Dream of drumming and being skewered.
Any help understanding this dream would be nice. I was in my childhood home's back yard which I recently moved out of. I was escaping something, possibly running from something my family members were doing, running through the gate of the backyard into the front. I noticed the orange day-lilies that grow by the fence. I end up inside the house. We were sitting around a table, and we started to eat. It looked like we were either just getting ready to eat or had just started. We became aware that there was some group that I did not see, they were "serving" us but the also seemed to be in control? Like a group of aliens or something, and we did not actually see them. We began to hear drums, which sounded ceremonial, which started loud and got louder, and eventually one was so loud that it felt like an explosion. We were very scared but just sitting there sort of covering our ears. I looked down at my lap and there appeared to be a large skewer being jammed through our hips, like we were all going to be shishkebobed.
As if my dream self was trying to understand this, I was suddenly in the dining room of the house (which we converted to my twin's extra bedroom) ad my twin was there by his bed. as I was walking towards him, I was sliding two pieces of cooked pig flesh like from a luau, as if contemplating what happened at the table. The wall behind him had foil on it. Suddenly there was like a black foam rubber over the foil.
I am currently in a real life situation where my spiritual teacher is saying I can no longer work with her because I did not listen to what she said. I desperately do not want to stop working with her because I got so far so fast ad I still want her help. It feels like the difference between realizing my destiny (corny I know) and instead having to struggle hard to get there- so I've been really anxious. I feel this dream is somehow in response to that. And in real life I am afraid of having to move back in with my family because they were the cause of some serious issues for me, especially around this, but I'm not sure if that is relevant here. I don't now if my family at the table really relates to that.