Woke up Dying and Crying

I'm driving my car in my best friend's old neighborhood, and I park in front of his house. There's already a white car there, and someone in the back seat who needs to be comforted. I comfort him/her.
It's raining.

~Scene change~

I'm at school, I need to get something administrative approved, like to pick up my jacket
but they need something, some stupid verification or something
and i'm like, FUCK i have cancer, is that not enough?
I'm struggling to get across the school to give things to friends since I'm dying, and I watch people happy with their own lives and own drama
I give a small crystal heart that I own to my friend Robert. The heart has "music on it." Like a CD. Robert has a lot of CDs.

~Scene change~

My dad is driving me somewhere, like he did when I was a kid
He says I won't be able to see him as a professor who when the students ask him what the homework is, he doesn't assign any
because of how it stresses kids out, leads to them getting cancer. I explode into tears in the dream.

I wake up bawling. :crying:

*Note: This is what dreammoods.com says about
Cancer: To dream that you have cancer denotes hopelessness, grief, self-pity, and unforgiveness. You feel you are wasting your life away. This dream also represents areas in your life which are bothering you, disturbing you, and hurting you in some emotional way. An emotional issue is eating away at you.

Crying: To wake up crying represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

Some dream can really have impact on our emotions, sometimes even for couple of days after the dream. it may or may not have any meaning.

Is there something in your life that makes you upset?

You were reflecting on your past with best friend. Go direct to him, in your mind at least..
He's already got good.
But you are in the back seat, who needs comfort in your misery. So you comfort you.

~Scene change~ = A different time or mind yet connected to this.

You learnt you feel you have to get approval for the smallest thing from your friend. In other words, it seems anything you do is useless.
A broken friendship eating away at you isn't enough to cure it.
You want it to be a given you can get back with your friend, since it's killing you, as you watch others who are happy with their lives.
You give your heart - transparent or seethrough - to your friend. You are not holding anything back or obscuring anything.
And it has a lot of what you shared or gave to him.

~Scene change~

You revert to depending on your dad or getting help from him.
But you can't learn from him when you need to learn from you how to cure what stresses you out, eats away at you, makes you sad.


*Note: This is what dreammoods.com should say about:

Cancer: What is eating away at you.
Crying: What makes you sad.