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    1. Nightmares diner inception FA

      by , 03-31-2019 at 08:53 PM
      I decided to nap. Will clarify if I... Everything felt real .

      Saw a pyramid moving in the air rotating. Gain awareness control movements and wake up.

      Find myself in an old house there's an old dude there with 3 laptops. I check them out. One has broken keyboard. One is new. He says watch out for your mom outside. It's a bad area. I go outside. I see bad kids going in the car I tell her to get out . She's held hostage. There's an afro kid but white skin with knife. Can't do much. Stabbed in neck to my left. I die. I feel my death.

      Black women singing in snow about how knowledge is important. I am laying on backyard lawn that's rising up 45 degrees from the house. I lay in thin layer of snow.. I think about knowledge is important but you need more than knowledge. Wake

      I am in a diner. The kind that's similar to one you see in pulp fiction at start. It's not a diner but a safe house. There are a bunch of people there. I go around and head out. There is a girl in black clothing she stands out. A girl in hoodie wants to be my friend. We walk towards her home and she wants to get my phone so we can play. Phone out info shared. Heading back i get into trouble. Girl with sword tells me to not leave diner. May have gotten into a dangerous situation here.

      Somehow ended up back in diner. I'm exploring and a bunch of guys are digging out the flooring. The inside of the floor has a basement filled with huge salami or spam. They want to remodel. I ask why not eat it?I leave the diner. I end up eating some of it.

      I see a girl who tells me to follow her. I do for a bit. She takes me to a place... Prostitution. I start walking away. Her hand grabs me and it tingles. I run away. I see a fat girl with a sword chasing me. I run harder. I grab long pieces of wood to deflect the attacks. Run deflect run. I find a door to the diner but it's not the safe part of it, it's empty.. The safe house is in the middle where the people were. I had into a door,it's not safe yet, no ones there. I see two more doors, large and small. I enter the small one because I think other one is locked. It's a janitor storage closet. There's a short knife there, with leather straps all pretty cool looking. I grab it. I saw legs of that girl trying to come from under the door and I stab them. I jump up the top of the door. Stab Stab stab. Run into the safe house.

      I wake up and I am in a dormitory, I find two kids with black hair there and talk about my nightmare. Not getting through kind of. Scared.. I think I wake up again I know I'm dreaming by now. I'm in a bedroom and I try to get up again. Still in a different bedroom. I hear sounds outside of this dream. I know that I can wake up, but do I want to wake up? Am I stuck in this dream? Do I want to keep exploring? I wake up and still am dreaming. I felt some urge to pee. Should I continue?

      I gravity rc. Still there but maybe could tell something was off. I tell myself "is gravity normal? Otherwise wake up." snap fingers and slowly

      I wake up

      These dreams.... I ran away from home. That person. That person made me do dirty things. That person used me for money. That person said "love u". .. I was a fool. Said would kill me, called the cops. Got myself out.

      Can I be clean?do I deserve love?

      I accept myself then, for being a fool. I am ready .Next time I'll succeed. Next time I'll be aware. I'll move through the pain. Next time I'll be like a tornado, unstoppable.

      Thank you my inner self, for trying to protect me. You were that girl in black probably.

      Maybe it was all of you, you made me lucid didn't you? Thank you.

      The light huh... Shining upon my darkness.

      I'll keep going though. I'm tired of giving up.

      My goal is set, it only hurts momentarily. If I must face it for lucidity and better me then so be it.

      Thank you

      Always lucid dreams

      Updated 03-31-2019 at 09:06 PM by 96162

    2. Giving up

      by , 03-31-2019 at 02:18 PM
      "The temptation to give up is the strongest right before you succeed"

      I know I must be doing it right then. Just like last time I wanted to give up.

      Bearing my heart open now and it pains me. The pain is so great. Especially when you truly want something. When you truly put all your heart into it. Even more so with what appears so elusive.

      Many will give up from this pain. Many will give up their true desires, whatever their dreams may be. But this pain of growth is only temporary. But the pain of regret would last forever. Whatever the spiritual beliefs, if the soul be immortal, perhaps the regret makes you come back... To the cycle of reincarnation, knowing very well that the physical entails with its many innate flaws.

      Nevertheless the pain is real. To be truly lucid, and fully aware of it all, makes it all the greater. To keep the eyes peeled when you must face that monster, and stare at it right in the eyes.

      That monster is me. Of all my regrets and all the times previous I have given in to that pain. And that monster will grow yet still, if I give in again.

      The monster is not so scary after all. It is just lonely, it wants to be loved, and play with you after all. An angel, a blessing in disguise .

      I give up. I give up on giving up. I'm tired of failing. So instead I'll just succeed. Because I'm even more tired of giving up.

      Success is neigh because the temptation has never been greater.

      I give up looking the other way.

      Practice. Practice. Keep practicing. Before b you know, it you're already there.

      Shadow work. Do it everyday.

      1 dream, Chinese people modded d3 game. Barbarian. Low to high res.

      Catching my fingers in slightly different position in bed, being too aware and awoke.

      Should I stop coming to DV? Seeing people giving up was negatively affecting me.

      Should I stop gravity rc? I said 14 days so I should follow up. Is it worth the stress? Next time I catch myself focusing on body part when something weird happens I'll focus on gravity. That will keep me away from focusing too much on body.

      Hahh.. Just told myself this.

      MILD. Do more mild.

      It snowed last night, but winter will soon end.
      Might snow one more time. It rained before that so I couldn't mediate outside. Need to take vitamin d or find a way to get more sun. That affects my mood.

      Summer is coming.

      Just learned how to edit DJ! This is great!

      Be more aware instead of focusing. Focusing too much wakes .Just be aware.. Like aware of gravity, breath or thought

      Lucid dream all the time!

      Updated 03-31-2019 at 04:04 PM by 96162

    3. Determination! 2 missed chance

      by , 03-30-2019 at 11:40 PM
      Had trouble dreaming, many HI. Just went ahead to get more sleep and had 1 very short dream and failed ap thing. Still rem depraved I think.

      Went to sleep
      Awake and immediately did GRC

      Short dream:
      It was Movemver, bunch of guys on a long cafeteria table were comparing their beards and mustaches. All sorts of mustaches and beards. I take a look and walk around. I crash into a camera. Finds Joey from vat19 they were filming and ask me if I'm ok, camera lights are hot.


      Wake, Get buzzing, I focus on it, it gets pretty loud, see if I can get out of body. Failed. Arms and body numb but I can move easily. Perhaps too excited. Neck was tense, could be related.

      Key notes :

      So it's good progress. I did rc as I woke up, felt my body touching the bed. That means the rc is setting in. Had I been in rem state it would be a Ld!

      My theory regarding grc and meditation causing rem depravation may be correct. It may make you too aware for rem initially.

      Failed ap may be due to body tension, will relax and soften today. So close!

      MILD. I did mild and shadow work yesterday but I know I did not do it 100 too effectively. But today I did it well and am excited.

      No Ld but were very close considering how little rem I had. Should I ease on grc before and on bed so I get more rem? Would def be easier if I had more dreams.

      Could it be mental exhaustion from doing grc? Increased sws duration to adapt or something.

      Always improving super oneironaut.
    4. Shapeshift Russia, Mattress apartment, FA failed RC little Lucid

      by , 03-30-2019 at 03:25 AM
      A little sleep deprived I think, perhaps could have had more dreams. 2 dreams, first one was long, perhaps even separated by microawakenings, may have FA. Second is shorter, but had awareness, failed RC.

      Dream 1- Shape-shifting Immortal (FA)
      I receive a backstory from the dream(should become more aware of any backstories). My appearance varied and changed with the shift of time, elusive as the shadow, yet leaving footsteps in legends and lores through passage of time. I am an immortal being looking for her father, appearance of late teens, dark hair with blue sheen(changes through the dream), attractive with the innocent brilliant sheen in her eyes dark blue more beautiful than any sapphire.

      I am strolling in an outdoor environment that I perceived as somewhere between the slums and the country side of motherland Russia, somewhat empty, cold and bleak-white grey colored streets. I had ended up here somehow, but I need to get back! I need to go back to Japan! But how am I to get back? I could speak no Russian.

      There were some people walking by, and I knew that some of them would likely be able to help me get to an airport.

      So I asked around, "Does anyone speak english?" in moderate volume, loud enough for a close enough vicinity to hear, but would not disturb anyone.

      May have been a bad idea, I may have been approaching the slum territory, and what if I get into trouble now? But I kept going around, asking.

      "Hello" said a male voice.

      It was a trio of late teen or early tween men. One was more stoutly built, and quite tall with short blonde hair and while his face reminiscent of a young Putin, although stockier. One was slightly shorter than him with short black hair, thin with average build, somewhat arabian/european face. Thired one was a younger looking, pink hair (lol) short and cute looking.

      At initial glance I thought they were trouble but they were okay. We talk a little and they asked my help to infiltrate the base of a local gang-ish thing and I agreed for some reason. Perhaps they told me they'd helped me get back. Or maybe I wanted to help improve the living standards of ppl here or something.

      So as we were discussing the plan on how we would proceed, I feel a presence watching me... from where? Above! I see a device resembling an eye and use my mind's eye to look through it, and trace it back to its owner. An evil sorcerer. I see through his eyes and read all of his thoughts.

      He was a very aged old man, living past normal human years with the use of his dark magical arts, his skin wrinked and saggy while his cheeks drooped down past his chin. He wore a dark red robe/ cloak that hid his head and most of his body. He was the one running the gang from the shadows. Then he sensed that he was being watched. But from where? He could find no one in his dimly lit, dark-red lair with only faintest glow.

      "Has someone hijacked my mechanical eyes?!" He thought.

      They were as described, eye shaped devices, made with mechanical parts. It was shaped like an eyepiece of a microscope, a lens in the middle, which resembled an eye, and cone-shaped bronze colored metal tubing around lenses, which allowed him to conduct his mana and control the eyes. He would control one piece, which would feed a immediate visual feedback to himself, with the additional lenses helping to redirect and magnify the vision across long distance throughout the city. Like the all-seeing eye, he oversaw the whole city.

      He went through each eye, floating up in the air for any mana signature that he could trace back to the direction of the spy, yet he found none. He reached the final lens, overlooking the park with a small lake. There was a young woman with pink hair that the eye was looking at, who was casually conversing with the 3 men around her. What? Could that be the one who is responsible? But how!? Mana can only be harnessed with the use of an alchemical device. It must be a mistake. It must... To maintain his sanity, he dismissed the idea.

      (I had pink hair so I could pose as pinky's sister)

      Our group entered the gang's secret base. Apparently Pinky (the pink hair I'll use this as his nickname), was the one selected as the prime candidate as a recruit or something similar. So we decided that I would disguise myself as pinky. I morphed myself and became as replica of his visage. We took a few moments to practice his personal habits and intricate tenancies before proceeding. He had a habit of pushing out his lower jaw way forward and making a funny face whenever he spoke, so we practiced that.

      So 3 of us without pinky, entered the main layer of the gang's base.

      I was tired after the meeting and fall asleep, within the dream.

      I wake up in a bed, a bedroom that's used by the gang members. I felt tired. I watched a video on a tablet and didn't feel like doing much. I speak with the trio and as we are watching tv, I am beginning to recall some events. My awareness shift from my dream body into my visual recall.

      I had likely defeated the bosses of the group, while the sorcerer escaped. There had been an entity that oversaw the sorcerer whom I had to deal with.

      Back to the moment. I shift my being into an unfamiliar visage. A lion-like manbeast, with some unique abilities. Awareness going back to the visual memory.

      I was facing the three-headed beast, a being that had 3 heads. It had a beast-kin like body with strong musculature, slightly yellow fur and claws like the lion. The face to the left was the manbeast from earlier, the one in the middle was a beautiful lady with dark hair, in a ponytail, the third to the right... I can't recall

      I distract them with a small shockwave, then I morphed into the form of the manbeast, and I sucked the soul and ability of the manbeast of the three headed beast through my hand. The head and a part of its body disappeared, his abilities were now forever mine. I had changed and absorbed the one to the middle as well. Now there was only one left. He did not have any spectacular features that I can remember. I think I spared him. He will now serve me, he was kind of bullied by the other 2 so he didn't really mind. I now rule this area from its shadows! I shall transform it into a better place.

      Back to exhausted me, watching TV. A very hideous human sized fly creature was yapping on the news. It had random gloubles of black baseball-sized balls that grew from its face that somewhat resembled caviar, it grew about every 5-10 inches intervals. It's face was about the 3 times the size of the human face. I was exhausted. Too tired to do anything. Exhausted in waking life so exhausted in dream. And this thing was so gross! I think it had sensed my mana signature from my fight earlier, and openly challenged me on TV.

      No I didn't feel like it. Let's go to sleep, yes I'm really tired. I sent the trio to deal with him.

      Wake up.

      Could represent gaining powers, dream powers. Learning, absorbing.
      **Edit*Feeling lost initially is trauma. Got lost in situation like described below. Mom didn't pick me up from school on first day she was very late. I decided to go home myself maybe find her on the way or something. Ended walking 10km in opposite direction. Got dark. Cried and a construction worker who was black called the cops for me. Eventually got home.. But still even the police didn't speak the same language.. Was scared. Was pretty late when I got home. I needed rest. Wish I could have stayed home next day to calm down. Many being lost dreams likely stems from this very event. That feeling of wanting to go back to Japan.

      Dream 2 mattress apartment failed RC

      So I was in a house, somewhat similar to home. We (mom dad me), decided to go on kind of business trip to England or something similar. We end up staying at an apartment. What stood out the most was that the kitchen in the apartment was identical to the neighbhour's kitchen. Almost identical. We proceed to the living room and find two mattresses there, without sheets. In the end I am in the living room with one of the mattresses. I am just walking around the room and I kind of have this urge to pee. While walking I gain some awareness and tries an RC, I try to poke my hand through with my finger. Yet it fails. Disappointed I walk towards the bathroom. Did I pee myself? I check. O god maybe a little. As I head towards the bathroom. I see the bathtub filled with water. Should I let it out? No. (maybe a FA, during the latest part of this)

      I wake up. No I was totally fine lol. I go pee after jotting down both dream key events.

      +++So what's key is that I randomly got the awareness during this dream. I think this may be from GRAVITY RC. I found that during my practice, I could feel the gravity the most when I was walking. I do still have many parts I need to work on but this is great! At first I didn't notice it was I think it was a split-second of gravity RC that induced the awareness for me to RC. I may require a bit more time to forget the hands RC.

      Bad Memories
      So the part about mattress and the living room raises some deepset feelings that I needed to release from within me. As I recalled the dream throughout the day, I realized I uncovered something that I forgot about.

      I was starting my exercise and I just cried a little while recalling forgotten stuff.

      I was little. I had moved recently. It was a different country. We moved into a crappy apartment. One bedroom. While my parents stayed in the bedroom. I stayed in the living room, with a piece of mattress. It was uncomfortable. It was noisy. It had a hamster that we got from a friend that made noises every few moments. It had the annoying buzzing sounds of electronics plugged into the wall. I did not sleep well. Stayed here for half a year or a year.

      Maybe I'm being a drama queen if you think that's not bad. But it wasn't the only thing... There was just too many things piled together that drove me to the wall. I had to relearn a language, my parents spoke their mother tongue, instead of the language I was comfortable with, and kids at school spoke english. Just great. My father enjoyed belittling me with his mother tongue. And who do I talk to for emotional support... No one spoke the same language. Not one person. I was alone. All alone. Not a single person I could speak to, confide to, cry to, laugh with...

      Alone at school, I was expected to somehow know which class to go to... What to do. I had this shitty kid who was suppose to help me with things... they thought that since he spoke the mother tongue he could help me... no he was useless, thought I was nuts. Lunch time sucked too... My mother had bought the cheapest most convinient thing she could find. It was these mini-pizzas that were a dollar for a bundle of 4 or 8. It had a paper thin bits of cheese with maybe some pepperoni. Tomato taste without a hint of basil or any herbs. It was microwaved, then thrown into a plastic bag. Soggy and sour by the time it was lunch. I ate it, threw away some sometimes. Never complained, I never complained about anything. I atleast, wanted comfort in food. I don't think a dog would eat it unless it was on the verge of death.

      I just experienced the feelings a little. I just wanted love.. at that time. Something to enjoy at that time. Video game to escape the reality. But atleast video game kept me sane at that time, likely. Will you release me now? Is it done... or more? Later that day I talked about this event and little more to my parents when I had the chance. Torrents of waterfall. I told them that I blamed no one, but that I really needed to let it out.

      Well maybe if any kids read this u oughta let your parents know your feelings. Or maybe you're a parent, I know you got it tough, kids waking you up middle of the night , gotta take em to school, make em food, and you barely get any rest. But remember do tell them you love em. Maybe they aren't nearby you... well why don't you give em a call... tell em you love them.

      I ended my physical exercise I started earlier. Went to my meditation.

      During my meditation I tried an experiment and sent energy from my heart like I read the QT2 book, just to see what would happen. One of the squirrels just stopped and looked my way, for a while. Got distracted and he left. I noticed before that if I can read a certain state during meditation, squirrels would just come by and stand near me.

      I felt a thorn in my heart, as I accessed my heart chakra area though... still had blockages. I tried to feel love. But I felt pain. I... can I be loved? Please love me I prayed... I raised my arms in the air, I prayed, to the sun, to the sky, to the world, to the universe, to all the other dimensional beings, loving, living or non living. I send you what love I have... Please send me your love. Show me.

      Love like the sunlight, always constant, always in the morning
      Let mine heart be opened and let me accept love, inside and out
      Let mine heart shine with the love of infinite suns, light everlasting
      Lit the shadow of ignorance, guide me with might, insight

      Sun is not enough, much like scorched earth, desert
      Ocean of emotions, when it rise and clouds my mind,
      Let tears flow and ease the pain
      Like the sorched earth without rain

      I parted my hands to my side, and slowly brought them back to the stomach. I felt something. my heart chakra felt opened. The thorns surrounding it, are they gone? I send message of love to infinity. Please reply, show me the love infinity.
      Back to meditation. Back to Gravity RC.

      Remember to do Gravity RC.

      Gravity RC notes
      I noticed that it was easiest to practice gravity RC when I was walking. And the tiny moment of lucidity was when I was walking. Das is gut.

      Walking and standing is easiest, because of the movement and shift in the gravity.

      Need most work when using computer or using the phone. Any activity which is mentally active, but physically pretty inactive, is a little challenging. Improve that.

      So gravity RC is working that's great! 3 days in a row of lucid events! YES! Daily lucidity into always lucidity.

      But don't forget to do gravity RC. Do it right now.

      I feel great Daily into every super lucid dreams

      Updated 03-31-2019 at 02:53 PM by 96162

    5. Highschool, Black teen, College, Pills

      by , 03-29-2019 at 01:09 AM
      I had 4 dreams I think today. Thought they weren't special but upon closer inspection, as always, it revealed some deep insights that helped me alot. Perhaps tiny lucid moment.

      Dream 1- highschool food

      First dream took place in the highschool I went to. So I was in the school cafeteria in at the food stall, it was a small partitioned room that was connected to the cafeteria which was basically a large gym, cleared out with some tables. As I check through the foods on sale, I find some duck! They were selling whole duck, roasted yellow, nice and fat and good. It was way over priced though, and other foodstuffs being sold wasn't very interesting. I decided to leave the shop and just forget about lunch. While leaving, one of the boy working there, nice young boy, brownish hair, very cute, is grabbing a roasted duck by the legs, handing it to me. I'm like hey, maybe he got the wrong person to hand the duck to but. DUCK! So I grab the duck and take it elsewhere to eat. I end up in the hallway where I find some highschool friends, they also had duck XD. So one friend begins carving the duck for all to share after I handed him mine. There was a foodtall beside the lunchtable and chair that we were sitting to the right. I wanted some rice to I check out the foodstall. Fried rice, italian rice, etc.. and Rice! Decide to not get it. 5.99 for a tiny bowl of white rice so I'm like no. We share the duck.

      I head back to the original cafeteria food place, and browse through the food again. 24 bucks for chicken, 35 for duck. I'm like costoco's 9 bucks! Haha. But something good did catch my eye. I find a piece of very nicely marbled beef, thing but you could tell it was good quality. Not the best, but it was good. I think it was like 25-40 bucks, so I decide to go for it. Before I buy it, I ask if there's parasite in it, can I eat it raw. The guy at the counter say something like "dunno probably, I'm not sure if that's a good idea". A friend, who also works there now assures him "Don't worry, ZenLD's a badass" lol. I try a sampler for the beef, man it's good! It's like aged nicely, slightly smoked maybe, had a slight saltiness and flavor that is reminiscent of smoked salmon, but gentler. The marbled fat melted in my mouth as I savored slight resistance from the smooth muscles it in a moment of pure flavor ecstacy that felt so real. There's a blonde boy there. He's kinda eyeing my beef. So I tear off a piece and feeds him. He's like "Wow that's so good!" Yes totally good. I decide to leave and I awaken.

      Dream 2- Black teen getting a job

      So I was this black teenage boy. Late into the teens, pretty tall, lean musculature - strong but not bulky kind of physique. Pretty attractive I suppose. I was in a mall, not sure what I was doing there, but I find this stall with 3 older black women, two middle aged, one older. They were recruiting people for charity or some kind of relief or cause. They tell me to join, cuz the pay's really good. They pay me immediately, and I start working already. Totally peer pressured. I think they paid me maybe 60k on the spot. Yes, this organization appears to be kind of a sham organization, more info later. The oldest of the women tells me to make sure to pay your taxes, 30%.

      We head outside and begin walking. Walking on a summer day. Walking towards our first workplace, it also will serve as a inn too. As we were walking I began to converse wit the previous old lady, forget what though. Oh yes, the convo was interrupted by a young black lady, mid to late twenties, she's attractive, but has an omnious vibe about her, she's also the boss of the organization. Kind of develop a relationship with her I think. After a pretty long walk, we find ourselves inside a building. We were on the first floor, it had some gym equipments and things to help keep the employees fit and happy and things. I find 3 middle eastern teens or tweens, who are trying to one-up eachother with some moves- it's like calistenics or dance or I duno what you call it. So I try it. Being a fit teen I do some awesome moves and the 3 of them are like "awesome" and tries to imitate my move. They fail horribly though XD. I take off my clothes to change them, getting hooted by some women while doing so. I head towards where I'd stay, heading outside via the gym entrance. There's a lady there, real stout and tough looking. She's obviously on steroids, with muscles on top of muscles. Body fat of maybe like 1%, probably less. She immediately takes a disliking of me and talks down on me. I don't feel like starting trouble already so I let her go. Shouts "Stop doing steroids" twice to her as she leaves. She twitches a bit.

      We're in a restaurant now I think, not too clear, but most likely an employee dinner kind of thing. One guy had a real uptight persona, reminded me of the buff lady prior, yeah he's the son of the buff lady. The old lady, from the start, puts a stop to him. Peaceful for a while.

      Now in a mall again. Prepping a stall to recruit more people. I meet the young woman again.

      Before I can talk to her, the old lady begins to warn me "don't get invovlved with her"

      Apparently we were dating or something. Turns out, the organization was a money-laundering sham. The woman was looking for someone to use as a scapegoat incase she was caught. Despite that I stayed there instead of leaving.

      She says "Aren't you gonna leave me?"

      I say "No... Because you'd be lonely."

      The old lady, and her 2 friends begin crying. I begin crying as well. The tears we shed was black and tarry, like letting go of some emotional pain. The young woman walks away. I wake up, with tears.

      Did she... cry too?

      Dream 3 - College, geezer
      I was attending a college lecture, university is probably a better word. It took place in a very large gymnasium style building, white floors with desks for students to sit in. There were about 500 to a 1000 students listening to the lecture. I was sitting way to the right. Behind me were couple of acquaintances, dream acquaintances. 2 notable figures among the 5 people. One was a old european looking old man with white hair, he had many a wrinkles on his forehead. We called him geezer. The other was a man in his mid thirties, brown hair, long face, with very spiky hair. We called him long face, or long spike.

      We get into some flashbacks about the pasts of these 2. It took place in a fantasy setting. Geezer was an warrior who'd lost one of his arm during the previous war or an expedition, and Long face, was one of his comrade in the same party. Geezer's retired now, so's probably long face. They were all trying to learn something form this establishment. Just visions of stuff they did playing over.

      Geezer and the others tell me, "the future's up to you."

      I ask "how? I'm not great and admirable like you, Geezer or Long face. Look at how amazing you are, how can I do anything about the future where, both you and Long face both failed?"

      He says "You can do it, believe in yourself" (maybe said you're real smart, you'll figure it out or something)

      I get all emotional and start crying. Wake up in tears.

      Dream 4 - False awakening, Pills

      I'm waking up in a small bedroom, different from where I sleep. I have that I just woke up now don't feel like it kind of feeling. Could have applied gravity RC here. I remember I gotta take my daily supplements for better brain and body. I look for the pills, knock them over with my feet. Looks kind of different, but takes it anyways. I see a mirror and look at myself. Nice butt. And I start having this orgasmic sensation. I think oh no I forgot! Usually this feeling wakes me up so, I wake up, continue getting the sensation and then wake up again.


      Dream1. Highschool food prices being way too high bled over from memories back then. They were selling only junkfood at ridiculous prices. Store bought fries, refried, resold at ridiculous margins. 5 dollars for a little bit of fries. Wouldn't surprise me if they charged 10 nowadays.The place was ran by a middle aged lady with an ugly expression. Strong romanian nose and accent. Did not enjoy the food there. Kids should be fed better food. I recall during that time I watched a tv report about how delinquent kids were all sent to an experimental school. were fed nice nutritional diet for lunch and they were all transformed into exemplary students. But here it was just greed and laziness. Foods so stale that made mc'donalds taste fresh as sunshine. The establishment was just like a jail, little sun inside, very dungeon like with halls that looked identical and functioned exactly like a maze. I'm not sure who they'd bribed to get the reputation of being the top school in the area, that offered a special program for gifted children. Though I was not in the program, I was in a gifted program in a previous school but never told my parents about it. I just really didn't feel like doing the extra work haha. With many uninspired teachers, with dead-fish eyes staring at you, as if trying to leech your youth through their their eyes.

      Part of me held, a strong hatred for this place I think and I released it after I woke up. And things weren't all bad. We'd walk a mile two away to order fries from a family ran joint, fat fries, home made, nicely spiced. Cheese curds were placed on top, then lathered with hot gravy that melted these them and infusing them together into cheesy goodness. A friend had recommended the place to me and his style was to top the whole thing with black pepper until it was covered in the magnificent black dust of it. Sinuses flushed as waterfall from the nose of the fools who dared to try this foolish yet amazing delicacy.
      PEPPERCORN! From dream last night.

      It was probably important to release those emotions because, in

      Dream 3, I was attending a university lecture. And this is a big one, because none of my previous dreams took place in college. This could signify a kind of growth, or that I let go of something and could progress further emotionally, or dream realm wise. I'm growing and learning. Getting better at lucid dreaming. Dream characters telling me I can do it so I'm gonna do it!

      Dream2. Most likely signifies a relationship. Was in an abusive relationship I think. I still loved the person even though they were horrible. Not a fool though, I immediately cut off all ties once I had enough. But a subconscious part of me perhaps still held that. Tried to remember the times, let go of it. Could be totally unrelated though XD. Crappy experience in a crappy big city.

      Dream 4. I think this is big. At first I didn't notice anything and was disappointed in myself for not getting Lucid, I realized more was going on. First the Mirror. I always, always become lucid in every dream with a mirror, perhaps not immediately in one dream, but 100%. And also the orgasmic sensation, always makes me lucid as well and wakes me immediately after. These two indicates that I'm at the cusp of lucidity. In a way I might have been very teensy bit lucid. Just so small I didn't notice it myself at first. This means I''m getting Lucid. I'm stepping into daily lucidity! YES! MY FEET IS GETTING WET!

      More stuff I ought to write down and take notes but gotta go for now.
    6. What is norm

      by , 03-27-2019 at 07:54 PM
      So i don't think I had a dream today, had a tiny AP though.

      I was in my bed and felt that "feeling" when you know you can push yourself out. I got myself out, bedroom, things were clearer this time, no darkness. I rubbed my hands to stabilize or clear, but the experience ended soon.

      Things I shuld take note are:

      Yes it seems Ld experience every 2 days is the norm now, no doubt about it. Ld everyday is close... tomorrow! hehee, then every dream. Then focus will be on lengthening. Perhaps should begin that now.

      I might be rem depraved, probably will have extra dreams if I nap or next time I sleep.

      I shouldn't focus on stablization. Focusing so that might be a subconscious fear of things coming apart.

      My idea is to master the art of Teleportation. So I can leave this environment. Being in the bedroom might make you focus on your physical body and that gets you there.

      The teleport technique i been conceptualizing is to create a black hole, then transform that into a portal that people can walk in. I've previously tried teleporting by spinning but it doesn't work half the time and usually has side effects. Could also try closing eyes and visualizing.

      Lack of rem might be from gravity RC, it's making me really aware. It's working too well. I'm catching hypnogogic states immediately and getting too excited. RELAX MORE next time. Maybe not too much, need to find the perfect balance, like an acrobat on a rope. The rope being LD. I recall previous counts of people getting less recall from GRC initially--I believe this might be caused by this too much increase in awareness. Perhaps more SWS forced by the body from the workout.

      AND I got super advice from skipper regarding MILD. Now my MILD is unstoppable! I'll post what he said if I he says it's OK so that could help everyone who's working on mild. Shadow work!

      I'll add more in comments if I nap and dream or receive insights.

      Unstoppable like the force of nature yet rem depraved Lucid dreamin' Lucid dreamer
    7. black peppercorns, dungeon, boss

      by , 03-27-2019 at 01:11 AM
      Might not have enough time to write everything so I'll just write what I can and add to it later if I can. It's nice to type on the pc, it's way faster than on the phone

      So I had 2 dreams I think. First one wasn't very clear so I don't recall it too well. Second one I believe was split into 3 parts so it could be considered 3 dreams, seperated by micro awakenings or so?

      So about the dream.

      +++dream1 to 3ish++

      So I was selling something to a dealer/merchant/noble. No, not drugs. As I tried to recall it harder throughout the day I believe it was spices or something similar. Although I felt like it's completely random upon further thought, I recalled that yesterday I was quite interested in black peppercorns in my dram last night. Sounds a little far fetched but the dreams are getting linked together! Very cool, would love to have continuation in dreams much like Hukif's DJ if I can choose to do that.

      So After Selling the peppercorn, I made a fortune. The setting was in a middle age europe kind of setting. It was times when spices were super expensive and worth more than gold. So yeah. I was balling.

      So around here my memory may be a little foggy I remember the details but I'm a little uncertain which happened first.

      So what happend was either I hired a bunch of people as my underlings or I began to explore a dungeon that was in that city.

      So maybe underlings aren't the right word. I just hired a bunch of people, either that or more likely they just became my followers and we formed a kind of a mafia/yakuza entity that was pretty powerful or something. Ofc I was the DON No we were not a evil illegal entity or anything but just not a standard entity. Maybe closer to being the final boss kind of deal, but we were totally good guys, I swear.

      Anyways I was deciding on who would becoming my right hand man or woman. I had this lady who ended up being my right hand. She was worried though that someone else might replace her position eventually and that I wouldn't give her the love she receives from me as her boss if she wasn't the right hand. I think she did end up being replaced but I assured her that I loved her all the same - mind you not romantic love totally just love of caring about someone else yep.

      So yeah I think the building he had was a japanese style old fashioned, with doors that you could open by sliding in one direction, rather than western doors where you pull or push. And the furnishing were of similar style; no huge furnatures and stuff, just a few mats that you could sit on.

      So our mission was to clear this dungeon that presided in the city. I'm unsure how many floors it had. But our goal was to reach to the bottom. I believe the closest range of floors it had was between 50 to 100 floors.

      I think the goal, which was to get to a treasure probably, is just my goal of Super Lucid Dreaming. Getting to the bottom of it or the treasure is achieving the GOAL!

      So as we were clearing the dungeon, we were doing some stuff that wasn't suppose to happen. We just skipped a bunch of floors to jump 20+ floors at a time towards the end, didn't manage to reach the end in the dream though. So we were finding glitches in the matrix or exploits much like in a game to get to our goal faster. Yep. Totally ethical and fair. Dungeon walls were brownish if I recall, A little earthy but solid.I think it was me and my right hand (the lady) who led the expedition. We'd get the ancient relic and proceed to WORLD DOM- just kidding.

      I think maybe around this part I replace my right hand. Didn't want her to get hurt or something maybe. She's plenty strong and competent but don't want to get all emotional if something happens.

      The scene ends here I think.

      Replay scene. Selling stuff again. But this time I get a bad noble or something who tries to rip me off. He offered 1/4 of a cent per some unit of measurement for my goods. I get mad and flip everything off. I think ended up getting a good nobleman who sorted things out and punished the bad one. Now I am uncertain whether I went to a dining room to dine with him in the beginning of the dream or at the end, but when I met the good noble (I think he invited me for food, either at home or at office dining room), it was a maroon or dark red kind of dining room. Relatively small, without any extravagant furnishing but you could clearly tell that everything was of high quality. The tables and chairs were of similar dark maroon color that matched the room.

      The dream ends here probably+++

      So if I was to use my imagination to piece it all together. Last night I've released my emotional blocks, found black peppercorns. The black peppercorns (whatever it represented), helped me raise funds for my expedition. And my expedition was into a deep underground dungeon that where I would discover my treasure/goal - Super Lucid Dreaming.

      So I also practiced a little Gravity RC today, it was pretty awesome. I kept getting the urges to try it out so I did. I realized it came naturally to me and it was similar to a personal meditation method that I did year prior. Anyways the two connected and I had this strange moment when I went to pee in the bathroom. I just began to feel the gravitational force in everything around me, inside my organs, outside my body. Pretty interesting. Also trying a new breathing method. I'm stacking the two together. If I do one, I will try to do the other.
    8. Letting go of trash

      by , 03-26-2019 at 01:44 AM
      So I had one dream and an AP style thing. Bunch of other stuff to note as well i guess. I think the ap was caused from intention to help a fellow DVer with ap stuff.

      Earlier that day.

      I was indulging in earthly vice of online video game and had a video about dream yoga playing in the background.

      Somehow youtube went to a video regarding Quantum touch healing thing. Talking about need to release emotional pain etc. I found it interesting so I decided to read the book and tried a few Techniques.

      I slept for a while and woke up, maybe a few fragments.

      Woke up then slept diagonally and just stopped using pillows. I felt the urge to try out the quantum touch stuff. Felt pain in an old surgical scar. I proceeded to try out techniques. I remembered the video about the need to release the anger. So I did. I remembered all the crappy memories back then and decided to face all the emotions I held back.

      I had a teacher who was very... Spiteful and one dimensional who based a majority of our grade on notebook cleanliness. Mine was a mess. I never really needed those things. I just remembered everything. And my home life was a mess. Just like my notebook. I got 0 on each of notebook mark and was barely passing even though without that I'd have the highest grade in class.. She made us sign stuff from home that the parents would see the mark.

      My dad flipped. He always flipped. I was so much in pain. Told me to not come home unless I did better. I brought a knife from home at the crap apartment was preparing to off with it. I was caught. Yeah I had friends but no one to really talk about these kind of things with. It was the age of MSN messager and internet was banned. I ran away from home the following day. Was caught back home. That night I was hospitalized

      The stress made my appendix explode. I almost didn't seek help. Part of me wanted to die. A big part. Had a surgery. Botched surgery. Had to stay home (just moved to the house in the dream below, right during my hospitalization) with nurses coming daily to change the gauze that got stuck to the flesh and drain the infection. Nothing to do but watch TV without cable. Money making infomercials and kids shows. Lasted a few months. Went back to school. Stress from incompetent teacher. Wound reopened the same day and repeat above.
      ===memories end ==

      I cursed them all. I don't like being mad but I needed to release the energy. The scar I touched began to hurt. The nerves ran pain through my whole abdominal from the groin up to the chest right below the neck. Shooting sharp pains. Like needle being dug into flesh and pushed through in a vertical line. I honestly didnt even care about all this. About my memories. But if these memories are being replayed in background, they need to be gone, released, transformed. So I can make MILD or just intentions work without stuff blocking it. Yeah might sound overkill for LD fun but I think it's important for many other things too. Need to throw away garbage for a better self. Felt my body getting balanced. Muscles that wouldn't move properly before started to get better. Not prefect but better. I'll keep practicing then.

      Focused on MILD after that, didn't want to dream about angry stuff. Had trouble sleeping.

      +++Dream 1
      I had dreamt about a house I lived in while in high school in the suburbs. I was in the with couple of friends from back then. I went into the basement, there was a furnace. I let the furnace go out of control and it burned the house and everything around it. The heat was slow and heavy, like magma or radiation. I think this represented my letting go of energy stuck deep emotional sink earlier.

      And yes I ran away by myself. I said screw everyone else lol. I'm the opposite of that but it feels good to be bad sometimes

      Went to a plaza nearby. In the supermarket there were special black peppercorns. Duno why but I was very interested in the peppercorns. I saw friends and others escape from the fiery abyss as I excited the store. And continued to check out other places. I found a quaint little snack shack sort of. And my friend L was working there. She was a short cute little Asian girl if that matters. They sold peppercorns there too and it was half the price of the other store!

      I think i wake up now

      Stay awake for a while had trouble sleeping. Just focused on breath. Kind of meditation as I lay there. I realized I failed to LD today but. I thought forget about it. Took my own advice that I gave to a dv member about just rest and stuff regarding ap. I just thought I'd get good rest, no Ld or anything.

      When I woke up I had the familiar vibration sound. It's that sound that happens before dream and stuff. I focused on it. Made it stronger. Felt like I lost it so I tried again. The vib kind of waned; I thought I failed but remembered to try to stand up from my previous experiences. I did and popped out. It was very dark though. Couldn't see my hands as I explored my bedroom. Tried rubbing hands didn't work tried again didn't work. I saw trace of light leaking through the curtains so I went there. I opened them and brilliantly bright and warm yellow light basked me.

      Woke up.

      I focused on the vib again and it happened. I pushed myself out. This time I wanted to go outside. Headed out the room and saw stairs (heard whispers like ghosts or watevs but I paid it no mind) most stuff was the same. Went out the door to backyard and I saw those grape pillars you grow grapes (these are not suppose to be there) on that intersects at top like hash tags, not sure what they're called. I decided I wanted to fly through one of the hash tag openings and I jumped. Jumped about 2 3 meters but didn't fly. I climbed up and kept climbing.

      Woke up

      Pushed myself out again. But this one didn't last very long.

      Pretty long rant but I guess everything is connected. A little before the surgery I had my first sleep paralysis, well maybe many. Wasn't intentional just happened randomly and couldn't sleep. Didn't have much after that. So maybe me letting this stuff go reconnected some stuff.

      My first experience I think was something like this. I had laid in bed for a nap and felt scared and heard scary vibration. I couldn't move and I saw a vision. I heard a heart monitor, "beep beep... beep" and I saw a hospital room. I saw a face of a middle aged caucasian man maybe 40s I think he was closer to 30 but bad health made him look older. Long face,sickly pale white as a ghost, freckles, short graying hair. Face shape similar to Dr. House but long before that show came out. The heart monitor for faster and faster. Beepbeepbeep. Until it flatlined, beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

      Anyways back to Ld. I almost always become lucid in my dreams if I hear the vib during it so could I induce it myself somehow?

      A little week ago I had a DC trying to teach me true meditation. I woke up and heard vibrations when I tried to go into meditative state... Can I master that? Can I meet him again? So many questions.

      Vibrations induced lucid dreaming - VILD would be totes cool
    9. game projector laptop desktop

      by , 03-24-2019 at 10:53 PM
      I was a little despondent earlier when I woke, just didn't have a LD. But I decided to jot down dreams a bit anyways. I was getting very short LD moments every 2 days lately and I was so frustrated. I wanted many long fun lucid dreams where I have more awareness! But after I thought about what happend in todays dream maybe it helped me analyze stuff and stuff wasn't so bad.

      So I had 2 dreams I think, because I felt uninspired, I only recalled 1 dream in detail.

      dream. It was in a classroom setting, I was playing a video game on a laptop. The game was projected onto the big white canvas thing that you roll out, just can't remember what that's called atm XD. I maybe felt a little anxious from my computer actions being watched by others. So I decided to switch to a desktop for some reason. An old desktop, All in one type. This is probably bled over from a week ago, when I went to help my dad tune up his PC a little. So anyways, I tried loading up the game on the desktop but it had trouble installing a video driver... M290 if I recall. So I looked up the video card driver but just couldn't find it or get it to work. The dream then ends.

      I was also playing a game last night, so at first glance I thought it was just bled over from that event. But upon closer look maybe the dream was really trying to tell me something.

      So the classroom would represent learning I think. Meanwhile the game was the fun thing I was learning in the class (lucid dreaming). The projector could represent that I'm recording the progress online where other's could see, or it could mean something else. Anyways the laptop was newer than the desktop, since it's smaller too, it could mean a new paradigm or the new methods I've been trying that's actually working and progressing well in regards to LD. While the Old desktop could be the old paradigm, beliefs, and old way of doing things that's not working - something like that.And trying to install the driver is like saying, I have the ability to do this like everyone else, but lacking the proper coding stuff to get it working finally. Interestingly the m290, when I googled it showed a 3d printer, so like the desktop's missing the piece to materialize it. It just needs that tiny instruction manual so it can print out tangible physical results.

      Thought about it a bit more and the projector could also represent the ability to astral project or something. Saw some posts regarding raduga's technique. And hukhif's new dream journals popping up. Duno just rambling random stuff but oh well. Since with the graphic driver thing, I knew what I needed, but didn't have it, it could mean a technique that I know, but didn't practice. Maybe a message to try Raduga tech again, or learn Gravity RC.

      I've been getting interested in the gravity RC lately, never did it since I knew it's a hard tech. And I don't want to get into it half-hearted, if I'm gonna do it I'm gonna master it. Because my daytime mindfulness practice is starting to becoming second nature, I could probably maintain it with minimal effort, and do the Gravity RC. Maybe I'll make a post to ask some questions about the Gravity RC.

      For the Raduga tech, since I've been reminded of it randomly on this forum, I thought maybe I could incorporate just a small part of it to my practice. I think the problem with the technique is that you try get into AP/Dream state as you wake up, so you have no time to do dream journalling, and your recall might suffer in the long run. So my thought is that as I wake up, I'd replay the previous dream in my head 2-3 times to ingrain it into my memory, meanwhile trying rolling and other stuff a few times. If it works great, if not then well, it trains prospective memory and that helps with lucid dreaming right?

      Those were my thoughts.

      I did meditation as always, but had the chance to do it outside, since it finally stopped snowing and there's only traces of snow left. Anyways once I reached the zone, I did the MILD mantras, the new ones I thought of yesterday. I really reallly like these new mantras managed to get me excited today too- they get me real excited and I think that was what was missing in the previous mantras that I tried. Emotion, STRONG emotion or feelings might be the missing key to MILD. It's kind of like creating a anti-trauma or a reverse positive trauma kind of; much like how you'd get a bad trauma that could anchor beliefs into your head, you'd also need a strong emotion to create the opposite. Maybe there's a proper word for this positive trauma - positrauma haha

      hmm.. the tuning desktop thing happend a week ago, so perhaps it also indicates current incubation period of 1 week. Who knows?

      Gravity RC/ Raduga on awakening - maybe experiment stuff
      Need strong feelings for most effective MILD and incubation
      Be patient... It's working

      non-lucid , side notes
    10. Body, sigil, beauty pageant

      by , 03-23-2019 at 07:27 PM
      4 dreams I think very brief Ld. Have trouble recalling one dream atm

      1. Ld, just having awareness of the body but i knew I was dreaming, felt the changes of the body in regards to the past 3 days. Felt receiving some force. Kind of a light in the body that caused an orgasm.

      Woke up stayed in bed a while trying to fall back asleep, decided to go pee, made notes on DJ, maybe shouldn't have since DJing wakes me usually.

      Had trouble sleeping for a while. I tn may have had a Ld if I didn't record DJ, being at the prefect lding state. Meditated a bit by bedside to help sleep. Did a few mantra.

      2.dream about bunch of people receiving a kind of personal sigil that gave them powers, I think i received like 7. It's like kind of a spiritual training school or something but I'm not certain. One lady tried to give me her sigil cloth but I didn't want it. She became furious and tried to force it on me. Caused a scene and others stopped her. Maybe I should have received it or atleast hear her out.

      3. Still trying to recall. At same scene as dream 2 i think.

      4. The scene was like a square spiraling halls that went inwards clockwise the middle being the stage.

      Dreaming about being in a beauty pageant. Scene similar to d2 but slightly different. Wearing a polkadot bra that's too large outside of the white dress for some reason. Other contestants are trying to sabotage me. So all the contestants had to the cafeteria and get food there(got a pig head with noodles as a prank) . People are making bets as to who's gonna win, much like sports betting on a digital online platform. I felt overwhelmed and lacked confidence in myself. Someone made fun of my attire. So each person took a turn on the stage and performed their talent. I just sang on my turn. Forgot if I won but I did good if I recall.

      Part 2. So the time reverses and replays. I become a liquid based monster with similar appearance as previous that clings by the ceiling as I progress the scene. Getting closer to the stage. Forget what I did x)

      So yeah, actually might be 5 dreams haha. Will add more notes if i recall.

      I felt a little desponent that I didn't have a long Ld. Didn't feel like writing down DJ but wrote it anyways.

      Did shadow work yesterday that went pretty well on clearing doubts regarding a new mild mantra. This one may be a keeper. It's silly but really excites me. I visualized receiving the power for constant Ld, perhaps my subconscious tried to give it in d2... I'll try it again tonight and definitely receive it this time

      "super omnilucid-dreamerrrr"
    11. Mansion

      by , 03-22-2019 at 11:54 PM
      3 nld maybe was too tired for ld

      First dream took place in a kind of a bunker we were little kids and developing powers and machines that defied normal physics.

      Second dream took place in a very large mansion. 10,000 to 20, 000sqft probably. Taller than wide. My bedroom was larger than most apartment. Played some strange card games that no one liked with kids of family acquaintences. So we decide to play poker cards. I think a police raid happened they just robbed our home. It was corrupt police not just ones. Maybe was killed.

      Second dream part two. So time reversed and we replay here. I was given an option to carry a device or be jailed. The device was a teleport er that allowed them to infliterate through our mansion systems. When I figured it out it was too late and we were infliterated and done in probably killed.

      Part 3 redo again this time I tell my dream father whose different from wake dad, that we needed to get away. He asked why I just kept saying belive me. Can't belive it but I was happy he belived me in the end. We got away and escaped from corrupt police.

      Dream 3. A spoiled neighborhood child is destroying stuff. Make him pay for it. We go to a coffee shop in antique sports car and i had Gigantic poker cards. They ruined my cards (other customers). Teenage kids. Lose my self identity here I think. Story taken over by some middle age man whose kind of a detective, and a bad ass black teenage boy whose seen things in his life (replays his life scenes here). The black teen convinces the teens to walk a proper path in life or something. The end.

      So maybe more than 3 dreams but the plot was in 3 bits.

      Lasted 2 3 perceived days.

      The mansion seem to hold some significance. In the dream few weeks ago I was moving from a beat up apartment to an old European castle home, got the deed from dream realtor. Prior to that I often had apartment dreams that looked like beat up ones I lived during my childhood. Now it seems like that mansion is my default dream home.

      The LD practices might have contributed to this and since houses represent your inner state or something, I tn the LD practice helped me confront and let go of some childhood stuff? Or subconscious telling me to keep doing Ld practices.

      The police and kids ruining the house probably represents how I'm a little afraid and feel violated sharing my dreams on dream views maybe afraid of being judged. Since I always keep my dreams to my self and always try to fix problems on my own.

      I felt pretty discouraged and really discouraged that I didn't Ld tonight. Much like the last few times I felt like giving up and kept it up, in those nights I had multiple lds. So I'm really certain that I'll be lding again tonight.

      Tweaked mantra, got in touch with my feelings during meditation regarding Ld. I comforted my subconscious in 3 languages (each representing different stages of my life in different countries) and assured them until I felt the blockages and tensions in my body leaving when I repeated my Ld mantra.

      Excited to see the results tonight.
    12. Dream?

      by , 03-21-2019 at 05:21 PM
      1 Ld, dild dream? Mindful

      So yesterday I began questioning myself or simply stating "dream?" periodically or when I got into auto pilot.

      It seems I got a little lucid DILD from it.

      Other than the practice I had a headache throughout the night that kept me awake. It was pretty bad. There was a blockage in my shoulder that I cleared up but it went up to my head. I had similar feeling when I did tummo almost 2 years ago. But it's a blocked meridian that got opened and the right side of the back of my head near the crown is throbbing poetry badly. It'll probably get better when it gets to the crown I think.

      So I had a hypnogigic state for a while earlier in night, had trouble dreaming from headache. I managed to "dream?" during the state and I was pretty sure if I had a dream during then it would be lucid. So I was pretty sure I'd get a Ld.

      The headaches were pretty bad though but I just told myself I wanted to be always lucid so it's like my body is doing this to remind me to be lucid and non auto.

      So I decided to begin labeling thoughts each time and remind myself "dream?" and that reduced the intensity and frequency a little.

      I then had a dream. About a friend dark haired European boy from elementry school I think, long ago. And his friend, a blonde girl. The plot sas something like them and a gangster like corperations fighting over office space.

      I experienced the dream in his pov and hers. She was kidnapped I(he) went to rescue. Ended up in sea, I was (her) and her black haired girlfriend escaped from the baddies since they were swim or diving instructors. After getting away I asked my (her) mom to give me a haircut to let go of the past. It was a Mohawk and looked pretty good honestly

      So now I'm the dark haired friend (boy) again. Things are going pretty well but he gets kidnapped and the gangsters uses accupunctures to block the meridians of the body to prevent speech or any movement. They feed me liquids to keep me alive. They put on two layers of masks one large one small funny face one to hide the face. On a wheel chair also since body can't move. So now they probably are doing ransom to the girl now.

      So now I (the girl) trying to rescue the guy. The "dream?" prompts me lucid and I levitate up the office building where they held him, and found him. I freed him, fixed him up and we beat up the baddies.

      Dream perceived length a day or two?

      Although I got lucid I still got swept up by the dream plot so I wasn't sure if I should put this as a Ld. It wasn't 100% Lucidity but control was good. Maybe if I didn't wake up after I'd have more awareness.

      Next time I will keep in mind to perform some personal dream goals.

      One is to create miniature sun to better light up dark dream scenes. And the other is ofc to be always lucid in dreams.

      Creating the sun should be pretty easy since creating black holes came pretty naturally to me. I keep having trouble making rooms brighter with switches or commands so this shuld come in really handy.

      I'll keep telling myself that it'll be easy to ask dcs for omnilucidity so I'll believe it and get omniloooocid
      lucid , non-lucid , nightmare
    13. Cousin, crocodile, jade beads

      by , 03-21-2019 at 02:09 AM
      Had 3 nld dreams. Had a little trouble sleeping so that might have made Ld elusive. First one about my cousin and his aunt, just hanging in their house. Second one I think he was also there, we were progressing pool's that were frozen, it had some mutated creatures that adapted to cold and some crocodiles, we grabbed wooden planks shaped like bats to hit them in the face to progress. In the third one I was in school setting I had these jade pearls and had fight with someone.

      I'm leaving out alot of details but dreams lasted few hrs in perception.

      Today I tried going hard at ada/mindfulness, I was labeling thoughts like in vipasanna prior and today I just tried telling myself "dream " each time I went auto mode. I felt it working pretty well. My first responses were still mostlyvipassana style, and kindness mantra that I've used in the year prior though.

      During my visualization meditation I realized that there's no need to rush. That I'll achieve my goals either way if I stick with it. If I want it quicker then I'll have to try harder but I don't have to beat myself up over failures. I'm still tweaking my practices and if I get to my goals earlier that's great. Otherwise these practices are having positive effects on me either way.

    14. First

      by , 03-19-2019 at 04:08 PM
      First dj entry hopefully I'm doing it right.

      I had 2 non Ld last night. One about staying over at some guys house, other one was about a survival in some kind of safe house, there was some killing and we had to determine who was the culprit for kidnapping everyone.

      I meditated prior to sleep like I usually do and faced a problem that happened before. I'm just too aware and have trouble falling asleep. This happens most if mediate too long although last night's session was pretty short. But anyways what happens is I do feel my body sleeping, it's going numb, almost like sp, but I don't get into sp. I hear some sounds. Third eye area vibrating alot. This lasts for hours and I kind of get a half rest in it like nrem. I think if I just had a rem during it I would be lucid but instead I'm bored in this state limbo. I tried to force a dream by visualizing this time and managed to get some hypnogogic imagery during it and could manipulate it to a certain extent but it just didn't become clear and immersive enough to be called a dream. It's like an almost a dream but missing a few spices. I sas trying to just fall asleep and lose awareness until I could wbtb but had a trouble with that too.
      non-lucid , side notes