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    1. hello

      by , 10-21-2011 at 05:07 AM
      again! it's been a while since i posted, but it's also been a while since i had any memorable dreams. i actually had two, one about a week ago and a few fragments last night.

      i'll start out with the dream from last week.

      it started out with a view of what looked to be a buddhist temple. it was set atop a flight of what seemed like hundreds of stairs. there was a thick forest in the background. in front of the temple, thousands upon thousands of people were walking up the stairs to enter it. suddenly, i am at the entrance to the temple, which is now empty for some reason, decrepit, and overgrown with vines and whatnot. for some reason, i am wielding a gun, now, an m1 carbine to be more specific. and then, this is where it gets wierd. suddenly, a bunch of chimpanzees in black leather armor come running at me. some of them have clubs, and some of them have guns. none of them fire at me, and none of them with the clubs try to hit me. they just chase me, and i pick them off one by one. it went on for a while like this, a how-long-can-you-last type of thing. the dream ended with me continuing to pick off monkeys.

      quite satisfying, because i hate monkeys.
      and yes, this is a "long" dream for me.

      and now, for the fragments.

      in each fragment, one of my greatest fears came to life.

      the first one was spiders. i am afraid of all bugs, but i am afraid of spiders the most. this fragment was while i was just falling asleep. i could feel them crawling on me. up and down my legs, on my face. in my head, i just saw piles of tarantulas. hundreds of them, just crawling over each other. it's hard to explain, but i could see them crawling inside my empty skull. all of this was when i was awake. it was odd, i couldn't escape this by waking up, because i was already half awake to begin with.

      the first dream was kind of indescribable as far as perspective goes, but as for the next two these are the first dreams i can remember that i've had in the third person. and, for that matter, the first dreams where i can clearly make out faces (the faces being my own). i can never make out faces in dreams, they are either blank or blurred. but in these two, i can clearly make out my face, and even the faces of those around me in this next dream (granted, they are surgeons wearing masks, but....)

      the second great fear i have is surgery. and, you'll note as the dream goes on, dying violently. i am absolutely mortified of surgery. i cannot handle the fact that somebody is poking around inside of me with scalpels and needles. i am too afraid that i would wake up, because the entire time i was knocked out i would still be thinking of what happened if i woke up. which makes absolutely no sense and it is nearly impossible that that would ever happen. ah, the anxiety complex.

      it begins with me, laying on a steel table, in absolute darkness except for one overhead light. there are three surgeons huddled around me, all male. i have a normal outfit on, black pants and a red jacket. the surgeons appeared to have just opened up my entire torso right through my clothes. who needs gowns, right? i am looking at myself behind two surgeons. i appear awake and aware of the fact that i am awake during a surgery, but it doesn't seem to faze me. now, the view changes to a closeup of the area of my body that has been opened up. i have minimal knowledge of anatomy, but for some reason everything seemed perfect. everything was muscle. then, one of the surgeons took a knife, stabbed me with it, and yanked it down, thus cutting a hole in my muscle that i could now see into. under it, i noticed my ribcage and lungs. he continued to jab and cut my flesh until my entire upper body looked like it had been beaten with a cleaver. there was blood everywhere, and my heart was beating (i was still alive...?) inside my shattered ribcage. the view moved so that i was now looking at myself from a birds-eye view, directly above the operating table. my eyes were still open and i was smiling. i couldn't tell if my heart was beating now, but i really hope that at that point i was dead. now, another surgeon took some sort of oversized trench knife/brass knuckes combo, and proceeded to separate the upper half of my body from the lower. i saw my intestines spill out, my legs fall to the ground, and the upper half of me slowly slide off the table. i fell to the ground, eyes open, still smiling.


      my final fear is isolation, and loneliness. the scariest thing i could think of is going through life without anybody caring about you.

      again, this is me in the third person. i can tell it's me, because once again i am wearing one of my own dresses, boots, and i can also tell by my hair. my back is turned, though.

      i'm in a corn field, although there's not much there because it is winter. my back is turned, and i am sitting on the ground cross-legged. i just sit there for a while and listen to the cool breeze. then, out of thin air, thousands of locusts appear around me. they surround me and start biting me. i have no form of self defense, it is impossible for me to get up and run. i am being eaten alive by these locusts, screaming for help, but no one's there. soon, everything just becomes a brown blur and the dream is over.

      yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
    2. No Quarter

      by , 09-21-2011 at 04:36 AM
      oh look, another RECURRING DREAM
      BECAUSE I CAN'T REMEMBER ANY OTHER ONES

      it starts out with me walking down a street with lots of willow trees, to a house i vaguely remember being in once when i was really young. one story ranch. i walk in and the place is empty and dark, only lit by sunlight coming in from the closed shades. there is nothing in there except for a bunch of blocks on the floor. kid's blocks with shapes and things. for some reason i can't figure out how the fuck to get the triangle block into the triangle slot, i panic, and the dream is over.

      and a side note, No Quarter by Led Zeppelin is playing in the background the entire time. I didn't even know the song at the time I first had this dream. or the last.
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    3. another fragment!

      by , 09-13-2011 at 11:46 PM
      my dreams really seem to have no point or real storyline as of lately. but that's okay.
      last night i remember dreaming of a house that looked vaguely like my friend sammy's, except with cedar siding (not important but just trying to remember as many details as possible here) and redwood trees all around. it was night when i got there, so i went inside. I walked straight into a narrow, normal-looking hallway with the occasional painting on the wall and whatnot. i kept walking, but there were no doors anywhere else. occasionally i would encounter a few chairs in what looked like a sitting area off to the side in the hallway, but it never ended and there was no exit. i kept walking aimlessly until the dream ended.

      another stupid dream. more soon.
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    4. vagueness!

      by , 09-11-2011 at 08:20 PM
      I definitely had one or two dreams last night. The only one I can remember was set in a flooded seaside town. There were boats just fucking everywhere. On the flooded streets, on houses, you name it. Unfortunately that's all I can remember. Oh well, I guess a vague recollection is better than nothing.
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    5. a recurring dream

      by , 09-09-2011 at 02:54 AM
      since i only created this account a mere half hour ago (and i havent slept since then, mind you) i guess i should start off with some recurring dreams that i've had. some i haven't had in over a year, some i may have had weeks or months ago. i can't remember specific dates though.

      the barn: i start off in what is clearly a decrepit barn/warehouse that resembles my granmothers', except it is surrounded by a sort of blacktop and other unfamiliar buildings. on the inside seems to be a perfectly intact version of my elementary school's library. i am huddling in between two rows of shelves, hiding from some unknown entity. the whole place is on fire. i run out from between the shelves and quickly exit, finding outside on the blacktop crumbling classic cars (alliteration alert!!!1) and other assorted rubbish. (which is wierd, because there are also old cars and junk outside of my grandmothers' barn. my brain seems to have just plopped the barn and its surrounding area into an inner city) i hide behind one of the cars, fearing for my life but also having never seen the face of what is trying to kill me, i don't know what to look for. i keep running. now, this is where it gets somewhat bizarre. i have had this dream at least 20 times in my lifetime, and every time it is nearly identical. now, as i start to run further away from the barn, what do i trip over but an octopus. an octopus. classic. not a living one but some sort of semi-genuine looking blue blow-up octopus. anyway, after i trip over the octopus, i remain on the ground and turn around to face the barn which has now nearly burned to the ground. i begin to slowly fade in and out of consciousness, and before i finally black out i notice i am being dragged by something. all i can see is a shrouded black figure. i cannot tell if it's human. within seconds, i am passed out and the dream has ended.
    6. an introduction, i suppose

      by , 09-09-2011 at 02:26 AM
      for some reason, i have an opposition to "about me" boxes. here is where i will give a proper introduction, and i suppose those dedicated enough to go through (hopefully) pages of entries will find this. congratulations.

      my name is hailey. i am soon to be 15 years old, although i don't think age is very important. i have one passion in life: art. that is a very broad term, though. more specifically: music and fashion design.

      music is everything to me. without it, i would be a shell. it has gotten me through bouts of depression, through fights, feelings of loneliness and despair, and feelings of pure elation. sad as it may seem, music and those who create it are my best friends. i do, however, have a few people that i consider best friends. i really try to be a friend to everyone, but when it comes down to it i am detached from most people. i like it that way.

      the people who inspire me most in life are as follows: roger waters, john lennon, george harrison, jim morrison, richard wright, ray manzarek, and freddie mercury. and yes, they are all from my favorite bands. not only their music, but their words and personalities remind me that there are many ways to go about living life. they have all changed mine for the better.

      i don't like establishment, i don't like order, i don't like paths. i believe that you should be able to make your own, with no petty rules, people, or religion getting in your way.

      above all, i believe that life is beautiful. although i admit for a very long time i did not feel this way, it is very much worth living. break down the walls that others put up and find your own happiness.
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