I was pregnant and felt like my life was over, I did not want the baby

Okay, so I just had a dream where I found out that I was pregnant. My belly never actually looked pregnant though. (I am not in a relationship, and has never had a boyfriend, so this could not actually happen in real life.) In the dream I felt like my life was over, and I could not believe how this could happen to me. I did not want the baby, and I had no idea what to do. All my dreams and hopes for the future were broken. I was to give birth on the day of my final exam, and could not graduate because I was not able to be at the exam. All the time I was supposed to have to figure out what I wanted to do with my life was gone, and I had to be a mother instead. I did not want the baby, and I felt so bad because I knew I would not be a good mother, I would not be able to take care of it, I can hardly take care of myself. At the same time I knew I would not be able to give it up for adoption, the thought of someone else having my baby made me feel jalous. I remember looking at other girls my age and being jalous because they had time to figure things out, go to university and be young, while my life was over. the focus of the dream was not on the baby itself, but on my reaction and the fact that I really did not want it and felt like I was going under. at the same time I knew I was in no shape to be able to take care of it.

At the time I am about to graduate from High School, I do not know where to go from here, what I want or who I want to be. I have not applied for any universities, because I was not able to figure out what I wated to do in time. I am scared because time has gone by too fast, and I also have some personal problems. I have had several breakedowns during the last few years, and I think I might have a personality disorder of some sort. It's like I have different personalities. What do you think this dream means? feel free to comment if you have any thoughts on this.

After reading your first paragraph I knew what the dream meant. You are too hard on yourself and dont think you should have a baby. If you feel this way its best to hold off for now. Until you feel confident it makes yours and the babies life much better

A baby in a dream means a "new change" that is coming in your life (graduation will bring change) ...not a literal baby, and you fear that something will change your lifepath. You don't want a domestic life that having a baby would do to you, but instead you want a life that has a future, opportinities, and hope of a different life other than the one you grew up in......and so you should pursue just that. Your dream is also a warning to self, not to get sidetracked from your goals....Maybe you could take summer classes at the college and get a jump start on your degree.