non-lucid

i'm not sure where one dream started or another ended.....do i'm just going to put them in chunks with same location

i was in a wooden boat......and it was going down a river with lots of rapids.....and i had to get 2 people on it who were on an island....and it got stuck on this bridge....and we got off there because the boat was breaking up...after this i went into a house.....and didn't take off my shoes where i was supposed to......and i held the hand of this old lady who was in a chair.....and she told me i was dead and i agreed

i was in the woods in an area with lots of streams.....and i kept going on lots of covered bridges and looking at mini waterfalls from the sides...they had swirls of colored light over them (like the light sadie has) and it looked really pretty...i kept getting told to pay attention to this rp type card game

i was swimming on this obstacle course....there were different things you had to swim over....i think it was meant to be like wipeout on tv....but i kind of just swam over all the obstacles covered in water....even though with the depth i was more likely swimming in air

i was on land watching this guy teach 2 kids to swim while this lady watched...they were both on a dock...she had a gray/green/black striped skirt that had 2 cats under it....i was fishing (no line or hook or anything on the pole though)....and i wanted to get the cats....but my winter hat came off.....and the guy got it for me so i gave it to the lady because she looked cold

there was another one where i woke up in my current apartment and found a bag (the flowered one i really like) tacked to the wall with a card on it...on the card was an apology from my ex-boyfriend's parents (they shouted things out the window when i went to get my stuff from his house)...in the bag was a pair of boots they bought me but kept when we broke up

i was outside and had to come inside for dinner and chores......there were a lot of other people there and all teens except for the adoptive parents....and the place was decorated for christmas....i went upstairs to change and this girl went into her room and closed the door and used magic to do something (not sure what but i saw sparkles on the door faintly).....and then i went downstairs and was told i had to do my chores from the chore chart before dinner...and i was cleaning a window and was told i was doing the wrong chores and that i was supposed to be helping the gardener pick fruit (i was told i could pick and eat as much as i wanted).....and i went outside and it was my friend chuck....and the adoptive dad asked if i knew the guy and i said he was my friend and i see him so much i practically live with him

notes: incubated for outside, sadie's lights appeared in color rather than just white, a night without nightmares (doesn't happen to me)

i had a dream that i was back at the place i lived before college (in the room i shared with my sister)....and my "mother" had taken my journal/diary (mental hurricane is it's name)....and i had gone back to take a few things before leaving for good.....and it looked a lot different than it had when i lived there.....the room was where my bedroom was.....but was decorated like the room i shared with my sister.....and there were candles in there and my computer was gone........and i took my diary back.....and it turned out she had been using it.....and i hid it in a bag under plastic ninjas and then left

i carry around a plastic container with a bunch of small pastic ninjas in it...that i keep in my school bag.......42 with back up ninjas (54).....because you always need a back up ninja.......not a back up plan involving a ninja......because that would mean your first plan didn't have a ninja....and that's why it failed

amusement park
i was walking through a really crowded amusement park and following a random person while my 2 youngest siblings followed me....we were going to go on the bounce castle.....there were a few with different things in them....i looked down because there were steps...and my feet weren't touching the ground...more like low gravity than flying.....i got lucid but got so excited and my dc distracted me that i lost it....the one bounce thing had slides, and arcade, and a washing machine in it...i screwed up the laundry by accidentally burning it with the iron

lake
i was swimming in a small lake.....and i kept finding small boats underwater....so i took them out so i could fix them...i was after a canoe and found myself standing on the ground of the lake...which turned out to be a pool.....and the water was held back by a golden light so he could paint the place and people could still swim.....i took the rest of the boats easily (the ground was dry and there was no water in them) and walked them to the opposite shore without getting wet or needing to breath.....then i helped him stir paint....the whole thing was in a building and fully painted when i took the last boat out

pool
i was in a pool like the one at university..there was a lady who had pool noodles and was teaching a group of about 7year olds how to swim...and there was another guy at the other end of the pool doing the same thing...but no one from the class wanted to be near him.....there were 2 guys holding a this dc guy under water....he turned into a teen and i got him back out.....then they did it again..so i got the guy out of the water and at the same time took the rope he was using to tie the other guy underwater and tied him down.....the other guy rescued him but it gave us enough time to get out of the water safely.......then this lady saw us asked what happened and i told her but left out the bit where i did what the guy was doing back to him......and i got a lecture about revenge not being good because it's just going to keep going and that i should have told her.....she was a lifeguard or swim coach or something

street
i was with this dc....and we were at the house of an old lady who wanted us to help someone....there were bikers outside that we had to avoid by hiding....and we found her on the ground with a bunch of smashed glass and blood on the ground....i directed large trucks around us because we were in the middle of the road.....i carried her inside and put her on a chair while the dc i was with went to tell the old lady she was fine....than the girl locked me in her living room and said she was going to burn the place down (she thought it was my house)....i petted the cats and took out my cell phone to text the dc that went out that the girl is an arsonist and woke up irl

the most normal and likely to happen dream (the amusement park) is the one where i go lucid....but the ones where i breath underwater are seen as not dreams to me....but yay on my first lucid in a while

note: xanax

maze
i was in a 2nd grade classroom and i left because i was bored.....and was sneaking around the school and then the gardens outside (everything kind of had the set up of my university library with everything in rows)......and i was in the high school enrichment class line and this guy i was behind said i was his sister.....i was only half the size as everyone else....and i was sitting against the wall and i was told i could have a kitten to hold if i was ok with my "brother" not being near me all the time and i didn't get too scared...and we were all sitting against the wall with workbooks (like for my irl 2nd grade math class)

there was another that was a nightmare but i forget while writing this

i was packing and moving stuff out of my room back in the house i was born in.....in the room with my sister even though i moved to my own room when i was 11......and i kept going back and forth between there and packing....and my grandmother's car which was by the side of the road in the woods....and putting stuff in the car..and she kept saying she would do anything to help me...i was trying to figure out a way to get back to university because i was told that i had to find my own way back after break was over (i was told that irl my freshman year)....and i also saw the time in the dream and it didn't vary much....it was around 4:30pm and i was upset because i had missed class for the day and didn't know how i would get back (that was time irl when i woke up and i had missed classes for the day irl)

note: xanax

murder mystery (just finished watching a lot of episodes of Hellsing anime)
i was outside in this pit and someone was trying to kill me and the detective i was with...by pushing the walls together and there was a random guy making it happen just outside the trap we were in...and it got blamed on the butler even though me and the guy who was a detective knew it was the guy in charge....and there was a phone that he turned into a bomb and the police eventually came to arrest the butler and take the bomb because they knew that would happen with the detective because it usually does

haunted
i was in my current apartment and the detective was still there as was the random guy...and this vacuum was outside my bedroom.....so i put it in the living room down the hall....and i turned it on to vacuum the rug because it was full of glitter and paper bits and the coffee table as upside down on the couch.....then i unplugged the vacuum because i realized it was late at night and i might wake me roommates...it kept falling down and i kept trying to put it in a way that it wouldn't...and it kept moving forward....and then i had it unplugged and part of it came off and looked mostly like the nerf ball (squishy football that is red and yellow) i have irl but with wheels....and it was moving around......then it was on the table...and i told the detective that maybe it wants pet like a cat or dog......and he pet it...and then it said it wanted a blood sample and took one from the detective......and one from the random guy who was on the couch (the room had put all the furniture back at this point to the way it normally was)........and it kept trying to get a sample from me but i screamed no and hit it away with a pillow....i was sitting on the back of the chair with my feet on the seat of the chair.......my roommates then came out and all told me in one voice at the same time (i don't really know then that well irl) that they told me this apartment was possessed (they were afraid of getting possessed a few days back because the power had gone out due to a major storm).....and i looked at the random guy and was thinking that i was right about something being wrong with the room and that i needed to get someone to cleanse the apartment (he had a look that said the same thing)......and then i had an idea to take it apart and take the chip controlling it out of it and smash all the parts with a hammer

note: cinnamon and Diphenhydramime

inside a tree tried to incubate outside
there was a huge hollow tree.....and i was inside it and it looked like a house....and stairs lead to more and more levels......and i got yelled at for showing the small children the slide.....and the fort.......and i kept trying to go to the top but kept getting chores to do or yelled at.....it was dark outside when i finally got to the porch at the top but i didn't get to explore for long.......then i had to go to another area that looked like a laundry mat....and i was putting art spray on stuff so it wouldn't smudge.....and this kid kept attacking me......so i had to hold his arms.......and then he said he would stop but kept doing it.....then i was in a place with clothing racks.....and i was finding clothing that fit for people.....and the kid that attacked me stopped when i took off his heavy winter coat.....and then i was in an open space with lots of tables......and people were doing lots of random stuff.....and my "mother's boyfriend" got pissed at me and threw a hand held electric saw at my face and then another at my arm and it cut me.....and i ran out and blacked out when i got outside the building/tree (different from normal nightmares/dc more actively harming me rather than making me watch horrible things happen to people i care about)

cat fight
i was with my best friend at the home i grew up in.....and we both had kittens....and i had to level mine up to beat the other kitten with a bunch of random stuff.....like play doh to represent earth....and a tomato......and spring water (from a bottle)...and then it was orange with spots on it and a bit larger than a house cat.....but i couldn't find the other thing.....and woke up because it was loud in my apartment irl

note: xanax

i was the mother of my one sibling....and we went to a thanksgiving dinner......and the walls moved and room order changed a bunch....and the adults yelled at me for not acting like an adult and said i had to pick if i were an adult or a child and i couldn't be both.....and that i was acting like a child by talking to kids like they were on my level and not beneith me and telling them the truth....and i went the the bathroom and couldn't figure out where to pee because it looked like 3 fountain things and a tub....but the path outside was pretty.......you know the shadows waves make on the ground below really clear pools and shallow lakes and stuff?......the walls were made of that

i also had a dream that i had to go back to kindergarten......and they gave me a bad grade on coloring because i couldn't stay in the lines......but i kept trying to tell them that my hands shake and i'm doing thing best i can....but they kept yelling at me to try harder

the one was in an old house.....there was a sign outside that said how many rooms were taken....i think it was supposed to be a haunted house and they were trying to get people to see how long they could stay

the other was at a lake.....this guy took this thing (no idea what it was)....to the center of the lake and was eaten by a tentacle creature in the lake.....it threw me out when i tried to get to him to help him...i called him my dad but he wasn't my dad irl.......then i was on a bridge thing that was really long and went over the lake and this person pushed a button and i was supposed to go down hidden stairs to something.....i'm not sure what...but that person was leading me there and wanted something from me

my one was at a store......i was with my boyfriend......we had ice cream and walked around the nearby walmart for something to do......then i was going with my parents.....and they drove a while to get to that one.....and i didn't like it because it was a small one.......and we went in a bus and my sister sat in front of me and kept turning around and slapping me and kicking me with high heals.......and i was buying towels (which were stolen by one of my roommates lately irl)

the other one was me in high school......i was sitting in the advanced classes room.....and the teacher was saying i should take an iq test......for fun.....plus she wanted to know........and put it on the shelf at the side.....so others could take it too if they wanted to.....and then she was talking about a test in the psyc. class that was coming up......and i made a face because i don't like tests....especially ones with essays/short answer.....and she said to not make that face...that it'll be fun.....because it's stuff that i find interesting.....(there was this test irl that she said would be fun before because we had to act like real psychologists and diagnose the patient from the case study with the information she gave and was convinced that that would be a fun part to the test)

i was at this house with my siblings....and the setting around the house changed.....and i was at this pond thing....an me and my 2 bothers found this small dock and this shed thing that had only one door and it lead to the water.....the pond kept changing size and shape....and my brother that was 2 years younger than me was cleaning it out....and i was helping him take stuff back to the house because that place was packed and my other brother (6 years younger than me) was using this boat to transport us.....and it looked like a toy and barely fit me and him.....

then we decided to use a zip line to take things to and from the shed......the house was up hill.......and i eyed up where to put the line.....and thought it would be good to take things down to the shed......but everyone else thought it would be better to move things from the shed up to the house.....so they did that instead.....which had gravity going backwards.....but i didn't care.......and we had a ski lift type chair made of cardboard transporting people up hill....there were no mechanics.....just a thin rope which i was surprised didn't snap......and we had 2 people on swings that were a foot from the ground to tell us if the rope looked like it was going to snap.......and the one asked what she should do.....and i told her to scream if she falls because that means the people much higher up are falling and going to die.......

and then we were going back and forth in the boat......and i accidentally knocked over the water color drawings my two sisters made and they were mad......the water was hip high and they had it in a bucket to dry.....and i moved and a small wave knocked over the bucket and they were both pissed at me

the next dream.....we were in the same house.....but there was a tiny alley to go through to get from the street to the back yard where the only door was.....and the alley was so tiny i don't even know how i fit because my ears kept scraping the walls......and my friend was following me there.....and we got to the back yard......and she asked why i didn't just go through the back yard from the road out back because that looked much easier......then i saw a snake that my mom's ex-boyfriend was holding....he was always trying to scare me......it had teeth like a shark but it was obviously dead so i didn't care.......then there were tiny snakes as long as my finger that kept falling from the sky......and these guys from the conservation district came and dug up our yard and put them in buckets of water that we all had to get from the stream across the street.......none of this was weird to me though

the next dream....i was in the same house.....except i was getting these tests with weird questions.......they took me to the attic so it would be quiet....but it was summer and hot and they didn't even open a window.......and the first question i messed up.......because they had an upside down Q and i had to match it to the keyboard and i hit where the q would be on a regular keyboard without looking at the buttons......they were all really weird looking.....and then i had to start over......and they had me defining weird words i've never heard of.......but i seemed to get all the questions right.......when i got down stairs......which was a ladder....i have no idea how the test lady did it in high heals though..........she said she had the results.......and she was talking to the other lady.....and they were whispering and saying that my problem was pretty much that i was too smart for my own good

the next one was me getting raped and beaten and taken to a hospital to get bandaged up and report it......and they switched me to a guy doctor who wanted to transfer me to another long term hospital for trauma.....and i kept begging the nurses to get me a different doctor because i didn't want a guy after what i'd been through and i cried the whole dream

the next was me just talking with my siblings at my old house....but i kept having these thoughts of wanting to hit them all the time like my mother did....and i kept crying whenever i thought of it.......and my mother kept hitting them but then my dream would flash and it would be me watching myself hit them from outside of my body and i would cry more

the next was at a costume store.....but i was getting art supplies.....and these two guys with guns came in to rob it and i was telling them that the dress looks more like a t-shirt and i need to add lots of fabric to it (like i did to my halloween costume last year)......and i kept annoying them and not being afraid and they rolled their eyes and walked out

the first one....i was back home turn stuff off before going to bed like i did growing up (i'm not ocd...i had an irresponsible mother who left the stove on, the dog outside, and the front door wide open)

i got to this last machine....but didn't really know how to work it....it looked like a cooking channel...which my mom watched but never did (she could burn canned frosting)....and then i hit a button...and it was asking what recipe i wanted.....and i didn't know how to go back...and i thought it was just going to show it and go back to the menu where i might be able to turn it off.....nope....out pops a tomato from who knows where.....i took the tomato as it was getting cut up and the machine stopped......there was something weird with my hands though.....the knives went right through them like i was a ghost.....then i woke up

a few hours later i went back to sleep......i had this dream where i was in the psyc ward....and there was a group therapy room.....and i kept moving chairs.....and this one person kept walking in the room naked....and i don't know the gender of the person....but they were really fat.......i moved when she sat next to me..they took her to get dressed right after that..and the therapist had me sit back in that chair when he came in....because i had left paper there.....but the paper only had doodles on it....and he kept bumping into me......and everyone in the room was in lala land except me and 3-4 other people.....but they were not paying much attention because they didn't want to be there.....and then he started touching my arms and tickling me....and i moved away to the other side of the room.....and he came over and wanted to keep tickling me.......and i kicked him below the belt........and went to the nurses' station to get ice and there were two security guys standing there and i asked them for help....and the therapist told them to stop me.....and they listened to him and not me....and each one of them took one of my hands and he punched me in the face again.....and i blacked out in the dream and entered another dream?....i'm not sure.......but i was outside in a parking lot with blankets.....and i had to take them back inside so i could go eat......and i was at the place to eat.....but had to go across 7-8 parking lots to get to the place to put the blankets and then get back......i ended up in this park...and there were white steps that led to a tennis court......and i stopped going down them because they were steep and i was afraid i was going to fall......and i had the blankets wrapped around me at the time.....

then this guy came up to me and said i have to follow the yellow spots.....and there was one on this step....and i went down the hill and he was leading me.....and i took off the blankets when we got to this weird basketball court........and there was this guy standing on a yellow spot in the ground in the middle of it......and his head had a large helmet that looked like a basketball on it.....and we chased him and were competing to catch him.......then eventually decided we have to work together......and then we caught him after he had run all over the park......and took him back to the basketball court.......his helmet had fallen off......and there was a yellow spot on the wall on top of a mural of a basketball.....and the other dude wanted to hit his head off the wall (like my mother used to do to me and my siblings) but i wouldn't let him......and the basketball head guy touched his head to the wall and this buzzer sounded.....i woke up to me alarm clock

the first one....i was back home turn stuff off before going to bed like i did growing up (i'm not ocd...i had an irresponsible mother who left the stove on, the dog outside, and the front door wide open)

i got to this last machine....but didn't really know how to work it....it looked like a cooking channel...which my mom watched but never did (she could burn canned frosting)....and then i hit a button...and it was asking what recipe i wanted.....and i didn't know how to go back...and i thought it was just going to show it and go back to the menu where i might be able to turn it off.....nope....out pops a tomato from who knows where.....i took the tomato as it was getting cut up and the machine stopped......there was something weird with my hands though.....the knives went right through them like i was a ghost.....then i woke up

a few hours later i went back to sleep......i had this dream where i was in the psyc ward....and there was a group therapy room.....and i kept moving chairs.....and this one person kept walking in the room naked....and i don't know the gender of the person....but they were really fat.......i moved when she sat next to me..they took her to get dressed right after that..and the therapist had me sit back in that chair when he came in....because i had left paper there.....but the paper only had doodles on it....and he kept bumping into me......and everyone in the room was in lala land except me and 3-4 other people.....but they were not paying much attention because they didn't want to be there.....and then he started touching my arms and tickling me....and i moved away to the other side of the room.....and he came over and wanted to keep tickling me.......and i kicked him below the belt........and went to the nurses' station to get ice and there were two security guys standing there and i asked them for help....and the therapist told them to stop me.....and they listened to him and not me....and each one of them took one of my hands and he punched me in the face again.....and i blacked out in the dream and entered another dream?....i'm not sure.......but i was outside in a parking lot with blankets.....and i had to take them back inside so i could go eat......and i was at the place to eat.....but had to go across 7-8 parking lots to get to the place to put the blankets and then get back......i ended up in this park...and there were white steps that led to a tennis court......and i stopped going down them because they were steep and i was afraid i was going to fall......and i had the blankets wrapped around me at the time.....

then this guy came up to me and said i have to follow the yellow spots.....and there was one on this step....and i went down the hill and he was leading me.....and i took off the blankets when we got to this weird basketball court........and there was this guy standing on a yellow spot in the ground in the middle of it......and his head had a large helmet that looked like a basketball on it.....and we chased him and were competing to catch him.......then eventually decided we have to work together......and then we caught him after he had run all over the park......and took him back to the basketball court.......his helmet had fallen off......and there was a yellow spot on the wall on top of a mural of a basketball.....and the other dude wanted to hit his head off the wall (like my mother used to do to me and my siblings) but i wouldn't let him......and the basketball head guy touched his head to the wall and this buzzer sounded.....i woke up to me alarm clock

i'll start with the two that weren't nightmares because the two that were nighmares were very similar (even though they were not consecutive)

i had to open this vault for these two ex-friends of mine that i had seen a few hours ago......i was the only one there with the code.....they weren't as rude to me as they usually are...and they brought out this strange cake....it was a vanilla cake with red jello poured into slits in it.......i was eating it with my hands and 5-6 preschoolers wanted some and i told them to take only a bite at first to see if they like it and then they can have more if they like it (which is what my gram told me about new foods the whole time i was growing up)

the other two were types of assisted living facilities.....i was a patient (which is something i fear because my docs want to take me out of school to put me in one if i can't get my depression under control)

the one was like a really old house and it had hard wood floors....i was the maid

the other i was a patient and tied into a wheel chair because i kept climbing on stuff otherwise

in both they threatened me with needles if i didn't cooperate (which is my biggest fear)

this was my second dream i remember...the other one was just me doing a bunch of boring every day stuff....it's been a few hours since i woke and i don't remember it anymore

second one....i was in a sporting goods store with my best friend....and there was a small arcade to the right of the entrance.....she went in and went to the arcade and i kept trying to follow her but i couldn't hear what she was saying and she was moving too fast for me......and my legs kept hurting and my knees kept giving out on me and i had a hard time walking without falling.....and then we were looking at shoes and trying to find sneakers because she has really small feet and they only have shoes that look like they are for little kids in her size at the regular stores....we didn't find any shoes she likes....and i went out to the car to get my phone and i came back in and the manager said i couldn't come in because the store is about to close and they aren't letting anymore people in......and i told him my friend was in their and he said he would make an announcement for her to just go to her car to meet me when she was done.....and i told him that wouldn't work because she has her music on and not her hearing aids and wouldn't be able to hear it....he let me in to find her......

she was at the bathrooms and had found a few things and had them in a cart.....we were looking at the backpacks and there were only very small differences.....she said they all looked exactly the same but i kept pointing out the very small differences...then i fell again.....and the manager saw.....and it took me a bit to get back up and i looked like i was in a lot of pain....and i had to hold on to stuff to get up......he said he was going to call the triage nurse and to not move but i told him to not...

she shows up a minute later while i'm still arguing with him and had just managed to stand up.....(she looks exactly like the triage nurse from my school.....same outfit and everything)....she asks to see my leg and kind of just grabs it and brings it up to about hip height and held it straight out....something i used to be able to do irl before the pain got to be too much for me......since i didn't look to be in pain......she asked if it was numb and that was why it was hard to stand.....i just stared at her with my mouth open because she had a pin in her hand and needles freak me out.....and she started to roll up my pants leg.....and i started saying no needles and trying to pull my leg away.....and she said it was a thumb tack and not a needle...and it turned into one and she held it out in her hand and i threw it.....she let go to go get it....and i started crawling around between the clothing racks.....i was really fast.....and i looked back and the clothing was still swaying from where i'd originally been......and the manager saw me and he pointed me out and i moved again really fast.....and the only reason they could see where i went was because i kept looking at them....and i crawled out to where i could see the registers while they were looking on the other side of the store for me......and i stood up shakily and limped over to the registers and texted my friend to meet me there....and my text had the words that i put in....even after i looked away to see if they were still looking for me......the words didn't change...they saw me...and i looked away quick....and the cashier was making small talk with me because i said i was just waiting for my friend.......and the nurse and manager stood at the doors facing the registers.......and the nurse said that she just wants to help and that no one should push because she doesn't want anyone to get hurt......and there was a person behind me so the only way i could go was her direction....and i saw her coming towards me out of the corner of my eye....she had an orange shirt......and i looked at it and then her face and she made eye contact with me and then i woke up