Numbers or stepping stones. not keeping up

When i was very young. probably around 4 or 5 i woke up around 11pm(within 15 minutes) every night, screaming and crying, for months. Its extremely hard to explain.
first example: Imagine 2 seperate numbers of the same number. They are both counting upward one at a time (21-21)(22-22)and so on. But imagine the number on the right (23-23) is counting faster then the one on the left = (24-25) (25-27) (26-29). next thing you know the numbers like this=(100-10000) And you get extreme anxiety from this.

second example: Imagine a single stepping stone in front of you. As you move your foot onto the stepping stone another one "appears". 10 steps later everything is fine when, BLAM! 2 stepping stones appear every time you step onto one. Its almost a feeling like you cant catch up. Next thing you know theres thousands of stones and you feel its impossible to catch up.

Ive wondered about this dream for years and i remember it almost 1-2 a month and go on a search to find the meaning but ive never thought to ask other people, instead i always read dream books but there was never anything relevant.

I was born with the middle name orion and the name was taken from the constellation and the song orion by metallica. Ive felt an odd conection to orion my entire life and often found myself looking to the stars in my times of need. My family is mainly christian, but i never believed in "one god". I believe that there are many, and i believe the followers of monotheistic religions are not mislead, they are exactly where they should be. I believe that different cultures have recognized the many vibrations of the universe, and simplified them into "gods". Each culture forming their "religion" around what seems right and appropriate to them. I still have yet to find my clarity in this matter, as it is impossible to find the truth. You only able to feel whats right. I believe this dream has great significance to my future. Ive seen many sights some would call impossible(no ufo's yet), but all the same. I believe we all have the power to shape the world, galaxy, and universe. And the first step is recognizing it.

well thats a little about me..
please help me find clarity in this matter.

Dreams from this young age can tend to point out an issue that the individual may need to watch out for as they age. The “little about me” facts you have provided seem to add merit to this idea.

First example: As this example is one featuring numbers, it pertains to the issue of logic. Because you begin with a similar number on both the left and the right side, it would indicate looking at the issue of logic as it pertains to the right side (God’s side) and to the left side (the side of incorrectness/Satan’s side). Because the numbers are counting upwards consecutively, they indicate logic that can put you in a gaining or winning position. But – the main point here is that the logic that pertains to God’s side (the right side) puts you into a gaining position much faster than that on the left/Satan’s side. The end result appears vastly different. (100- 10000)

As you were waking up at about 11pm, it implies that when you came to a greater state of awareness at a time governed by the idea of peace and harmony (#11), this first example created great anxiety. (Note the number 11 consists of a 1 on the left and a 1 on the right – a perfect balance) Your end result of 100 to 10000 is very unbalanced provoking anxiety.

Second example: As a new stepping stone appears each time you take a step, theses stones could be simply emphasizing the idea of steps or procedures you are taking by which to make progress (as you are moving forward). A stepping stone by definition would refer to some circumstance that assists progress. As long as you take “one” step at a time, your steps, procedures or circumstances assisting you would appear to be positive or good. In addition, where anything is done using a step by step procedure, it implies using a logical procedure. But, even though the steps, procedures or circumstances assisting you appear to be positive/good as well as logical, it becomes obvious that such positive steps are not going to take you to your destination (as one step is always added for each one taken). While your logic/reasoning seems positive, it is not getting you anywhere. steps, procedures or circumstances assisting you

The problem here is that when you come to the point where you see that you have taken 10 steps – which signify “a completion/an end – your mind can no longer see the steps taken as positive but rather as negative (because now 2 steps more appear for every step you take). [The “completion” here could refer to your final conclusions which follow from your step by step reasoning. {Personally I would see this applying especially to your association with Orion and religious beliefs. Note how you conveniently provided these details about yourself when posting these dreams.}When 2 steps are added, you would have to see yourself actually no longer literally following a “step by step process”; negative logic is not really logic at all. At this point you are really not going to get anywhere and there is real cause for anxiety.

[Concerning Orion, you seem to be overlooking the fact that Orion is your middle name not your first name. A first name suggests your function or purpose in life. The second name is a function you could give second thoughts to. If you find yourself looking to the stars in times of need – I assume for guidance – it might be worth noting that you seeking guidance from a light or source of intelligence that Scripture refers to as “the light that is but darkness” (because you are still left standing in the dark of the night). Many religions do have many “gods” but the fact remains that there is only one source of real light/life – the sun. Like all symbols, the sun conveys a meaning.]

These both sound like anxiety dreams to me.

The 1st one seems to represent a digital clock or counter. The minutes would be going a lot faster than hours.

The 2nd one seems to represent anxiety over losing your direction in life or not being able to keep up with where you think you're supposed to be.

By any chance do you suffer from compulsions? These sound to me like dreams of someone who is very anxious about 'time getting away from me' and 'losing my direction' or 'not being able to keep up'.