 Originally Posted by fogelbise
This "sensitivity" could also work in your favor but you do of course have to make it over that edge to sleep. Do you remember any sensations right before or during your DEILD scene that you stepped into?
No, it was 1) drift off, ...discontinuity... 2) oh hey look at that (with awareness) and step into dream. I was not "looking out for it" which is why I believe it succeeded, as my mental transition watchdog was inactive long enough for the dream to form.
Yes I actually believe it eventually will work in my favor, with training to remain calm and passive. Hukif actually had a proposed technique called T(transition)ILD or something like that which was based on awareness of the process of falling asleep. Maybe I'll become a TILD master .
Well yay, defeated the wakefulness and no-recall monster last night. Set strong intention to remember dreams and wake up after every dream at bedtime and before returning to sleep. I read something a few days ago about Sageous not recommending this as it may work too well and wake you up too much, and so I backed off on it, but I have not been waking up as much as I used to in the beginning of my practice and i don't like that, so I restarted it again last night. It's amazing how fast the brain resorts to old behavior if you stop your intention setting! I get back to sleep just fine at all times before and after the 5-6 hour period if I don't do SSILD-like techs.
Got to sleep at bed-time in reasonable (but still not as fast as desired) time, previous nights took longer. And again the 5-6 hour waking alertness, got up for a quick kitchen trip for a glass of milk, held & petted the cat for a while (relaxing), then returned to bed but tossed & turned for a while. Almost gave up and got up for the day but resolved that I must not. My quote for motivation is from the video posted at the start of the last competition: "You've got to want it like you want to breathe". I've been using this a lot recently for maintaining ADA/RC. So despite my alertness, really worked at my sleep relaxation technique (paradoxically: I had to work at it with discipline, but not "try hard to sleep", it's not an easy balance) and I slowly drifted off, and slept! And dreamed several more times. I had to hold myself for long periods of time at "deeper" relaxation levels despite a lot of external disturbance, holding no tension, and with a quiet calm mind. Every noise, every bed-partner movement (and there were alot for a while), I told myself, "these sounds and these sensations make me more and more relaxed." Woohoo another "sleep kung fu" victory. Couldn't wait to jump on DV and share the success.
Set strong intention to remember and to wake after dreams, and woke at 2.5, 4, 5.5, 10, 12 (about 2 or more hours of awake time after 5.5).
Interestingly, I'm finding that my late morning (like 10+ hours after bedtime) dreams do not necessarily exhibit increasingly larger amounts of awareness. I had my highest levels of awareness (no lucids though) last night at the 5th hour waking: (in the dream I noticed my location and objects within the dream, my ADA/RC targets, didn't get lucid though). At the time when I got up (12h), I still thought it was the earlier waking (10h), but then I had dream recall that I didn't remember from the earlier waking, and realized I must have slept again, and sure enough, I checked the clock and it was 2 hours later. The recall was pretty weak in fact from the final waking.
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