The same thing has been happening to me off and on for years! Dream characters would disappear when I became lucid. Or sometimes they would transform into an inanimate object. For years I ignored this, I would try to continue the dream adventure with the object. But in the end, it simply felt like I was talking to myself.
Finally a dream revealed to me why this happens.
I was back in high school dreaming with all members of my colorguard, we were back together again as a team and I was so damn happy. I was lucid and I wanted nothing more but to be with them. Excited, I started to fly to show my friends that this a dream. I grab one of my teammates and start to fly with her. But when I look down at my hand she had turned into an inanimate object. I looked at the room, so did everyone else.
I run down the hallway and meet up with the rest of my team. I prove to them that this is a dream by flying. By the looks of their eyes I can tell they finally understand that this is a dream. But they understood something I didn't.
They asked me "If this is a dream, and you are the dreamer, what does that make us?"
I'm hesistant to say the answer. They look at me with anxious eyes, waiting to hear my answer. I choke and finally spit "youre the part of me that will never forget you".
They celebrated with my answer! It didn't matter if in real life we didn't get along, right now we were together and happy. And like that, they all dropped to the floor as inanimate objects.
I finally understood two things. One. Dream characters never disappeared when I became lucid. No, they re-merged back into me. Its as if by becomming ME again they help me become lucid. Lucidity requires you to be a whole person and all that jazz.
And two. I finally realized I'm alone in every dream I have ever dreamt. That every dream character whose company I enjoyed, that every dream character I ever spoke to, was me and always and only me. The lonely nature of dreams hit me like a ton of bricks. I flew away but that lonliness stuck with me and my dream became a black void.
A dream isnt some video game where you can run around and do what ever the hell you want as so many dream control threads seem to suggest. You are in the landscape of yourself. If you want to control the dream, then you need to understand yourself first.
After having this dream I was afraid I would be always be lonely in lucid dreams. But....that hasnt actually been the case!! Sure, DCs still disappear on me even in mid-sentance. And sure, nothing I do can bring them back because they have already merged into me. But even after all that----I still have lucid dreams that are filled with characters and ones that I can have lucid conversations with.
I dont have any techniques to offer you how to have lively dreams again. Instead I think you need to dive deeper and uncover your reason why DCs disappear as you become lucid. Because that's not a control issue.
Try talking to DCs every chance you get before they can disappear on you. And if you find yourself lucid with no one to talk to - then talk to the dream. The dreamscape is your subconscious after all, its alive! Keep pressuring the dream, keep asking why everyone has disappeared, or state firmly your desire to have characters knowing full well they are a part of you---- your dream will answer you.
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