Disturbing first person point of view dream

Hello, im a girl I just turned 21.
I had a dream where i had a lot of sex, not an orgy but i had sex with one hot guy in an interesting position then walked to a different building/house and had sex with someone else. It was a good dream until my last partner. The guy wanted me to lick the toilet seat and have sex in a very embarrassing position i was going to do it I wanted to. But then a voice that sounds like my mother called my name twice i tried to ignore it then it yelled NO which scared me so i didn't lick it.

I though I would wake up but instead i went somewhere dark.This part was in first person point of view, i hardly dream in first person. and what scared me more was the only thing i could see was myself I was creeped out, i though i was having an out of body experience. I told her to get away and pushed her but i though to myself if i separate i might die. but then she grabbed my throat and pressed down until my vision became blurred and I couldn't breathe then I woke up. and i decided to never lick toilet seats lol.

The problem i have with the dream is the voice, It's woken me up a lot out of dreams but its the first time it screamed and scared me and its the first time i tried to ignore it. normally its very gentle. one time I took a nap and it called my name twice and told me to wake up and reminded me what i was doing which was very useful. and other times it would call my name and say time to wake up. I really like the voice but now i'm kind of scared of it and feel like i should be cautious of what I dream. I figured that its my subconscious or something but its still weird. If anyone else has similar experience please tell me.

I haven't had any dreams like this before but it sounds like you had a normal wet dream followed by being extremely self conscious (the dark where you could only see yourself). You're mother probably played a huge role in your childhood and so she became part of your consciousness. You seem be in a conflict in which a relatively new part of you wants to mature sexually versus an older part of you which doesn't know if its right. Sex tends to be a taboo for some people and I think its perfectly normal to feel torn in this situation. A girl I know who's around the same age deals with the same feelings during times of intamacy.

Since dreams are considered as a form of resolution, you being choked in the dark somewhat shows that the older you is winning. This is also confirmed by you deciding never to lick a toilet seat right after you wake up. haha

The biggest thing you could get out of this is how important it is to have a balace between your personal desires vs what you think is right. Sex is not fun if it makes you self-conscious and filled with guilt.

Thanks for replying! i never though of it as my older self interesting. The voice isn't my mother's though I can't say who it is but since its similar i called it my moms voice, I should have put that. it knows everything about me and what im doing so I figure it must be my subconscious. I've been hearing this voice since I was I think 7 so maybe it could be a replacement for my mom. And its never actually apart of my dream it comes from outside and usually wakes me up immediately except for this time. Maybe im having a battle with my subconscious.

Thanks for the help!