This dream got me thinking. I remember I first saw it in a DJ post, and then came across it on the forum. It made me ask myself why there are so many dreamers that enjoy the cute, romantic dreams when I find them annoying and kind of a drag to slog through having and writing about. I mean logically, these are feelings that everyone should enjoy.
At first I thought it was simple; I was just afraid of the judgement of others. Others see me as the strong, independent type and if I started acting more like I was more invested in this sort of thing, they might tease me for it. This wasn't the reason though, since I don't care what other people think of me...
I then realized that it was for a different reason; growing up, I never liked traditional romance. When I was young, I only had the media and my parents to observe. While my parents didn't offer a bad example, Romance in the media is always romanticized. I didn't enjoy either archetype, either the woman who was generally a damsel in distress or the boy who generally came off as a loser falling head-over-heels for whoever. When I got older, I saw some of my friends get boyfriends/girlfriends. These were middle/high school relationships, so they didn't last long, but when they were in the relationship, they were always hanging out with their partner and never us, and when I finally did get my friend back, it would take him/her weeks or sometimes even months to stop groveling over it.
But it's not that I 'hate love' or anything. I just hate the tropes and paradigms set by society. Things like the idea that only guys should ask girls, dress, dating etiquette, prom, etc.
Though there is another reason for it. Back on the idea of being a strong independent person. Perhaps I do want to preserve this archetype for myself. Like when I mentioned that my friends would be depressed after they lost their partner. I don't like the idea that my emotional stability is reliant on the idea that someone else who might decide leave me at any time, leaving me a broken husk. I don't have enough faith in another person to support me and stick by me when it matters most. Though I might not be quite as happy in the long run, it removes the chances of me getting hurt in a relationship.
So sorry if this turned out to be all about me when this was your dream that you posted, but this was what it got me thinking about.
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