My actions in this dream were incubated, i.e. I had previously decided (and run through several times in my head) how I would act if I found myself in a nightmare situation. I have nightmares very rarely (maybe a couple in the last year, not more), but I had decided to act in a specific way if I had one, and I did. So doing, I defeated a very bad demon.
This dream was therefore not a lucid, but nevertheless highly significant. I’ve posted it in the ‘dream control’ section because I do consider incubation to be a form of dream control. But if it doesn’t qualify, no problem!
Background
In the days before I had this dream, I had found myself thinking about anger quite a bit. Not actually being angry, but thinking about times when I’d been confronted with anger in others, and in myself. I had come to the conclusion that anger serves no positive purpose whatsoever, is pointless, and should be avoided. I believe that the demon that showed up in my dream was a representation (or archetype) of the anger that I have in me (as we all do, I would presume).
The dream
I’m in a room with two women. A point of orange light appears along the side of a candle. Something is wrong. We leave the room and talk to my mother, saying there is a presence in the room, to which we return. One of the women says she can feel something evil. More people are here now and strange things start to happen: a dark spot appears on the one of the women’s face, and moves across it. We know that this is evil. The gates of the room slam shut. People are happy because they think that we are now safe inside, with evil locked out. But I know it’s not the case: evil has in fact been locked in with us.
The demon then appears: he has a flamboyant mass of reddish hair, very angular features (perhaps Irish looking), and he’s full of hate and anger. He approaches me and shouts, intimidates and threatens me.
This is where, without being lucid, I adopt the behavior I had incubated: I don’t move, but stand my ground non-aggressively (and not even defensively), but just perfectly neutral, and, most importantly, I feel no fear. I say out loud (and know) that I cannot be touched or hurt, as I stand within the light. I tell the demon I send him love and light. However, he continues hissing and cursing hatefully. I can now feel fear starting to creep into me, but I again repeat what I said above (adding that I stand within the light of Christ, although I really not a religious person – so I’m not really sure where this came from!).
The demon does not strike, but morphs into a large black cat and directs his attention to one of the women in the room, who has turned into a mouse. I think that she’s in big trouble and is about to be eaten, as the demon grabs her / the mouse. However, the cat / demon in fact just carries the mouse gently to me and drops it kindly at my feet.
I know that the cat / demon is no longer angry, aggressive, and has instead turned into something friendly. I know that the demon has been defeated, simply by the fact of my not giving in to fear, and standing firm, while sending it love. I say a few friendly words to the cat.
The scene now shifts to one of everybody rejoicing and dancing around. We know that evil has been defeated. I’m then dancing around naked, pretending to fly on a broomstick like a witch – people are most amused.
I wake up slightly shaken, but serene that I have triumphed.
My interpretation of all of this is that I have made big progress in letting go of some of the anger I keep inside (as well all do, no?). I did this, in the dream, by not giving in to my anger demon, by not feeding it even more anger, and by not letting it fill me with fear. I like to think that this is a step in the direction of becoming a less angry person. Cool!
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