non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP At some beach house with Riverstone and a couple of my cats and some friends, like Tânia. I hear that Jonh Blacksmith is also around and for some reason I am asked to accompany some kid to the place he s staying, to deliver a message. After doing so, I stay there to chat a little bit. But John is so very busy, going back and forth and in out of the room. Then he says he needs to go shower, but will come back, so I interpret that he wants me to wait. I stay but I fall asleep on his bed. I notice him coming in later on and getting dressed. He knows I am there but doesn't want to wake me up. He lookdearingly to me. I play with it and pretend to be on a light sleep and reposition myself to a cute sleeping pose. Then he goes out again and I think maybe he left because I was alseeep, so I get up to clear that up. I see myself in a mirror. I have a cute yellow ruffled dress and short hair, which all messy. So I tidy up a little bit and then he comes back again. He sees me picking up my stuff to leave, so he calls me on to stand in front of him and he says something nervously. I don't understand half of what he says but I feel the emotion in his words. He is saying that he loves me and wants to be with me and apparently he is free to do it. He starts crying like a baby, with snot in his nose and I also start crying and we embrace each other warmly. He points to inside the wardrobe and says something that I again have trouble understanding. I ask him to repeat and he says there is a portal in the wardrobe and we can jump through it and get out at some other place where someone he knows can marry us on the spot. I am like "Wait, no!" But some people we know start coming into the room to speak to him and they see him hugging me, so before they see my face and go spread the word about it, I agree to jump. So we jump. On the other side is a large room like an attic and there is some lady there. He explains that she can marry us right away and we can leave everything behind. That's when I get away from him and say "I am sorru but I can't, for better or for worse, I need to go back to my life." And all his plans shatter and I see all hope abandoning him. I loved our cathartic moment together, love the idea that we could have had it differently in a different life, but in this life it is not meant to happen. I am friend or sister of Ana, who dates Christian Grey. One day she is helping me and Riverstone put stuff into our van and one of her exes passes by on the sidewalk with his snobbish new girlfriend. Ana says "Oh no!" when she sees them, but puts on a smile and says hello to them. The other woman mocks her, by saying she looks good but in a condescendent way. Ana plays it cool and says she is doing good. But the bitch laughs and replies "We can see you really moved up in life". We are really irritated, but we try not to bring up she is dating Christian because that would lowering to her level. In any case, I walk up to her and get my face near hers and say "Bitch, you have no idea. You'd be crying if you knew." She scoffs me off and they walk away. I know she'll eventually find out what I am talking about. Ana is about to get married to him and she'll be on every papparazzi magazine. Then it's her wedding day and it is very bizarre. First we gather with some of his family in the UK, because his family is full of British nobility. They dress and behave funny, but all of them seem to be nice people. Christian finds Ana hiding in a corner, crying upset and wants to know what's going on. We tell him what happened some days before and how she is still struggling with it. He immediately wants to go confront the woman, but we talk him out of it. Instead we explain how it is to grow up poor, and no matter how much you work, you still never getting enough money to get out of poverty, and the anger that comes with it. And how it isn't remotely ok to shame others just because now you're rich, not due to any accomplishment, but just through marriage. First, because it ain't your money and second, because money should not define your worth in the eyes of anyone else. Therefore Ana is crying out of frustration because she wants to feel self worth for herself. Christian and a friend are listening to this attentively. Then I leave them and join some other family members wbo are playing silly games. They say they are traditional and I mention they seem totally absurd. All the ladies, one by one, have to try to catch something that will be thrown, but it is not a bouquet, it can be anything else. I get hit by a cloud of sewing pins. I spend like an hour removing them from my chest and face. And even from some poor cat who got in the way when that happened. Then some other girl gets covered in darts, but she is ecstatic. I just think "What in the hell?" Then there is a feast, but in the end there is so much wasted food, so I stay behind separating what is good to eat and compacting and separating packages for recycling, because I don't know if the servants will do so. I distribute wet bread outside in the garden for pigeons and other birds to eat, and I start putting packages of chips and other snacks in carton boxes and plastic bags and wondering how am I going to take this all on my plane trip back home.
Non-dream stuff - woke up a bit before 9 but didn't recall any dreams. Woke up again around 10 recalling some non-lucid stuff. Fragment 1: I was playing the game Freelancer, it felt as though I was "in" it; I was in a system that doesn't exist in the game, though I've dreamed similar systems before. It was like the Omicron Alpha system and some of the Sigma systems. It was a high level area but for some reason I was in the starter ship, and all the NPC ships were showing up red (hostile); despite this, they weren't actually attacking, more like they disliked me rather than hated me (which wouldn't show up as red in the real game). I don't think there were any planets in this system and there was one star and I could see some asteroid belts in the distance. The "sky" had some blue nebulas and bright stars but was mostly dark. Dream 2: I remember being in a small and cramped kitchen, the ceiling was kind of low, especially for a kitchen. There was a fluorescent light that lit up the entire room. In the kitchen were myself, my partner (H) and our friend (M). Can't remember what we were initially talking about, but while we all talked I crouched next to the fridge and opened it to have a look inside; the fridge didn't seem to have a light inside, and as I opened the door I hit M with it by accident. I said sorry and he said it was ok. I hadn't realised he was standing just there, somehow. I couldn't find anything I wanted really but I can't actually remember what was inside the fridge. I got up and closed the door and saw the time on some red 7-segment display: 17:09. M mentioned he was going to go to bed in a few seconds, I showed some surprise and asked "shouldn't we be having dinner then?" and we apparently hadn't had lunch yet, as H said "well, make it be our lunch too then". I think M was considering whether to eat before bed or not, and I think I asked what time he was getting up at, which he said would be 7AM or something. I walked in the opposite direction from M, past H, who was sat on a chair, and on a counter there was a pile of stuff under a tea towel. I took it off and underneath were some ready-made food packs, like chicken with noodles and vegetables. I grabbed one that was open, implied to be leftovers, and grabbed a nearby fork and ate some of the chicken. It tasted a bit... bland. I was disappointed and the rest didn't look that appetising; in fact, the rest of the chicken in this pack looked a bit pink and like it had a few white spots. But I knew it was cooked properly because these packs come pre-cooked and when I tasted some, it didn't taste raw. I nearly questioned all of this but the dream ended. Some notes: When I used to play Freelancer, going to higher end systems in a low-level ship wasn't too uncommon for me; the dream hostility implication being that most of the factions I'd want to ally with are ones that you start off as being hostile towards, and the other thing is that if I was starting a new game, because I was good at avoiding shots, there were good wreckage and freight piracy spots in some of these areas, giving a quick boost to being able to get to a higher-end ship sooner.I mostly remember seeing Outcast and Lane Hacker factions in the dream. The appearance of Lane Hackers in the dream is strange because they are allies of the Outcasts but I almost never interacted with them.In the second dream, M seemed a bit sad or upset and not really up to talking. This is probably residual from his current real-life situation.The pink bits on the chicken looked odd because they were on the outside, where the chicken did look cooked; because of the small white spots, I think I probably would have concluded it to be some sort of bacterial or fungal growth, had the dream carried on. I should remember to do a RC when food tastes funny or bland in general.Although I remember arriving at the kitchen from outside, I don't remember an outside or a previous dream. Scoring thus far: + Previous score: 34.0 + This DJ entry score (breakdown below): 8.5 ++ Recall a non-lucid fragment: 0.5 ++ Recall a non-lucid dream: 1.0 ++ Recall any non-lucid dream over 7 consecutive nights: 7.0 Though I could probably consider that "fly" happened in the first dream, I don't remember enough sensations to consider it valid. = Total score thus far: 42.5
7/2/2014 In bed: 11:18 PM - 7:40 AM #4. II. 7:40 AM I have my Japanese final today in the middle of the day. There are tons of events going on on campus though for some reason. Out somewhere with my brother, I have the bike, he want to switch but I bringing up again that I have the exam. Lady with dogs lending her bike to him randomly. She has motorcycle anyway. I start trying to pull my bike out with LB, BB, NB on the back of it for some reason. The ladies’ dogs are getting in the way coming up to me and such which is annoying. Once I get it out, she says something about I could have just introduced the kids to the dogs. She drives off on the motorcycle later. Point when I go to carnival of sorts. It is sort of like a puzzle-thon with a route you follow and different puzzles and riddles you have to solve. A friend of mine is with me that I apparently told to come. I am ahead of him a little bit and enjoying myself. He not liking it though apparently. I am in a narrow hallway with a bunch of people, many leading the riddles like an old friend of mine, GS, that I see here. I pick up on that my friend kinda wants to leave. We deciding to skip ahead through hallway to see what’s ahead. We reach a door leading out to a courtyard. Seeing seniors charging towards us down some stairs from other way, we deciding to go back and leave. As we are walking back through the other hallway, realizing I'm late for final, whole class and mom have called my phone looking for me. I hurry to leave. I go back to some dormitory-like long and big bathroom to get all my stuff. I have so much for some reason. I have a few big bags, so I start dumping my stuff into them to see if this helps. I am in a bit of a bind since exam has already just started since it is 12:15 or so and it started not long before that. I decide to wake up to avoid dealing with the situation. #3. I. 6:05 AM I am at a library looking for a particular interactive book. I walk towards a back section where I’ve found it in the past and go to an semi-open space in the back left corner. When I walk past the last tall shelf and reach the area, I see that there is one of those box TVs hanging up on the far wall facing me and the area. It is playing some cartoon that I kinda enjoy. I use the remote control over here to raise the volume very slightly. After a few moments of me standing there watching the show, a lady comes walking up who must be a librarian. She tells me that I am not allowed to use or watch the TV and gives me other admonitions before walking away. I feel annoyed, but decide to continue on with looking for the book. I search a bit unable to find it then look it up. I learn that it is apparently in the iOS section of the library which is confusing since I found it back here in the past. BB with me later in library, I handling leftover chicken and fries for us later that are on plates on a bed here currently. I work at wrapping them up and then putting in backpack pocket. Arriving back at place that I am staying though I have to go to sleep soon as I am going somewhere soon. Wishing goodnight to that girl staying in same place, she a bit older, seems sister like to me. She looks Indian and some decoration around her nose of some sort. We are slightly sentimental which seems to be because I am going away for a week or so. Entering the door behind us. Opens into a bathroom. I follow the next door to a weird separator room of two sections of bathroom like those types of bathrooms out there. Except, I have to climb through this dark separator room with my toiletries and stuff to other side of it. There seems to be a room connected over there too. Over here, I have some calf pads to use in the tub since my legs are tired apparently. CP demonstrating how to use them. You have to lay in the tub facing up and raise your legs up so that your head is below your legs and other different contortions of your body.
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