I always dream of rape what could this mean?

I always dream about rape but never have been raped though I was sexually abused many years. Any ideas?

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These dreams are wet dreams that I have nearly every night a couple of times a night. Usually I want to be raped I'm seeking out rape. Sometimes there scary like my dad or brother will rape me, other times there disturbing like with animals yet now I dont freak and just enjoy it with pets. Its like I feel close some how to my pet so the sex is great. With men its often no control, being forced mainly to give head, its like being frozen but enjoying it, with family its scary and I often run away though sometimes I rape them and its ok. Ive also raped males and females. females dont rape me. with them I feel safe though they do have sex with me. Ive also dreamed of children thankfully rarely. This has filled me with great shame and embarrasment. though with children they are usually more assisting in the rape or im the child myself.

A majourity of my dreams seem to be me seeking out new ways to be raped fantasy creatures etc. They also are alot to do with me finding new ways to have sex. I had a theory that since in waking life having sex as a female casually is looked down upon maybe thats why I do it so much in my dreams as a way to experiment and not be judged for it. Though that still doesnt explain the rape theme.

Have you ever discussed these dreams with a professional? Or your abuse?

yes I have spoken to a phsycologist about it. She seems to think the dreams were due to my abuse but I felt like it wasn't the answer I was looking for she has no idea of dream interpretation.