memorable

[dreams were really vivid and clear, unfortunately I just remember episodes of it. It seems to me, that all the dreams were bound together]

Fragment 1

I'm on a hill. I have some kind of argument with a girl. I can't recall what we talked about. She was really pissed off.
I left her alone and took a motorcycle. I ride down the hill on the road. There are other people driving next to me. We gather speed. In my dream I recall that I've never drove such an engine. I got a bit anxious about it (but didn't realize that I was dreaming). I even didn't wear an helmet. I was driving with flip-flops. I gathered speed. There was this first turn. I steered in the right direction but my motorcycle moved really strange. It took me a while before I could drive perfectly.
So I drive down this hill, through my home-town and finally stop at a parking lot. I didn't want to drive anymore, cause I didn't want to crash.
So I walked the rest. In midway, there was a guy addressing to me suddenly:

- Could you help me please? I'm looking for [insert strange name you never heard of]
- I'm sorry, I don't know. I even doubt that this places exists.

Suddenly my brother came up and asked what's the matter. The guy asks him the same question. My brother knows the place exactly. He explains him where to go. I listen to his explanations and I suddenly know the place, but didn't know that it had even a name.

Fragment 2

I'm on my own birthday party. I arrive with some delay. My guests don't mind that at all. There are at least 50 people who came to my party. Everyone was really happy and cheerful. There were even people I haven't seen for ages, childhood-friends, some complete strangers. But I don't mind at all. I'm really happy that they are a lot of people.
We start a first party game. It is called "climb a tree". There are a few palms around, or more precisely trees that resembles palms. It hat a long trunk with no branches, but the trunk was perfectly vertical.
There, including me, 5 participants. After a brief countdown, we start. I'm the only one who succeeds to get of the ground. I don't slide down, I'm climbing the three like a squirrel or an monkey. It is really hard to explain how I did it. I had my arms and legs wrapped around it and moving them alternately up and down, made me climb that tree.
The people around me were really amazed. They took photos of me. I climb higher and higher, so that I'm finally at the top of the tree. I'm really happy. Suddenly my cell phone rings. I ignore it a moment, but it get's louder and louder. I finally pick it up.
On the other end there was a guy who I really despise. I've not seen him since high school. Apparently I had invited him to my birthday party. I was really pissed of about it. I try to be as cheerful as I was before.

- I can't make it to the party, he says, I really wanted to, but I can't. I'm sorry.

- Ohh, that's nothing, there are a lot of other parties to come.

I quickly hang up

Fragment 3

I'm still on this party. A few childhood friends are talking with me about another friend who couldn't come to the party

Fragment 4

A last game of my party: Travelling. The first duo who manages to go at a place, wins. I run around with my best friend. We go through a lot of streets. the places seem familiar, but really strange. It looked like every street existed in an other city. A mixed place with a lot of different features.
My friends has the idea to borrow those free bikes you can lend in some cities. I don't know how this free lending system works (cause I've never used it before. He explains me and shows me exactly how.
So we ride those bikes. But I have an issue with the steering. It falls apart and I have to fix it. It takes a whle. As I look up, my friend had disappeared. I drove further to find him back. But it's difficult. I remember that he had an white blue stripped shirt on.
I saw alot of people together. Some of them are wearing the same shirt. It seems like I was looking for Waldo.
I couldn't find him and shouted his name. The people laughed. They all started shouting the same name to confuse me.

[end]

[Half lucid dream in 3-4 episodes. First episode: monster attack. Second episode: Ex-girlfriend- attack. Third and Fourth episode: A pimp attacking my car and war-games turned bad ]

1. I'm walking through a mall. A lot of people are around. They are walking in every direction talking to other people etc. A typical day at the mall. I want to go to a cinema, which apparently is in the mall, although the place seems to be in one way very familiar, but in another very bizarre and strange. The place is mixed, it has features of at least three other places I know in real life: my favorite mall, my favorite cinema and the main railway station in my town.
I'm tired from walking and I take a rest before a public toilette. The place is strange, the roof is tilted, it looks like I'm standing on a hill. I sit down and there is this guy. He looks like stoner. He starts to talk to me:

- Hey you! How's it going.
- I don't know, I'm lost in this place.
- Aren't we all lost sometimes?

He giggles.

- No, you don't understand, I'm looking for the cinema. I want to watch ...
- The New Alien film?, he finished my sentence. Ah man, you know, those films are really special?. sometimes a bit awkward, but rather fun. Isn't it?
- True my pal, I said, especially this one scene where ...

Our conversation get's interrupted. People are screaming, running away. They shout repeatedly "He's back, he's back! ". I stand up and see that the mall is attacked by a gigantic monster. It's running through the lanes, it looks like a scorpion, a lion, a boar and a snake mixed together . Something hideous like that I've never seen in my whole life. It's black-green-ish and has sparkling red eyes. People run away from it but it devours one person after another.
Strangely enough I'm not that feared by the sight of the monster. I had a simple but clever idea to stop this mess as I realized that this might be a dream:
I closed my eyes. After all, when I can't see the monster, it isn't there and can't see me.

2. I open my eyes back again. I'm still in this mall. But this time, I'm in front of the cinema. I feel relieved that I saw a few friends of mine. We walked to the cashier. But the place is really crowed. I have to push the people aside. As i walk through the crowds I see HER. I'm really shocked about it, cause I didn't want to see HER. SHE is my ex-girlfriend, I haven't talked to since 3 months and haven't seen her since our break-up. I'm really irritated. Should I talk to HER or should I simply ignore HER? I recalled a conversation from last weekend that I had with my best friend. I said that I'm not angry anymore and that I'm totally cool about it, so cool, that I could survive such an awkward moment. I also recalled that I resisted every attempt from HER to get me back. But than I recalled that I haven't seen HER in waking life, but only in my dreams. So I feel really confident about it and start talking to her.

- Hey M. Hey M. !
She was looking away.
Some one else said HER name and pointed towards my direction. She turns around.

- Oh, hey, what ...? [SHE seemed surprised]
- Hey it's me! I want to talk to you!

She excuses herself and walks towards me. We go to a place with fewer peoples around and where there is less noise.

I see that SHE has lost enormously weight. SHE has a fine silhouette in waking life, but it seems that SHE only weighted half. Her arms were thin, her legs too, she looked really fragile.

- OMG, I said, what happened to you? You've lost so much weight!

I grabbed her arms. They were so thin that her too arms would have fitted in one of my hands.

- I know, SHE says, I did. People say that I'm a mess ever since I dumped you.
- You're lying and you know it, I say. You aren't really her, I'm just imaging you around. It's a dream. You aren't real.
- I'm not the problem, She answers, you don't let me go. This is your imagination world, not mine. Just simply let me go.
- But I did it!, I protest, I haven't see you around like ages. The memories about you are fading.
- But they come back, or don't they?, she rappels to my mind. You aren't over me for 100 percent.
- How could I?, I replied again.
I feel that I'm loosing the battle. I just want to dump her in my dream for the fifth time. To this day I resisted her attempts, or better said: I resisted to my deepest feelings in my subconscious. But this time it's really hard.
- Don't you remember all the promises I made? I told you that I would never let you go and you answered me that you would ever stand by my side. but you didn't!

My perspective changes to third person. I see how we are talking and talking. I can't hear what we are talking anymore. My view starts to fly, I see the talk from above. And suddenly one sentences got to my ears. "Take me back, it was my fault." It was the voice of HER. I've heard this sentences in nearly all my dreams, where she comes around . Instead of SHE kissing me and I getting upset and saying to her all the bad things she did to me, I kiss HER. I feel really guilty from my third perspective. I feel the kiss, it was cold, it didn't seem right. My other self and SHE went along together, I felt bad, so bad that I had the desire to throw up at both of them. BUT instead I disappeared through the ceiling.

[The next section contents sex, violence and bad language]


3 - 4.[SIZE=4] I'm driving a car through the night. I'm on the car park of the mall. I'm really upset about a thing I can't recall. a friend of mine sits on the passenger seat.

- Yo Yossarian, he said, don't drive that fast!
- Go fuck yourself, I say.

We are exiting the car park. I turn left to the exit lane. There is a traffic light where none should be. I brake and wait that it get's green. But it doesn't. The waiting is unbearable to me and I light a cigarette.

- Those bastards are going to kill me someday.

I open the window to my right. My friend starts coughing.
Suddenly two prostitutes run towards us.
- Oh shit!, my friend screams. Close the window, they are mistaking us for some clients. Drive backwards!

That's what I do. I drive backwards away from them. They seem really disappointed. Suddenly their pimp jumps up through a bush and starts demolishing the car with a baseball-bat.

- Oh noes, my friend laughs, Pimp-attack!
- that's not funny, the car was expensive

I don't remember what happens next but suddenly I'm in a room with a handful of soldiers

- My pals, the general said, today is victory day! As you know, we are going to win the annual war-games. This is the plan from today. You should ...

I don't listened to his talking. All I can think about is when was the last time I got laid. And the creepy man standing in the corner of the room. He's bold has bad teeth, a beard and has crazy eyes. He's smiling. It's like he can read my filthily thoughts. I shake my head.

- Everything clear now?, the general says.
- Yes sir, the group answers.

We go outside, But I and a captain go to another direction.
- Hey private, he says, we are launching our sneak attack!
- So it is, I lied.
I don't know what he was talking about. The scenery changes. We are in a bunker.
- I'll take a piss, I say and go to the restroom.

After doing my duty, I washed my hands. My teeth start aching suddenly and i open my mouth and look into the mirror. I see that my teeth are in bad shape, one molar has a hole, another vanishes before my eyes. I spit three molars out. I'm not happy about that. I talk a paper towel to press it against my molars. I want to gout of the room, but the creepy man from before jumps out of nowhere and says:

- That's my towel.

And he takes it from me and vanishes again. Perplexed I go out with a fresh towel.

In the bunker again, the captain is to be found nowhere. The outside door opens and he comes back in. He has a black eye.

- What happened?, I asked bluffed.
- I had a fight with a filthily girl.
-Why? What did you do?
- I tried to rape her.
- You did what?
- You heard right. But she didn't want to.
- Does that even amazes you?
- Yes, I always get what I want.
- Are you nuts or something?, I objected. If you wanted sex, go check a prostitute, they are everywhere.
- But I wanted her.
- Did you never try to talk to girls first? That's the way I do it: you talk, you befriend and than you fuck.
- That's too complicated. I wanted her now!

I shake my head. What a bastard, I think. I go outside to look after her.

She has a wound on her neck, some scratches too. I help her and make her a bandage. She is very delighted of it. She looks nice.

- I heard you are filthy, is this true?, I asked her.
I can't believe that this is true.
- Yes, you're right. I'm a filthy whore. Everyone can have me, do dirty things and so on. Except the captain, he is a bastard. He doesn't know how to talk to a girl.
- Yes I know. By the way, I'm going to say something but please don't be upset. It's just a proposition, you can accept it or refute it. No bad tricks.
- Ok, she said, go on.
- Do you want to have sex with me? I'm feeling horny now.
- Why not, she said, that's the only thing good that will happen today.
- I bet it will be.

And so we started and the dream finally faded