A very short, suicidal dream that brought me peace? Help?
After school today I took a nap and had the most intense, detailed dream...
Basically, the whole dream took place in my school. The entire time I was searching for my best friend just to be with her. I was really stressing out about this. She's the only person who makes me happy. However, every time I saw her in the hallways in my dream, she was with this boy she kinda likes... and I could never just find her by herself. Sometimes I lost her though.
When I lost her, I always wanted to cut through the courtyard to get to the other side of the building quicker. But outside in the courtyard it was lightning, and I knew that if I walked out there I would die instantly... so I just kept taking the long way I guess.
At one point in my dream, I saw her out in the courtyard by herself, and there was no lightning or anything. It was safe for me to go out.. so I did. As soon as I got to her though, she turned towards me and disappeared.
The very end of the dream I was with her and we were eating, but something felt off. We eat lunch together everyday but it felt weird. Then in seconds she died of the same disease my mom is currently dying from.
I woke up after I took my shoes off in my dream, and walked outside into the courtyard, into the lightning, and died.
When I woke up I felt so peaceful, I was almost sad that I was still alive. What's this dream mean?! I'm 18.