non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP False awakening in my teenage bedroom at my mom's. I check the time and it's 4 am. My mom is awake watching tv on the sofa and I find Riverstone sleeping on her bedroom for some reason. But I don't disturb either of them. I go back to my room and try to close the door silently. I feel strangely awkward to be here. But then I hear my grandpa's cane on the hallway and think "Oh, in this dream reality, grandpa is still alive?". So I open the door and I see him heading to the bathroom. My mom is helping him and surprised to see me awake. I decide to come out and say I'm happy to see them and ask them what year is this. They look at me as if I lost my mind. I insist and tell them I am not who they think I am, that I am a different version who comes from the future and is just dreaming this. They think I am mocking them and start to be upset, but still reveal that it's before 2020. So then I proceed to tell them what is going to happen, especially the pandemic, but also some natural catastrophes down the pipe, as proof I'm from the future. But of course, this will only prove correct when it actually happens. Then I notice some things don't fit exactly into my own timeline, so maybe this is a different timeline where those things don't happen. The house is in fact different. The laundry room doesn't exist, there are different rooms in different places, then I check the kitchen's window and realize this is a house on the ground floor and not on the 4th floor. Also, there is a forest outside covered in snow. Then i see in the distance that there is a forest fire, despite the snow. The fire is gaining strength and coming towards us. it is so intense that it is melting the snow and turning it into a torrent of water also coming towards us. I yell at my family that the house will burn in a fire and for them to pick up whatever is most important and leave. Then remember "Are there any pets?" and they proceed to name them and bring forward carriers to put them in. Some new aunt I never had IRL comes up with some small dogs and puts them in the carriers. Three go on the carriers and a 4th has to be carried by hand. Then someone says "Bring the monkeys!" and they come with a cage with two monkeys. Then I notice I am just in a t-shirt and underwear but there is no time to dress anything else as we exit the house. We take shelter in a huge hardware store in town. We stay there for a while and some pervert uncle I now have starts making advances on me, first offering me gifts and grooming me, then later cornering me in dark places of the store, trying to grope me. I avoid him and he starts chasing me. Although the store is working and people shopping in it, no one offers to help, it's as if we don't exist. I climb on top of shelves and let stuff fall on the ground, but everything is business as usual in the store. I take a run for the door through a long corridor and manage to lose him. Then cross some bridge over a river, not walking it through, but instead by hanging myself from under it as if it's monkey bars, because I don't want him to see me. On the other side I land in the middle of a group of students making plans to go to a concert and they invite me to go with them.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP A dream inspired by Loki the TV series. First I am just watching some scene with Loki. There are two of them, the main one and another who could be his younger brother and they are disagreeing on how to proceed about something and they almost fight. But then the younger one recognizes that he made some judgement mistake and turns around completely. As they follow the main Loki plan, I watch it unfold, Then I also have a mission in which I have to go with a colleague to the 50's, looking for an anomaly in the timeline. We enter a bookshop and I immediately spot a book on the display that does not seems to fit the time. It is a used book, illustrated, very damaged. I check it and it contains short stories with concepts way advanced for this time and even historical references that don't belong here. As I read it, a couple with kids comes in and I try to not interact with them, but straight away they get curious about the book I am reading. I try to deflect their attention, but they insist, so I kinda explain what it is while skipping the most problematic stuff and I say I am buying it, to see if they lose interest. And then the couple starts fighting or something over one of their girls running away. They ask for our help, They say she is a problem, lives in her own world. Ask me if I wanna take her. I find that odd. But then I meet her. I find her at a nearby beach, on a ruin in the sand. There is some kind of broken metal tower and she is sitting in a hollow space near the top. She has a small device in her hands, like a handmade radio and explains to me she uses it to capture the signal that comes from the moon. That signal is ours. She says there is a whole reality people don't know about and this transmission is proof and she wants to decode it. I understand we actually have to take her. She belongs with us.
Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple plans with MoSh, though I didn't have any actual plans with Tigress since I wasn't able to talk with her today for some unknown reason… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine as usual, and I was once again successful in slipping into a WILD. Each time I do this it is amazing, since I went for so long being unable to do it or even have a lucid dream or even remember many non-lucids! As I entered my WILD, I found I was in MoSh's inner world as I often am, I looked around but I didn't really have enough time to really see anything before MoSh was beside me saying he knew where to find Erik's guide. He said he really wanted to see what EG had to say, so he hoped at least one of us would remember, and by one of us he meant me… I said he should at least try to have a positive attitude, but didn't go any farther than that. MoSh opened a portal and the two of use went through into a wide green field, there was a stage at one end of the field, it looked like an outdoor concert venue. There were people on the stage setting up musical equipment, getting things ready, but they didn't seem to be in any kind of a rush. I saw the man I have come to recognize as Erik's guide not far off, he came over to us and said he had been expecting us. With that the scene around us changed, apparently EG had teleported us somewhere else, I now saw we were in a small but comfortable room, I couldn't tell much about it other than there were seats for everyone and a small fridge from which EG took three beers and tossed one to MoSh and one to me. EG sat down and took a drink from his beer, then said he also knew why we had come here, that surprised me a bit, but it didn't seem surprising to MoSh at all. I figured it was normal for EG to answer questions before they had even been asked? Was he reading our minds right now? Puppies lift their legs so they can fly from the force created when they take a piss… that was what I thought… no reaction from anyone, so either that wasn't as weird as I thought it was or no one was reading my mind. Instead of acknowledging my thought in any way, EG started talking on a different subject, he was talking about what we had come to ask him. He was talking about MoSh getting together with Kaomea, he was saying that of course it was a possibility, anything is possible, but that doesn't make it easy. He said anything worth having is worth fighting for, and if it works out like it should, this would definitely be worth it. MoSh wanted to know why this would have to be so difficult, why couldn't something be easy for a change, hadn't he earned it? EG said a life of ease isn't something you earn, it's something you create… and it is also almost always considerably less rewarding than the lives of those who choose the more difficult paths. EG said that MoSh was wondering why there would be resistance to him getting with Kaomea, but he had already noticed the reason even though he hadn't acknowledged it as such. He said that MoSh is not really supposed to be in this world, this was not where he had been intended to go, something had sent him here anyway. He asked MoSh if he hadn't sensed this at numerous points in his life, that he was an outsider in his own world… before MoSh could answer, EG said of course MoSh had felt that way, this is also one of the signs that a person is likely to be a nagual. My mind wandered a bit, making me wonder if MoSh was an outsider like I am an outsider, maybe there was still a chance to find someone out there that would want to be with me? Or maybe my one chance was gone, having turned out to be with a complete asshole. Now I found out that EG could read my thoughts. He said that yes, an outsider can indeed find a soul mate in a world that wasn't meant to be their home, it just doesn't work easily. He said he knew of the events I was talking about, with the one I call James (my ex boyfriend), and when it had started it had the potential to work out fine. The main problem was that negative energies poisoned us, created problems between us, then eventually consumed the weaker of us, which was James. That made James into an asshole, trying for quite a while to push me away as I was still fighting the forces to stay together… until it finally worked, until he had finally done so much hurt to me that there was no way I would… or should… stay with him. He said it might not seem like it, but I was actually the one to come out on top in that situation, I was currently much better off than James. MoSh wanted the topic back on him and Koamea, he said he wanted to know what he had to do in order to make things work out with her. EG gestured towards me, he said that meeting me might just have given MoSh the added knowledge he would need in order to make this relationship work, to overcome the forces that would seek to force them apart. He said when I had been trying to hold on, and even when James had wanted to hold on as well, neither of us knew much about dark and negative energies, when James acted like an ass I would get angry and send his negativity back, multiplied, then James would send it back to me multiplied again, until it reached a breaking point and we separated for a while, both of us both furious and depressed, wanting to both punch the other one in the face and cry at the same time… it usually ended up with me crying and James punching the nearest wall. Towards the beginning, it seemed James had accepted and understood that negative energies were frequently the cause of our problems… but over time he stopped accepting that as a reason and placed the blame fully on me, or sometimes on himself, but usually on me. EG said this wouldn't have to happen with MoSh and Kaomea, because MoSh knows about negative and dark energies, and Kaomea would also seem to know about it. With both of them knowing what dark energy is and the effect it has, they would know better than to just multiply it and send it back when their partner got negative. Each of them would be able to understand that the other one was acting out of reaction to dark energy infection instead of just being an ass. So instead of having the dark energy and negativity escalate until it exploded, they would seek healing for each other, a way to get rid of the intruding dark energy, to set the other one free of it. This would rob the forces seeking to separate them of the most dangerous weapon they had. He said as long as MoSh and Kaomea couldn't be turned against each other, no force in the universe could separate them against their wills. MoSh wanted to know who was seeking to separate him and Kaomea, and why were they seeking to do that. EG said he knows the nature of the forces, though not the exact identity, because the identity of those opposing MoSh and Kaomea would change… The nature of it was that which seeks to keep everything on a perfectly ordered path, the different timelines themselves seem to have a will of their own, and they don't like being interfered with. He said that is why it takes a significant event to alter any timeline, significant as when someone from outside the dimension interferes and makes considerable changes. That will inevitably create a ripple in the timeline. One of the inhabitants of the timeline changing their own timeline is very difficult, usually this just gets done from outside the dimension. So when an outsider such as MoSh or me enters a dimension and tries to find a companion or even just tries to find a place for themselves, that creates a ripple, which the timeline will fight. He said I already knew that, and for a while James had known, too, but then James had somehow forgotten that as he got consumed with negative energies. MoSh seemed to be lost in thought about something, I wondered what he was thinking, EG waited for a few minutes while MoSh seemed to be muttering to himself incoherently. EG finally said that MoSh and I are more alike than we know, that saying we are like brother and sister isn't by any means incorrect. He said we had both gone through hard times that had left us fractured, but not broken, he said neither of us would be broken by any force in this world no matter how unsure of that we ourselves might be, he looked at me when he said that. EG looked back at MoSh and said MoSh and Kaomea have a very good chance of making things work, a very good chance of avoiding the fatal errors that James and I had made, although most of the errors were James' mistakes, and to keep the negativity from pulling them apart. He looked directly at MoSh, and told him that as long as both he and Kaomea are willing to hold on, they cannot be pulled apart… as long as BOTH of them hold on. This is where my memories end.
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