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    FA's Brief Lucids and one Hellacious DEILD chain

    by , 01-27-2013 at 04:51 PM (681 Views)
    pre-bed 9:00PM
    2000MG Fish oil - (some posts suggest better dreaming)
    100MG 5-HTP
    Bed 10:00PM
    WBTB alarm 2:30AM but I woke naturally at 2:19AM
    2ish MG Galantamine (poured half capsule out on a dish and just licked it off. )
    250MG Choline
    600MG GPC
    0.5MG Melatonin

    INSOMNIA!

    +1MG Melatonin at 3:00AM
    +2MG Melatonin at 3:30AM

    Dosed off a bit brief DILD that I can't now remember. It was a crap dream anyway.
    Short WILD with vivid Rainbow colored static and geometric shapes. I haven't tripped that hard since High School!

    Finally fell asleep
    I woke up about 5:30AM from a NON-lucid. Something about me and another man playing with our sons. We have Lord of the Rings action figures and bicycles. Aragorn against a goblin, orcs, some shrimp like creature, and Uruk-hai. The funny thing is the action figures were actually talking to each other.

    #125 FA's Brief Lucids and one Hellacious DEILD chain

    I don't know how long this entire dream segment was. I feel it was probably around 30min. Maybe longer. I am not sure. There are a few memory gaps in the beginning but this is the best I remember.

    Ex in-laws
    I am staying at my ex in-law's house. My ex wife does not exist. My current wife and my ex's brother brother is there. There was some long dialog. Something about his birthday party. I sit and listen to the convo. I go into deep thought like I usually do. I feel dislike for this guy (I never liked him IRL). I think about why I am even here. I remember that I dream this a lot.

    I remember some SP but my focus was low


    Downtown event
    I have a FA. My wife and I are leaving the ex in-law's house. First we were driving now we are walking. My wife tells me that her "brother" R is going to give an anniversary surprise during his birthday party. I feel disgusted and want no part of it but say nothing.

    It is really early in the morning and still dark. It looks like we are downtown Webb City. There are a few curbside bistros open and large groups of people are flocking to them. Most of them are nicely dressed in evening dresses and suits. As we are walking through I comment on this to my wife but decide there must be some event going on and these are famous places to eat. Anthony Bourdain comes to mind.

    I sit in a folding chair next to some woman in a black evening dress. I look around and notice my wife went into a building. I just *know* that she had to use the restroom. This woman looks familiar to me but I don't know her. I felt an indescribably strong connection to her. Like a close friend or a family member. She is older with shoulder length gray hair. She is well kept and beautiful for her age. I get the feeling that she is ultra rich and well known. In spite of that, she is super friendly and down to earth. We have a really long conversation. I forgot almost all of it. I can only remember telling her that I was really confused. I told her that I had a brief lucid dream and I just woke up. I told her I wasn't sure what was going on. I felt really sleepy still. I don't remember her reply if any.

    I start missing my wife and look behind me. I see a bunch of folding chairs set out full of people and a woman at a podium. My wife is taking a seat in the middle. The woman at the podium says something about a church service. I feel annoyed. I just woke up. I am tired and I am in no mood to sit through some church service in the middle of the street. I march over to my wife. I sit beside my wife, put a hard hand on her shoulder and ruffly whisper in her ear, "What is this bullshit!?" The woman turns to look at me. It is some blond woman. She looks shocked an a little scared. I feel extremely embarrassed. "OH! Um sorry. I thought you were..."

    I run off to find my wife. The shock of this triggers lucidity. I remember that I took G and was trying to get lucid.

    I am in bed with vibrations.


    Memory gap

    I have another brief FA to lucid here but I can't remember enough to record anything.


    Blanket Attack

    I am back in bed with vibrations. This time I feel like a retard. I very quickly remember the dreams and how I was so close. Now I am more focused and determined.

    I transition out of bed but I am unstable. The blanket suck to my head and I can't see any more. I try to fight it but my hands can't feel anything. I give up and turn to leave blind. I am thrown back into SP.

    DEILD

    The Colosseum - Another failed attempt at TOTY

    I transition out again. This time it is better. But I am blind. I feel my way out of the bedroom. I try opening my eyes for a bit but I realize that I keep opening my real eyes. I see the dream and see the waking world. Finally I stop and focus seeing through my eye lids. Now I can dimly see. This time instead of heading to the front door I wonder what the back door will be like. My vision improves once I reach the back door and have a hand on the door knob. I try to visualize a Colosseum. I think of the line I used last time. I open the door but I see a moon lit back yard. I close the door and try again. Still the same. Not wanting to push my luck and wake up I walk out side. At this point part of me wonders If I am sleep walking. As a RC I try to float. I see me feet lift off the upper level of the back deck. Yep it's a dream. Now, I uncontrollably float over the rest of the deck and do a nose dive into the ground. I flip and roll end over end. Undaunted, I get up and brush myself off. (Brush myself off? lol) It is still really dark so I look up and ask the dream, "I need some light here" Oops I forgot to be polite. "Please." Nothing happens. "Can I please have some light?" I look around sort of wildly. I see a full moon and some stars. I try to focus on the moon but it is like looking through unfocused binoculars. It is really unstable and blurry. I look to the east and see the sun is just beginning to light up the sky.

    Encouraged, I decide to fly to Rome. I "feel" like Rome is to the east. My flying stinks but I remember a trick I learned from Robert W.'s book. I see the closest tall tree and focus on the tip. I go into warp speed. I see the small focused point of the tree but my peripheral vision is a blurry mess. I sort of lose vision for a sec but feel the tree branches smack into me. I blindly grasp and feel something small thorny branches. There is a dull pain but I don't dare let go. I see another tree in the distance. I repeat the exact same thing.

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    I look farther out. I see a tree covered mountain range. The sun is rising behind it. The mountains look really far away. They are small and on the horizon. I pick a spot with trees and focus. I fly/teleport. Again, I grasp branches and hold on. I lose vision briefly again. I think that this has to be far enough.I let go and drop to the ground. I land hard.

    I pick myself up off the ground and notice the sky is dark again. I try to imagine the Colosseum again. A huge spot light comes on be. I begin to hear a roaring crowd chanting something. I think, This is it! I pretend I have a sword sheathed on my left side. With my right arm I make a drawing motion. I can hear it come out but I feel nothing. All I can see is my shadow on the ground in front of me. I am a bulky muscular man with a Gladius in my right hand. I am in a fighting stance and ready for battle. At that moment the dream collapses.


    Haunted?

    DEILD back into bed. This time I give the SP a little more time. I focus on the feeling and relax. I just wait and watch like I do when I have HI.

    I begin to see a bright blue blob of color. I focus on it. It looks like some sort of animation on a computer screne. I sit up and reach for it. It becomes a tablet in my left hand. I continue to watch the strange blob. I ask the the dream, "What is this?"
    I hear a reply in my mind, "EVIL..... THIS HOUSE IS HAUNTED."
    I become afraid. I shout. "YOU FAGGOT! SHUT-UP! NO IT'S NOT!" (faggot? really? Sorry folks, I never use that word IRL) Then I realize that I pretty much just called myself a faggot. I think about stupid it was. The dream collapses.


    The Creep In The Mirror

    I DEILD again and remain calm. I sit in SP again. I am beginning to realize that if I give SP some time and not rush things I will be able to see better. After some time I can see the room. I get out of bed. This time I try to focus on using the bathroom door to teleport to the Colosseum. It is the closest door. I remember the non-lucid awhile back that when I opened the door it led to a park outside. I try to visualize the outline of wall again. I open the door. Nope. Normal bathroom. I try again and the room is a black void. I feel encouraged and walk in. I imagine a Gladius in my hand and try my WILD tech in dream. I make a repetitive chopping action with the sword and wait for the Colosseum to form.

    Suddenly the lights come on. I am just in my bathroom. I can see the sun coming from the window. The light is bright and warm like noon in the summer. I decide to just play around now.

    I go to the sink and look in the mirror. I notice the medicine cabinet is all wrong. It has a sliding glass door rather than a hinged one. I look really creepy and distorted. My body is all jittery and wavy like I an underwater. I focus on my face. My eyes look bloodshot. My goatee is gone and I look like I am 16 again. I gasp and let out a laugh. When I do that there is this strange zooming focus effect in the mirror with the background behind me. I am taken aback. I focus again on my face. I am making crazy faces at myself. I am still wavy and jittery. My reflection give me a half smirk. It looks like someone is photo editing my mouth in real time with a smudge tool. I realize I am not smiling. Then I notice that I have a black, smoky aura around me. I gasp and again the strange zooming effect. It was almost like reality bent and flexed around me. I focus on my face once more and it looks sort of normal. I feel really creeped out and decide to move on.



    I think about going outside so I look out the window. I pull back the blinds but find that I can't see past the screen. Its just really bright light coming in. I decide to head to the front door.

    I walk through into my son's room. And become distracted. I see him asleep in the crib. I lean over him and say "BOOOO!" He makes a face and puts his hands to his mouth. He looks like he is about to cry. I feel really bad that I scared him. I try to comfort him and kiss is forehead. Then I wonder if I am really astral projecting and worry that I am waking him up. Then I get an idea.

    I rush back into my bed room to try and see myself. I go back through the bathroom. There is breif darkness. Then I an standing next to my bed in the dark. My wife wakes up and half-way sits up. I see my body lying in bed in my right side with my legs slightly bent. I notice that MY HEAD IS MISSING. I jump in the bed next to me. It feels like a plastic dummy. It has a shirt and shorts on. I reach into the neck of the shirt but it feels like smooth skin. I remember the headless boy dream the scene destabilizes.


    Concentration is Lost

    I begin to DEILD again. I feel the vibrations buzzing my body. This time I become distracted. I realize that have had a long dream. I feel like I am going to forget is all. I try to think back while keeping the SP going but this much thinking fully wakes me up.

    The time is exactly 7:00AM. I feel a little confused because the room is so dark still. I swear to myself that I am still dreaming but after several clock RCs and awareness checks I quickly realize I am not. It is just cloudy outside.
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    1. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      What an absolutely killer night. Thanks for reminding me of the Robert Waggoner trick of doing the "zoom-in" flying thing when nothing else seems to be working. That has gotten me out of ruts in the past and I think I could have used it w/ the sluggish flying I was doing last night.

      I like that you had more success exiting the back door. Your house can be a bit of a trap, I know, so having another approach to take when things aren't working the way you like will be nice. I've also failed to have much luck with the "open door then expect something" trick, but I wonder if I simply haven't tried hard enough or used quite enough detail. Hard to say.

      The bit where you went to find your sleeping body was so cool too! I've wanted to do that one for a while, but have either chickened out or noticed that the bed was empty. It's funny that you apparently get replaced by a headless mannequin thing when you're astral projecting.

      Good recall, too, considering how much happened! Guess I need to try licking my galantamine off of a plate the way you did. LOL. The "pour galantamine all over the plate" trick sounds like what I'd wind up doing too if nobody was looking. You could also do this if you decide that you want to teach your cat to lucid dream.

      Congratulations on having such a big night on such tiny dose of G!
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    2. Xanous's Avatar
      What an absolutely killer night. Thanks for reminding me of the Robert Waggoner trick of doing the "zoom-in" flying thing when nothing else seems to be working. That has gotten me out of ruts in the past and I think I could have used it w/ the sluggish flying I was doing last night.

      I like that you had more success exiting the back door. Your house can be a bit of a trap, I know, so having another approach to take when things aren't working the way you like will be nice. I've also failed to have much luck with the "open door then expect something" trick, but I wonder if I simply haven't tried hard enough or used quite enough detail. Hard to say.
      It was all just experimenting and trying something different. Luckily had many opportunities.

      The bit where you went to find your sleeping body was so cool too! I've wanted to do that one for a while, but have either chickened out or noticed that the bed was empty. It's funny that you apparently get replaced by a headless mannequin thing when you're astral projecting.
      It was a little creepy but not nearly as bad as the mirror stuff. Was it my reflection or a DC? And what was with the black aura?

      Good recall, too, considering how much happened! Guess I need to try licking my galantamine off of a plate the way you did. LOL. The "pour galantamine all over the plate" trick sounds like what I'd wind up doing too if nobody was looking. You could also do this if you decide that you want to teach your cat to lucid dream.
      It was the simplest option. I was afraid of losing even a tiny bit of the powder transferring it into water or another container. And OMG my cats are cracked out enough. They don't need that! LOL.
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