Threeofeight

Feel like i'm missing a lot of memory. I have started to write them since today and that helps.
The good thing is I have been having rapidly increasing dream recall and a hint of lucidity for the past 4 days in a row! This might be a record. Cut a destructive pattern in my life. Well not cut it myself due to circumstance.
Last night I felt a little depressed for half of the day. I thoguht this might screw up my record but in fact the increase remained. So im very positive about it.

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Another one of these creepy ones. let's start with the sweet one. My friend who I talk to on facebook sometimes said she wantd to smoke weed with me. I saw the letters there on the computer screen but the energetic exchange reveleaed an emotion that said. Hush. This is what it is. Do not make more of it. I feel this is true.

A little girl ( note: I happen to dream about little girls shortly after talking or dreaming of her) walks into a house. She is lured by some guy. I am detectiving the situation and follow inside. Inside I see blood on all the walls. Tortured children bodies. All sorts of messed up things. Torture equipment. Hung up. Entire closests full of bodies. Somehow I realized the litle girl we where following has undergone the same faith.

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Loads of dreams. Did not write them.
Dreamed of having my throat slith. blood gshing out. thought of a friend who went to hookers. Thought I might have them nurse my gushing neck. And get laid while am at it.

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Should really document this faster

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Start of the night. Wake up from dreams again. Here's my exact thoughts:
[I][U]I should write this down. I am going to forget. I maybe (probably not as we know now) remember it if I try. This dream is boring. I will not waste my time writing this down even though I might forget it. [/U][/I]
Note: Obviously my first inclination in the deepest of deepest of heart I knew I would simply forget it.

"Blonde chick FB" Dnno really
Morrocain Telephone FB .. Chatting to him on FB. See him walking. Put down phone to talk to him. I stutter my words . He gets angry. Next thing you know 20 morrocain kids are getting angry and swarming me. I'm like yo , fuk these kids. I tell them to get the fuck out and walk through them. Shortly after the bigger Morrocain kid. Proably the one I initiatelly talked to tells the kids to chill. People did see this from across I could hear them getting excited from the carnage.

Probably inspired by a jackass scene. I felt inspiration... coming from a scene.
On my belly skating in the streets next to bikers. Going WEEEEEEEE
I get some comments. I make a big jump at some point. Someone laughs at me.

I end up crossing a dangerous road and into a meeting.
Manly P hall is giving a lecture.
At this point it occured to me that humanity is not stupid. Since the birth of christianity humanity has seeked to merge with the divine realms.

Marloes and blondie are talking. I cut in twice in one morning. I talk about going o the supermarket. She did say she heard something about it 2 days ago.

Important notes: Last dream was basic and obviously dream-generated. It's so obvious that a desire and something more is me creating the entire facade. It's embaressing that I am still non-lucid about it.
Another thing, this supermarket perhaps by association or from some deeper level came into my thoughts and I wrote something about it this morning. Some practical change is occuring because of it in real world situation

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