One of many recurring, yet different, dreams about my ex. :( Needing some help here.
I have been having dreams of my ex for about 3 weeks now.
Refer to my post ".......this is getting outta control" for more details.
Anyways, last night, I had a dream that I was with my ex boyfriend in his dad's big, red pick up. In this dream, I'm driving the pickup and my ex is the passenger. We're at a gas station and as I'm getting ready to drive away from the gas station, I put the pickup in Drive and all of a sudden the pickup goes backwards as if it's in revers. The brakes won't work and I end up lightly backing into the gas station before the brakes start working right. Then, the attendant comes out and says that he's going to get someone to take care of it, so when he goes inside I put the car in reverse and we go forward. As I'm darting out of the gas station, I drive through this little ditch thing and get on the road then head out on the interstate. While on the interstate, I'm still driving and reaching over and rubbing my ex's arm and back and we're holding hands and sneaking in kisses every once in a while. Then, all of a sudden we end up at this place that's very snowy and icy. We're driving through this like work zone (still icy and snowy) and the brakes start to act up again and I can't slow down or stop and almost end up running into a tractor thing before they work again. So we get out of the pickup and decide to walk up the mountain. For some reason we have these like pogo stick things helping us get up the mountain. My ex is really far ahead of me up the mountain and I keep slipping down and I'm just having a horrible time getting to the top. Then, my pogo stick thing slips out from under me and I watch as it falls and hits the ground. When I look up to go forward, my ex is up the mountain already and I can't see him anywhere. It takes me a while, but when I finally get to the top of the mountain, I'm the only one up there and he's nowhere in sight. Then I wake up.
Also in my dream I had this very real feeling that he was hiding something from me. I remember telling him (still in my dream) while we were driving that we needed to take more pictures together because we hardly had any and at that time pictures of him and his new girlfriend (the girl he was cheating on me with) flash through my head in my dream. They're pictures that actually exist in real life. Then he gets this strange face and says, "Yeah," in a very uncertain voice. At that point I get this verrrryyyy real feeling in my stomach and chest and head that he's actually not done with his girlfriend and that he's hiding me from her. Almost as if I'm the other woman.
This feeling was so real and it lasted throughout my entire dream. I woke up and almost threw up. I wanted to cry and I felt very nervous.
I need help trying to decipher what all of this means and if there's any symbolism in this dream.
