually it become very real looking, but not like a drawing, more like CGI. It then swims away in the air. A close friend of mine is sitting next to me playing a game about Star Wars. He seems addicted and the game is pointless / boring. I start to draw a dinosaur (Trex) but this again becomes very realistic and CGI looking. It then starts to move around and eat people, with lots of blood and gore and nastiness. However I am not worried as they are not real people he is eating, just CGI people.

***NOTEWORTHY***
Someone bored me with pictures of viaducts earlier that day
I recently attended a music festival
I like to draw and do so a lot
My love interest really does have an ex at a vets, and avoids him / the vets
I want to speak French, and have a few French phrase books. However I don't have the time to learn and never really read them.