Dream where I get really fat - third time in a week.

I've signed up to these forums because I've begun to have a recurring dream - I've not had a dream that recurs ever before.

Firstly I should point out that I have a large appetite in real life and am rather fat, I wonder of the dream relates to this specifically or has any other meaning;

In the dream, Im back at my school and in the canteen at lunchtime.

I'm eating my lunch ravenously, and when I finish, I decided to steal some second helpings. I do remember doing this at school and getting in trouble. In the dream I'm not sure that I am a schoolkid, I suspect that Im (certainly by the end of the dream) an adult.

The headteacher (interestingly this is not my actual teacher, but a female boss from a previous job) angrily decides that I'm too greedy and decides to teach me a lesson. I'm forced to eat almost everything - lunch after lunch after lunch. I'm eating more than it is feasibly possible for one person to eat in real life. I vaguely remember this happening to a character in a cartoon I watched as a kid. I eat and eat until i'm big and fat and almost perfectly round. Everyone is gathered round watching me eat, but I dont mind - my feeling in the dream at this point is that I cannot believe my luck. I continue to get bigger and bigger until I'm so huge I cannot move. My feeling at this point in the dream is one of utter bliss, contentment and fulfillment. I see myself as hugely overweight with an enormous belly and I like what I see. For some reason the last section of the dream takes place beside the swimming pool at school and I am only wearing swim shorts. Some of the kids seem to be egging me on and encouraging me to eat more and more.

The first time I had this dream it ended here and I actually really enjoyed it - it actually made me think that if I do get fatter (which is probably likely) its going to be an enjoyable experience.

The second time I had the dream it then takes a downturn. The same thing happened, but it starts with me eating with everyone watching. I'm not sure if I am being forced to eat by the teacher/boss, but I am aware of their presence, I am already much fatter than real life at the start of the dream. The kids are encouraging me to eat, but I know the teacher is not approving. When I have finished eating the teacher is standing over me and asking me how it feels to be so fat. She prods my huge belly as she taunts me. I tell her defiantly that I like it, which angers her further. She orders the children to roll me to be weighed, I am now in the gymnasium and the following part is a bit like Violet Beauregarde in Willy Wonka (but im not blue). I'm so big and fat that I get stuck in the double doors. At this point there is a huge amount of excitement amongst the kids and I'm being teased by all the other kids. then the dream ends, the kids are teasing and the teacher is furious with me.

I've had variations of this dream about three times in the last week or so.

Any ideas whats going on? I have mixed feelings throughout the dream;

I don't think it is a 'guilt of eating too much dream'. I know that I do overeat considerably and am fat in real life, but in the dream I have become huge - unable to move. The strange thing is, I actually like the sensation of being so big and full in the dream, when they first start to roll me, it actually feels really good. This is where the dream ended the first time and I enjoyed it, and actually thought it was telling me I should embrace size and my large appetite. I saw myself as an extremely fat version of myself and actually liked what I saw. But then a longer version where the fact that they start teasing me and I can't fit through the door is a real downer of a dream.

It is a strange mixture of extreme pleasure, almost arousing (not sexually, but in a liberating and exciting way, almost like winning the lottery), the more recent ones have ended in humiliation and frustration at getting so fat.

Does this dream relate to my real life weight issues, or is it something else?

The dreams display your inner struggle with fact and fiction regarding your body and gluttony. Eating is your tool to "feel better", but in the long road, it will bring death (emotional and physical death). You tell yourself you feel good about it and you also feel humiliation and frustration. There is a lie you are telling yourself in the middle of the confusion about your feelings. You feel in the dream that people "force you to eat" as punishment, when in truth you are forcing YOU to eat to punish yourself and to eat instead of venting to others when they hurt you. Be gentle with yourself and find a way to vent your feelings other than eating...like telling people how you REALLY feel. Learn to confront others in a productive way, this will give you the confidence to speak out when you need to, instead of eating and being mad at yourself and others.