hello there. well... i don't know how to start this, hehe.
there is this one person who i do not know in real life, but he is actually a real person, i just never knew him, because he died when i was 3 years old and i live on the other side of the planet, so i never had the chance to meet him.
the reason why i know of him is because he was a famous musician, i won't name him cuz i think it doesn't really matter.
but the thing...
i have seen this person in my dreams 2 times now.
to start with the first time i have to say that i always had a strange association for him, since i was a child every time i saw him or heard his music i instantly thought of a red poppy in a green field, it's kinda hardwired in my brain, i don't know why or why it's exactly a red poppy. but to me it always seemed that he is the red poppy, if that makes sense.
so, the first time i met him in a dream was about 7-8 years ago, i had a very, very hard time in my life, had problems in school, at home etc., i remember i was very upset that night and fell asleep crying and i don't remember the dream exactly, but i remember that he was there and he was reassuring me. i don't remember anymore what exactly happened or what he said, i just remember he was kinda "there for me".
when i woke up i was astonished to see him in the dream let alone reassuring me. and the strangest thing was, when i got up from bed, got dressed and looked outside the window i saw a red poppy in our garden - it wasn't there before. the poppy was blooming in the garden for a few days afterwards, so i didn't dream this part.
after i woke up i felt a lot better emotionally, like a heavy weight was lifted from my chest, i don't know why, but i just felt very happy and relieved.
that was the first time i met him in a dream. the second time was last night. i've been having a hard time lately with my best friend passing away a year ago, i still haven't gotten over it and also some other not so good things have been going on, so i have been feeling kinda crap these past few weeks. and then last night i was dreaming some nonsense as usual when the dream changed and he was there. we were walking down the street near my apartment building, it was very cold outside and he was holding me tightly to warm me up. at some point we stopped so i could tie my shoelace and once i did that he embraced me again and took my hands into his to warm them up. and the thing that puzzles me the most is, i felt such love coming from him, like he cared so much for me, such unconditional love. and as we were walking down the street i felt the same towards him, i even remember myself thinking that i'm so happy that he is there, that i'm close to him, i also "realized" what love actually feels like. like, when people tell you - u will understand it once u feel it - and i remember myself thinking that i really do understand now how it feels. and i knew that the feeling was mutual. it was very very strong, very unusual for a dream. i never have strong feelings in dreams except for occasional nightmare when i wake up scared with heart pounding etc.
also, this little part with him felt very real, like it wasn't a dream. when i'm dreaming i never hear sounds around me, they're not completely silent, but i don't notice cars passing by, i don't feel temperature, i don't smell anything, i don't hear birds or anything. when i dreamed of him it felt like in real life, i felt the cold air, heard us both breathing, felt the heat from his body, saw birds flying around, cars driving, people walking by and talking to each other, could smell the autumn weather etc.
when i woke up, once again, i felt like a heavy weight was lifted from my chest and i felt very happy and "free".

and i was never obsessed with him, i sometimes remember him and then listen to his music, but that's about it. most of the time i don't even remember he ever existed. i don't have such feelings for him when i'm awake, i just simply feel nothing. maybe a little bit sad that he is dead and i will never have the chance to see him perform live, but that's about it.

i'm just puzzled... does it have any kind of meaning, or is it just that my brain is playing tricks on me? i mean, i have never even met him, i have only heard his songs and seen some pictures, is all. and why do i feel so relieved and happy after i have met him in my dreams? and why did i have such strong feelings for him, cuz to be honest, i don't feel such love towards anybody in real life, not to my parents, not to my brother, not my friends or anybody. i have never ever felt so in love in my life as i did in that dream.
i just simply don't know what to think of it, if it wasn't for that love part i probably wouldn't think much of the dream, but the feeling was so intense, i can't even describe it in words, it's really weird.
both times i met him it made a huge impact on me, first time the poppy in the garden and now the strange love i felt towards him in the dream. i don't understand why is it him, he doesn't even know me, why not someone who actually knows me?

so yeah, i'm sorry for the long post, i just had to get it out and i hope someone can tell me what's going on. for some reason i just can't get it out of my head and it's driving me nuts.