Please provide me your second opinions on this dream:
Just looking for some other perspectives here on this dream, from last night. The format may be a little confusing, I will be starting a thread right after this covering it.
June 18th
“Rude Awakening”
In the first part I go to sleep with the air conditioner on, it's fan to be precise. I had it where the dial said, “OK” in the middle bit I needed to turn it to the left to, “Off.” There were other words on the dial too. When I tuned it off I noticed a very loud fan in a (TV?) started to slow down its spinning, then sort f rattle to a stop. I turned off the AC in the morning. I was a little surprised to see it on, I thought I had turned it off. It almost feels like it should have been off, and I either feel guilty or angry it wasn't. I think it was after mom woke me up to go to town. There was a map, hanging on a wall or something. Showed a route, filled in with a thick black line. Somewhere I wanted to go. Was going to bike but too far. Some sort of LCD readout or something, numbers went down to 35, may have said 37 before. It could refer to miles. The route is on a map of city streets or something. It looks like a box with thick lines going up on the right, possible over to the left and back down. Normal street line underneath I think. As I look at it I suddenly realize (this is where that readout comes into play) that I could go two ways and it would be roughly the same distance. I think my location is marked out under the bottom left corner of the box, and where I want to go is the top right, something like that. There's something I want to get. We end up in the car, for some reason I try to crowd into the front seat with everyone and am disappointed when they don't leave me any room, so I have to go into the back seat by myself. Brought my books and exercises with me, slightly anxious about doing them in public. It's daytime, early morning I think. I sit over on the right side of the car at first then go over to the left, placing my books and stuff on the opposite side each time. Something about Jason's place, seeing a door with the padlock open and set into the locking hasp (hinge on one side, slot in a long metal part on the the, slot goes over a metal hoop set into the door.) The door is small, yellow I think, with peeling paint. I'm looking down at it and that's all I see, don't know where that is. The only other thing I remember is telling mom, dad, or both that I wished they had told me we were going so I could have got up and hour earlier and done my practice or exercises. Not sure the exact word I used here. I think this is conflicting with my secret gratitude that I didn't have to bike that long route.
F.A.D.
Surprise (D), Frustrated (D), Disappointed (D), Anxious (D), Upset (D)
F.A.
Air Conditioner Dial: Not sure what this means, don't feel that the AC unit itself means anything. But turning the dial from OK to OFF definitely means something. I'm setting something, changing something, to where I wanted it from where I left it. So what is it I want to turn off, that I thought was off? The noisy fan in the TV or whatever it is may be the clue.
Noisy Fan: The fan was being moved by the air coming from the air conditioner. In this regard the AC unit may represent something, some external force pushing or controlling something else. When I turned the AC off the noisy fan slowly stopped rotating, rattling to a stop as I recall as it did so. In any case it seems setting the one thing to off turns off something else.
The Map: This one could be too obvious, easy to miss the true meaning. I know I am at a point in my life that I am not sure what course of action to take. The map could represent two possible choices, both roughly the same distance, from different directions, to my goal. It seems to represent two things, where I am and where I want to go. Where I want to go is the the furthest away it can be from where I am along the two possible routes. Finally the relief I feel about my parents driving me, so I don't have to bike there, this speaks I think of me depending too much on them. Despite how hard either route may be, I need to do it myself. The route is depicted in a box, but I remember one thick black line was just a little short to make it a perfect square. I had the urge to lengthen it to make it a perfect square. Not sure what that could mean. It seems to me that looking at the map it was as if I was calculating two routes to my brother's place, and both were further than I wanted to bicycle.
Front Seat and Back Seat: I think this is what the seat part means. I think the car represents my going wherever it is I'm going, and the front seat represents me doing so depending on my parents, my family. I had to get into the back seat and be by myself. Not sure what switching from one side to the other may mean. I think we're headed to my brothers house.
The Bag: The bundle of books or bag possible represents my knowledge, the things I'm learning, what I have learned so far, whatever it is it's clear it should come with me.
The Number 35: To me, considering certain knowledge I recently received, and that I wrote about this in my blog last night before I went to bed, this number represents the maximum number of years I have left to live. The numbers flicker around a little, and this more than likely represents that the time of my death will variate based on my choices during these remaining years. If I have the meaning of these numbers correctly, then each route to where I want to go has, in lieu of miles, a certain number of years associated with it. I think once said 37, 35 is the last number I remember, but I think there may have also been a 10.
The Unlocked Door: OK so I see this image of a small, yellow door, padlock hanging there unlocked. I think there may be something inside I'm after. Could this represent where I want to go? But what could the padlock hanging open and unlocked mean? To me a padlock represents security, a way of locking something up, protection. You would put one a door to a space where you have something you want to protect, or perhaps a place where you don't want others to go. This latter definition feels right to me. So the door is to a place others don't want me to go, or where I don't want others to go. The first seems right to me. This is a place others don't want me to go. It's not locked to me for some reason. Still not sure what the door represents, or why its so small. Have the feeling it may depict how the door is hard to get through. This feels very strongly correct. The peeling paint may represent age.
Waning A Warning: So I am a little upset with my parents for not giving me a warning that we were going to my brother's place. I needed an hour for my practice. But I am also secretly glad that I don't have to bike there. Not sure what this means. Is my family suddenly going to go somewhere? Maybe this represents my family and I going separate ways? That feels right... Could it be that 37 and 35 represented possible years of my death, and this whole thing is about my death, explaining why I'm glad I don't have to bike anywhere? Could my death be this year? Or is this about my death in 10, 35, or 37 years?
R.C.
No, not as literally depicted, although the dream does represent my life.
P.T.
So this dream is possibly about my death. That I could have died 2 years ago, may die this year, or may die 10, 35 or 37 years from now depending on the route, the choice I make, for my life. I have two main choices or routes that will get me to my goal. My goal, whatever it is, is something that is perhaps normally locked to others, but it is unlocked to me. It's not easy to get through either. Whichever route I choose I have to go alone, taking only the things I have learned and and learning with me. Once again I am being told that I will have to leave home, which I intended to do anyway.
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