Complely Confused

Okay so here is the background to the person i had a dream about. I met him last March after a really bad break up, this guy was supposed to be a one night stand, rebound we talked about it an agreed to these conditions. He ended up calling me several more times after that we hung out and had fun together. Two weeks of that and he said that he ddn't want to see me anymore no explination as to why nothing, i said i was fine with that as per our previous agreement and i was. Two weeks after that he added me on facebook, we started talking again hanging out again, this got really confusing, i started to develop feelings for him and this time around we hadn't discussed what we were doing. i asked him to take me out for my 21st birthday in may, he did and we had tons of fun, i stayed the night at his house but had to sneak out early the next morning, i sent him a text explaining myseld apologizing and thanking him for the wonderful night. He was fine with it and we continud talking. On facebook the second week in June, i did a 30 day challenge one was to write a letter to the last person i had kissed which was him, i wrote it he read it and asked me about it, e asked whether or not i had feelings for him. I told him i did, i told him that i liked him a lot and that i wanted us to be more, he told me he liked me too, he listed everything he liked about me and told me that he wished i told him sooner. then he told me that he thought i wasn't interested in him and he had started seeing someone else. I was devistated but we agreed to stay friends. He made a legitimate effort to stay my friend he would text me everyday call me all the time and we even made a superhero together. well one day in september he stopped texting me, he deleted me off facebook and what not i asked him about it and he said that our friendship made his girlfriend inseure especially becase we had slept together, that he had to choose and he picked her. i said i understood and we didn't talk again after that until December, his birthday is december 5th and i decided to text him that i missed him and happy birthday. just a simple text to let him know i still cared.we stopped talking again immediately it was just a birthday text and a thank you. Then in February i was at a bar shooting pool with some friends, he happend to be at the same bar, he was accross the bar i would have never noticed he was there. He went out of his way to comesay hi to me, i don't even know how he noticed i was there but he did. he came over while i was making a shot and failed shot, i looked up there he was standing there my heart sank. i went over to give him a hug and we talked. WHen he walked away i burst into tears. I sent him a message on facebook and i told him that it was great to see him tha i missed him but i didn't think it as fair for him to come up and say anything to me if we couldn't be friends, or something more because i felt that i deserved more as he had seen me naked, he said that was fair and he didn't intend to bother me. of course though it devistated me. after that we haven't had any contact at all.

Now for my dream

I'm at LAX (i don't live in LA) i'm waiting there to board my plane when suddenly a feel a tap on my shoulder i turn around to see him standing there. immediately i feel a sense of anger and frustration, but i am cordial he asks me what i'm doing i tell him i'm flying home he is too, we look atone anothers ticket we are on the same flight and sitting next to each other. we are talking to each other and he tells me he has missed me. I tell him that i missed him too, my feeling change from anger to sadness. we began to board the plane i look frantically for my passport because they are checking them at the gate, i find my passport and he is giggling at me like he always did, i ask him what? he says nothing you just haven't changed. we board the plane we are sitting next to each other and he grabs my hand, i become furiously angry and i start to yell at him. I say " what's wrong with you, you have a girlfriend you picked her why?" he looks at me shocked and sad and says "i wish i haad picked you, i'm sorry" he looks away we sit silently and i ask him why he didn't "he said he had already commited to her and we werejust a fling and he didn't want to hurt her but didn't know what he had done to me. i start to cry, he looks at me and kisses my tears, and he says don't do that, i love you. i look at him and i just kiss him on the lips and it feels right everything about him feels right. he says as soon as we land he will break up with her. we are fllying and the whole plane trip i feel so safe and comfortable with him my heart is happy and i'm content, i cuddle with him and kiss him and it feels like we are making up for all this lost time everything is perfect. we finally land, we get off the plane and i seem to lose him in a crowd, i'm looking for him but i can't find him. he just disappears and that's when i woke up.