lucid

The dream starts off non-lucid as I am standing outside school talking to friends and one of them was like hey, you're in your underwear bro, and I looked and felt down and he was right. I was only wearing a shirt and underwear, instead of getting embarrassed I just immediately thought "this cannot be real I must be dreaming because a person as careful as I am that tries not to stand out it is very unlike me to make this big of a mistake." Then I thought "well if this is a dream let's find out and I will create things as I go along." I start running down the long sidewalk, cars are honking and people laughing but I don't care and I thought "ok I will run to the side of the building where there is no door but it will be there this time." Boom the door is there and is open, I walk in and at this point everybody is just ignoring me and talking with their friends as they walk to class and then I think "Alright run to English class and I will have a pair of shorts sitting on my desk." I run there and what do you know? there is a pair of shorts sitting on my desk, I grab them and put them on and sit down. Here I "wake up" and sitting in English class, I must have dosed off so I turn and start talking to some of my friends about the dream and I say "I have lucid dreams all the time." Which is a lie it is to and few between. and at this point I really do wake up.

I took dream leaf again, the alternative method really seems to work for me. Take a red pill the previous night and then the next night (which was last night) take the blue pill right before bed and then dream. I had a series of dreams, some of them repeated but there was something a little different each time so here we go.

1st dream: I hanged out with a childhood friend named Jet and another friend (who I knew in the dream world but not in the real world) we were kid of offroading with a jeep somewhere out in the boonies and it lasting long enough for day to turn to night, around night time I pulled out my phone and explained I wanted to record what we were doing and we came across this large mountain, it was sitll in the distance but it turns out to be a Volcano and it erupted and large amounts of black smoke and very hot stones poured out of it and they kept we kept driving toward it and a very hot rock landed on my stomach and it burned and I said to turn around and we did. We had to do something and take a drug test later the next day but we decided to get really really high anyway (weed people calm down) and so we went for the drug test still very high and there were a lot of people who had to do it but this test was different then normal drug tests we had to sit at a desk and spit into a test tube but not only that we had to put a manikin arm in the tube and it would change colors depending on if we were high or not and also it would inscribe in the arm our names and birthdays. For some reason it enscribed the wrong birthday (my real birthday is Jan 16th 1996, but it said Jan 16th 1949) and trust me, in my dream I was still my young self. The guy next to me was for some reason FaZe Apex and we talked a little bit and my arm started to change colors very fast and it was like neon weird colors and Apex said "this guy is still really high wtf" and it got to a point where everyone was trying to take the test tube away because I was sitting there staring at the changing colors for a long time, I said hold on and I put it down and my dream ended.

I had two lucid dreams but neither of them lasted very long, for some reason I would realize I am dreaming but before I could change anything I would wake up in a different dream and the thing that makes it even more weird is I was thinking about lucid dreaming WHILE I WAS DREAMING and I didn't recognize that I was dreaming in most of my dreams.

1st dream repeat: This one was about going offroading again in the open jeep but instead of my childhood friend it was one of my current best friends (lets call him Alex) and the other dude was the same, I didn't know his name but somehow we were friends. We had to run down this large hill to get to the jeep and it turned into a race so what I did was I jumped off part of the cliff instead and I had that suit that can make a person glide down, it had like flying squirl arms and legs and I flew over Alex and I was like "I am winning!" Both of my friends said I was nuts but I pulled the parachute last minute and landed perfectly next to the Jeep. I got in the passenger and Alex got in the back we drove around a lot and as day turned into night I started recording on my phone again, this time there was no Volcano but we got into a clearing in a wooded area and we stopped, at this point I realized I was dreaming and I just said "You know, you guys are my best friends." I didn't get a response because when I turned around they were gone and I was alone by myself and Darkness started to envelope my world and my dream ended. I think the part of me that is so very alone started to kick in once I realized I was dreaming and it took away my friends and said "you don't deserve to be happy, you don't deserve to be with friends."

2nd dream, it was very short, I woke up and I was a kid sitting in a bus with other kids and we were going on a field trip, I talked about my dreams but every other kid was mean and was a bully to me. I didn't let it bother me and I just woke up in a different dream. which was another repeat of dream 1.

This dream felt like it lasted several hours so I was in a deep deep dream. Anyway to start off, my nephew and I were playing grand theft auto and sometimes it was split screen, other times it wasn't but it got to the point where we were both actually inside the game like VR Sword art online style. We stole cars, broke into houses, flew helicopters, did missions, killed each other and re spawned and did it all over again. I sort of knew I was dreaming I just didn't want to alter what was going on because it was really fun as it was. We "woke up" into another GTA style game but it looked way more realistic like real life and I hurried outside and found a Ferrari and drove off. We were in California because I remember speeding down the golden gate bridge but what I was most focused on was trying to put the car into gear as it was manual and I have never driven manual but it ended up working out. Night time came and we were by this river, it wasn't flowing a certain direction it was just there and we decided for some reason we were going to kill ourselves (we could re-spawn like I said before) and he jumped in first and I just stood there and watched him drown, when he died a fire like essence that was rainbow colored started to flow out of his side like a flame thrower type thing and I jumped in and I layed on my back underwater looking up at the beautiful nights sky while drowning. I was slowly dying but it was a very happy death. At that point I reminded myself that I was dreaming so I forced myself to wake up but i woke up in a different house, in a dark room and I walked toward the door and when I opened it, I woke up in the real world... sometimes I just wish I could stay in my dreams forever...

So I tried this product I found on Amazon called "Dream leaf". I tried the alternative method which says take the red pill the first night and the blue pill the 2nd (because the first method involved waking up 4 hours later to take the red pill) also on the 2nd night I took about 2-3 10 mg of melatonin and I entered the dream world. At first it was a normal non lucid dream, I was standing next to this white 2 story house and I had a ladder in my hand looking up at the open window and this ladder was one of those single sides ones you put on the wall to climb up but instead I put it perfectly vertical not attached to anything and started climbing and I set my hands on the final rung and looked over at the window about to jump through it and I stopped myself and my train of thought and I looked forward and said "wait, this doesn't feel right." "I think I am dreaming...." "Yeah I am dreaming." and then I said I was going to find out for sure so I stood with my feet on the last rung with perfect balance and stared at the ground. I did have 2nd thoughts however I jumped head first anyway and I started to fly and I flew higher and higher and I was in the clouds, I flew over cities, forests, beaches and the ocean and I changed the sky to dusk with beautiful purple and orange clouds. Finally I "woke up" but it was in a different dream and this time I didn't realize I was dreaming.

I took 50 mg of Melatonin last night (again) and I just had the most amazing dream ever and it wasn't a sex dream this time.
I was in school again, this time in computer class and we had this sub teacher who was really mean, stuck up etc. I get myself in trouble by being a smart ass - she said something to some other student and I whispered under my breath telling her to suck my dick. She comes over and sticks her head as close to mine and yells, WHAT DID YOU SAY? I stood up and told her I didn't say Sh*t, and she gets close to me and repeats herself and I said, Lady back off me and she gets closer and I say it again and she gets closer still so I push her away from me and she comes at me and pushes me up against the wall with her hands in fists grabbing my shirt. I punched her in the face and she went down, she told me to go to the office and that she was going to call the police. I went to the door and turned back and the whole class stood up and started cheering for me and clapping and about half the class left with me to support me and say she put her hands on me first/I was defending myself. This time in my dream it was my actual high school. For some reason the office was in the library so I sat down with most of my friends and we went in one by one to tell the story, at this point I forced myself to wake up because I wanted to write this down so I guess that really means I am aware I am dreaming. I wrote it down and then copied it over to 3 of my online diaries and this site here.