Xanous' Dream Journal

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

No pre-bed aids except for a little Guinness.

WBTB 4:00AM - 6:00AM I intended to only be up 30 min but lil Mr. Dude decided to wake up and it was my turn.

Coffee and 2MG Melatonin. SSILD At 4:30AM I drank a small amount of coffee right at the end of my 30 mins. (one or two mouthfuls) I got interrupted at this point and at 6:00AM I drank another sip and 2MG Melatonin to ensure drowsiness. This method combined with WBTB and SSILD seems to have a high rate of success. 100% of four nights this week. However I am not a huge fan of this as I am not sure how wise it is to keep drinking caffeine during my WBTB.

6:47AM Toilet DILD

I have been doing SSILD and getting a lot of strong HI/HH. This was actually starting to turn into a WILD attempt. Suddenly I realize that I am standing at a toilet peeing. I look to my right and see some wooden tables with chairs like some sort of cafe or fellowship room. I look to my left and see a hallway and a dark wooden door on the left wall of it. There is an exterior door leading to what I assume to be outside on the left side of the toilet. Even though there are no people around I feel like I have no privacy. Then I recognize this dream sign and instantly I am lucid. I look down and see that I am still peeing.I tell myself I can stop because it doesn't matter now. I turn to my left away from the toilet and see that I am now just peeing all over the floor. I feel shock at this. Now for some reason I get dizzy and I fall on my back. The dream goes dark.

This part of the dream becomes so real that there is no difference between then and right now.I start rubbing my hands together to stabilize or re-enter the dream. I open my dream eyes and I the feeling feels like I really woke up. I look at my hands and see incredible detail of my hands. I notice all the lines and ridges and pores. I see the wedding ring on my left hand. Then I notice my fingers are all different lengths and some fingers are fanned out into 3 or 4 from one. I keep saying to myself I am dreaming over and over. I still question if I am awake. I roll over from my left side to my back still rubbing my hands. I can hear the pillow as I move. In real life I have a waterproof pillow cover because I drool. The sound is like crinkly plastic. I decide to just get out of bed. If I am awake it will be obvious if I am dreaming then awesome. Nothing to lose. I start to get out of bed but my legs feel bound in some rubber sheeting and I can't move. Ah I AM dreaming. I do a nose plug and blow through. The sensation is so odd that I go ahead and do it twice more for good measure. I am still confused because I am bound in bed but I never had the usually vibrations. I go ahead and treat it like and OBE. I try to visualize my legs going out of bed but its difficult looking at my hands. I reluctantly close my eyes and now I can do it. As I get up the sheet and blanket sticks to me like some crazy static cling. I notice how the sheets feel rubbery and just sticks to me. I struggle with the for a while. I realize that fighting it only makes it worse. I paused and relaxed. I told it "no" in my mind. Suddenly it all drops off or me and I am free. Now that I am free, I think about how I need to get outside to do the TOTM but for some crazy reason, I guess I thought I was going to forget the dream so far. So, I decide to quickly think back to the beginning of the dream and remember how it started. As soon as I remember the toilet I am jolted awake. I am not sure if it was the thought that woke me up or if it was my son making noise in the bassinet. Perhaps, next time I will just go forward in the dream and not worry so much about what just happened.