Need insight about semi-lucid dreams
Hello! I'm new to the site, but I've been thinking about my dreams for awhile now and I'm seeking some answers or insight. Basically, I have had semi-lucid dreams since I was a child. I remember one out of control dream as a child and something just snapped: I went nope, that's not happening again! And since then my dreams have just made sense. I met a guide as a teen, although I haven't seen him at all in the past few years. I guess his work was done? =/
Anyway, my dreams occasionally have some fantastical element, but I always "wake" in the dreams and simply accept what I'm dreaming about as the reality. While "I" have some control over the dream while in the dream, I feel more like I'm watching myself act than causing the actions. Sort of like when you're watching a horror movie and you know that it's a fake thing played out by actors, but you still get scared.
I can explain every single thing that happens in my dreams and I never have anything surreal. Heck, even if I have a fangirl dream it takes a lot for me to not see the person as their actor.
Any insight here on how to let go and/or regain that control while still having a fantastical element of dreams? Thanks!