I recall atleast 2 dreams where I was consciously making up scene content, while being non-lucid.
I remember how I was consciously thinking out what would happen next (the scene would then freeze for a moment) then manifesting it. I stood like a director near the scene or in the middle of it.
Here I was creating scenes and being aware of creating my own content as if it was the most normal thing to do, yet I was not aware that I have a physical life in another reality where thesekind of things are not possible.
It is as if I didn't even care. I find that strange.
Perhaps It is my own escapism preventing me from becoming aware (within the dream state) of the dreamstate and physical life as being seperate ongoing parts in my existence and but that I don't want to look back at physical reality. I do not lucid dream.
Or maybe it is because I daydream a lot, in which I create scenes, plots and whatnot. I am used to do them on strolls. I then become completly unaware of my physical surroundings (my awareness shifts to the mental scene) and my body is in auto-pilot mode and I am pretty sure that I would completly lose myself in it, if my body wouldn't call me back.
I've been going to bed with the intention to lucid dream but all I have managed to do is take control of my dreams, to some extend.
I have come to understand that dream control and lucid dreaming are 2 very different things but often in lucid dreams, one is in control.
The more I practice daydreaming and the deeper I go, the more non-lucid I become in the mental scene of the daydream.
I am stuck in efforts to question reality while at the same time allowing myself reality experiences to happen! The first is required to have lucid experiences and break illusions, latter is required to go into deeper states of consciousness. It is quite hard for me to exercise both, since they seem to contradict each other.
I have a feeling that the most intense and awesome experiences are the ones I least recall.
Another thesis is that I have for the lack of my recall of nightly happenings might be due to the fact that perhaps I've been going to places (dimensions) where reality is so significantly different that they can't be quite downloaded and compreehnded to physical senses such as vision and hearing and above all, chronological time.
All I seem to be able to recall from these possibly other-dimensional journeys during my sleep period are emotional and spiritual feelings.
Dreams seem to be easiest trips to recall from the sleep time because time behaves there like it does in the physical, things happen one after another.
Perhaps in some of the other dimensions of the astral construct that we can travel to during our sleep time, time is not restricted to chronological order of events and so significantly different, that we could compare this with adding Z-depth to a 2D plane.
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