Journal Entry Lucid #14 Dream,Lucid, (Comments) Background: I woke up at 12:50 and watched a movie, Waking Life, now my favorite movie. I have watched it 3x now and every time I notice something unique about the movie. I watched it until the point in which he talks to the biker guy in the bar, (not to include any spoilers). Since my dream recall went back up since I started meditating, I was desperate for a LD. I realized that it is the end of the week. My heart ached for a LD. I know that most of my other LDs were when I was in between longing and serenity. Where I had my intention but my intention did not make me anxious. I listened to some music that I enjoyed. I tried relaxing it took a while. I then let my imagination take over as I kept telling myself the next thing I will see is a dream. Dream fragment 2 from 3:20am-5:00am"": The dream was interesting, I was in church and I said hi to some guy. I thought I knew him, but I didn't. I see the kids from church running as usual. This guy was telling them about LD. One child believed it and got into trouble. Then I was on the internet, watching some show on youtube. I found this clip of teens, supposedly uncontrollable teens. I am now an observer no longer on a computer. The teens were acting wild they tried to act like they were adults. They were kissing very sexually while holding each other. I then saw a girl and a guy have sex like in the movie scene where you don't actually see it but it is implied. I see the girl and the guy behind her. I then float my eyes to a different room. As I was doing this the dad walks up to me like I am the camera. He said, "do you know what my daughters told me? My daughter told me THAT THEY WOULD PLAY WITH THEMSELVES UNTIL THEY WENT TO BED, they claim they have a sleeping problem". He shakes his head and walks away. I see two girls sitting in the room with their hands inside their pants or in each other pants. Then one girl wrestle with the other. The cover goes over them this served as a transition like the movie. I am still a spectator, I am in a cartoony environment. It was a tale about the emotion "anger" represented by some big bluish monster. The cartoon's theme was blue and purple which glowed in color. The voice was talking a lot and as he did the environment along with what is happening changed. I don't remember it clearly but I remember the voice say, "...it was in everyone of us..." The voice kept going. I was in awe by the whole experience not understanding what I was experiencing. I paid attention to the details while being in the dream. I woke up, I had the hardest time walking. I thought wow trippy dream, and now I feel trippy too. It felt like my legs was ahead and too slow when I wanted it to do something. I walked into the bathroom, it was dark as if someone replaced the lights with candles. I started peeing inside of a bucket. I thought oh crap I peed in the wrong place. I thought about it all and I thought I could still be in the dream. I did a nose plug. I could breath. I did it again, I still could breath. I became lucid. I walked out of the bathroom and realized that I wasn't wearing any cloth but a boxer. I thought ah the clothes will spawn later. I see my sister's friend watching me weird. I also see my grandmother putting on her shoe to leave. I went to her room. I did a nose plug check, I still could breath. I started rubbing my hands then I looked at my hands it was blurry and had no real form. It floated all over the place. I went out of grandma's room. I then looked around everything else was spot on. I then lifted my hands and began to fly. I put had down and I gently went down. I knew what I wanted to do, I saw the blue sky when I looked through the back door. I wanted to fly to the clouds. I walked through the front door. I wanted the front door to serve as a portal. The moment I got close to the front door I became anxious and I could feel heart racing for some reason. I thought man I am going to wake up I woke up and I laid there. I was pleased with the LD even though it was short. I didn't move that much I woke up and started walking around the house unsuspectingly. I was in the dinning room. I was talking to my grandmother. As I was doing that I lifted my hands and my sister's friend got lifted off the ground. Time froze my body was frozen but I was not. She was frozen. I then went to my grandmother, she showed up a picture of my first dream I had today. It was about a women I was talking to. She had a bizarre look. My grandmother said, "look at her face that should have made you lucid, and now this". I looked at it and realized it is a dream. I was so grateful. I walked into grandmothers room and I saw a man sleeping there. I was rubbing my hands to enhance the quality of the dream. I started noticing him in more detail. I saw that he had a brown hair, beard, and blue eyes. He looked confused. I was confused why he was in my grandmother's room. I thought this might be the weird logic of dreams, maybe that is my grandmother. I was grateful for my actual grandmother making me lucid that I told him I love him. He looked shocked at first then passive to it. I walked out. I see my grandmother and my father in the dinning room. My grandmother was on far left, closest to the backdoor, and my father was on the right of the table. As I was walking out I told my grandmother willingly in my language, "I love you". I wanted to see how I envision my house to look like in my dream. When I walked out I touched the wall. They were very smooth. The wall of the house was circular which didn't represent my house at all. I then realized that I could fly. I started flying with my hands raised up to my mid section as if I was using telekinesis. I told myself I wanted to fly without the use of my hands. While in mid flight I lowered my hands and started rubbing them together to get a vivid experience. I stayed up. With pure will power I started to fly any direction I want. I saw my backyard and it had a tennis court. I think also a swimming pool. I turn around and noticed that my house was located next to my school. I flew just a little bit and landed. I touched the ground and felt the cold floor. I thought I must not be wearing shoes. I felt every pressure that I applied. The school looked some what like it did when there was no construction crew around. I see students holding books walking around. then saw a girl sitting down wearing a bikini, I got distracted she got up and started running. I turned around and looked at her butt. I caught myself and tried to focus. I turn around and I see death, but closer analysis showed that it was just a guy wearing a costume. A lot was happening at once. I smelled the air, the smell of roses. I tried to stimulate all my senses. I then wanted to do an awareness with the just my vision alone without rubbing my hands. I was losing clarity, NOT LUCIDITY but Clarity. I knew though that I might start losing lucidity soon so I went back to rubbing my hands. I started rubbing them in a circular motion to get a different feeling. I wanted to find a door and make a portal to a "training facility" like the one in Matrix, so that I could practice telekinesis there with Morpheus(this has been my LD goal for quite sometime now). As I was walking I saw my friend from school, EK, and IN, they just walked passed me like any other dream character. I called their names. EK turned around. I took out my fist to fist bump him. He then took out his and started throwing his hands around very quickly. I thought what is the point, he is just a DC anyways. I walked away. I looked up and saw a dark cloud appearing. I wanted to go inside the building, which now looks nothing like my school(*form transformation). It started to rain. I hear thunder. People started panicking. I didn't feel the rain. I became confused and tried to make sense out of it. The DC started running for the door as if the water would kill them, they were in pain. I was confused I lost lucidity for some reason maybe it was the confusion or maybe I tried to make sense out it and got distracted. I watched them take a guy into questioning. He was being accused about something. They took out a box, his "weapon". They started explaining how he would use his weapon. He got angry and he said,"you guys don't even know how to use it". You don't know what goddle particles are. He turned in on. And pointed it towards the man accusing him. It started eating up his stomach. The man fell to the floor and died. We were in my kitchen at the time. The device went straight through the food, bread. I started feeling weak and thought maybe it was the device releasing radiation. I quickly put it into a plastic bag. I kept saying that we have to move out now. They didn't listen. I ran around the complex house and I found trash outside. I threw it in but realized that it was sinking in. I knew that I had to throw it some where very far. I told them to leave. My grandmother comes back to check on it. I got angry and frustarted that she didn't listen. I thought that thing gave me cancer. I didn't want my family to suffer. I tried to help my grandmother out of the garage but ended up with this opening that read luch box. I woke up in another scene that looked like "waking life". Narrator said, "I was now just like everybody else". I see the main character entering the bar, sitting down. His face was gone. I thought trippy dream and remembered that I was dreaming and I didn't write down my other dreams. I realized I had to write down my other dreams, so I decided to wake up before I forget. I did forgot some details though. Became lucid by: DILD (awareness and nose-plug RC)
Tuesday, 1/10/12 Bed 11:45pm Some first time sensations. Sitting on a bed, did some looking at hands mantra “tonight in my dream, I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”. Then laid down on my back, which I never do, put my hand on my side where I have and ache and repeated rhyming mantra “from my hand shoots an energy beam to heal my body with power supreme”. Also for just a minute, envisioned white energy coming in through my head on inhale and out my feet on exhale, then in reversed order. First thing that happened was, that I almost fell out of myself. As I was on my back, suddenly, very fast movement of my perception/inner body , as if I moved to lay down on my left side. Completely unexpected and so much fun. Then I felt a swaying motion, as if in a hammock. Then on every inhale, I felt my body move towards the head of the bed and with every exhale, towards the feet of my bed. As is the mattress was on ball bearings. Quite intense. At the same time, with every inhale and exhale, I felt a rotating motion, as if my body was starting to rotate, just one degree at inhale and exhale. I felt I’m no longer parallel with bed, but at an angle of 20 degrees. Also had a rolling motion going on, like on a water bed. I kept saying my mantra and also saying ‘to the window’, and ‘up’. Then my cat jumped up on a bed and settled down to sleep. The sensations slowly stopped. I was able to open my eyes a couple of times, my room looked normal. I also heard some popping sound in my left ear, as if there was an open can of soda. At one moment, I felt my inner body squirm and trying to get out. I was two bodies at the same time. So interesting. Throughout the whole time, I was perfectly aware. Then I had some detailed dreams. DR 1 - 5am I’m with group of people on a trip. I’m sitting with my teacher K on top of the mountain with steep slopes. We talk and exchange gifts. She gives me some plastic bags. I can clearly see the rocks, boulders and grass with flowers on a slope. Couple of times I almost fall off. Then we are getting something to drink. I realize, I have only 10 money and 3 beautiful, large, black, shiny commemorative Star Trek Voyager coins. One is for season one and 2 for season 2. I don’t want to spend these. DR 2 I’m on a street P in NZ. Talking to someone. Waking Life Element Not sure in which dream, but I’m talking to someone about bad quality of oranges in stores. The other person agrees. I say, the oranges I bought tasted watery. And the pomelo was sour and dry, when it should be sweet. Then we ended the conversation but I wanted to add something about tangerines I have bought last time were not the best, either. DR 3 I’m with E in a hotel with beautiful view of city. Clouds look like after rain, I see rooftops and buildings of an established town, not super modern. I ask him where we are and how did we get there. (Waking life element). He sais we are in town…. (I forgot the name) in Maine. He repeats it couple of times. I think I say there is no water in the room, so we decide to go to the town. We walk through the streets. Come to entrance to a hotel restaurant. In the lobby, the lady is asking me for my ID. I say I don’t have it, we just ran out to get some water. Then E shows his ID. The lady sais - I could either let you in or not, but if I didn’t, we wouldn’t live in a free country that we live in. Then I have a conversation with E, about how I like, that in US, the person in charge doesn’t have to adhere strictly to the rules, but is able to make a decision, whether to bend it or not, if situation warrants it. (Waking life element - I frequently think about this). Inside, the restaurant is round, ground level, with large windows and a round bar in the middle. I stand by the window and suddenly see a big boulder rolling down a small hill, that’s landscaped. Boulder stops across the small street next to one of the cute little houses. I call E to see this. By then we notice 3 boys on the hill fiddling with the boulders, making them roll down. A lady holding a tennis racquet comes out of the house closest to us and I bang on the window to get her attention. I try to tell her to call the police on the boys. But she calls them in the house and I realize they are her sons. Then she comes all the way to the window and apologizes to E, thinking he is a police officer. The glass is tinted and you can’t see well from outside in.
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