You mean to try to chase them shadow figure? That would be interesting. Would it run from me or just turn around and look bored?
That said, my dad used to chase me in dream scenes. I came to a point I stopped running from him. I forgot what happened. I think he just sort of calmed down and we had a talk, the conversation lost. Or maybe he gave me a hug later. That would be neat to get something like this with the shadow figure/ evil man. I'm getting tired of having dreams of it chasing me, always knowing where I am and overall ruining the dream.
Maybe I surprised whatever dream mechanics, got some error, kind of like a computer would, and end up with it crashing and have to restart with a new dream. The rest of the dream that followed was disturbing, and seemed more symbolic than anything. It dealt with me trying to do something with mini body parts, like arms, hands, ears, noses. I guess some sort of freakish halloween jewelry. (at least I know what to sculpt out of polymer clay for next Halloween, lol.) The ear piece just kind of got forgotten and left in the back of a school bus. I was trying to make people in the bus aware of it for some reason unknown, especially the bus driver. I guess it was some kind of warning? Or I just needed people to be aware of it, huh? Everyone ignored me. The bus driver just kind of laughed, thought it was amusing and just continued on ignoring me. The tiny ear just sort of decayed and started going rancid, smelling really bad. I was eventually abandoned on the bus with the rotten ear.
That dream seemed really odd. Real life I am dealing with the feeling of being made fun of or ignored. There are some neighbors/ residents that seem resentful of me, no matter what I do. I bring plants into the community area and they want me to remove them. They aren't really in charge. They just are excessively bossy people. It is one lady in particular I have an issue with. I have no idea how to approach her. It started long ago with different issues. It came to a head with the Halloween decorations. I tried to help them set up the decorations, but I felt unwelcome, so left to help my grandma hand out candy to trick or treaters instead of go to the Halloween party, which I was sure I'd be bored and left out in the cold.
The story escalated when it came time to take the decorations down. Two days after Halloween and they still made no move to take them down. I found people were already starting to vandalize and take down some of the decorations, so I gathered some help and carefully took down what was left and put them in their respective storage bins. The lady got really angry for me doing this. Why did I do this without their approval? Why didn't I wait until two more days after? She didn't like how I put them in (even though it was all done much neater and more organized than probably were to begin with). They needed to take them all out and do it all over. All because it was not them who did it. Like as if it didn't matter how carefully I did the job, it was just because I was the wrong person who did it.
That said, the decorations remain in the bins in a public place, well after they said they'd put them away. I'm left again bothered by the eyesore and want to put them away where I know they belong. The building maintenance man told me where they belong and the combination of the lock. I'm wanting to put them away myself and get the job done with, but am holding back because that ONE lady will throw such a big fit if I do.
I guess this situation and all the emotions must be helping to generate the dream scene. Being laughed at: Feeling this whole thing is stupid, funny. I'm not being taken seriously, and confused how to resolve this in my waking life. Having autism (think high functioning Aspergers) doesn't help much. I've learned to cope and hide a lot of the autism traits over the years. My dreams pick up a lot of the social cues I miss in my waking conscious mind. Also my fear: being talked down to, patronized because of my condition. I hate when people in waking life make me feel like a small child just because of my dx, rather than who I am as a person.
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Autism = disconnect between mind, communication and emotions. On the extreme end - 1. Inability to recognize emotions in conscious mind. (the emotions get felt, but not handled by the conscious mind.) 2. Inability to express felt emotions to others and to self. Result: Instinctual side takes over. Overwhelmed by emotions = having to cope on a physical fight or flight mechanism.
Mild end: Disconnect is still there but over time a connection can be made by self awareness. Expressing these emotions to others eventually happens, but mostly through trial and error. Learning this way is less efficient than by instinct, but generates a pretty long memory. Over time I can blend in and identify with others and relate to people emotionally, autistic and non. It's just a much longer process. The positive byproduct from this is having a high degree of self awareness, intuition, and a very useful long term memory and ability to analyze things. Disconnecting mind from emotion can also be useful in some situations. Job wise, it keeps me from reacting in ways I'd like to react, had I been able to express what I felt at the time. (let's just say if someone offended me, the emotions generated from the slight won't happen until later and my awareness of these emotions like a day later. It keeps me from possibly saying some really unkind things, had I not had that delay.)
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