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    My Headless Double

    by , 04-13-2013 at 03:15 PM (762 Views)
    #162 - 4:42AM - WILD

    I WILD straight into a scene outside. I was thinking about the beach and I remember sand but not much else. I didn't really do any control that I know of and just went with the dream enjoying the hell out of every second of being lucid.


    At some point I have an FA. My wife keeps talking to me and I think she is the reason why I woke up. I tell her to shutup and leave me alone but she ignores that. After awhile I tell her, "I will slap you in the face if you don't leave me alone." She keeps talking then... WHAM! I vividly feel my right hand connect with her face.

    I freeze. She doesn't make any sound or seem to move. I feel totally awful that just hit my wife! I expect her to go ballistic on me but nothing happens. Then I realize this has to be a dream. I roll over a little to note the feel. Yep that feels like my dream body. Sluggish, numb, and a little slow.

    I move close to my wife to apologize. I still feel so horrible. We cuddle we automatically have sex.(menthol?) We do it for several minutes then I realize this is sort of a waste of time. The sensation isn't very realistic and I really don't want to risk waking up or *eehem* make a mess.



    This dream is super long and unfortunately I have a huge memory gap here as well.


    I am outside what looks like my back deck. I see the ground and it has no grass. I decide to teleport out of here but have no real plan. Just thinking about a sliders wormhole causes the view of my privacy fence to distort into ripples but there is no light or color. I raise a hand and see a sheet of rainbow static and then it breaks like glass. I summon the sliders device and point it at the fence. A beam shoots out and makes a proper wormhole. It doesn't last for but a second. Too bad. I give up and decide to teleport by falling backward. I relax and do the "Nestea Plunge"

    The scene goes black and I feel myself softly land in my bed. I feel disappointed. I wait and notice slight vibrations but wonder if that was just expectation. I RC again by slightly moving my legs. Yep that feels like my dream body. I throw my legs over the side and scoot out of bed. This time I feel slightly stuck but force through it. I stand up and feel a little wobbly at first but it straightens out. I begin to hear some strange whispering coming from behind me and it frightens me. I don't turn turn around to look. I just say out loud, "SHUTUP.". It stops. I notice how vivid my voice is and my awareness moves to my mouth. I marvel how I'm really in bed asleep.

    I walk into the living room and start to head outside. Again, I can think of no real plan just enjoying the dream. I begin to think about how super long the dream has been and think back to the beginning. I feel like I have it all in memory but I may have been lying to myself. During my retrospection I really didn't pay much attention to where I was going and was surprised when a DC stops me.

    He is standing there blocking my exit from the house. The really odd thing about him was that he was headless. I feel like I know him but I'm shocked and really creeped out now. I look closer and notice that he is an exact copy of me but with out a head. There is no gore where the head should be. There's not even a neck. It's just smooth skin from shoulder to shoulder with a slight dip where the neck should start. I command him, "Tell me what you represent!" No answer. I know that he doesn't have a head but this a dream and there is no reason why he can answer me. I poke him in the chest, "If you don't answer me I will throw you out of here."
    I wait and stare at him were his head should be. Looking at his neckless torso was just too much.

    Slowly, he answers in a small timid voice. "Second Contentment" (but it sounds like second contentiment)
    I'm still a little freaked so I come on really strong here. Annoyed, I yell, "SECOND CONTENTMENT? WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN!?!"
    After a moment, he even more timidly replies, "I don't know."
    I notice the door is wide open behind him and the porch light is on. I step forward to move outside and he moves with me. When we get on the porch I say, "Well guess what? I lied. Get the hell out of here." I push him off the porch and he flips into the flower bed and vanishes into the darkness.

    Thinking back I wish I had been a little more gentle with him and tried to get some better answers. For whatever reason this is a part of myself that needed some attention and I was a mean bastard. The whole thing was just so damned creepy that I couldn't take it. Maybe next time I can be more calm.

    I step out into the street. The scene was getting dark and I really had to try hard to maintain visuals. It feels windy and I feel like my eyes are drying out. Suddenly I realize that my physical eyes are open and must have been open for awhile. I can see the bedroom door. I don't panic but close my eyes and focus on seeing on the back of my eyelids. after some focus I DEILD back into the dream.

    I see the neighbor getting in a car but I ignore him. I start thinking how I can't remember any goals. The only thing I could think of is how I was thinking earlier in the day that it would interesting to fly into work during an OBE. I live only 7 blocks away in real life so why not? I start in that direction down the street.

    I see a long rectangular shape in the distance at the end of the street where it Ts off. (This still may have been my door) I focus on that spot and feel my body get light. I put my hands in front of me and my legs back. I get the strange focus effect and zoom straight there. Then I fly up over the houses and into the parking lot at work.

    For some reason there are several dumpsters in the way. I note four are blocking my path to the long walkway leading to the doors. Two are blue, one is red, and one is green. I weave through them crouched and sneaking. I stand up right when I realize there is no need to be sneaky. Now, I see the doors as I slowly fly to them. It is dark inside and only outside night lights are on. Let there be light. Let there be light. Let there be light. Soon I see some bright fluorescent lights flicker on. Alright thank you! I fly up to the doors and phase through the glass windows. I land upright inside.

    I take a look around and let out a loud "WOW!" The entire production area in this part of the plant has been cleared out. Instead of brick and steel there is sheet rock that has been taped and mudded but still bare with no texture or paint. Someone has built a stage on the left and down on the other side the break room has been opened up into a concession stand. I see Glen and Steve down there eating and walk to them. Glen is eating nachos and Steve has fried chicken. Before I speak to them I notice a guy on stage. I didn't notice then but can't help but think that he looks like anderj101. He is holding a black electric guitar and is standing next to a black baby grand piano. He seems messing with some equipment and waiting for people to show up. I ask him, "What am I supposed to do? I can't work like this." I don't remember his reply but it wasn't helpful. I jokingly ask, "Can I have sex on stage?" (menthol?)
    He laughs and says, "Hell yeah. I'll play Final Fantasy Pewter Shooter while you do it."
    I notice I am walking among tables now and I have a empty metal coffee can in my hand. I am tossing it up and catching it and beating on it like a drum. Just being fidgety like in real life. I get within inches from him and turn my left ear. Laughing, I ask, "Can you repeat that? Did you say Pewter Shooter or Peter Shooter?"
    He acts like he can't remember and mutters, "Hmm... Peter. Pewter. I don't know. I think it was pewter."
    "Are you sure because I want to remember this so I can look it up later." For some reason I don't want to mention that it's a dream. It feels like my great secret and a joke on the DCs.
    "I'll probably forget half this shit anyway."

    I freeze. Suddenly I remember how incredibly long this dream has been. I freak out that I will forget all of it. With this thought I open my eyes.


    I'm not entirely sure but I want to say this dream got on close to an hour. It's really impossible to tell though.

    I later had some non-lucids


    Work
    I was running a strange braid machine at work putting green nomex on a cable. It turned into a big confusing mess.

    The bar 5:58AM
    I was in some swanky bar walking out. There was a table with a big potted plant. I walk around it to be block by the only table with a yellow table cloth. There was an old man sitting with a young woman at a connecting table. I say, "Oops sorry" and side step them. He looks annoyed. Then I stop and suddenly want some beer. I turn back to the bar.

    There is a middle ages mixed race woman. I ask her for "2 Budweiser Lemon... No I mean Lime."
    She looks pissed off and hatefully says, "You want 2?"
    I nod
    With a smirk she tell me, "That's $18.30" She turns to get them and I start fishing in my wallet for a 20. I start thinking how much beer I could buy and take home for $20. I look down and notice she already has 2 bottles open and ready with a yellow label. Lemon?. I think about running away but instead I reluctantly hand her the $20.

    Much later I have a nice DEILD that I'll post separate.
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    1. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Wow!! Dang man, you don't mess around on G night! You get it done! I notice that this was G + menthol. I'm feeling really good about this combination. I'm not committing for life, but it really does seem like like there's some awesome synergy going on here. Particularly interesting is how long the dream went for you.

      I've only had one LD in my entire life that was this long, so big congratulations on getting such a great one. Sounds like an amazing experience. I presume you will be posting your precise dosages in the menthol thread for others to peruse?

      When we get on the porch I say, "Well guess what? I lied. Get the hell out of here." I push him off the porch and he flips into the flower bed and vanishes into the darkness.


      This was such an interesting encounter. I'll bet you've been thinking about "second contentment" all morning. I get why it was hard to stay patient with such a creepy DC. Hopefully we'll learn more in some future encounter!

      Great stuff dude!
    2. Xanous's Avatar
      Thanks dude. I just wish I could remember it all. Yeah dang I forgot to post that in the menthol thread. I'll try to tonight... and my last caffeine.
      Yeah I can't make any sense out of "second contentment" but it was interesting. I think my SubC just likes to spit up BS some times.
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    3. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Do you ever wonder if there's a secret to recalling all of the details of these really long lucids? I remember Sageous once saying that true lucid dreams are as memorable as waking life. Now, I've certainly had some dreams where this is true, but for the longer dreams (particularly the ones where there is some amount of ebb and flow to the dream), some pieces can get a little hazy. Particularly problematic is when I lose lucidity for a while. Stuff tends to get really scrambled for me then.

      Anyway, it's just awesome to get one long enough that you're actually in some danger of forgetting it. It's been a while since I had one stretch out like this. I will definitely be including menthol in my next G night!
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    4. Xanous's Avatar
      idk. I suppose it was possible I lost and regained lucidity in this one but that wasn't the feeling. The thing is how much waking life experiences do we forget all the time?

      Good luck with your next G night!
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    5. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Yeah, that's the thing -- it doesn't sound like you lost lucidity at all. I've had this experience, too, which is why I've often pondered what Sageous was saying.

      Maybe you're right... maybe we remember a lot less of waking life than we think. That's certainly true of a lot of life's really mundane moments. How well am I really going to remember that elevator ride by myself from 3 weeks ago?

      But with LDs I can't shake the feeling that there's something more there. Just as lucidity in general wants to slip away from us, the increased recall that comes with lucidity is also in danger of waning or slipping away entirely, it seems. It's difficult to say. Even when lucid, for me there's just that little bit of recall ability missing... that little bit of decision making ability not quite there, you know? Maybe it's just because my lucids aren't at the highest possible levels.
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    6. Xanous's Avatar
      I think there are many levels of lucidity. Maybe the low level ones are easier to forget. Its really unnerving to think about.

      coincidentally, I had another one of those early awakenings where I new I just had a lucid but I was so out of it that I didnt DJ or even play it back to remember it. I later woke for my WBTB thinking "noooo not again!"

      Btw I did a little better RCing when I took middle of the night dream notes but it was after the fact. Still, I remembered. Even if I was a liitle slow, its a start.
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