non-lucid

from my iPad
"Ugh. Too many stress dreams. In one of them, I was young and still married to my ex. We had angry sex and kept fighting immediately after when I learned he wasn’t where he said he was going to be.

In another one, I went to a store and forgot I had driven there and forgot my car... then later I was driving on confusing roads.

I dreamed of the pup attacking what looked like a kid in the distance. There was nothing there when I got downstairs and outside. We had a very close neighbor and a kid was outside, so I asked him if the pup attacked him and he said “almost, but I know what to do” and he started singing the song from the Stop77 videos.
Jerry gave me a bunch of money to have him put down because he couldn’t bring himself to shoot him.

Then, I was driving the dog to the pound. When I got out, I was carrying something and had to maneuver around some guy vacuuming outside. I told them, while crying, that I needed to have my dog put down. They laughed amongst themselves and said “just because you forgot the combination doesn’t mean you have to kill your pet.” I then told them that he eats kittens and they agreed that he should be put down.
If I had kept his core blood and had some sort of purée, they could have made the process even less painful. I didn’t have the stuff... then I did and I asked if I could stay with him while they did it. They said I could and then I woke up."

Ugh... too much stressing over my crazy dog...

What the heck? I don't think of snakes as symbolizing evil or danger or stuff like that. They don't really symbolize anything to me- just another cool part of nature to be cautious of yet still admire.

I dreamed I was walking up our porch steps and I saw a shadow under the porch. Thought it was a cat or something. Then, I walked down our porch steps and I saw a VERY teensy animal baby (the size of a caterpillar). It was a baby raccoon. The shadow under the porch was an alligator. I thought it was dead, but when I looked closer, I could see it breathing. I wanted to pick up the baby raccoon but I was afraid of waking the alligator up and getting attacked. Then the mom raccoon came out and wanted affection for me. I wanted it to take care of its baby but it followed me to my car.
I saw a dead baby raccoon and thought she was abandoning them because they were sick or something.

Then I had JW dreams and ??? dreams of special belongings. I was gathering books I owned that had been illustrated by me (not professional or anything, just keepsakes). One of the books was a Bible and it had a dedication on the cover. It was for someone I had been studying with. (I am NOT an illustrator IRL lol and I knew no such study IRL). I was trying to move all of these things, plus some clothes and some items I was sneaking. ?

I only recall snippets of the snake dream. They were Coral snakes and they were everywhere. They lined the base of a row of trees in a way that mimicked the popular picture/meme "How many twins are there?". I thought I'd climb the trees to avoid them, but then I saw them all over the trees too.

The alligator in the dream probably came about because of my zombie game. As for the rest, I've no idea lol. Well, the JW dream is me longing to return to my spiritual life and it's fairly common in and of itself. The packing up my belongings is also fairly common but I don't know the significance of the drawings. Maybe I want to be more creative lol?

I was lost in one of my memorable dreams. I kept going through wrong doors and everything was an absolute nightmare. Then, I saw a large man fall down. The thing he landed on went up his butt (or something rofl). He continued bouncing down a very long hill and everything he landed on went inside of him. He got fatter and more round which each addition. He finally wound back where he had started and everything came out (one of the things he landed on was the huge building I was cursing while being hopelessly lost).

Then there was a Sherlock-esque scene where he was explaining that it wasn't "first thing in, first thing out" but rather, the first thing that had existed until the newest.

**That dream was actually part of an EPIC dream which I lost. Either that, or they tied off each other. All I recall is a baby and a small child being separated and lost from their families.

In another dream, I was under ground like in Starbound (video game). I was exploring caves. I had a lightning weapon and decided to try it out. I fired it, but the wall of the cave was too close so the lightning ricocheted and it blew me into a million pieces. For some reason, I thought that was the funniest thing in the world and I woke up laughing [I react in a similar way when playing my game and my character dies]

In an earlier dream, I dream my hubby said he told me he could never love me or my kids. I was calling him to task on it... then I married his son, Lee... only, his name was Rick and he looked like my ex-husband

As for the first dream, it was anxiety driven. I had to be social at a Thanksgiving office dinner.
About the man "absorbing" everything, I can only guess it has to do with eating too much and feeling extra bloated. But the whole Sherlock thing throws that theory off somewhat.

The lightning rod is simply me playing way too many video games IRL. I'm glad I woke in such a great mood

As for the last dream, I think that's just my insecurities. I feel fat and bloated and unlovable to my hubby (who likes the Twiggy/anorexic look). I probably dreamed of marrying his son because hubby told he talked to him right before I went to sleep. I dreamed he looked like my ex, probably because I can't imagine hooking up with his son (who's only about 6-10 years younger than me). The whole name thing was probably due to a new show I'm watching (Tin Star).

I took a nap from 12PM-1:44 PM. It felt like the best sleep I've gotten in a long time.
Yet, my Fitbit tells me it took me 41 minutes to fall asleep ( ) and that I spent 60 minutes being restless. SO, I actually only got 44 minutes worth of sleep.

I also had some of the best/most vivid dreams I've had in a long time. Too bad they were scary.
In the dream, I was standing in the driveway, talking with my husband. The sky was lighting up with lightning. Hubby kept missing it because it was behind me (lol). Just as he finally noticed, fire and fireballs started raining down from the sky in the distance. I ran for the house. Hubby seemed unconcerned. I wanted him to come inside, but he wanted to go back to his house.

The next thing I recall is of being in the car with Paula. I was telling her to buy as much non-perishables and water as possible because who knows how long a war would last. She scoffed and said it would be over in 2 weeks. Then I saw massive infrastructure and crop damage and I told her those no way to know how long it would take for repairs and to be prepared.

Then I was in my yard. The outside was an apartment complex I lived in a long time ago. The inside of my house was a weird mesh of mine, my hubby's, and my grandmothers homes. In the yard were 2 snakes. I was worried about them, so I brought them inside. I found out later that the big one was a python and the small one was poisonous. There was a little girl and many animals with us and I was afraid the snakes would kill them but I couldn't find the reptiles to bring them back outside.
We did find a cockroach though (major phobia of mine). There was another couple with us and they helped me look for and squash it.

Then, I found the python. I had a cane of sorts and he went right on it. But went back and forth across it, toward whichever hand was holding it at the moment. When I brought him inside, he was brown and yellow colored. As I dropped him off at what looked like a decaying whale tail in the weeds, he was purple and blue.

In another dream, I was walking the mall with my family. My (deceased) grams was there. I went down a couple water slides- the slides of which that formed with the push of a button at the start... then the dream transformed into a sort of Sonic the Hedgehog game. I was a character, racing around a board, fighting bad guys and finding secret levels which were like the Sonic loops. You'd have to time everything perfectly and jump off the heads of the bad guys to platforms above them. I kept dying and losing my weapons lol.

I made it out of the game and was in a locker room. There were shower supplies in ziplock baggies and the toothbrush was extra long because it doubled as a loofa holder to clean your back with I was extra sweaty and my nipples ripped holes through my shirt so I was trying to discreetly cover them.

A phone call and the heat from my bedroom woke me up. But that's for RRCC

I've been awake for 2 hours now so my recollection is going to suffer. But, wow.
I had the first truly great dream in a very long time.

My memory starts out sexual. We were under covers on a couch, trying to be stealthy. My grandmother starts firing off a list of stuff she wants the guy to pick up from the store lol. I pretended to be asleep until he was gone and then my grams told me he was engaged, that the marriage must take place and I needed to forget and stay away from him.
Next thing I know, I'm back in time to the early 1900's. I was with a wealthier class of people in nice gowns and social standings. I was paired with some girl and we talked about favorite songs. I then told her about Jekyll and Hyde and sang part of a song for her. I told her it wouldn't come out until the 1990's but she HAD to see it even though she'd be 105
The dream gets vividly sexual but we're interrupted by something else. Turns out he was married and his wife was ushering him to a car. She told me they both had their own sexual kinks and secrets. I told them I was pregnant and they'd never see the child because WV was much too far away for that.

We were crammed into a ancient car with another family. It was a poor family and they were selling their children and babies.
Then I insist on driving but the steering wheel is on the wrong side and women weren't supposed to drive so I fought for the steering wheel.
The roads were insane. There weren't any stop lights or signs so everyone was just doing their own thing and a bus full of orphans barely avoided a train, but crashed into the side of a factory.

Someone ended up finding a book I had about cars. It had a logo (Motorolla lol as a car company) which was a car just then being invented. They were fascinated by everything they read.
The dream just fizzled out.

A tidbit I don't know how it fits is that I had a gummy substance stuck in my mouth and throat. I had to grab it with both hands but also be discrete. It made several appearances in the above dream. I've had that event throughout the decades but rarely. I've never really known what it signifies.

I also had a zombie dream at some point. I loaded myself into a wrong save game and it was horde night. I was rushing to the roof access to avoid the horde when a giant hornet attacked. I grabbed it and tried stabbing it but kept missing. My health was very low and I eventually died. I saw an error pop up saying my bedroll had been destroyed. Great. They destroyed my base and there was no telling where I'd respawn.
I came to in a nice neighborhood. I saw one of my earlier build with a staircase that didn't connect to an upper floor. I wondered if I had enough stamina to make the jump. I did. When I landed, there were bicycle's tied nearby. I approached the door and heard something like breaking glass. One of the bikes fell over and shattered. People lived in the house and thought I broke the bike until they reviewed a recording. We had a good laugh about me mixing up the homes and I noticed it was 11:30AM and horde night was over.

I had those dreams between 7:30AM-9:30AM.

I had a great multitude of great dreams last night.... but woke too frequently and lost most of them
Now all I have a fragments and snippets.

In one, I was on a roof with my step-mom. She stomped and hissed at a kitten and it fell off the roof into a pond. It was swimming in the water but crying to get back on the roof. There was a weird earthen area on the roof. A couple of cats were sun bathing on it, but one was starved almost to death and had flies buzzing around it.
(I had that dream, on large part, because there was a male cat outside my window caterwauling for females).

In another dream, I was trying to sell a porcelain head. I told them I found it in a bunch of stuff my grandmother left behind and it occurred to me that I had way too much stuff too and had to part with some. I told them I wished I could find all my uncles coins.

In another dream, I was fighting with my dad. Someone left mildewed dishes behind and I accused my brother. Hate and rage filled his eyes and I kept pushing 'you can't stand that I've said something against your precious little boy?!' My dad raised up to hit me and I dared him to, then left, saying he was dead to me.
(I don't understand that dream at all... I was the "precious" one to my dad. He and my brother never got along)

Another dream was of driving and getting lost and seeing cargo loaded onto flatbeds and big rigs and gas was under $2.00

Ugh... there were so many others, but I've lost them completely....

I had my standard zombie dream, except I was moistening some sort of canister with spit on my hands so I could stick them onto the side of a trailer to give me more space There was a zombie cop in a house right beside me and needed more space to maneuver and avoid his acid spit.
Then I loaded someone else's file and it was horde night but it also had the baby mutants from The Forest.

I had another dream I only recall partially. My brother moved into my bio-dads house. It displaced my step-mom though and she was lashing out over FB. I asked if she had left anything behind and he said they got everything- even one of the cats.

Fitbit: 7AM-1:30PM restless 2hrs 39 minutes for a grand total of 3hrs and 56 minutes worth of sleep

More tidbits:
An alternate reality; a strange tunnel (more like a tram track as it was very high above the ground) with missing sections you had to jump over; a girl changing her skin texture but it glitched and looked weird for certain ones; getting lost while running through a huge building but severed heads showed the correct path after a woman yelled at me for going the wrong way... ah yes, but first I was in a vehicle. A group of bad guys kept firing EMP's at me to stall the vehicle I was in. It was a water vehicle and I finally made it to the building. There were mutants in the wide halls and they were going to attack me with a lasso-like appendage but I told them I was on their side and to attack the people pursuing me.

All of those seem to be mostly inspired by Under the Dome and my new game The Forest.

Fitbit: 3:34AM-11:54AM 12 times restless for 2hrs 25 minutes. 5hrs 55 minutes proper sleep.
I think my silent alarms were confusing the device. I turned them off before bed last night and I had no conflicting times.

I had a lot of amazing dreams last night... but I forgot them almost as soon as I woke. I recall only tidbits:

In one dream, I was pregnant and excited about it, but someone shoved a knife between my legs repeatedly to give me an abortion (I had that dream thanks to having a pro-life/pro-choice convo with my daughter and then seeing a news headline about an abortion survivor speaking out before Congress)

In another dream, I was stuck in a dream loop, changing history over and over again until I could get it right (probably inspired by "Under the Dome" which I've been binge watching).

I was flying in another dream and that's the one I wish I could recall most of all. I love flying dreams.

Yet another dream was, of course, zombies I haven't even been playing 7D2D lately. My son says it's withdrawal but I have the dreams even more when I do play my game I enjoy them, though, so I'm not complaining.

Fitbit: It's been very bugged lately. I even manually changed it, but it just changed itself back. It *says* I was asleep at 1:19AM (it was really 2:30AM ) and that I woke at 1:25PM (it was really 2PM) But going on what it says, I was restless 15 times for 2 hrs 48 minutes which means I got 9 hrs 18 minutes worth of sleep.

I slept wonderfully last night. I remembered to take some pain meds beforehand. But I don't recall many dreams.

In one, I was at a mall restaurant looking for something to eat. A kid was in front of me at what looked like a deli counter. But it was like a Hibachi bar. Only he was "pretending" to be gross by acting like he was licking the edges of her sandwich, sneezing and coughing on it. The kid squealed in delight but I kept thinking that was still gross because he was bound to be getting spittle all over it.

In another dream, I dreamed I had slept til nearly 5PM and hubby was irritated with me. I then woke up 25 minutes before my alarm for 10:30

Fitbit: Bedtime 2:52AM-9:56AM 12 times restless for 1hr 46 minutes Total proper sleep 7hrs 4 minutes.
Much better than usual.

I slept rough last night. I had a lot of good dreams, but I woke so frequently I only partially recall one of them

I had a laptop that needed charged, so I took it to the kitchen and plugged it in behind the sink. My charger had to plugs on it and one hung down into the sink which was full of water. I realized everything too late and wondered how to unplug it. I got an oven mitt but hesitated because I didn't know if I was grounded.
Then I remembered the multi-plug outlet and shut it off (It was nowhere near me lol and I had plugged directly into the wall ) I kept hoping I was in a dream. I finally pulled the plug out of the wall and the prongs were warped. My grandmother chastised me and in trying to straighten the hot prongs, she wiggled them too much and broke them off. I grabbed some glue and tried to put it back together.
I had JUST renewed my EQ2 subscription and the laptop was new and my only source for the internet. I was very stressed out and miserable and then I woke.

*whew* It took me a moment to fully grasp that I had been dreaming The dream was so real but so weird. First: there's never a wall plug directly behind a sink; the multi-plug outlet wasn't even being used; I've not owned a laptop for more than a decade; I've not played EQ2 for a year or 2; glue. Seriously I was going to glue the prongs back on and actually use it? I am so glad my waking self is a bit more intelligent than that.

Fitbit: 2:46AM-1:06PM 19 times restless for 3hrs 58 minutes. Total sleep: 6hrs 22 minutes.

I actually had some great dreams last night, PLUS I remember some of them.

In one, there was a pregnant woman in a deep bathtub. She was going through something dangerous (?) and wanted to ensure her baby survived. I watched as the water hardened to ice. I heard the baby's heartbeat slow and then stop. There was a man, a doctor, beside the tub and I then heard his thoughts 'the child will live. It's too bad about the mother though'. My view zooms out and I see the water covered the woman above her nose and she drowned to death. The man was about to cut the baby out of the woman but then time sort of froze.

There was another man. He wanted to save the woman even though he had been shot. He reversed time until right before the woman died, then froze time so he could get her out of the water. The doctor could see the ripple though and was about to stop him.... and the dream ended.

Another dream was of me at the Kingdom Hall. A favorite Elder had returned and I was very happy to see him.

I dreamed one of the girls came into my room to take some milk (I have a mini-fridge in here).

Gah! I had one other awesome dream but I have forgotten it.

Oh yes, Fitbit: 5:49AM-2PM Restless 11 times for 2 hours 2 minutes. Total sleep 5hrs 2 minutes.

I had a ton of interesting dreams last night, but I've been interrupted so many times since waking that I've forgotten most of them.

In the last dream, there were butterflies which indicated a portal which was in a pool of water. I was with a hunting party and we had to swim to the bottom of the pool to find ourselves. I was a packet of red/brown and green siracha (sp) spices like at Taco Bell
I vaguely recall another dream where I was pushing my hubby on a gurney. He was partially wrapped like a mummy and I was looking for the mens restroom for him.

In another dream, I infiltrated some large and secretive building. I only got away with it because I ran into a blind woman who mistook me for someone else who had never been there before. I loved that dream. It was very clandestine and interesting, but I've forgotten everything else other than tidbits: secret elevators, medical experiments, clones, nearly getting shot by a booby trap when I was on a roof, breaking into a safe.

There were so many others. I flew in one of the dreams. I wish I could recall more.

BUT, I actually slept and I slept fairly well.

Fitbit: 12:44AM-12:54PM restless 17 times for 3hrs 6 minutes. Actual sleep: 9hrs 4 minutes.
My average sleep this week has been 5 1/2 hours a night.

I managed a couple stress dreams this morning.
In one of them, my mom was verbally bashing my youngest. She said she used to be my clone but now she looks terrible with her dyed red hair and lesbian relationship. I yelled at her for being so mean and told her she was crazy, that Zee's still beautiful etc etc.

In the other dream, I was driving down the road as a passenger and I saw something small fall out of a moving car. The car I was in stopped, as did the one in front of us. A woman was scurrying about, picking up money that was blowing away in the wind. I rushed over to what had fallen out: a little girl. I bundled her up, looked her over and she looked completely fine. I asked her if she fell asleep against the door and wasn't wearing her seatbelt. Then I buckled her in and told her not to go to sleep in case her brain had a boo-boo lol

Fitbit: 4:20AM-12:22PM sleep. 12 times restless for 2 hours 15 minutes. Sleep 5hours 47 minutes

No dreams the last 2 days. Hardly any proper sleep.
Fitbit Monday: 4:02AM-1:40PM 14 times restless for 2 hrs 27 minutes. 7hrs 11 minutes sleep all in all.
Tuesday: 6:06AM- 12:32PM 13 times restless for 2 hours 47 minutes. 3 hrs 39 minutes worth of sleep.

I even laid down last night at 11:30. I gave up on sleep by 1AM. Had a massive headache and couldn't fall asleep until after sun up.
I'm dizzy-ish today. My ears keep closing. Don't know if it's allergies or lack of sleep though.
Back still hurts