Xanous' Dream Journal

Fragment about daughter tearing paper from a book.
I wake up from some dream about work. Who cares? I DEILD. I have been trying all night I actually fell aleep the last time wondering why sometime it is easy and sometimes I just cant.

I feel the sp and wait for it to "even out". It feels just about time to try to get up so I smoothly and easily was able to imagine my legs moving over the bed and then stand up. Once I stand up I am in the dream. This time I was blind again but I have learned to handle that. I slowly try to open my eyes. Nope I see ceiling. I forgot I was not in the bed room at the time and didn't realize I could see the living room ceiling. But all that mattered was it was not my dream eyes I opened. I am way too excited. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.

OK. So I just felt the walls. I have been wanting to enter the full length mirror on the closet door as a way out. I stabilized my focusing on the feeling in my hands. Thank you Sivasion and Dream Yoga class. I felt the door frame of the bathroom since thats what I would have been facing if I was in my bedroom. I remind you I was not. I just find that funny that I forgot. Anyway, I felt left from there until I felt the smooth surface of the mirror and the egdes of the trim. Not being able to see made is so much eaiser than I had expected. I just stepped through like it was a cut out in the door. I forgot to think of where I was going. I just wanted to see.

I found my self standing in the doorway from the bedroom to the dining/living room. I can see. I see my brother walking through. I was shocked and was not expecting this and the scene goes black. I think no. SEE! I focus on seeing the room again. It reappears like someone turning on a light from a dimer switch. I am way too excited again. I remember to relax as if I am in meditation.
I focus on the walls. I see the walls of the living are covered with hundreds of hats. I focus on that for a bit. I see a Yellow ball cap with a green "T" on it and trimmed white around. I have no idea what team that is and I don't care.
I walk right and see my brother.
I say HEY WHATS UP MY BROTHA?
Hey bro whats up?
Im dreaming! I clap my hand and spin around and say, "yeah!" Fist pump.
I feel fading and I am so fucking excited. I have to stabilize again. relax. My mind relaxes some just like meditation.

I focus on the walls again. I see a lot less hats now. "Hey where did all the hats go?" I am truly upset that I can't find the hats. I look and try to make the appear. OK never mind. I had real goals. OK. The competition. I'll do my 3 step. I already did flying. OK lets do TK. I look around. There is this table with a bunch of dirty glasses and other stuff... I dont know. I see a one liter plasic bottle of what looks like Dr. Pepper. I focus on that. It is half full. I try to make it move to my hand. Nothing. I try harder. Nothing. Then I hear the words of wizard Sageous (From another LD) "You can do it if you believe it." OK I believe I can do it. I really take that to heart. I relax my mind a bit and just allow it to flow. It comes straight to my hands. Yes! I drop it and now it looks like a plasic wine glass. I push it around with TK. I try to make it float and shoot off fast but can't. I try for more advananced TK. I look at the hats on the walls. I try to imagine them all shooting off at once. I lift my arms in the air and bring them together but nothing happens. Hmmm maybe that really is too advanced. (I didn't believe Matthew 17:20 )

OK what else was I going to do? Basic summon. I just try to do the same thing I did last time but now I am losing focus. I reach in my back pocket for a flash light but it is like I am pretending. It is getting dark again. I dont feel it or see it. I make a click noise with my mouth when I push the button. But wait. I did do it. I see a beam of light in the darkness and I feel something in my hand. I think misson accomplished. The darkness takes over my light and the dream fades. (I forgot to stabilize)

I have a false awakening. I am in my bed alone. It is bright and sunny from the window. I am trying to record my dream on my phone. Then it turns into being on some quilt on my bed. All of the memory from the LD is recorded on my quilt. Now I just remember fragments from the dream befor the LD. I am trying to touch a send text knitted on but it won't work. Then the kids come and jump all over me and and bed. I freak out. Noooooooo! I will forget my dream get of go away. Just give me a few minutes. I say go and I mean it go. They finaly leave. Now for some reason I safty pinning my phone to the quilt thinking that will fix things. I wake up suddenly.